“Save those fancy words for your lady friends.” Ms. Helen's thin cheeks blushed.
“You're breaking my heart, Ms. Helen.” Ean handed her his empty glass before opening her front door. “I'd better get cleaned up. Enjoy your day.”
“You do the same.” Her gaze drifted toward her window and his home again.
Ean paused on the porch to shove his feet back into his running shoes. He crossed the street and navigated the curving walkway that led to his mother's front door. After unpinning his key from his running jersey, Ean pushed it into the door's lock. He swung the front door wide, then froze in the threshold. Shock rattled him at the sight of his mother standing in the center of the living room, wrapped in a stranger's arms.
“Mom?” Ean's voice shot across the great room like a bullet before he realized he was going to speak.
Doreen jumped free of the romantic embrace and whirled toward her son. “Ean.”
Ean's attention jerked to the man beside his mother. Shock rocked him back on his heels. He caught his balance. “Coach?”
“Hello, Ean.” Leonard George's calm voice didn't belong in this tumultuous scene.
CHAPTER 3
Ean locked the front door, using the menial task to steady his mind. What was his mother doing in the arms of his former high school math teacher and football coach?
He leaned against the door and faced his parent. “What's going on?”
“Ean.” Doreen spoke haltingly. “Leo and I . . . are in a relationship.”
His gaze flew to his former coach as the man stood beside his mother on the other side of the family room's thick, dark pink sofa. He was older. But then, it had been more than fourteen years since he'd quarterbacked Coach George's football team at Heritage High School.
Ean's gaze challenged his mother to take back her words. “You've been dating Coach George?”
Leonard answered for her. “We've been seeing each other for some time now.”
“Please, Leo.” Doreen touched his shoulder. “Let me handle this. There's no need for you to be here.”
“I won't let you face this alone.” Leonard took her hand from his shoulder and held on to it.
Ean wanted to drag the other man away from his mother. He fisted his hands to control the impulse.
His coach couldn't be more different from his father. Whereas Paul Fever had been tall, lean and an introvert, Leonard George was average height, bulky and a clown.
“How long has this been going on?” Ean worked the words through his tense jaw.
Doreen held her son's eyes. “For a couple of months now.”
Months?
“Dad's only been gone a couple of months.”
His mother's features softened. “It's been a little longer than that, Ean.”
His father had died Friday, February 8. It was now Monday, October 14, less than nine months later.
Ean swallowed hard to dislodge the lump of grief from his throat. “Why didn't you tell me you'd started dating?”
Why hadn't you told me my father was dying?
Doreen's gaze dropped to the thick rose carpet. She seemed to brace herself before looking at Ean again. “I thought it was too soon to tell you about my relationship with Leo. And, since you were in New York, I didn't think there was a rush to address it.”
Was that also the reason she hadn't told him his father had cancer? Because he'd been in New York?
Ean struggled with his feelings, chief among them resentment. “My decision to return to Trinity Falls must have sent you into a panic.”
Why are you dating so soon after Dad's death? Why did you choose my former coach?
Ean's thoughts came to a skidding halt. He couldn't handle them. Maybe his mother was right about it being too soon to talk about this.
“We did want to tell you.” Leonard's voice further agitated Ean.
Doreen continued. “When you told me you were coming home, I wanted to tell you, but I didn't know how.”
“We weren't deliberately trying to hide anything from you,” Leonard added.
Ean's temper snapped. “This is a private conversation between my mother and me. I'd appreciate it if you'd stop talking.”
Leonard's eyebrows rose. “But thisâ”
Doreen put her hand on Leonard's shoulder again. “It's all right, Leo. I'll call you later.”
Ean held Leonard's gaze, willing his former coach to leave. He couldn't stand to see or hear the other man right now.
“All right.” Leonard kissed Doreen's hand before circling the sofa.
Ean flinched.
As he crossed to the front door, the high school coach inclined his head toward Ean. Ean didn't respond. He pulled the door open for the older man and waited for Leonard to walk through.
Ean locked the front door again before facing his mother. “What was he doing here so early?”
“He didn't spend the night, if that's what you're asking.” Doreen went to the kitchen. “He usually stops by on his way to school.”
