Unraveling (34 page)

When I could unscramble my brain, I nodded.

“You were screaming,” she said. “Just like the last time.”

I nodded again.

“Does this happen a lot?” she asked, her brown eyes wide with horror.

I nodded, still speechless.

“Katy,” she said softly, sitting on the edge of the bed. “No one should have to live like this.”

“I’m used to it,” I mumbled.

“Can’t you take some kind of medicine or something?”

I shrugged. “I can handle them.”

Karlie sighed. “If you cou
ld handle it, you wouldn’t have them.” She got up and went to the door. “If you need me, I’ll be in my room.”

I nodded and rolled onto my back, looking up at the smooth white ceiling.

She was right. I needed to do something about the nightmares. It had been two years and they weren’t going away. When I saw Sharon on Tuesday, I’d talk to her about it.

29

I won.
Jared’s text read.
I have a couple of interviews to do & then I’ll be on my way home. It’ll be late. So just go 2 bed.

“Jared’s going to be late,” I told Karlie. She was sitting at the kitchen table doing homework.

“I figured,” she sighed, closing her notebook. “Rodney called and he wants to practice, today.”

“Don’t you already practice four times a week?” I crossed my arms over my chest.

“Yeah, but we’re both perfectionists. We’ve already started practicing for our Christmas recital and he wants to make sure it goes off without a hitch.”

“I can drop you off at your ballet studio, if that’s what you really want to do,” I said.

“It is,” she got up from the table and started towards the living room. “I’ll be down in five minutes.

I text Jared back and waited for Karlie.

She came down with her hair pulled back in a tight bun with her leotard, and tights on. She had a bag slung over her shoulder. She put that down and pulled on a pale pink sweater and a pair of leggings. She checked her bag, making sure she had everything and said, “Let’s go.”

Karlie gave me directions to her ballet studio and I dropped her off at the front. I was surprised by the amount of people milling around. I guessed Karlie and Rodney weren’t the only dedicated ones.

“I’ll text you when I’m done,” she called over her shoulder.

I hopped out of the car and yelled across. “Karlie!”

“Yeah?” she turned around.

“You don’t have my number,” I laughed.

“Oh, right,” she said, walking back towards me and pulling out her phone. I rattled off my number to her. “We’ll probably be done in about two hours,” she smiled at me. “Rodney might be able to drop me off, he has a car, but sometimes he has to work.”

“Karlie, I’ll get you,” I insisted. I felt very protective of
Karlie; like she was my own sister and I didn’t want Rodney to try to take advantage of her.

“You sure?”

“I’m sure,” I answered.

I watched to make sure she got in the building okay before I drove away. I pushed the fancy button on my steering wheel and called Rollo.

“Rollo,” he answered.

“What are you up to?” I asked. “Are you busy?”

“I’ve just been laying around waiting for my baby cakes to call me. Now, that she has a stud muffin of a boyfriend, she ignores us little people.”

I snorted. “Stud muffin?”

“Would you prefer if I called him Hot Bod?” he joked.

“You’re full of it, Rollo. I just dropped Karlie off at her ballet studio-”

“Well, aren’t you just mommy dearest,” Rollo chuckled.

“Rollo!”

“Sorry, I had to say it,” he sputtered.

“I’m going to hang up on you,” I informed him.

“Don’t do that, baby cakes. We can work this out,” he purred.

“You are so full of it,” I
repeated.

“I’ll be on my best behavior for now o
n. What did you want?” He asked and I could picture him flipping his curly blonde hair back and forth.

“I wondered if you were free to get coffee and catch up? I’m going to call Piper, too,” I said, already driving towards the dorms.

“Of course I’m fah-ree,” he drew out the word. “Since my best friend has been absent, all I’ve done is homework. I’m a whole week ahead of the rest of the class.”

“Oh, gosh, I’m sorry
, Rollo. I’ve been a horrible friend.”

“Nah, you’ve got a man now, and you love him. I’m happy for you, really happy. You deserve that, Katy. I was worried you would never snap out of your funk.”

“He really does make me happy,” I whispered. “I thought I would be scared of men for the rest of my life, but Jared makes me feel safe.”

“What you and Jared have is a once in a lifetime kind of love. Hold it close, Katy, and never let it go,” Rollo spoke fiercely.

“I will,” I told him, suddenly feeling teary eyed. “I better call Piper.”

“I’ll watch out the window for you, it’s too cold to stand outside,” he said and hung up.

I called Piper and she wasn’t doing anything, so we decided to meet at the Starbucks where I had given her the notes during the first week of classes.

I parked at the dorm and a few minutes later, I could see Rollo’s curly
blonde head bobbing my way.

“Hey,” he said breathlessly, as he opened the passenger door.

“I’m sorry I’ve been a lousy friend,” was my reply as I backed out of the parking place.

“I didn’t mean to make you feel bad,” Rollo said as he buckled his seatbelt. “I was just kidding.”

“No, you were right. I’ve been neglecting you, and that’s not right. You’re my best friend; I shouldn’t let my boyfriend get between us.”

Rollo laughed. “Jare-bear can stand between us anytime, as long as I get to look at his delicious ass.”

I slammed on the brakes causing the guy in the car behind me to honk his horn. I snorted, “Rollo!”

“What? He has the most perfect ass that I’ve ever seen. I just want to cup it and squeeze it-”

“Oh God! I can’t listen to this!” I shook my head back and forth.

