Twenty-Eight and a Half Wishes (6 page)

I walked out of the bedroom and leaned against the wall in the hallway, watching Violet and her family in the kitchen. Mikey sat in his high chair and Ashley played with a small pony at the table. Violet stood in front of her stove, a spatula in hand. Mike walked behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist before kissing her on the cheek. My heart ached for this, this sense of belonging. Violet would let me live here the rest of my life, and Mike, God love him, would too. But this was their family, not mine.

“Good mornin’,” I said as I sat down at the table next to Ashley.

Violet twisted around, a bright smile etched into her face, but worry lines wrinkled the corners of her eyes. “Good mornin’! Did you sleep well?”

I yawned. “Yes, actually I did. I can’t believe I slept so long.”

A frown crossed her face. “It was a long night.” She turned to the skillet and flipped pancakes. “We need to go to the funeral home today.”

I hadn’t considered that, but it didn’t surprise me. I picked up one of Ashley’s ponies and fingered the pink mane. “Okay.”

“I thought I could send Mike over to get some of your stuff,” she said with a forced brightness. “You just make a list and he’ll get whatever you need.”

It would have been an easy habit to slip into, letting Violet take care of me, but I felt a rebellion brewing deep inside. “Thanks Vi, but I think I’d like to go home.”

Violet and Mike, who had been reading the Sunday paper, both gawked at me as if I had announced I was becoming a Tibetan monk.

“Rose, don't be silly. It’s not like you’re puttin’ us out. We want you here. Isn’t that right, Mike?” Violet turned back to the stove and dismissed the silly thought.

Mike smiled. “Rose, you’re welcome here as long as you need to stay.”

“I know, Mike, and I appreciate that so much, but I don’t want to stay here. I really need to go home.”

Violet spun and faced me again, frowning like I was a misbehaving child. I worried she was gonna get whiplash with all the twisting around. “Rose, you cannot go back there! Momma was,” she lowered her voice, “
murdered
there.”

“I am well aware of that fact, Violet, considerin’ I was the one to discover her.”

“I’m not puttin’ up with this foolishness. You’re stayin’ here, and that’s that.”

I looked at Mike. Our eyes locked and I could see he read the seriousness of my decision. He patted my hand and winked. “Violet, Rose is a grown woman and is capable of makin’ up her own mind. If she wants to go home, then I’ll take her home. When do you want to go?”

I smiled a thank-you. “Right after breakfast, if it’s not too much trouble.”

“No trouble at all.”

“Rose! You can’t go right after breakfast! We have to go to the funeral home at three o’clock.”

“Then I’ll meet you there.”

Violet fumed all through breakfast. When we finished, I put on my clothes from the previous day, not bothering to take a shower. No sense getting clean, just to put my stinky clothes back on.

Mike waited in the living room. I stopped to kiss Ashley and Mikey good bye, but Violet was noticeably absent. But as we walked out to Mike’s truck, Violet ran out and pulled me into a hug so tight I suspected she was trying to graft me onto her own body, ensuring I could never get away again. I leaned back and smiled into her tear-filled eyes.

“I’m fine, Violet. I’ll be fine.”

“I just worry about you.”

“I know you do, and I love you so much for it.” My voice cracked and the floodgate of tears opened up. “But I have to do this. I know you don’t understand, but trust me, okay?”

Violet bit her quivering lip and tears rolled down her cheeks. She slowly nodded her head.

I kissed her on the cheek. “Thanks. I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

I got in the truck and Mike pulled away from the house. Violet stood in the driveway, watching me go.

“You sure you’re really goin’ to be okay?” he asked. “You know you’re not puttin’ us out stayin’ with us.”

“I know, thanks.”

He parked his truck in front of my house. “Do you want me to come in with you?”

I hesitated. I really did want him to come in but couldn’t think of what he would accomplish, other than allowing me to escape responsibility for myself. “No, I’m fine.” I got out of the truck. “Thanks, Mike.”

“Call if you need anything, Rose. I’ll come straight over.”

