Trouble on Her Doorstep (15 page)

Sean snuggled up next to her in the silence, the whole left side of his body pressed against her right side. Thigh to thigh, hip to hip and arm to arm.

She wanted to rest her head on his shoulder, and her whole body yearned to lean sideways against him for support, but she fought off the temptation.

She had to.

It was almost too much to bear when his fingers meshed with hers, locking them together in the dark.

Slowly, slowly, she found the strength to look up into the most amazing blue-grey eyes. In the bar they had been like clear, blue, fresh tropical seas, alluring, tempting and begging her to dive in. But now they were dark and stormy. Dangerous.

The warmth had been replaced with an intensity and concern that she had never seen before.

It was all there in the hard lines of his handsome face. The face that she had come to love so much over the past week or so, though she did not dare admit that to herself.

The planes of his face were brought into sharp contrast by the light from the room.

She had been so wrong to imagine that the son of Tom Beresford would have an easy office job handed down by his father.

Sean worked so very hard. And she admired him for that. But why now? Why did he have to go tonight?

‘What kind of emergency is it?’ she asked in a voice which was quaking a lot more than she wanted. ‘Not another flood, I hope.’

His lips parted and he took in a long, shuddering breath before replying in a low, hoarse voice which to her ears seemed heavy with regret and concern.

‘No; worse. Food poisoning. Rob thinks that it’s a norovirus, and he is already on site working with the authorities, but the hotel is closed and guests are on lockdown. And I really do not want to talk about kitchen detox at this precise moment.’

His fingers clenched around hers and Dee tried focusing on the flickering lights on the riverbank but she could sense every tiny movement of his body which made vision a little difficult.

Her eyes fluttered closed as he took a tighter hold of her fingers and stepped away and she instantly yearned to have his body next to her again. Instead he gently lifted her hand to his mouth and kissed the back of her knuckles, forcing her to look up into his face.

‘I wanted to be there tomorrow. To share your triumph. Because that is what it is going to be—a triumph.’

His head tilted slightly and one side of his mouth lifted up into a half-smile. ‘You are going to be amazing. I know it. And Prakash has promised me a full report with video and photos.’

‘Video?’ She spluttered. ‘That wasn’t on the list.’

His gaze was focused on her hair and he casually lifted a stray strand of her lop-sided fringe and popped it behind her ear in a gesture so tender and caring that she almost cried at the pleasure of it.

‘I ticked all of the optional extras on the checklist for you. Courtesy of the hotel management.’

‘Wow,’ she whispered and was rewarded with a quick nod of reply and a flash of a smile.

‘Sean?’ she asked in a quiet voice, and she closed the tiny gap between them. ‘How long are you going to be away in Chicago? A week? Two? Then you are going to be in Paris, right?’

‘I don’t know. Weeks, most likely. As for Paris? There is no way I can handle that now. My dad is going to take over the project and find another manager.’

Dee exhaled a long sigh of relief. ‘That’s great. So when are you coming back to London? I will have so much to tell you.’

His head dropped down so that his forehead was almost touching hers and she could feel the heat of his breath on her face.

So that there was nowhere for her to escape to when he formed the words that she had been dreading.

‘You don’t understand, Dee. Paris is cancelled. My next assignment is in Brazil for a couple of months and then back to Australia in the autumn. I’m not coming back to London.’

TWELVE

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From
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‘Not coming back?
Then I only want to know the answer to one question—and I don’t want to hear it over the phone or in an email. Don’t treat me like one of your managers. Talk to me. I want to hear your answer here and now. In person. To my face.’

She pressed both hands flat against his shirt so that the racing beat of his heart flittered up through her fingertips.

He was hurting just as much as she was.

‘Do you want to see me again, Sean? Because if you don’t it would be better if you told me now and be done with it, so that...’ She lifted her chin. ‘So that we can both get on with our lives.’

‘Do I want to be with you? Oh, Dee.’

His right hand came up and flicked his suit jacket onto a patio table, exposing her skin to the cold night air, and instantly she could feel her nipples pebble with alertness. His long fingers slid down the whole length of her body from her neck, down the treacherous front of her jacket to her hips and back again.

Without asking for permission or forgiveness he slipped his warm hand up inside her jacket and cupped her breast. His thumb moved over her nipple with the perfect amount of pressure to fire up every nerve in her body.

But Sean had found the perfect distraction, kissing her forehead, temple and throat with such exquisitely gentle kisses that any idea of a question was driven out her mind as her desire for him built with each touch of his lips on hers.

