Three Arched Bridge (16 page)

Unconsciously I had reached the bridge's first arch, where the immured man was, The moon illuminated him shockingly, and for a long time I stood there stunned, my gaze fixed on his plaster eyes, I was cold, as if he were conveying to me the iciness of the next world* “Murrash Zenebisha,” I said silently, (The thought that I was imitating mad Gjelosh, who once used to talk to the dead man like this, did not worry me in the least.) “Murrash Zenebisha,” 1 repeated, “You died before me, but will live after me, ….” I could not muster the strength to tear my gaze away from those quenched eyes, whose whiteness was becoming unendurable. Why had I come here? What did I want to tell him, and what did I expect of him? I should have run as fast as I could from the splashing of the moonlight and from that place of sacrifice, but my legs failed me. At any moment it seemed that the curtain of plaster would fall from the dead man's eyes, allowing his message to pass, I could almost understand that message. We two are very close, monk, his eyes seemed to say, Do you not feel it?

I did indeed feel it precisely, and as I moved backward without taking my eyes from him (for this seemed the only way to break away from him), I felt I should return to the presbytery as soon as I could to complete my chronicle. I should return as soon as possible and finish it, because times are black; soon night may fall, it will be too late for everything, and we may pay with our lives for writing such testimonies. This was the immured man's message. And this chronicle, like the bridge itself, may demand a sacrifice, and that sacrifice can be none other than myself,
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the monk Gjon, sonne of Gjorg Ukcama, who hath finyshed this knowynge that ther is no thynge wryttene in owre tonge about the Brigge of the Ufana e Keqe and the euil why che is upon us, and for the love of owre worlde
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Tirané, 1976-1978