Unbelievable (27 page)

Josie blushed. Yesterday, words hadn’t seemed all
that important. “Do you really think it’s necessary? I mean, for the purposes of a fling, do we need to know personal stuff?”

His expression darkened. “I don’t like that word—
fling.
” She started to reply to that, but he raised a hand. “Come on, Josie. Fair’s fair. I confided in you.”

She supposed he was right. But her story differed so much from his, she hesitated to tell it. She started slowly, trying to keep the focus on Susan’s generosity, rather than her own grief. “After my parents died, Susan wouldn’t even consider me getting a job. She sold our house so we’d have enough money for me to continue my education. It was a big, old-fashioned place with pillars in the front. It used to be our great-aunt’s before she died and left it to my mother when we were just kids. We both still miss it, though Susan won’t admit it. She doesn’t want me to know how much it meant to her, or how hard it was for her to let it go.”

With a thoughtful expression, Nick nodded his approval. “Susan did what any good big sister would do.”

And Josie thought,
I had Susan. But who did you have?
Rather than say it, she touched his cheek and smiled. “Do you ever see your family now?”

He pretended a preoccupation with her fingertips, kissing each one. “Not often. Mother is always busy, which is a blessing since she’s not an easy person to be around. And Myra still despises me, which makes it difficult for my father and me to get together.” He sucked the tip of one finger between his teeth.

Feeling her stomach flutter, Josie wondered if she’d ever get used to all the erotic touching and kissing. She hoped not. “I imagine you must resent her a lot.”

“Not really. If it hadn’t been for Myra, I might never have hooked up with Bob, and he’s great as both a friend and a partner. He’s the one who suggested we go into business together. In fact, he’s the one who got things started.”

He deliberately lightened the mood, so Josie did the same. “Ah. So, Bob really is the brains of the operation?”

He bit the tip of her finger, making her jump and pull away. Josie glared at him.

He grinned. “Sorry. But I hear enough of that derision from your sister.”

“No doubt you’ll hear a lot more of it from her when she finds out we’re seeing each other.”

He made a sour face. “Couldn’t we skip telling her that, too?”

“You must not know my sister very well if you think I could keep it from her. She’s like a mother hen, always checking up on me.”

“Well, as I said, I’m stoic. I can put up with anything if the end result is rewarding enough.” His thumb smoothed over her lips. “And you’re definitely enough. Now, can you find any spare time this week to go to the boat with me?”

When Josie thought of all the women he must have taken there over the years, she couldn’t quite stifle a touch of jealousy. She looked away, wondering how many women had observed the stars from the deck, the moisture rising from the water.

“Josie.” As if he’d read her thoughts, he hugged her close again. His hand cuddled her breast possessively, and rather than meet her curious gaze, he stayed focused on the movement of his fingers over her body.

“Do you remember me telling you on the boat that I never take women there?”

“You took me there.”

“And you’re the only one. That wasn’t a lie.”

She wanted to believe him, but it seemed so unlikely.

Before she could decide what to say, Nick shook his head and continued. “I’m not claiming to have been a monk—far from it. I’ve always used the boat when I wanted to be alone. There’s something peaceful about water, something calming, and I never wanted to share that with anyone, especially not a woman. With all the fighting that damn boat caused between my parents, it has a lot of memories attached to it, and most of them aren’t very pleasant. I’ve never found it particularly conducive to romance.” He made the admission reluctantly, his voice sounding a bit strained. He raised his eyes until he could look at her and that look started her heart racing. “Until I met you. Now I don’t think I’ll be able to see it any other way.”

Emotion swelled, threatening to burst. Susan was wrong. Nick wasn’t a self-centered womanizer. He wasn’t a man without a care who would tromp on people’s feelings. The special fondness he felt for his grandfather was easy to hear when Nick spoke of him. And his dedication to Bob went above and beyond the call of duty to a partner, to the point of silently accepting Susan’s contempt. She’d accused him of having no talent; he
was
the talent. Nick had even agreed to work out an ad campaign for Mrs. Wiley, despite his reservations about her business. Though his adolescence had obviously been bereft of love and guidance, he was still a kind and generous man.

