Twice a Rake (34 page)

“Oh, you’ve told me quite enough already,” Quin shot back. “Thank you for your assistance, but your participation in this discussion is not required. Nor is it appreciated.”

Aurora turned her teary-eyed face to the baronet. “Sir Jonas? What on earth is he going on about?”

“Leave us, Jonas,” Quin bit off. “This is between me and my wife.”

The bastard didn’t take a hint, even though it wasn’t just a hint. “I don’t think she wrote them, Quin. Someone else is doing it.”

“Is that so? Well, why don’t we have a look at what I just caught her writing, hmm?” He flipped the journal open and leafed through the pages.

Aurora’s jaw fell open. “I haven’t…I haven’t written any stories in it since we left Town. Not until today. I’ve only been using it as a diary, Quin.”

“Liar. You have made a fool of me for the last time, Aurora.”

“No, I swear.” She started across the room toward him. “Please believe me.” Her big, innocent eyes implored him. Such a lark.

“I’ll never believe another word you say.”

She stopped short. “Sir Jonas?”

Bloody hell. The chit kept running for help. “Jonas. Out.” He wouldn’t get anywhere as long as his friend kept interfering. It was only making him lose his temper faster.

“I think you should listen to me, Quin,” Jonas said.

“And you should respect that this is my house and my wife, and I will deal with her as I see fit.” He faced the wall to calm himself. Blood roiled through his veins, and he didn’t know if he could maintain rational thought if he was provoked much further.

“Deal with me?” Aurora said haughtily. “Of all the”

That was all it took.

Quin whirled around without thinking and hurled the journal. Aurora flinched as it narrowly missed hitting her squarely in the face.

Damnation. He’d done it. He’d well and truly done it.

He was exactly like his father. Quin left without a backward glance.

Chapter Nineteen

18 May, 1811

How did it come to this? How did I make such a mull of things that I cannot see the way out? I truly believe he must despise me now, and all for something I do not understand. Perhaps I should never write again. Perhaps I should not even write these silly journal entries, which only prove to me how unhappy and how lonely I truly am when I read through them again. Pitiful. Pathetic. No wonder Quin wants nothing to do with me.

~From the journal of Lady Quinton

Aurora was too stunned for tears. She bent down to pick up her journal, but her hands shook so badly she dropped it again almost immediately.

“Allow me to get that, Lady Quinton,” Sir Jonas said.

She nodded and stood while he bent to retrieve it.

“Why don’t you sit?” he encouraged, guiding her to a nearby sofa and helping to lower her down. “You’ve had quite an ordeal just now.”

His voice was soothing. Calm. So very different from her husband’s.

Everything about him was different.

Sir Jonas placed the journal on the table before her and left for a moment. When he came back, he said, “Your housekeeper will be in shortly with tea, ma’am.”

“Thank you,” she managed. Aurora doubted she’d be able to drink any tea without spilling it all over. She certainly couldn’t serve it.

Sir Jonas took a seat across from her. “I owe you an apology, Lady Quinton,” he said, leaning forward over his knees. “I brought your husband some news, and he didn’t let me get the whole of it out before he flew into a fit of pique.”

“That’s a rather common problem of his, it seems,” she quipped. Perhaps the shock was beginning to wear off, if she was able to make a joke of things. Aurora looked down at her hands where they were clasped in her hap. Still quavering, but not quite so visibly.

“Yes,” Sir Jonas replied. “A rather unfortunate one, at that.”

Mrs. Marshall came in with a maid carrying the tea service. “Would you like me to serve, my lady?” the housekeeper asked. The maid scurried away once she delivered the service.

“That would be lovely, Mrs. Marshall.”

Sir Jonas must have told her of Aurora’s state. She supposed it was for the best, though. She couldn’t be angry with him for such a thing.

The housekeeper served first Aurora, then Sir Jonas, and actually poured a cup for herself as well. “If I may be so bold, my lady,” she said and settled onto the sofa beside Aurora, “his lordship is a good man, underneath all the bluster. He would never intend to hurt you.” Mrs. Marshall placed a hand on Aurora’s and looked into her eyes with a steadfast gaze. “Never.”

Oh, dear good Lord. Did the servants know everything here? It hadn’t seemed like bluster after all, like he would never mean to hurt her, when he had launched her journal at her. “Thank you, Mrs. Marshall. That will be all.”

The housekeeper squeezed her hand and smiled, then took her teacup and left.

“She’s right,” Sir Jonas said. “I know you don’t want to hear it right now, and you probably don’t believe it, but she’s right.”

Aurora absolutely did not want to hear it. She did, however, want to know more about this
news
. “Since the news you brought him apparently affects me and not only my husband, may I ask you to tell me as well?”

Sir Jonas dragged a hand across his face. “It seems I must, now. Where to begin?” He stood and walked to the window, as though searching for answers.

