brightly, ‘You’ve seen my boys in the street, I expect, before
they went away?’
‘The whole school went to Bridge End, did they?’ Polly
asked, trying to get the picture straight in her head.
. ‘That’s right. The teachers are there, too - Miss Langrish
and the others. They’re happy enough there. Well, mostly,’
she added, remembering the children like Martin Baker and
the little Atkinsons who had not been at all happy. ‘They didn’t all get good billets, I’m afraid. But the girls would be all right at the vicarage.’
‘What about the father? Do they have any other relatives?’
Jess frowned, trying to remember. ‘Well, Mr Simmons is
in the Merchant Navy, he doesn’t get home very often, of
course. As for other relatives - well, I got the impression
there weren’t many. They’re not Pompey people anyway.
Kathy told me once they both came from Basingstoke. Her
parents died when she was a kiddy and she was brought up
by her gran, but the old lady’s over ninety now. And I think she said her hubby’s mother was in a home - doesn’t really know what’s going on.’
‘It doesn’t look as if they’re going to be much help,’ Polly
said. She looked down at her notebook. ‘They’re staying
with you at the moment, is that right? But I expect you’d
rather they were evacuated.’
‘I don’t mind having them at all, but I think they ought to
be somewhere safe. The poor little mites have been bombed
out twice and they’re terrified every time we hear a plane go
over. We’ve had to go down the shelter quite a few times
already since the big raid, and you can see they’re almost out
of their minds with fear, especially Muriel, the younger one.
And Stella’s like a little old woman - you’d think she was
carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders. They
need to be somewhere they can feel safe and start to be
children again.’
Polly nodded. ‘We can certainly contact the vicar and see
if he’d be willing to take them. What’s his name?’
‘Mr Beckett. But I think I ought to talk to their father
first - he’s hoping to be able to get back and see them soon.
His ship comes back to Pompey, you see, for supplies. I
wouldn’t like him to come and find them not here, not when
he’s lost his wife and baby boy as well.’
‘Well, we’ll wait a little while,’ Polly agreed, ‘but we can’t
leave it too long. As you say, they ought to be somewhere
safe.’ She put her notebook away and stood up. ‘Thanks, Mrs Budd. It’s been nice to talk to you.’ She glanced around
the small room. ‘You’ve got a lovely place here.’
‘We do our best to keep it nice,’ Jess said modestly.
‘Frank does a lot of work on it - woodwork and decorating,
and that - at least, he did when you could still get the
materials. It’s not rented, you see, like most of the houses
round here. Frank wanted his own place - likes his
independence, and likes to be able to do what he wants with
his home. A lot of his mates said he was daft, taking on a
mortgage, said it’d be a millstone round his neck, but we’ve
never regretted it. He always says he’d sooner put the
money into his own bricks and mortar than pay rent for the
rest of his life.’ She looked round proudly. ‘It’s been a real
struggle at times, but this house will be ours one day, with
no more to pay - well, that’s if the Germans let it!’
Polly nodded. Before Johnny was killed, they’d rented
two rooms, and even Dick and Cissie’s house had been
rented. Her mother Alice had been lucky to be able to stay
in the house at the other end of the street, where Polly and
Cissie had grown up, after her husband had died in the ‘flu
epidemic after the Great War, but she was still paying rent.
Frank and Jess Budd had been sensible, she thought, as well
as brave to take on such a commitment.
‘Well, let’s hope they do,’ she said, referring to the
Germans. ‘It’s no picnic, being bombed out, I can tell you.’
Jess’s face softened in sympathy. ‘Yes, I heard about your
trouble. It must have been a terrible shock, coming out of
the shelter to find everything gone. Thank goodness you
were all down there, though. I’ve heard of people who just
popped indoors to make a cup of cocoa … well, look at
Kathy, killed in just those few minutes. It doesn’t bear
thinking of.’