And, just when she thought that her legs were going to buckle, his fingers slid away until her entire breast was being cupped by his hand and her bra was redundant and getting in the way of the exquisite pleasure.

Then slowly, slowly, his hand slid lower onto the bare skin at her waist and rested there for a second before moving away.

Arms wrapped around his head, Dee hung onto Sean as he wrapped both arms around her and held her to him.

She could feel the supressed power of his answer pressing against her hip and his short, fast breaths on her neck, fighting, fighting for control.

‘Oh, Sean,’ she whispered through a closed throat, and she dropped her head down to the safety and warmth of his broad chest.

They must have stayed there for several minutes, but time seemed to stand still, and it was Sean who broke the silence.

‘I have been down this road before, Dee. My last girlfriend was so patient and we tried so hard to make it work. But in the end we were both worn down with the constant struggle to make time for one another between going back and forwards to the airport. It was exhausting. And it killed a great friendship. I don’t want that to happen to us, Dee. Not to us.’

He was stroking her hair now, running his fingers back from her forehead. ‘It could be six months before I get back here, and even then it would only be for a flying visit. There will always be some crisis somewhere, like tonight, which needs me to fly out at a moment’s notice. I can’t plan holidays or down time. You deserve better than that. A lot better.’

Dee looked up into his face and blinked, her mouth part open. ‘No. I deserve you. All of you.’

Her words stung like ice on hot skin, burning into his brain and leaving a scar.

‘The last thing I want to do is hurt you, Dee. That’s why it’s better that we part now and remember the good times.’

She laid her cheek on his shirt and dared to finally find the words. ‘Does it have to be that way, Sean? Is there truly nobody else in the company that can cover your job? What happens when you are ill or burnt out? You can’t keep going like this for ever. You have to take a break some time.’

‘Don’t feel sorry for me, Dee,’ he replied, his hand cupping the back of her head. ‘My family are very close, we always have been, and I owe my father everything. This hotel chain is my life and I want to make it special.’

‘It seems to me that you have paid your family dues, Sean. Paid in full.’

‘What do you mean?

Dee forced herself to raise her head and slip backwards so that she could look up into his face. ‘This is your decision to leave tonight. Not your father’s. Or your brother’s. Yours. You have recruited an amazing team of talented professionals who would be only too happy to take on some of those troubleshooting challenges if you gave them the chance. You have made these hotels your life—and I understand that. Look at me—the tea grower’s daughter who wants to set up her own tea company. We are both following in the family trade. But maybe it’s time to think hard about what you want to do with your life. And who you want to spend it with.’

Then she stood back and slowly slid her fingers from his, one finger at a time, breaking their connection with each movement as she spoke.

She stood on tiptoe, pressed her lips against his in one last, lingering kiss, then ran her finger along his jaw and smiled.

‘Good luck, Sean. Goodbye and thank you for everything.’

Then she turned and walked away, back into the conference room and out of his life. Without looking back.

And this time he didn’t follow her.

THIRTEEN

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The traditional treatment for shock in Britain is a steaming beaker of piping hot Indian tea with milk and plenty of sugar. This remedy should be repeated until the symptoms subside.

From
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Saturday

Her best friend
slid a plate in front of her in the early-morning light streaming in through her bedroom window.

Dee squinted over the top of her extra-strong English Breakfast at the slice of a tall extravaganza of green-and vanilla-coloured sponge layers.

It was very green. And smelt of a florist shop. And no amount of strong tea was going to be able to wash down that amount of sugar and fat.

‘I am calling this my tea festival special. It’s a Lady Grey flavoured opera cake with a rosewater cream filling. What do you think?’

‘Think? I am too tired to think, and my taste buds are fried. Thanks, Lottie. I am sure it will be a brilliant hit. It looks wonderful, but I just can’t face it at the moment. Way too nervous.’

Lottie rubbed the back of Dee’s shoulder and kissed the top of her head.

‘I had a feeling that it might be a bit over the top for six a.m. Did you get any sleep at all?’

Dee shook her head. ‘Maybe a couple of hours at most. Kept waking up and couldn’t get back to sleep again.’

‘Never fear. I have donuts, and cheese and ham croissants. The breakfast of champions. I’ll be right back.’

‘You’re my hero,’ Dee replied and smiled after Lottie as she took the stairs down to the bakery from her apartment.

Her hero.

Dee stretched out her arms on the small table, dropped her head onto her hands and closed her eyes.

She was exhausted and her day had not started yet.