It would be all too easy to care about him.

“What are you thinking?” Nick smoothed the frown from her forehead.

“I’m thinking that you’re a most remarkable man, Nick Harris.”

He made a scoffing sound and started to kiss her, but Josie was familiar with that tactic now. Whenever he wanted to avoid a subject, he distracted her physically.

Teasing, he said, “I’m a scoundrel and a man of few principles. Just ask your sister.”

“But Susan doesn’t really know you, does she?” His gaze swept up to lock with hers. Josie lifted a hand to sift through his hair. “She’s given me all these dire predictions, but I don’t think you’re nearly as reckless and wild as she’d like to think.”

His expression froze for a heartbeat, then hardened. Before Josie could decipher his mood, he had her T-shirt pulled over her head and caught at her elbows, pinning her arms together, leaving her helpless. He studied her breasts with heated, deliberate intensity. When he spoke, his words were barely above a whisper.

“Don’t, Josie. Don’t think that because I had a few family problems, I’m this overly sensitive guy waiting to be saved by the right woman.” His hand flattened on her belly and she trembled. “I want all the same things you want, honey. Fun, freedom, a little excitement. With no ties and no commitments. It’ll be the perfect relationship between us, I promise you that. You won’t be disappointed.”

She wanted to yell that she was already disappointed. No, she hadn’t ever considered a lasting relationship. But then, she hadn’t met Nick. All by himself he was
more excitement than most women could handle. And despite what she’d claimed, she wanted more out of life than a few thrills. So much more. But Nick had read her thoughts, and corrected them without hesitation. She’d dug a hole for herself with her own lies and deceptions, and she wasn’t quite sure how to get out of it. She couldn’t press him without chasing him away—and that was the very last thing she wanted to do.

Nick bent, treating one sensitive nipple to the hot, moist pressure of his mouth, and she decided any decisions could wait until later. He seemed determined now to show her all the ways he could enjoy her without the need for precautions, and at the moment, she didn’t have the will to tell him no.

Minutes later, she didn’t have the strength, either.

N
ICK WHISTLED
as he entered the offices. He hadn’t felt this good in a long time, though he wasn’t sure exactly
why
he felt so content, and wasn’t inclined to worry about it. Right now, he had better things to occupy his mind—like the coming night and the fact that he’d be alone with Josie again. His entire body tightened in anticipation of what he’d do with her and her sensual acceptance of him. It had been too long.

She hadn’t been able to see him Tuesday, as he’d expected, because that, too, was a late night for her, and the needs of her patients came first—a fact that nettled since he wasn’t used to playing second fiddle. So even though he’d had other plans for the night, he’d canceled them. Again. Josie didn’t know he’d changed his plans for her, and he didn’t intend to tell her. She might get it into her head that she could call all the shots, and he liked things better just the way they were.

Josie wanted to use him for sex, wanted him to be a sizzling male fantasy come to life, and if that wasn’t worth a little compromise, he didn’t know what was. It sure beat the hell out of anything he could think of.

Besides, she had given him a request, and it was to assist her in exploring the depths of herself as a woman, not to skim the surface with mere quickies. He could be patient until her time was freed up. He wanted to sleep with her again, to hold her small soft body close to his all night, to wake her up with warm wet kisses and the gentle slide of his body into hers. He shuddered at his own mental image.

As he entered the building, the sound of arguing interrupted his erotic thoughts. It was coming from Bob’s office, and he started in that direction but drew up short in the doorway when he recognized Susan’s virulent tones.

Since he enjoyed pricking her temper, and had from the moment he met her, he asked pleasantly, “Am I interrupting?”

Two pairs of eyes swung in his direction. “Nick,” was said in relief at the same time “You!” was muttered with huge accusation.

Ignoring Bob for the moment, he directed his attention to Susan. “Miss Jackson. How are you today?”

“How am I?” She advanced on him and Bob rushed around his desk to keep pace with her. Nick had the feeling Bob intended to protect him. The idea almost made him smile.

“I was fine, that is until Bob confessed the rotten trick you played on my sister.”

Turning his consideration to Bob, who looked slightly ill, Nick asked, “Had a baring of the soul, did you?”