Polly walked back up the icy street towards her mother’s
house. No it didn’t bear thinking of, but you had to think
about it when it happened to you. There were a lot of things
these days that didn’t bear thinking of, but you had to do so all the same. Things like her Johnny, drowning or blown up
at sea — she would never know just what had happened to
him. And their little daughter Sylvie, out in the country
near Romsey, living with strangers. They were kind enough
to her, Polly knew that, but it wasn’t right, a kiddy of seven
living with people she didn’t know. And how long was it
going to be before she could come home and be with her
mummy again? Nobody knew.
‘You’re Mrs Thomas’s girl, Polly!’ a cracked voice
exclaimed, making her jump. ‘I knowed you when you was a
little ‘un. Come back to stop with your ma then, I hear.’
‘Mrs Kinch!’ Polly said, stopping. ‘Yes, we were bombed
out of “our house, so me and Cissie and her husband, and
their Judy, have all come back to April Grove. It seems
funny, being back where I was born,’ she added, glancing
along the street where she had played so often as a child.
‘Ah, I remember you two, skipping and playing two-ball
up against the walls.’ The old woman looked just the same
as always, Polly thought, her thin grey hair wound tightly
into metal curlers and covered with a brown net. ‘My Nancy
often talks about you - she’ll be pleased you’re back. You
can come in and have a cuppa tea with us one of these days,
have a bit of a chinwag about old times.’ She peered at
Polly’s green uniform. ‘You joined up then, have you?
Which Service is that?’
‘It’s not one of the Armed Services. It’s the WVS - die
Women’s Voluntary Service. Anyone can volunteer,’ Polly
said proudly. ‘We do all sorts of things - help people who’ve
been bombed out, run tea-stalls down by the docks, take
children to be evacuated, collect scrap - anything that needs
doing. Nancy could join if she wanted to,’ she added a little
doubtfully.
Granny Kinch cackled. ‘My Nancy’s already doing her
bit towards the war effort,’ she said, confirming Alice’s
remarks about Nancy Baxter. ‘But you carry on, young
Polly, there’s plenty of other comforts our boys need these
days. Anyway, I can’t stand here nattering all day, I got our
Micky’s dinner to get. He does a bit of work down Charlotte
Street market; brought home a nice string of pork sausages
last night, he did, and he’ll expect ‘em on the table when he
comes in.’ She grinned toothlessly at Polly and went
indoors.
Polly opened the door of number nine and went inside,
smiling. Her brother-in-law was in his armchair, a piece of
canvas spread over his knees as he hooked bits of coloured
material into it. ‘Hello,’ he said, ‘what’s tickled you?’
‘Granny Kinch. Just said she couldn’t stand nattering at
the front door all day. I thought that was all she ever did!
You know, she doesn’t look a scrap different from how she
looked when I was a little girl - I think she must have been
born toothless and with curlers in her hair.’
Dick grinned. ‘I don’t know about the curlers but I
expect she was born toothless. Look, what d’you think of
my rug? Bit of all right, isn’t it? I’m getting proper nifty
with this hook.’
‘You are,’ Polly said, admiring it. ‘Some family’s going to
be pleased with that to put in front of their fire.’ She sighed and sat down in the other armchair. ‘It’s awful, though,
Dick, when you think of it. I’ve just been down to see Mrs
Budd about those two little Simmons girls. There must be
hundreds of kiddies like them, lost their homes and parents.
It’s so tragic’
‘You weren’t much older when you lost your own dad,’ Dick said, ‘so you can understand what it’s like for them.
And it’s the same for your Sylvie. D’you reckon you’ll be
able to get out to see her soon?’
‘I hope so. It’s just that with everything so upside down
all over the city, and now we’ve got all this snow, there’s
hardly any trains or buses running and they’re needed for
getting people evacuated.’ She looked into the fire, thinking
of her daughter. ‘I’m glad I had her home for Christmas. At
least we all had a few days together then for Terry’s bit of leave, but I’m even more glad I made her go back. I felt
awful when she begged me to let her stay, but it was the
right thing to do.’