Answers he should be giving her. “I find that the beginning is typically a good place to start,” she said, trying and failing to keep the facetious tone from her voice.

“Indeed, you are right. Very well. I assume you know of the gossip article about you and your…um, your story, shall we say, that was printed in the society pages?”

When Aurora nodded, he proceeded to tell her of a ghastly new gossip periodical that was printing stories—claiming them to be
her
stories.

“Oh, gracious heavens,” Aurora breathed. “I swear to you, Sir Jonas, I did not write them. Well, I did write the first one I would imagine,” she said with a violent blush, “but I haven’t written anything at all since we left London, save letters and random thoughts and tidbits about my days. Blast, and I started to write another story today, but it was hardly illicit.” She didn’t want to reveal quite
what
she’d been writing. Not to him. Not really to anyone.

He looked across at her with a pitying expression. Blast him for that. She hated to be pitied. Hated it with the fire of a thousand suns.

“I believe you, ma’am. Truthfully, I do.”

“But my husband does not.” Why should he, after all, when he knew so much of the stories she
had
written?

“No, and he would not allow me to tell him why I think someone else responsible.”

“And why would that be?” Aurora inquired.

Sir Jonas shifted his feet. “I do apologize for having this discussion with you, as it is highly irregular. But I have read them all. When I learned what was being said of you, I wanted to know if it was true.” At least he had the courtesy to look embarrassed. “The other stories tell of depraved acts. They’re written in a much more forceful tone, and about things I cannot believe Quin would ever do to you—things he’d never ask you to do.”

Aurora closed her eyes. They’d done countless things she could have never imagined. If these stories even remotely resembled the actual events that had gone on behind their closed doors, Quin would never believe she wasn’t responsible for it all. “Such as?” she asked, not really wanting to hear the answer.

“I’m truly sorry, ma’am,” Sir Jonas said, “but married or not, these are things I could never discuss with a lady.”

“How can I convince Quin I didn’t write them if I don’t know what they are?”

“I’ll talk to him after he’s calmed down,” Sir Jonas said. “I’ll make him listen to reason. I promise you, he will believe me.”

She could only hope he was right. After all, Quin would not believe Aurora about anything.

Sir Jonas headed for the door, but then stopped and faced her again. “Give him tonight. He’ll be more reasonable in the morning.”

“Pardon? Give him tonight for what?”

“Before you go looking for him. He’s gone.” Sir Jonas gave her that same pitying look again. “If you will agree to wait until tomorrow, I’ll tell you where he went. And if you refuse to wait, I’ll be forced to come with you for your safety.”

~ * ~

Quin slammed closed the door of the hermitage by the river, ignoring how the glass of the window panes shuddered from his violence.

He couldn’t stay there, at the abbey. He couldn’t be in the same room as her.

Not anymore. Not after what she’d done. Not after what
he’d
done.

He ripped back the doors to cabinets and closets, looking for the brandy he’d asked Forster to stock. Not that he had intended to use it quite so soon.

Some things couldn’t be helped though. Finally, he found the proper compartment and pulled out a decanter. No point in bothering with a glass. He intended to drink the whole damned thing. He pulled out the cork and took a long, full swill.

If anyone held any doubts that he was his father incarnate, Quin had now well and truly disabused them all of their skepticism.

He had nearly struck his wife with her own bloody journal. And he couldn’t even deny he’d done it, since Jonas was there as a deuced witness. Sure, there were no laws against it.

What did that matter? There ought to be. There should have been all along.

But no one bothered to protect women from men like him. Or children, for that matter. Quin took a bigger drink, relishing the burn as it slid down his throat. One thing was certain. He couldn’t allow Aurora to have his child. His child wouldn’t suffer like he had. It was bad enough he’d roped her into marriage, forced her hand. He couldn’t undo it now, not even to protect her from the monster he was. It was too late.

Damn Rotheby and his ideas!

If it wasn’t for the earl’s illogical need for Quin to reproduce, none of this would be happening. Quin would be happily off on the coast of Spain or in Athens, drinking and gambling—and Aurora would be some other sod’s problem.

Bloody hell. The image of Aurora with any other man did not sit well with him. He took another swig.

If he and Aurora didn’t have a child, Rotheby would take the abbey. All they’d have left would be Aurora’s dowry. It was a reasonable amount, but not enough for them to keep separate quarters—which would be the only safe option.

He’d have to either take a bloody profession or return to his ways of cheating at the gaming hells. Neither of which sounded like a good choice at the moment.

Quin needed to think. There had to be a solution. He just hadn’t found it yet.

A horse’s hooves sounded in the distance, coming up along the pea-gravel outside the hermitage. It had to be Jonas. None of the staff would dare to interrupt him. Not here. Not now. And Aurora wouldn’t have the first clue where to find him.