To Have and to Hold

REAWAKENING

Nothing ever rattled Madeline...nothing, that is until she met her mysterious new neighbor. Cal, an older man, arrogant and dangerously handsome, managed to turn Madeline's well-ordered world upside down. At first she despised him, but then was shocked to discover that he was the first person she could love since the tragic death of her fiance. But was Cal the man he seemed to be? Had Madeline's love been reawakened by a lie?

A RUDE AWAKENING....

He leaned forward, and she felt his lips press slowly, warmly, fiercely against her forehead, his hands coming forward to hold her shoulders in a vice-like grip. Did I go too far with you tonight; is that it? Or did I make you wake up and see that you great love affair was as lukewarm as a baby's milk?" he growled.

"That's unfair!"

"No it isn't, he held her away and looked down into her mutinous eyes. "Or don't you remember who called a halt when we were on the couch?"

Her lower lip trembled. "You brute!"

"I'm that all right. My God, I must have been out of my mind tonight," he breathed roughly. "I never stooped to cradle robbing before."

"I'm not a child!" All the anger went out of her, all the love she was trying so hard to submerge came back with killing force. She reached up and touched his dark hair, which in the moonlight seemed to have more silver than usual. "And you're not an old man, for all your best attempts to convince me you are....

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As she pulled into the long driveway of the suburban house her aunt had willed her, she glanced next door and saw that the workmen were still busy on the patio and swimming pool which were being added to it. The familiar red Jaguar and the familiar blonde, however, were missing. There was a very sedate black Mercedes in the driveway.

The blonde had been a landmark to the neighbors for two years or more. Why a woman of such obvious wealth chose to make her home in this middle-class neighborhood was the subject of much speculation. She never mixed with the neighbors or had anything at all to do with them. Probably, Madeline thought, she was simply too busy for it—which was a kinder sentiment than most of the other residents aired. The majority's opinion was that she was some rich man's mistress. Of course, there were rarely any visitors who stayed overnight; and even then, the cars were always different, and, Madeline told herself, nobody, not even the super rich came in a new and different luxury car every time.

Dismissing the puzzle, she parked her small economy car under the carport, locked it, and went into the comfortable split-level house that had been the last home of her aunt and uncle. It was really a bigger house than she needed, but it had been home for a number of years now, and she liked the seclusion of the nearby woods, the little stream that ran through the property, and the garden spot to grow things in. Besides, it was a pleasant neighborhood with pleasant people who, thank God, minded their own business and left each other alone. Madeline liked the privacy of it. The tall hedge between her and the blonde was as good as a stone wall, and there was nothing but a small forest of fruit trees on the other side of the house. Trees in the yard sheltered her from the road. It was like a country home although it was just minutes from the sprawling office complex where she worked. And she loved it.

As she walked into the living room, with its clutter of patchwork cushions and earth colors in the furnishings, she saw Sultana stretched lazily on the brown upholstery of the couch, where she had no business being. With a laugh, Madeline swept the lean, long Siamese cat up in her arms.

"You bad cat," she chided, watching the crossed blue eyes stare unblinkingly back at her from the smoky gray face in startling contrast to the snowy white that surrounded her points. "You know you don't belong on the couch. Come here and I'll feed you."

She put the young feline on the floor, and Sultana followed her into the kitchen chattering noisely in a voice that sounded like a cross between a squalling baby and a Model-T Ford that couldn't quite crank.

"Noisy, aren't you?" Madeline laughed. "I don't know why I bother talking to you, Cabbage, when I don't speak Siamese any better than you understand English."

Sultana was the name on the cat's papers, but Cabbage she had become when she ate a chunk of it that Madeline was shredding for slaw. She'd read somewhere about cats having three names—one for special occasions, one for everyday, and one that was secret. It seemed to be true. The secret one was probably only to Sultana, too.

Sultana Cabbage made a loud remark as she settled down in front of her bowl. Madeline left her there and went to change clothes, still vaguely curious about that third name.

Minutes later, in a pair of beige slacks with a beige and white cotton knit blouse, she started a fire in the charcoal grill in the back yard. It was early summer, and the afternoons were warm and pleasant. Madeline loved to eat out on the picnic table and listen to the crickets and June bugs harmonizing in the woods. Especially after a day like today.

She pulled a thick steak from the refrigerator, slapped it on a platter and sliced an onion on top of it.

"I've been looking forward to this all day," she told Cabbage. "Sorry, girl, but it just isn't enough for both of us, and I'm not sharing it."

If cats could grimace, the Siamese did, and gave her what really looked like a I-hope-you-drop-it look.

Madeline went out the back door without paying much attention to her immediate surroundings. The fragrance of blooming shrubs and flowers was everywhere. The sun was low on the horizon, the skies were streaked with red and gold. It was, she sighed, such a beautiful afternoon. Her mind was on that beauty and that luscious steak she was about to cook, and she didn't think about company. That was why she hadn't noticed the large black Dobermann Pinscher who was walking slightly behind her, sniffing the air and licking his lips.

