Three Shirt Deal (2008) (26 page)

"Nada," she said. "It shouldn't have been left in that tow lot in the first place. It should have been in police impound."

We traded disparaging looks over the ineptitude of small town P
. D
.'s. "We have to find that car," I said.

"Yeah, but it was a cash transaction and with nobody talking and no paper trail, that's gonna be a long shot. Probably already being stripped for parts, so let's saddle up and get started." She picked up her purse.

"You weren't planning on starting tonight, were you?"

"No. But I've been sitting here thinking that you're looking very hot over there. Maybe we should go check out that little place we passed down the road. The Seaside Motel."

"Damn. Let me get the check," I said, fumbling for my wallet.

After I paid the bill, we made it to the motel in four minutes. I had my coat off before the room was unlocked. Alexa went directly into the bathroom and closed the door while I scurried around, snapping the faded curtains closed, dimming the lights, and finding a good music station on the clock radio, acting like a teenager about to get laid for the first time.

When Alexa didn't come out of the bathroom I walked to the door and knocked. "Everything okay?"

"No." I heard a sob.

I opened the door and found her seated on the edge of the tub, fully dressed, head in her hands, crying.

"Change of heart?"

"I just.. ."

"Come here," I said, holding my arms out for her.

We walked to the bed, sat down. I held her, then rubbed her tight shoulders.

"What's wrong with me?" She asked, her voice a little more than a whisper.

"You got shot in the head. It was bound to make a difference."

Alexa buried her face in my chest, and while I continued to rub her back, I slowly began to feel her relax and respond. Then she kissed me. It was our first real kiss in months.

"Oh, Shane, I do love you so much," she whispered.

During the next half-hour we followed through on her offer, but it wasn't much of an experience. In fact, it was remote and stiff. I didn't seem to know what to do with my hands. The clumsy left side of my body made the whole thing feel awkward. We coupled with difficulty. Alexa was not ready, but seemed strangely resigned. Resignation is my least favorite sexual response, so I stopped. Although I was inside her, neither one of us were enjoying it.

"Please, finish," she said, her voice on the edge of tears.

"Alexa, you have to want me as much as I want you."

"But what if I can't? What if that part of me is gone?"

"Then we'll just find a way to deal with it."

"Another girlfriend?"

"She was never a girlfriend," I said softly. "She was my partner, and now she's in ICU."

We lay on the bed, naked and cold. I cuddled her closer, and slowly she came to life, drawing me deeper inside her. My bad left hand fumbled like it belonged to someone else. I was trying to hold her close, but my energy was spent and my spirit low. Slowly, she started caressing me until I began finding pleasure. I hoped I was giving some back. I finally released inside her and we lay still for a moment engulfed in a sense of sexual failure. Alexa got up and went into the bathroom without speaking.

When she returned, she slipped under the covers, turned, and smiled at me. "Was it as good for you as it was for me?" she said, trying to make light of what had been a pretty dismal performance.

I looked over and saw the mischievous, reckless smile that, in the last week, I had come to fear. "I check to the high hand," I said cautiously.

"We always used to be great lovers, but we had a lot of practice. We're just out of practice, so we'll just have to get after that."

"Sounds good," I said.

"We'll keep trying and we'll get it all back, honey. I promise."

"Deal," I said softly.

We spent the night in the motel. It felt good to be out of the hospital, but as I fell asleep I reflected back on what had just happened. I started to feel disappointment, even shame that my sexual prowess failed to give my wife pleasure. I knew she had only made love to me out of a sense of marital obligation. But then I remembered the sexy gleam in her eye when she first suggested it across the table at our candlelight dinner and knew I was looking at it the wrong way. Whatever had just happened, it had at least been done for the right reasons. I closed my eyes and promised myself from now on, I had to keep my male ego out of the equation.

Sometimes I'm a complete jackass.

Chapter
37.

THE NEXT MORNING WHEN WE RETURNED TO THE HOSPITAL THE

doctors agreed to let me spend some time in Secada's room. I met with her father and mother for a moment before going inside.

"My daughter, we work for her college education," Hector said in halting English, his dark eyes burrowing holes in my self
-
esteem while her mother looked down at her Bible. "Many hours in fields, many nights in restaurants. She is the first in our family for degree."

"I know."

"Cal State University in Los Angeles," Hector said, still searching my face for a response. "She study criminology, graduated in top ten percent."

"Yes. She's very smart."

"In the police, she has many partners. Many jobs. This is first time for her to be hurt."

Facts issued as a challenge. What he was really saying was, "After all this, look what you let happen." I didn't have much of an argument because Secada was my partner and she'd gone down. I'd been unable to protect her.

Hector couldn't seem to find anything more he wanted to say to me.

I finally said, "I'm sorry I let this happen."

Hector gave no sign that he accepted my apology.

I was allowed into the room and sat in a chair beside the bed looking into Secada's eyes. She wore no makeup and her hair was tangled, but she was still beautiful. She had been watching my exchange with her father through the glass.

"I see you had a talk with Popi," she said, trying to smile. "He's a very basic man."

"I can see how much he and your mother care for you."

"Yes," she said, softly. "Sonrisas de me alma--the smiles of my soul. But you shouldn't feel bad if they don't understand. Popi sees things with ancient eyes. He has loyalties and values steeped in the traditions of the past." I waited, wondering what she was trying to tell me. "In our old hill town near Cuernavaca, we had a family of close friends who all looked after one another. I had many 'tios,' 'uncles' who treated me almost as a daughter. These families would give us things they couldn't afford if they thought we were in need. In good times, my father always did the same for them. The people in the mountain towns all had very deep loyalties to one another."

