Touching Melody (A Forever First Novel) (9 page)

He chuckles again. “You’re new to all of this, aren’t you?” His eyes roam around the room.

“It is that obvious?” My words are slurred.

“Come on,” he says, wrapping an arm around my waist. My mind tries to panic.
This is not a good idea
, it screams. I ignore it. My body wants to be near Kyle. Touch him. Caress him.

11

Kyle

She’s As Broken As I Am

Maddie is so drunk I have to carry her to my Jeep.
She keeps touching me, mumbling incoherently.

If I didn’t care about her, I’d be com
pletely turned on. Which makes no sense, but that’s the truth.

I buckle her in and drive. Her dress is hiked up to her hips, revealing way too much.
Or not enough. I try to be respectful, but the girl is stunning. Every magnificent inch of her.

“Where are you taking me?” she mutters, her head flopping from side to side.

“My place,” I answer, and put a hand in hers.

She tightens her fingers around mine, places her other hand on top.
“I’ve missed you Kyle. I’ve missed home. I miss my mom and dad. Member when I was going to marry you?”

The last part makes no sense.
Marry me? I don’t recall that conversation. But the idea that she ever considered her and me together in that way does something to my insides. I’ll be damned if I don’t melt a little.

“Shot. Blood everywhere.” Tears fall to her cheeks
as she gabbles.

“I’m so sorry
.” I can’t even feel sorry for myself, or mad at her for the way she’s completely ignored me the last seven years. There’s so much pain rolling off her I can feel it as if it were my own. And I realize she’s as broken as I am.

She laughs, and I’m s
urprised until I understand why. There’s a guy standing on the curb, peeing into the street. “Gross,” she says.

I chuckle. “
Hold tight.” I place my arm across her body, protecting her. Make a right and pull into my apartment complex.

“You live here?” she asks when I open the door on her side.

“Yep.” I unbuckle her and she falls against me, her cheek on my chest.

“
You smell good. Mmmmmm. Kyle. Kyle. Kyle.” Her voice breaks, and I realize she’s crying again. “Why?”

“Can you walk?” I ask, clearing my thro
at. I haven’t shed a tear since my dad died, and even then it was out of relief. A little sadness too, for what could’ve been. But seeing her cry, recognizing all of the sadness in her, is choking me up.

Maddie wraps her arms around my neck. “I left without saying good-bye. I shouldn’t have done that. But you stopped calling.”

I want to tell her my dad made me. Instead I lift her into my arms. “Hang on.”

She weighs next to nothing. Her body settles into my arms.
Her head lying against my shoulder. She snuggles her face into my neck, and I feel the wetness of her tears. Every ounce of resentment I still harbored vanishes.

My apartment is at the top of the stairs. When I reach the landing I set her down so I can unlock the door.
She keeps her arms around my neck.

Evan walks out of his apartment
, a cigarette in one hand and a beer in the other. “Looks like you got your hands full, bro. Want some help?”

“Nah, it’s all good.” I lift Maddie into my arms and carry her into my apartment, shutting the door with my foot. At least I think it’s going to shut.

“What’s her name?” Evan asks from behind.

“It’s Maddie,” I say, annoyed that he’s followed me in.

“The bitch will break your heart all over again. I thought you were going to blow her off.”

“Get out,” I growl,
annoyed. Maddie takes a deep breath and sighs; her lips press against my neck. There are so many things I want to do to her right now. Instead I carry her into my room and lay her on my bed.

“Whoa, she tramped it up tonight. No m
ore Pudgy Mudgy, huh? Look at those legs. And that ass. ” He drops the butt of his cigarette into his beer bottle. His eyes rake over Maddie’s body.

“I’
ve asked you nicely once. Don’t make me ask again.” I walk out of my room and into the kitchen. Grab a beer. Twist off the top. Evan follows me. Sets his empty bottle on the counter and grabs himself a new one from my fridge. He’s shorter and less broad than I am. He’s also a senior and a two-time kickboxing champion. I push him toward the door. “Move.”

Evan
lifts an eyebrow, daring me to challenge him. “You gonna break your hand on my face again, cousin?”

“If I have to,” I say
, thinking about the last time we fought. It was in the ring, right after my dad died. Sure, I broke my hand, but I also broke his nose. He may have two championship trophies, but I have three. “Leave.”

Evan smirks. “I don’t think so. This is too much fun.”
He takes a pull on his beer.

I
swear silently and try another tactic. “Look, man. I want to be alone with her.” I smile, letting him believe I have less than honorable intentions. “We have a lot of catching up to do, if you know what I mean.”

He smacks me on the arm. “Why didn’t you say
that in the first place?” He peeks around my shoulder. “Damn, she’s fine. Mind if I have a turn when you’re through?”

It takes every o
unce of self-discipline I own not to haul off and kick his ass. But I want him gone. “We’ll see,” I respond.