“Have you felt it? Please, tell me you have. I need details, woman, details!” Rollo
cried.

“
No!
Of course I haven’t!” I cried, my cheeks flaming.

“What the hell is wrong with you, girl? Feel it!”
Rollo cupped his hands in the air.

“I suddenly,
really
need to get out of this car,” I said as Starbucks came into view.

Rollo chuckled. “Your face is priceless. You never could take a joke, even before. You’re too sensitive.”

“I’m sorry if I don’t want to talk about Jared’s ass with you,” I spat. “You know I don’t talk about those kinds of things.”

“Precisely, that’s why it’s so fun to bug you about it. Your face and chest gets all red and splotchy.”

“You’re mean,” I tugged at my sweatshirt that suddenly felt too tight. I wanted it off.

I parked the car and got out, heading into the coffee shop. I locked the car, not even bothering to see if Rollo had gotten out.

I ordered my coffee and turned around to see that Rollo had made it out of the car in time.

I grabbed a table and waited for my order to be ready.

Piper came in, her long hair tamed back by a cute pink knit hat. She waved at me before breezing by and getting in line.

Rollo sat down
across from me with his tea and handed me my coffee.

“Thanks,” I said. I must have missed them calling my order out.

“You know I was kidding, right?” Rollo asked, breaking up the awkward silence between us.

“I know,” I squirmed in my seat. “I just got upset because most girls would be all over him and I’m not. What if he gets sick of waiting for me?”

“That’ll never happen,” Rollo said with conviction. “That boy is completely wrapped up in you. He
loves
you, and when you love someone the way he loves you, nothing else matters.”

“I guess,” I shrugged, looking at the tile floor.

“Baby cakes, look at me,” Rollo commanded.

I reluctantly lifted my chin.

“Look at how far you’ve come, Katy. You’ll get to that point, eventually, and Jared will be there waiting for you and that day will make him the happiest man alive, because I know my girl is going to blow his mind.”

“Rollo!” my cheeks flamed.

“What did I miss?” Piper asked, taking the seat between Rollo and me.

“Nothing!” I cried.

“I was just telling, baby cakes, that eventually she’s going to want to have sex with Jared and when she does, she’s going to rock his world.” He leaned conspiratorially towards Piper and whispered under his breath, but loud enough for me to hear, “It’s always the quiet ones that are freaks beneath the sheets.”

My forehead hit the table with a loud thump and I prayed for a sudden death. I was a few seconds away from finding the nearest rock and climbing under it.

Piper and Rollo laughed.

I wanted to hit them both.

“I’m never speaking to either of you, ever again,” I lifted my head from the table. “All you do is embarrass me.”

“You know
, you love us,” Rollo made a kissy face.

I narrowed my eyes. “Change the subject and then I will love you.”

“Fine,” he huffed.

~***~

Once Rollo stopped talking about my non-existent sex life, I actually enjoyed myself.

I was surprised by how much time had passed when Karlie text.

I dropped Rollo off and picked her up.

“How’d it go?” I asked.

“If you’re asking if he tried to make a move, the answer is no,” she smiled. “I think his ego can only take being shot down so much.”

I couldn’t help laughing even though I felt sorry for the kid.

Darkness was descending on the sky.

“What do you want to do for dinner?” I glanced at Karlie.

“Honestly?” she laughed. “I really want some Chef Boyardee Ravioli. I’m craving the stuff.”

“Ravioli it is,” I said, pulling in the driveway.

The house was dark and I immediately began flicking on the lights. I hated the dark. After that was done, I closed the blinds. Karlie was already in the kitchen microwaving her dinner. I decided I’d have some too and opened a can, dumping the contents into a bowl. A little bit of the red tomato sauce sloshed out onto the counter and I quickly wiped it off.

Karlie ate half of her bowl of ravioli and said, “I’m really tired. I’m going to bed. I’ll see you in the morning.”

“Night,” I said as she finished cleaning her bowl.

I
finished eating, washed my bowl, and sat down to watch some TV.

I was going to try to stay awake until Jared came home. I didn’t want to wake Karlie up by screaming again.

I kept nodding off, my exhaustion from the night before catching up to me.

I was in the space between awake and asleep, when the front door opened, scaring the crap out of me.

A startled shriek escaped my lips and I fell off the couch with a thump.

“Katy!” Jared exclaimed, a look of horror on his face as he watched me fall.

“Ow,” I rubbed my head where I bumped it on the floor. That was going to leave a nasty mark.

Jared’s hand closed around my arm and he hauled me up, brushing my hair back from my forehead.

“Are you okay?” he asked, his thumb gliding over the bump on my forehead.

“My head hurts,” I replied.

“Here, sit down,” he helped me back on to the couch. “Let me get you an icepack.”

I heard the freezer door open and close.

A moment later, the couch dipped down beside me and Jared pressed the icepack to my head. I winced at the cold temperature.

With one hand still holding the icepack he draped the orange blanket around my shoulders.

“I told you to go on to bed,” he chuckled. “You didn’t need to wait up for me.”

I looked at the clock on the cable box and saw that it was
after midnight. “I didn’t want to wake Karlie up,” I whispered.

“Why would you- Oh,” he said. “They haven’t gone away?”

“No,” I shook my head. “The only time I don’t have them, is when I’m with you,” I said, softly.

“See, you’re just going to have to move in,” he joked. “Problem solved.”