Dick rolled up his work and got up. He went out to the
scullery and filled the kettle. The gas was back on now, as
well as the electricity, and soon the kettle was whistling and
he made the tea and brought in two cups.
‘Here. You look a bit done up. It’s upset you, talking to
Jess Budd.’
‘I think it has, a bit.’ Polly stirred a saccharin tablet into
her tea and sipped it. ‘I want to help, Dick, and I’m glad I
joined the WVS, but it does bring it home to you what
terrible things are happening. Not that we need it bringing
home to us - I think we’ve had our share already. But it
seems worse, somehow, when it’s other people. You can see
that some of them just can’t cope with it. It’s in their eyes they look sort of lost and bewildered. They’re like little
children.’
‘It’s shock,’ Dick said. ‘I’ve seen plenty of it, Polly.
They’ll be all right after a bit - at least, they would be if
they had a chance of some peace and quiet. But that’s just
what we don’t get, isn’t it?’
She shook her head. ‘It’s as if the Germans are just
banging away at us all the time. They knock us down and
then hit us again, just as we’re getting up. Nobody gets a
chance to recover from one blow before the next one knocks
them for six. You just don’t know what’s going to happen
next.’ She glanced up at the mantelpiece. ‘Is that a letter for our Judy?’
Dick nodded. ‘Came by second post. Got an Irish stamp
on it. I dare say it’s young Sean’s mother - she writes now
and then, doesn’t she?’
‘Yes, she does. Perhaps she’s got some news from Sean. I
know Judy’s been a bit worried, not hearing from him just
lately.’ Polly looked round as the front door opened and
closed again. ‘I expect that’s her now. There’s a letter here
for you, Judy,’ she called.
Judy burst into the room, her face alight. ‘A letter? From
Sean?’ She held out her hand for the envelope Polly was
taking down from the mantelpiece, and as she caught sight
of the stamp, the colour drained from her face. In the same
instant, Polly remembered her remark a few days earlier.
‘They wouldn’t let me know, would they - not straight away.
They’d send any telegram to his mum, over in Ireland. I’d have
to wait for her to write to me.’
‘Oh Judy,’ she said, getting up quickly. ‘Oh, Judy …’
Only Polly could give Judy any comfort during the dark
days that followed.
The Southampton, a cruiser, had been sunk on 11 January
- the day after the Blitz on Portsmouth. Perhaps, Judy
thought, Sean had been dying at the very moment she and
the family had crawled out of their Anderson and stared in
horror at the wreckage of their home. Or, if not then, it
must have been at some other moment during that dreadful
day - as they walked into the Emergency Centre, perhaps,
or while she was struggling to reach the Guildhall, or when
she came into the square and saw the great building going
up in flames, the copper melting in green streaks of fire
down its scorching walls … At some time during that day,
Sean, the merry Irish sailor she’d met and fallen in love with
at a South Parade Pier dance - the laughing young seaman
who had swept her off her feet, begged her to marry him
and given her the tiny diamond she was wearing on her
finger now - had died in the sea he had loved and which had
become his killer. Had he been thinking of her as he died?
Had he called her name, regretted that he would never see
her again? Or had he forgotten everything else in his
desperate struggle to stay alive?
‘It’s no good torturing yourself over it,’ Polly told her as
they huddled together on the single bed in Alice’s back
bedroom. ‘You’ve just got to do your grieving and then
come to terms with it. It’s hard - no one knows that better
than me - but you’ve got to do it.’
‘I can’t,’ Judy sobbed. ‘I can’t stop thinking about him,
Poll. What was it like? If only I knew, if only I could imagine it, I could feel I was sharing it with him then. I could feel that perhaps it wasn’t so lonely. I know that’s stupid, it can’t make any difference to him now - it couldn’t ever make any
difference to him. But it might help me to understand.’
‘I know. I know just what you mean.’ Polly stroked her