Why didn't you look at me when you answered?
Ean followed his mother. “So if I'd stayed in New York, I still wouldn't know about you and Coach George?”
“Have you told me about every woman you've dated?”
“That's different.”
“How?”
“I'm not a grieving widow.”
Doreen poured a cup of coffee. “Don't judge me, Ean. I'm your mother, not some witness on the stand.”
“I'm not judging you.” He rubbed his eyes with a thumb and two fingers. “I'm trying to understand why you kept your relationship with Coach George a secret from me.”
“I didn't want to have this conversation.” She leaned back against the kitchen counter with her coffee mug in hand. “I didn't want you to make me feel guilty about my feelings. I didn't want you to see me differently.”
“But you are different, Mom.” Ean started to feel chilled in his damp jogging clothes. Or maybe it was from the awareness that his mother had changed. “I came home because I didn't want you to be lonely and sad with Dad gone. Obviously, I was worried for nothing.”
Ean spun on his heels. He left the kitchen to shower and change, but the question kept playing in his mind. What other secrets were left for him to discover in this town?
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Ean wasn't the only one awake in his mother's house at six o'clock the next morning. He followed the light from the foot of the stairway to the kitchen and discovered his mother sitting at the table. She was drinking coffee and reading the daily newspaper,
The Trinity Falls Monitor.
Doreen's still-dark hair swung in thick waves above her shoulders. She was dressed in a lightweight pinkish sweater and dark blue jeans. When had his mother started wearing jeans?
They'd settled into a brittle truce yesterday after their argument about Leonard George. He wasn't happy his mother had a boyfriendâhe wouldn't explain whyâbut he was hoping they could put the unpleasantness behind them and start over today.
Ean halted in the doorway. “Why are you up so early?”
Doreen's smile seemed forced. Her warm brown eyes were wary. “I have to get to work.”
Ean froze. “You have a job? Since when?”
She lowered the
Monitor.
“I told you I worked in a bakery. It's been almost six months now.”
Ean rested a shoulder against the doorjamb. “I thought all you did was bake.”
“It's a bit more than that.”
“How much more?”
She glanced at him, then looked away. “I run that section of the business.”
Ean processed that information. His mother had a boyfriend and a job. What other secrets would he have to pry from her?
He rubbed the nape of his neck. “I thought you only spent a couple of hours a week there. Why didn't you tell me it was a full-time job?”
Doreen folded the newspaper. “I didn't want to make a big deal out of it. I don't need the money. But this job is fun. And it gets me out of the house.”
“It's a big deal to me, Mom.” Just as his father's illness had been a big deal to him. But his mother hadn't told him about that, either. Not until it was too late. Ean shut off those thoughts. “Tell me about your job. Where's the bakery? What do you do?”
Her face glowed with pride and pleasure. “Megan added a bakery and meal counter to Head in the Clouds Books. She changed the name to Books and Bakery about six months ago.”
Ean frowned. “Megan? You mean little Meggie McCloud?”
Doreen sobered. “Don't call her that. She doesn't like that nickname.”
“Ramona called her that all the time.”
Doreen's expression didn't change. “Her name's Megan.”
“OK.” Ean shrugged. “How did you get the job there?”
Doreen's features brightened again. “Megan asked me to run the bakery. She said I could make a lot of money selling my cookies and brownies.”
Ean patted his stomach. “She's right.”
“Well, as I said, I don't need the money. But I'm having a lot of fun.” She stood and carried her coffee cup to the dishwasher. “I'm socializing again. And I've been experimenting with recipes.”
“I wish you'd told me the truth about your job, Mom.”
Doreen crossed to him. She cupped the right side of his face with her palm and kissed his left cheek. “You know now.” She stepped back. “I'll be home by four o'clock.”
“That late?” Ean struggled with disappointment. “I just got home. I'd hoped we could spend at least today together.”
“We can spend the evening together.” Doreen walked past him and continued out of the kitchen. She stopped to collect her purple purse from the dining room's corner table. “And I take Sundays and Mondays off. We'll have more time together then.”
“What should I do until you get home?” Ean trailed his mother to the coat closet. He sounded five years old.