“I know. See you this afternoon.” I walked toward the house as he drove away. Stopping next to my car, I scanned the yard, still in denial about the events of the previous evening. The scraps of crime scene tape lying in the bushes proved otherwise.

The side door stood slightly ajar. Whoever broke in had busted the doorjamb and now the latch no longer worked. I entered the kitchen, surprised to see my purse and library bag still on the table. After a little digging, I found my wallet, amazed it hadn’t gone missing in all the excitement. The sink full of dirty dishes caught my eye. I’d get to those later.

When I stepped into the living room, I gasped at the sight of the bloodstained sofa, a square cut out from the fabric in the center of the stain. The surrounding curtains and walls were blood-splattered as well. I couldn't face cleaning the mess at the moment so I walked down the hall to the linen closet to grab a sheet. Covering the sofa seemed like a good idea until I could figure out what else to do with it. The dark hall made it difficult to see in the closet. I flipped on the switch, but the light didn’t come on. The electricity hadn’t been turned back on yet.

I knew the utilities connected at the back of the house and I decided to go check it out. I had no idea how to turn the electricity on, but I leaned over and parted the shrubs anyway, looking for the broken connection.

“I already called the utility companies for you.”

I screamed and jumped up, clutching a hand to my chest. Joe stood a few feet away.

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.”

The now-familiar lightheaded feeling returned, but I shook my head to clear it. “That’s okay. Thanks for calling.”

“They said they’d be out early this afternoon, the electricity anyway. The phone will have to wait until Wednesday.” He moved closer. “What are you lookin’ for?”

I laughed. “I don't really know, I’ve never dealt with somethin’ like this before.”

“How’d you know about the footprint?”

I tucked my hair behind my ear, suddenly nervous. How much had he heard the night before? “I’m sorry. What footprint?”

He raised his eyebrows. Joe gave me the impression he was a no-nonsense kind of guy.

We stared at each other, clearly at an impasse. I wasn’t giving any information away and for him to press the situation further would be admitting he’d eavesdropped.

He threaded a thumb through a belt loop on his jeans. “So, what are you doin’ here?”

I suspected he meant snooping behind the house, but I decided to evade the question. “I live here.”

“You’re stayin’ here?” His tone matched the shock on his face.

“Why does everyone keep sayin’ that? I live here. Why wouldn’t I stay here?” I started walking to the side of the house.

“Rose, do you think that’s really a good idea? What if the people who did this come back?”

I stopped and studied him. The sun shone behind his head, the copper tones in his brown hair glinting in the sunlight. I squinted and tried to read his face. He was serious.

“You’re not like everyone else in this town, are you?” I asked, amazement in my voice.

His face went blank. “What does that mean?”

I placed a hand on my hip, staring up at him like he was an angel dropped to earth. “First of all, most of the town thinks I killed my Momma, so other than you and my sister and her husband, no one and I mean
no one
is concerned I’m in danger. Second, why do you think they’ll come back?”

He peered down at the ground, shifted his weight from side to side then shrugged. “I didn’t say I did, but it makes sense that a single woman would be frightened to stay in the house her mother was just murdered in.” He looked up into my face. “You have to admit, it looks a little suspicious, you comin’ back here to stay all alone the mornin’ after she was killed.”

My rebellion and fear twisted together into a smoldering rage. “What are you sayin’, Joe McAllister? Either you think I killed my mother, or you don’t. Which is it?”

His eyes locked with mine. “Well, it’s not for me to decide, is it? It’s for the great state of Arkansas and possibly a jury of your peers to decide that one.”

I glared at him. I had never been so angry at anyone in all my life, not even Momma. I started to say something then stopped, not trusting the words that might come out of my mouth. Pinching my lips tight, I whirled around and left Joe standing in my yard as I stomped into the kitchen, slamming the door behind me. The door bounced off the frame and popped wide open. Joe was frozen in his spot, watching me with his expressionless face, his thumbs hanging in his belt loops. I shoved the door closed and leaned my back against it.

You shouldn’t be so surprised. He’s no different than everyone else
. I was disappointed with myself for thinking he could be.