That triggered something in me, some idea. But it was gone before I could grab it.

As we talked, Secada was strangely distant, as if by her attitude, she could send me a message. She seemed determined that we would not repeat the personal mistakes of the last week.

"Alexa came to see me," she said, deliberately bringing my wife into the conversation. "The chief, too. Alexa has been back to talk to me three times. She seems very interested in the Hickman case. She's asking a lot of good questions. She's a little different than I thought. Nothing like I imagined."

I didn't respond to that, but said instead, "Alexa agrees with us that the case against Tru was bad due process," I said. "She and I are going to keep working it together."

"She can take over for me," Secada said. "This is good."

"It was your idea."

A small smile appeared, but was quickly gone. "She's intelligent and very beautiful, your Alexa. But she is impulsive. Don't get yourself in more trouble."

The remark had the flavor of a warning as well as a farewell. We looked at each other and I could see that whatever we had once felt, it would never be discussed again. Somehow that was a huge relief.

"I'm leaving here today," I said. "Alexa and I are going back to L
. A
to pick up the loose ends."

"I will pray for only good things to happen," she said.

The nurse entered the room and beckoned for me to leave. I leaned down and brushed my lips on Secada's forehead. As I stood up, I saw tears glistening in her eyes.

Chapter
38.

ALEXA WAS TAKING LUTHER'S MEDICATION FOR HER CONVULsions, and I was not yet one hundred percent, so she drove as we headed back to Los Angeles. Along the way, I thought again about what Secada told me about the mountain people in the towns of Mexico. Suddenly, the idea that had escaped me in her hospital room fell right in my lap.

We stopped for gas about forty miles out of L
. A
. and while Alexa was in the bathroom, I called Walter Finn. He was a source I'd been saving inside the Records Division who owed me a favor. I asked him for two deep backgrounders.

"Sure," he said. "Gimme your case number." That started a short discussion and negotiation because, of course, I didn't have one. The LAPD had new strict policies forbidding unauthorized record checks. Before Alexa was shot, she had actually been the one who'd instituted these new rules in the wake of a recent scandal where it was alleged in the L
. A
. Times that cops were selling files from the Records Division to a Hollywood private detective, which he was then using to extort huge divorce settlements for his rich and famous clients.

Finn reminded me of Alexa's involvement in these new policy guidelines. He was trying to shrug me off. I asked him how his sister was doing. I'd taken care of a stalker problem for her. It was a low blow professionally to bring it up, but I needed the favor. He got quiet after that, so I begged. I promised never to ask him for another favor again. In the end, he came through. I was just putting my cell away when Alexa came out of the ladies room and got behind the wheel. We pulled back onto the 101 Freeway.

Twenty minutes later we crested the hills west of Thousand Oaks and dropped into the Valley. She glanced over and said, "That courtesy check I did on Ron Torgason came back this morning. Treasury faxed his topsheet over. You might want to check it out. It's in the folder."

I picked up our now well-used manila file. The fax bore the seal of Homeland Security. Torgason had retired from the U
. S
. Customs Service in 2003 as a GS-15 assigned to Special Ops out of D
. C
. I scanned down through the list of cases he'd worked on and found that he had been part of the very controversial, but effective, Operation Casablanca, back in the nineties.

I knew all about that case because it had been run by Bill Gately, a friend and a now-retired U
. S
. Customs ASAC. Gately had figured out that several large Mexican banks were laundering Colombian narco-dollars from their U
. S
. drug operations by using bank-to-bank wire transfers. He proceeded to organize a covert sting inside Mexico, using Spanish-speaking Customs agents who pretended to be Columbian drug dealers. Operation Casablanca had finally netted over thirty corrupt Mexican bankers and set off a screaming match over territorial integrity on the floor of the United Nations between then U
. S
. President Clinton and President Zedeho of Mexico.

"You see he worked Operation Casablanca?" Alexa said and I nodded. "He had to have been cool before he went to Promo Safe, or Gately wouldn't have used him."

"Kinda makes you wonder how Church and Wyatt managed to turn him," I said, still reading the report. "Says here his last address in on Valley Spring Drive, Thousand Oaks. That's only a few miles from where we are right now. Want to swing by and ask him?"

"Thought you'd never ask," she said, a mischievous smile playing at the corners of her mouth.

Alexa exited the freeway at Westlake Boulevard, and ten minutes later we were on a street lined on both sides with middle
-
income homes. A lot of retired cops lived out in the far West Valley because the houses were nice and priced in a range that allowed law enforcement officers on twenty-year pensions to afford them. The houses in this development looked to be no more than ten years old. We turned onto Torgason's block, which was in a white-picket-fence neighborhood, nestled up against the low hills. After a short search, we pulled to the curb in front of his address, and found a neatly cared for, yellow-and-white, two-story faux Georgian house with shutters and a wide front porch. The lawn looked freshly mown and there was a big Century 21 real estate sign hanging from a white post driven into the center of the yard.

"For sale," I said. The house had a vacant look.

We got out of the car and were met by a gust of warm desert air that was blowing across the Valley, bringing a low level of hazy, brown pollution with it. We walked up to the front door and rang the bell. Nobody answered. Alexa stayed on the front porch while I walked around back.

A wrought-iron fence protected a nicely landscaped backyard and kidney shaped pool. As I looked around, something fluttered at the corner of my vision. I turned and spotted a little, two-inch
-
long piece of faded yellow ribbon snapping in the brisk wind. It was tied to the fence near the garage. I didn't have to look twice to know it was a remnant of police crime scene tape. I'd strung miles of this stuff over the years.