This was the most important event of her career. Months of planning. Weeks of phone calls, emails, checklists and constant to-ing and fro-ing from the hotel. And it all came down to this.

One girl sitting alone in her bedroom, drinking tea in her dressing gown. Feeling as though she had just gone through twelve rounds of a professional boxing match and lost.

Every part of her body ached, her head was thumping and she could easily fall asleep sitting upright in this hard chair.

Little wonder.

Lottie thought that she had stayed awake because of nerves about what today would bring. And that was true. But it was not the real reason she had tossed and turned until her duvet was on the floor and her sheet a tangled mess, wrapped around her like a restricting cocoon.

Sean. All she could think about, every time she closed her eyes, was Sean.

How he looked, tasted, smelt and felt. Sean.

And the worst thing?

The more she thought about what he had said to her, and repeated their conversation over and over in her head, the more she knew in her heart that he had been right to walk away and end what they had.

Sean had let her go rather than prolong the agony of always expecting her to take a place in the long line of other priorities that came with his position in the company.

He had done a noble thing.

He had given her up so that she could find someone who was able to put her first.

She
did
deserve better than to feel that she was always going to take second place in his list of priorities.

She
was
worthy of having someone to be there when she needed them. Like today.

Her parents had always put work first before her. Not because they intended to hurt her; far from it. They loved what they did and had explained many times that they wanted to be happy so that she could share that happiness.

Shame that it had never made it any easier to accept.

Shame that she would have loved to have Sean with her today of all days. To share her excitement and sense of achievement. To share her joy with the man she had come to love. The man she still wanted to be with.

The first man that she wanted to be with.

This was all so new and bewildering. Oh, there had been plenty of teenage crushes before. And broken hearts galore. But the way she felt this morning was something very different.

It was if she had tasted something so wonderful that it was terrifying to think that she might never taste it again.

Dee raised her body back to a sitting position and peered glassy-eyed at the photograph of her smiling parents, and Lottie’s bizarre but no doubt totally delicious cake, and a small chuckle made her shoulders rise and fall.

Even in the daily mayhem that constituted her mad world, falling for one of heirs to the Beresford hotel dynasty was surely the craziest.

She picked up the fork, speared a small chunk of cake and closed her lips around it, savouring the different flavours. Letting her tongue and the sensitive taste buds that made her job possible do the work before chewing for a moment and swallowing it down.

‘Oh, you tried the cake. Brave woman. Go on. Hit me with it.’

Lottie marched into her bedroom with a tray, sat down on the bed and bared her teeth in fear of the honest review.

Dee raised her eyebrows and licked her lips. ‘You put ground black pepper in the cream to offset the rosewater. And I am tasting orange zest and a hint of cloves and cardamom in the tea-scented sponge.’

‘Absolutely. I knew that you would get it. So? Lady Grey or a green tea?’

Dee took the tray out of Lottie’s hands. ‘Green. But a special one. This is good. This is very good. Congratulations, Miss Rosemount. You have just succeeded in creating one of the toughest tea-matching challenges I have ever come across. Please accept this hand-crafted medal.’

‘This is not a medal. It’s an exhibitors badge for the tea festival.’

‘Well, you don’t think I would face the ravenous cake-eating hordes without you there to serve it and bask in the glory, did you? And, after all, we can’t have tea without the cake to go with it! Foolish girl.’

Then Dee’s smile faded and she reached out and took Lottie’s hand. ‘Can you come with me? Just for a couple of hours. Please? Gloria and the gang will look after the tea rooms. I just... I just need a pal by my side today. It turns out that being a tea magnate is not half as much fun when you don’t have someone to share the excitement with. And I didn’t expect that. I didn’t expect that at all.’

* * *

Sean dug into his pocket, pulled out his mobile phone and dialled the number with shaking fingers.

He had been up most of the night, talking to Rob, who was fighting health inspectors in Chicago, and his father, who was fighting to stay awake after two hours of pacing back and forth going over the business plans for the hotel chain and where Sean was going in his career. And his life.

Please still be there.

Please answer.

Please don’t throw the phone out of the window when you see who is calling you. Please take this call
.

The only voice in the world he wanted to hear whispered, ‘Hello?’

‘Dee. It’s Sean. I’m standing outside the tea rooms but I won’t come in unless you want me to. Please say yes.’

The fraction of a second before she replied seemed like an eternity. ‘Sean? What do you mean you are outside the tea rooms? I thought that you would be in Chicago by now.’

‘Long story, but I’d like to tell you about it in person instead of on the pavement in the dark at the crack of dawn.’