“Finish unpacking. Get settled in. Look up your friends. You'll think of something.”
Ean looked down at his gray jersey and black running pants. They still were fresh and dry since he hadn't gone jogging yet. “Can I come with you?”
Doreen paused in the act of slipping into her coat. “What about your exercise?”
He didn't care that he sounded like a child. But he was concerned the chasm forming between them after yesterday's argument would grow if they spent today apart.
“I'll run later.” Ean settled his hands on his hips. “Do you serve breakfast?”
Doreen opened her mouth twice before words followed. “Yes. We serve breakfast, lunch and pastries.”
“Great.” Ean reached past his mother for his jacket. “I'll order breakfast and see where you work. Besides, it'll be good to see Megan again.”
His mother seemed flustered. “Well, all right. If you're sure that's what you want to do.”
He kissed her cheek. “Think of today as âBring Your Kid to Work Day.'”
CHAPTER 4
Ean took in the dark hardwood flooring and bright inviting wall displays of Books & Bakery. The store had changed a lot since he'd left Trinity Falls, but there was something very familiar about it. It was midway through October, and Halloween themes dominated. Special-interest tabletop displays and overstuffed red armchairs lured patrons deeper into the store, where they were hypnotized by the rows upon rows upon rows of bookcases.
Megan McCloud was born to run a bookstore. Literally. She and her cousin, Ramona, had inherited the store from their paternal grandparents, who'd inherited the establishment decades earlier from his father.
Doreen's excitement was tangible as she led Ean down the aisles. “With the money her grandparents left her, Megan has been able to modernize the store. It now has a Web presence so people can order books and specialty items online.”
“What about the money Mr. and Ms. McCloud left Ramona?” Ean looked around, fascinated by the new features cozying up to his childhood memories.
“Ramona used her inheritance to start her interior-design business.”
“I remember her telling me that.” Ean scanned the rows of bookcases made from the same dark wood that gleamed beneath his feet. Newly released titles were shelved beside perennial best sellers.
Everything was tidy and smelled of lemon wood polish. There was a rigid organization to the store that nevertheless contributed to the comfortable, inviting atmosphere.
“What types of specialty items has MeggieâMeganâstocked?”
“Mostly local artists' crafts, like framed artwork, greeting cards and jewelry.” Doreen swept her arm in a semicircle that encompassed the store.
Ean paused at the end of the aisle, riveted by a painting on display. “Is that Ms. Helen's work?”
“It certainly is.” Doreen beamed at the framed watercolor.
Ean scanned the glossy magazine covers as he followed Doreen past the periodicals. She led him toward the back of the bookstore, away from the comic-book stands lining the far left border between the store and the new café section. The display stirred memories. A vivid flashback of a heated debate between him, Quincy and Darius over who had the coolest superpower, Batman, Spider-Man or Superman? Twelve-year-old Megan McCloud, the self-appointed manager in training, warning him not to bend the pages of the comic book he was handling.
Ean trailed Doreen past the mystery and romance novels to the science-fiction and fantasy books. Some of the series lining those shelves had been stocked since his junior high years:
Star Wars, Star Trek, Battlestar Galactica.
He'd spent countless Saturday afternoons among those books. They never went out of style.
“This is it.” Doreen seemed nervous and excited as she made the announcement. She crossed the threshold into a modest white-and-silver kitchen lined with modern, industrial equipment.
“Very impressive.” He didn't know what he'd expected from his ex-girlfriend's awkward younger cousin. But it hadn't been this.
Ean circled the bright white-tiled kitchen floor. He pulled open the silver refrigerator door. It was well stocked with eggs, butter and other confectioner's needs. The cupboards were positioned within reach for his much shorter mother.
He imagined her adding ingredients to the electric mixer before transferring the bakery pans into the industrial-sized oven. He could even hear her humming to herself as she moved around the room, just as she did at home. All of the equipment looked clean and well cared for. The room was a baker's dream, one he hadn't realized his mother had.
“This all looks good. It has everything you need.”
Doreen frowned. “You sound surprised.”
Ean shoved his hands into the front pockets of his jogging pants. “I never knew this is what you wanted to do.”