“Actually,” Susan said, staring up at him with a frown, “he did his best to cover for you after I forced him to confirm that you’re seeing Josie. He’s been explaining to me that you’re a
reformed
womanizer, that you truly care for my sister. Not that I’m believing it.” She pointed a rigid finger at his chest. “I know your kind. You’re still a die-hard bachelor just out for some fun, and that’s not what Josie needs in her life right now.”

“You make
fun
sound like a dirty word,” Nick muttered, but there was no heat in his comment. He was too distracted for heat. Did Bob really see him as
reformed?
The idea was totally repellent. For most of his life, certainly since Bob had known him, he’d avoided any attempts at serious relationships. Not because he was still troubled over his parents’ divorce, or his father’s re-marriage. And not because his psyche had been damaged by his mother’s rejection. Mostly he’d avoided attachments because he hadn’t met a woman yet who didn’t want to change everything about him. They’d profess unconditional love, then go about trying to get him to alter his life. His stepmother had been the queen of control, but at least she hadn’t ever tried to hide her inclinations behind false caring.

No, he’d had enough of controlling females, and his life was as he wanted it to be. He didn’t intend to change it for anyone. But he did want Josie, and he’d have her—on his terms, not Susan’s.

Not about to explain himself to the sister, he halfheartedly addressed Susan’s sputtering outrage, going on the offense. “You don’t really understand Josie at all, do you?”

“She’s my sister!”

“Yeah, but you would have hooked her up with Bob.” He warmed to the subject, seeing Susan’s face go red while Bob blustered in the background. He’d been coaching Bob for the better part of a week, getting him to send cards, to make phone calls late at night. To whisper the little romantic things women liked to hear. Susan appeared to be melting faster than an iceberg in the tropics. Though she hadn’t as yet admitted it. According to Bob, all her considerable focus was still aimed at getting Josie
settled.
Damn irritating female. Josie didn’t want to settle, and that suited Nick to perfection.

He grinned, feeling smug over the way both Susan and Bob glanced at each other. “I’m sure you realize now what a mistake that might have been, for both Josie and Bob.”

Susan thrust her chin into the air. “So she and Bob wouldn’t have worked out. That doesn’t mean I want her seeing you.”

Softly he said, “But that’s what Josie wants.”

Susan bristled. “Josie is just going through a phase.”

Damn right, he thought. A sensational stage of discovering her own sexuality, and he’d been lucky enough to be there when she’d decided to expand her horizons. He kept his expression serious. “She’s discussed that with me, Miss Jackson. Josie and I understand each other, so you have no reason to worry.” Nick not only understood, he encouraged her.

Agitated, Susan paced away. When she faced Nick again, her look was more serious than aggressive. “You think you understand, but you can’t know what Josie’s been through. When our parents died, everything changed. We lost our house, our car. There was never
enough money for her to do the things most girls her age were doing. She didn’t shop with her friends for trendy clothes, attend dances or school parties or date. At first she just became withdrawn. It scared me something fierce. But then she started college, and she put everything she had not just into succeeding but excelling. She’s worked very hard at shutting out life, and now that she’s ready to live again, she deserves the best.”

“And to you, that means someone other than me?”

“Josie needs someone sensitive, someone who’s stable and reliable.”

His chest felt tight and his temples pounded. Susan was determined to replace him, but he wouldn’t let her. For now, Josie wanted him, and that was all that mattered. “I won’t hurt her. I promise.”

“Coming from you, I am not reassured!”

Surely he wasn’t
bad
for Josie, he thought with a frown. He was an experienced man, capable of giving her everything she wanted, and right now that meant freedom and excitement and fun, not love everlasting. He wasn’t prudish and he wasn’t selfish; he hadn’t lied when he said he enjoyed giving her pleasure.

Susan assumed she knew what Josie needed, but Josie claimed the opposite. She’d made it clear she didn’t want attachments, so he’d assured her there would be none. That had been her stipulation, but he’d gone along with the idea, even emphasized it, to keep her from backing out. Josie wanted a walk on the wild side, and he was more than prepared to indulge her. Especially if it kept her from seeking out other men, a notion he couldn’t tolerate.