‘Okay. Yes, Lottie will let you in.’

It took Sean three seconds to give a very startled Lottie a quick wave, then bound up the stairs two at a time and stand puffing and panting outside Dee’s bedroom.

His hand stretched out towards the door handle. And then he snatched it back.

Eyes closed, he blew out a long, deep breath, his head suddenly dizzy with doubt as the blood surged in his veins.

What was he doing here? What if she said, thanks, but no thanks? This was crazy.

He loved this woman and he had been willing to let her go because he was afraid of changing his life? Mad.

For once he was going to risk their future happiness on a crazy decision to trust his heart instead of his head.

And what if she said yes? She could be committing herself to a life where he could be on the road or in a different hotel most of the year. Was that fair?

Yes. Because he was just as determined to show Dee that he was able to give her a fraction of the love she felt for him.

And he had to do it now. Or never. Perhaps that was why he felt so naked. Exposed.

Sean straightened his back and just prepared to knock, but at the very second he did so there was movement on the other side of the door, and the handle turned on its own and cracked open an inch, then wider...and Dee was standing there.

Her eyes locked onto his as she looked at him with the kind of intensity that seemed to knock the oxygen from his lungs.

Then those eyes smiled and he took in the full effect of that beautiful face. No camera in the world could have captured the look on Dee’s face at this moment.

He felt as though the air would explode with the electricity in the air between them.

‘Hi,’ she whispered. ‘Has something happened to bring you back? Are you okay?’ There was so much love and concern in her voice that any doubts Sean had about what he had to do next were wiped away.

Sean stretched out his hand and stroked her cheek, his eyes never leaving hers.

‘I haven’t stopped thinking about what you said. And you were right. Leaving last night was my decision. So I did something about it.’

Sean breathed in, his heart thudding so loudly that he suspected that she must be hearing it from where she was standing so quietly, dressed in her kimono. ‘I know now that I will always love you, Dervla Flynn, and it doesn’t matter where I am in the world.’ He licked her lips. ‘I want to be with you. Love you.’

Her mouth opened to reply but he pressed one finger on her lips and smiled, breaking the terror. ‘You see, I’m not as brave as you are. As soon as I left you last night, I knew that I couldn’t leave the woman I have fallen in love with without trying to come up with some options.’

He grinned at her and slid forward so that both of his hands were cupped around her face as tears pricked her eyes. ‘I love you way too much to let you go. I need you, Dee. I need you so much. Nothing else comes close. What would you say if I told you that I would be working out of London for the next twelve months?’

Her reply was to fall into his arms and he swept her up, holding her body tight, tight, before tilting his open mouth onto hers in a hot, hot kiss.

He cupped her face with both of his hands, his thumbs wiping away tears and water from her cheeks, and then he poured into his kiss the passion and devotion, the fear and doubts, which came with giving your heart to another human being.

‘I didn’t expect to be saying this standing in a cake shop, but it doesn’t change a thing. I am so in love with you.’

‘Oh, Sean. I wasn’t sure I could go through with today without you. Can you forgive me? I have been such an idiot. Of course your family need you. You love them and want to do the right thing. I know what that’s like.’

‘Better than you think. I have done something rash—there’s a limo on the way to the airport at this very minute to collect two very special first-class passengers from a flight from Sri Lanka. I knew that you wanted your parents with you today to see all that you have done. Are you okay with that?’

‘Seriously?’ she asked, stunned. ‘You flew my parents to London for the festival? You did that for me?’

He nodded. ‘Seriously.’ His thumb was still moving across her cheek. ‘It’s time that I met your parents. Because I am thinking of taking a break for a couple of months and Sri Lanka is on my list of destinations. If you come with me.’

‘Oh, Sean. Do you mean it? Yes? Oh, I love you so much.’

He closed his eyes and pressed his forehead to hers, his entire world contained within his arms.

They were still standing there, kissing passionately, when there was the sound of loud voices breaking into their private world. Lottie had opened up downstairs and the first customers had arrived.

‘But what about your work? Chicago? Brazil?’

‘I had a long conference call with my dad and Rob last night, and we have agreed to give some senior managers a chance to show us what they can do. Plus, my dad offered me a new job this week. Could be challenging.’

‘Difficult?’

‘Very.’ He grinned. ‘Apparently he needs a new manager for the Richmond Square hotel who can fit in a bit of training now and then. Within walking distance of this cake shop and the woman I’ve fallen in love with. And all the tea I can drink. How could I say no?’

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