“Neither did I.” His mother's voice was a whisper.
“When you said you worked in a bakery, I never realized you ran it, that you were the baker. Whenever I called, you talked about gardening, knitting and visiting with friends. But you never mentioned this. You never even mentioned Megan.”
“I didn't thinkâ”
“You didn't think it was a big deal. I know, Mom. But it is.” And it changed everything.
His mother had never before worked outside of the home. She didn't have to. As a financial executive with the investment firm headquartered in the neighboring town, his father had made enough money to take care of his family. That left his mother with plenty of time to spend on him. Ean's gaze swept the room and its many shiny appliances. It had replaced him as the focus of much, if not all, of his mother's attention.
Doreen hung up her coat and shrugged into her apron. “Just because I have a job doesn't mean I won't be able to spend time with you.”
Ean frowned. Had his mother read his mind?
“Is there anything I can do to help you?” Ean watched as she worked the room, gathering cooking utensils and ingredients with quick, practiced movements.
She spared him a smile from over her shoulder. “You know I don't like people helping me in the kitchen. It throws me off my rhythm. Just sit down and keep me company.”
The words drew a chuckle from Ean. His mother had been telling him the same thing since he was six. That's when he'd started offering to help with the baking, when all he'd really wanted was to lick the bowl.
He crossed to the corner of the kitchen and chose one of the two spindly honey wood chairs at the matching circular table. “That I can do.”
“Good. And you can also tell me the real reason you decided to quit your job and come home.”
Ean tensed. He hadn't expected that question, at least not this soon. He didn't know if he could answer. He opened his mouth to try, when they were interrupted.
“Who are you talking to?” The feminine voice was filled with laughter. It floated into the room just moments before its speaker.
Ean gingerly rose from the decorative chair and turned toward the threshold.
The woman was tall, perhaps five inches shorter than his own six-foot-three. Her warm honey skin glowed under the harsh lights of the industrial kitchen. Thick dark hair fell in waves to her shoulders. She had a runner's build, with long, slender limbs draped in a brown pantsuit. The suit's style was nice, though the color was less than flattering. A wide matching brown belt cinched her tight waist.
She carried herself with a grace and confidence that fascinated Ean. And when she turned her startled chocolate gaze toward him, everything in the room receded, except her and the drowning sensation crashing over him.
Without a word or a movement, she'd pinned him in place. His heart slammed against his chest, again and again and again. Her eyes seemed to target the farthest corners of his heart and soul, searching for his secrets. He had an irresistible urge to share them with her.
Who was this woman?
“Meggie?” The question croaked from his dry throat.
She gave him a long, slow blink. “Megan.”
He studied her features, looking for the skittish girl in this confident woman. “You've grown up.”
“So have you.” Her voice was somber, different but familiar.
She'd always been so serious. More often than not, her face had been buried in a book recently purchased from her grandparents' shop. Now Ean couldn't take his eyes from the delicate features once hidden behind those pages.
How long had it been since he'd last seen her? “The last time I saw you, you were about fourteen. I was leaving for college.”
“Actually, I'd attended your father's funeral in February. But it's understandable that you wouldn't remember.”
Stunned, Ean glanced at his mother. Doreen's nearly imperceptible nod made him feel worse. “Thank you for attending.”
Megan forced herself not to fidget. Making polite conversation with a childhood crush should rank as one of the top ten worst things an adult would ever have to do. Ean's olive green eyes locked with hers. The awkward fourteen-year-old who still lived inside her wanted to run and hide. The slightly-less-awkward twenty-eight-year-old she'd become stiffened her knees and held his gaze.
She took a calming breath. “I was sorry when your father died. He was one of my favorite people.”
Ean's eyes never wavered from hers. “I hadn't realized you'd known him that well.”
“He'd been my grandparents' financial advisor and then mine. But he was also a good neighbor. He looked out for me after my grandparents died. I miss him.”
“Thank you. So do I.” Ean looked away.
Had she said something wrong?
Megan turned to Doreen, who was blinking rapidly. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you.”
Doreen wiped her eyes with her fingertips. “No, dear. Don't mind us. You said exactly the right thing.”