It wasn’t until later, while I stood in the shower, thankful for gas water heaters, that I realized how miraculous our encounter had been. My entire life I had avoided conflict at all costs. When kids at school made fun of me, I ignored and avoided them. And when Momma berated me, I let her beat me down, sucking in all the pain and anger and hiding in my shell. So for me to stand up to Joe was inconceivable, yet I did it without even giving it a second thought. How on earth did
that
happen?

After I got dressed, I stood at the sink and started to wash the dishes. Watching Joe’s house, I frowned as I tried to figure him out then shook my head. There was nothing to figure out. Chances were I’d never see him again. We’d never talked before Momma’s murder. No reason to think we’d converse after.

I finished just in time to leave for the funeral home. I shut the side door and stood outside staring at it, wishing I could cast a magic spell to keep bad people out. I laughed. Momma would have a conniption if she knew I thought such a thing. Right then, I’d settle for a lock.

Thirty minutes later, I sat at a table with Violet and Mike in the funeral home discussing all the details of Momma’s funeral, surprised that there were so many. Truth was, I didn’t care about any of it. Most of the town couldn't stand Momma, yet would show up because it was the proper thing to do then proceed to judge us on the pageantry of her burial. No one would admit such a thing happened, but all one had to do was stand in the back of the funeral home to hear it. Violet felt a need to save appearances, considering the circumstances that got us here. She also felt a need to try to redeem the Gardner family name. I thought it was too late for that, given my newfound status as Henryetta’s most dangerous criminal. But I let Violet entertain her delusions.

We toured the casket room, assigned the macabre task of picking out the box Momma would be buried in. Wood or metal. Themed or not. Extra cushioning inside. Did Momma really need extra cushioning? She was
dead
. I wanted to point this fact out, but everyone acted so serious.

I shuddered. I didn’t want to think about Momma buried in the ground.

“What do you think, Rose?” Violet asked.

I realized I hadn’t been paying attention but didn’t want to admit it. “Whatever you think, Violet.”

She gave me a look that said
I need more help from you
. I vowed to be more supportive with future decisions. And I quickly regretted that pledge when it came time to pick out the vault.

“I had no idea people were buried in a vault,” I whispered in Violet’s ear as we stared at the models hanging on the wall.

Violet sighed. “That’s because you weren’t involved in this part when we planned Daddy’s funeral.”

I realized she was right. I stayed home when she and Momma came. It never occurred to me she had to do so much. I put my arm around her shoulder. “I’m sorry, Vi. Really, I’ll help more.”

She leaned her head against mine. “Thanks, I’m taking you up on it. You’re in charge of the flowers.”

I started to say something, then stopped. I could pick out flowers. How hard could that be?

We decided the funeral would be on Wednesday. That gave the coroner time to perform the autopsy and ship Momma’s body back from Little Rock. In the parking lot, Violet tried to convince me to go home with her. “Rose, you went back to the house already. You proved you could do it. Now come spend the night with us.”

I was frightened, but I just couldn't let myself go with her. Sometime over the last day and a half, a revolt had sprung up inside me and there was no beating it down into submission. I needed to do this even if it killed me, which it very well might. I slowly shook my head and opened my car door.

“Rose, this is ridiculous. Do you even have electricity yet?”

“No, but Joe called the electric company and they said they’d be out today.”

Violet grabbed my door as I got into the car. “But…”

“Violet, you need to get back to the kids. I’ll talk to you later.”

Mike dragged her away and I drove home eager to be alone. As I pulled into the gravel driveway, I discovered Joe crouched down at the side door of the house.

“What are you doin’?” I asked when I got out, wondering if I had just caught him in the middle of being up to something.

“Puttin’ a new lock on your door.” He didn’t look at me, just kept fiddling at the doorknob with a screwdriver.

“Why are you doin’ that?”

“To make it harder for someone to break in.”

The unspoken
to kill you
hung in the air like a jumbo jet waiting to land. “Why would you do that? Especially if you think I murdered my own mother.”

He turned his head and raised his eyebrows. “I never said I thought you murdered your mother. I said it wasn’t for me to decide. And I’m doin’ it in case you didn’t and the person who
did
comes back, especially since you think it was supposed to be you in the first place.”