Seconds later, lying on her back in the grass, staring up into the sharp, white teeth that were grinding up her thick, red steak, it was impossible not to notice him any more. He was standing on her stomach with his front paws, and he felt like two bags of wet cement.

Her eyes like saucers, the fear making her mouth dry, she gasped up at him breathlessly, wondering if the steak was going to fill up such a large dog. She felt like a large slab of fresh meat, and it was all she could do to make noise come out of her throat.

"N—nice puppy," she choked in a loud whisper, as the wolfed down the last tidbit of steak and licked his jowls noisely. "Oh, nnnnice p—puppy! Wouldn't you like to go run it off now, puppy, hmmmm?" she managed.

"Puppy? My God, are you blind?" came a rough, decidedly masculine voice from above her head. "Suleiman, down, you damned glutton! Down!"

The note of no-nonsense authority in that deep, impatient voice moved the dog immediately. Even Madeline responded to it, getting to her feet with a speed and grace that were a credit to her ballet training.

"Are you hurt?" the voice demanded in a tone that said she'd better not be.

She looked into the face that went with the voice and felt as if she'd been slammed in the stomach with a mallet.

She was five foot seven in her stocking feet, but he still dwarfed her. His leonine face was hard and uncompromising and was topped by waving dark hair threaded with silver. He had to be close to forty, but there was not an ounce of flab on that athlete's body. He was all muscle, from the powerful legs in dark slacks to the massive chest and shoulders encased in a spotless white shirt. He was watching her through slitted eyes, eyes so deep-set and narrow she couldn't even tell their color.

"Will you answer me, damn it, or are you dumb as well?" he growled.

Her dark eyes flashed fire at him, and she pushed back her disheveled auburn hair with a hand that trembled despite her attempt at poise.

"The only dumb thing I did," she said in a voice like a straight razor, "was walk out that door unarmed! Tomorrow, so help me, I'll bring a shotgun!"

Something glittered in those narrow eyes, although his face was as hard as a stone wall. He studied her as if she were new breed of animal, quietly, insolently.

"Well, that's the first time I've ever known Burgundy to pack a punch," he said, his eyes on her hair that was dancing with fiery lights in the late-afternoon glow. "I'm not used to women who fight instead of flirt."

She didn't doubt it. He was attractive, in a rugged, dark sort of way. But years older than men she was used to, and far too domineering.

"Are you and your horse," she indicated the dog, who was now sitting on his haunches at the man's feet, "visiting around here?" she asked hotly.

"In a sense," he replied. "Bess is in Europe and, I'm acting as caretaker until she gets back. My apartment's being redone."

"Bess?" The name didn't ring any bells.

"Bess," he said impatiently, gesturing toward the high hedge.

Oh, lord, the blonde! A friend of his, no doubt, and judging by the wear on the clothes he had on, he needed some friends. The collar of the shirt was slightly frayed.

Her eyes went to her own clothes. There were two massive pawprints on the once-white slacks. She glared at him. "May I express the sincere wish that her absence is short-lived?" she asked testily. "Now, if you don't mind, I'd like to get out of these clothes and finish what I started—my supper! Not that I had more than the one steak, but maybe I can find a moldy piece of bacon in the refrigerator!"

One dark eyebrow went up. "Is that a subtle hint that I owe you a meal?" he asked narrowly.

"It isn't subtle, and it isn't a hint," she fired back. "Your four-legged garbage can ate my steak!"

"If you didn't expect him to," he said, "why did you leave the gate in the hedge open so that he could come through it?"

Her eyes widened as if they meant to pop. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. "You think I left it open deliberately?" she gasped.

"Why not?" he returned, one big hand jammed in his pocket. His dark eyes studied her slender figure insolently, boldly with a practiced deliberation that made her blood riot in her veins. "But you're wasting your time," he added. "I like my women fuller around the...."

"How dare you?" she choked furiously.

He snapped his fingers, and the big dog immediately came to heel. "Kindly keep that gate closed in future and turn your attentions in some other direction. I've got all the women I need, and I don't like such obvious tactics."

"You...you..." she sought wildly for just the right word. "...Yankee"! she finished desperately, her face flushed, her hair and eyes wild.

"Me?" He shrugged. "I was raised in Miami." He started toward the gate. "I don't want to have to follow my dog over here again. Ever," he added with a cold flick of a glare.

Her fists clenched at her sides. "If you do," she replied harshly, "wear armor!"

But he wasn't even listening; his broad back insolent and uncaring was turned to her. With a muffled cry of anger, she turned and marched back into the house, slamming the door behind her with all her might. Her only comfort was that her co-workers couldn't see her. The unflappable Miss Blainn was definitely flapped.