“Mom's right.” Ean's voice was kind. “Thank you.”
“You're welcome.” The approval in his gaze went a long way toward relieving Megan's concerns.
He'd certainly grown up in the almost fourteen years since he'd left town. He now carried in spades the appeal he'd had as a young man, an appeal that had tempted and tortured the young Megan. Her eyes traced the chiseled features beneath his copper skin, the wide forehead and square jaw that warned strangers of his stubborn personality. Yet his full lips always seemed on the verge of a wicked smile.
His body also had matured from the lanky student-athlete who had quarterbacked the high school football team to a man who wasn't a stranger to a weight room.
Megan switched her gaze from Ean to Doreen. “I'm sorry to interrupt. I'll leave you to finish catching up.”
Doreen chuckled. “Did you think I was talking to myself?”
Megan gave her friend a crooked smile. “You would have thought the same.”
Ean took a step toward her. “You've done a great job with the bookstore. Your grandparents would be proud.”
Megan caught her breath. Doreen was the only other person who'd ever said those words to her. But Doreen was her friend; then again, Ramona was her cousin. However, she'd never given her such praise.
Megan swallowed the lump in her throat. “You said exactly the right thing.” She turned to leave.
Ean's voice stopped her again. “I have great memories of this store and your grandparents.”
Reluctantly, Megan turned back to him. “I never thanked you for the flowers you sent to their memorial service.” Ramona had, and Megan had convinced herself her cousin's response was enough.
“My mother told me about the changes you've made to modernize the store. You're a smart businesswoman.”
Megan thought she'd faint at Ean's feet. “I'd better get back to work. I have a lot to do before we open the store.”
She trembled as she escaped to her office. The store wouldn't open for another hour. She could have stayed to talk with Doreen. And Ean. No, she couldn't have. Megan collapsed into the blue executive chair behind her desk. Each minute in Ean's company had turned back time until she'd regressed to that fourteen-year-old girl confronted by her crush. His praise had taken her breath, and his olive eyes, focused just on her, had melted her insides.
Damn him.
Megan lowered her head into her hands. She couldn't handle many more encounters like those. But how could she avoid him in a town this small? Her friends were his friends. His mother worked for her. They were bound to see each other. Often. And if Ean and Ramona picked up where they'd left off? Knowing her cousin, Megan was sure Ramona would show him off to her as often as possible.
Family rivalry was hell.
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“The prodigal son returns to Trinity Falls.” Darius Knight's voice came from just behind Ean.
A smile stretched Ean's lips. He set his coffee mug on the counter and rose to greet his childhood friend. His smile broadened to a grin when he saw Quincy standing with Darius.
He shook both men's hands and patted their shoulders. “I needed a break from you jokers.”
Darius snorted. “Then you came running back when you realized you couldn't function without us.”
Ean stepped back to get a better look at the two men he hadn't seen in almost a year. Not since his father's funeral. He swallowed back that sad memory and focused on the pair's annual visits to New York.
He'd been thick as thieves with Darius and Quincy since their days in the Pee Wee Football League. Darius had been the team's prime-time tight end. Quincy had been its powerful running back. Now Darius was an intrepid reporter with the town's daily newspaper, though he looked like he belonged on the nightly news. Quincy still looked more like a football player than a university history professor.
“I heard it was the other way around.” Ean waved a hand between the two friends. “The two of you couldn't function without me.”
Darius shook his head in mock pity as he claimed a seat at the counter. “I'd check my sources if I were you, my friend.”
Ean chuckled. It was good to be home. He looked over his shoulder at Quincy. “How've you been, Quincy?”
“The same since we last spoke a month ago.” Quincy took a seat on the other side of Darius.
Ean's smile wavered at the other man's short tone. “I feel as though I've walked into a time warp. You both look the same.”
Darius's eyes twinkled with evil intent. “You look older.”
Ean broke into laughter. Darius hadn't changed. It was like being back on his front porch with his friends after school, sharing dreams and swapping insults.
Quincy shifted in his seat, staring down at the gray-and-whiteâmarble countertop. “I'm sorry the town seems so prosaic to you. Maybe you should have stayed in New York.”