He ruffles my hair. “Have fun, little bro. Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.”

I snort and smack his hand away. “Oh, I’m sure I will.” I walk him to the front door.

When it’s closed
, I lock it. “Asshole.” I can’t help but smile though. Since my father died he’s treated me more like a brother than a cousin. But Evan’s got no respect for women—for anyone, really. Most of the time I go along with his idiotic plans.

With Maddie, it’s different. It always has been
.  

12

Maddie

We Made a Pact

I’m not sure how we get to his room. My vision is blurry. I think four Jell-O shots were two to
o many. My stomach is in knots, rebelling against the sugar and the alcohol swimming inside. A moan escapes my throat.

“
How you feeling?”

My head snaps in his direction. “Kyle,” I whisper. The room spins, and he helps me sit
up.

“Give me your feet, I’ll help you with your shoes.” His voice is tender.
Smooth, like chinchilla fur, and I think about petting him.

Instead I focus. He wants to help me take off my shoes. And I realize my feet
are killing me. There are probably a thousand blisters. “Please.” I lay down. The pillow smells like him. It’s earthy, manly, with a hint of vanilla. I take a deep breath through my nose.

He unhooks my shoes, slips them off. “These are deadly.” He chuckles.

“They’re Gina’s.” I close my eyes, but the blackness spins faster. “Whoa.”

“Hang on.”

I hear him move away, and I miss him. Water runs in the background. He returns quickly.

My eyes peel open. “You’re back.” My hand
s find his arms. He helps me up.

“Take these.” He hands me a plastic cup and two white pills.

“What are they?” I try to gauge his facial expressions. “You aren’t trying to drug me, are you?”

He kneels so I can see his face without looking up. “
I wouldn’t do that.”

I focus
on his eyes and sigh. They’re such a strange shade of blue. Like the way ice looks at sunset. “Why don’t you know who I am?” I slide off the bed, onto his knees.

He catches me, wraps his arms around my waist, and pulls me against him. My dress is around my waist but
I can’t make myself care to fix it. His body feels so good, and I promise myself that I’ll stay here forever.

Kyle shakes his head
. There’s something in his expression. Like he’s trying to make a decision. His movement spins my head on a merry-go-round.

“
It’s been too long.” He pushes some hair off my shoulder, sending tingles over my skin. His hands are so tender, and I can’t help but imagine them everywhere. Against my hip, dragging along my thighs.  

I shudder. “Kyle.” I close my eyes, tilting my face toward his. “Kiss me. I’ve waited so long.”

He inhales. Touches my lips with his fingers. “When I kiss you, I want you sober enough to remember it.”

“My first,” I say and giggle. “You’ll be my first. We made a pact.”

He lifts me onto the bed. I feel a blanket cover me, and I want to be sad. I’m no longer in his arms. But I can’t keep my eyes open. Too tired to be mad at myself.

This doesn’t seem very kinky
.
It’s more heavenly.

Kyle

My heart’
s pounding, and I’m at a loss. Maddie is here, in my bed. Her hair lies across her face like a silk scarf. Her hands are tucked under her cheek. She mentioned the pact we made. A long time ago. When we barely understood what we were promising each other.

“Why is my dad such an asshole?” I wipe angry tears off my face. Stare up at my boring white ceiling. Watch the light flicker. The bulb’s been about to die for weeks.

Maddie
shuts my window and plops next to me on my bed. “I watched him leave. He seemed… um, grouchy.”

I snor
t. Rub my jaw in the spot where my dad hit me. “That’s an understatement.” But that’s Maddie. Always kind. Always tries to see the best in people. Including me.

She pats my stomach
, and I tingle. Maddie has a way of making me feel better, no matter what’s happening. “I’m sorry, Kyle.”

“Yeah, me too.” I shrug.
Push the pillow behind my head into a ball and lean against it. “But what can I do?”

She rifles around in her bag
, pulls out an ice pack, and hands it to me.

I’m su
re shock is the expression plastered across my face. How does she always know exactly what I need? I press the cool pack against my jaw, and sigh. It feels good. “Thanks.”

“
Wanna listen to my new CD?”

I smile.
Because despite my ass-of-a-father, being around Maddie makes it impossible to be sad. “If it’s a song about bringing sexy back, Freckles, I swear I’ll snap it in half.” I laugh, and she smacks me on the arm with the case.

“Rude! I guess I’ll just put it away.” She goes to stuff it back in her bag, and I grab it
from her hands.

“The Fray?” I ask, looking at it while holding it above her head so she can’t reach it.

“Give it back.” She giggles. One of my favorite sounds.

I stand
on the bed, holding the CD out of her reach. She stands too. Tries to get it back. Her hands pulling on my arm as we jump. She trips in the covers and falls into me. We both go down, and she ends up on top of me. Our faces are inches apart.