Unscripted (30 page)

Ronan wrapped his arms around my waist, lifting me and gently placing me on my back. He shoved his cock into my slick slit, parting me open, and began fucking me slowly with rolling thrusts. Intensity flared in his eyes. He lowered his head, sucking and licking my breasts, making me quiver with pleasure.

“
You taste so good. Your bare skin against mine… I’ve never felt anything so hot in my entire life, Holliday.”

I gasped as he began to drive deeper inside me, his hips working effortlessly, rocking my body into a state of euphoria.

“
My God you are stunning,” he whispered. “I need you, Holliday.”

“
Ronan,” I panted. “Don’t stop,
ever
.”

He drove into me, filling me generously, demanding my orgasm.

“
Holliday, I’ll never stop. Nothing on Earth will keep me from touching your insanely gorgeous body.
You
are mine.
I
am yours.” His words were like foreplay to me as he groaned with grittiness in that sexy accent.

I felt all the muscles in my body tighten and convulse all at once as he pounded me furiously. I exploded, releasing around Ronan with pulsing vibrations and quick spasms. I cried out his name, and the echoes lingered loudly, vibrating off of the bare walls in the room.

“
I love watching you come apart,” he breathed. “And I love knowing every gasp, moan and heated cry that leaves your mouth is because of me.”

Ronan raised up his body a bit, clutching my hips tighter and bringing me closer to him, continuing to power into my stirring sex. I gripped his arms tightly, trying to hang on as he spread me wider. Ronan was so deep inside me, I felt as if he might break me in half. He gripped me tightly as his whole body jerked. Ronan poured into me, whispering in my ear, “I love you, Holliday.”

While Ronan was still inside me, I squeezed around him, and he sucked in a breath.

“
I feel you, Holliday, all of
you,
and it’s the sexiest goddamn thing in the world.”

We fell back to the blanket, and he pulled out of me. The movement sent shockwaves rippling through my pussy.

“
I never knew it could be like this, Ronan,” I said through gasps, trying to regain my normal breathing. Nothing I ever thought I knew about love had ever been like
this
. Not one thing.

“
Ever since I met you…” he paused. “I believe, my beauty, you’ve stirred feelings deep inside me… feelings I forgot even existed.”

I curled into Ronan, watching the lights from the fireplace flicker across the empty walls. My eyes became heavy. The last thing I heard was, “Sleep now, Holliday.”

My eyes fluttered open to find Ronan staring at me. He must have been watching me sleep.
That’s pretty romantic, right?
Ronan propped himself up on his elbow, caressing the curve of my body. “I love your body, Holliday. The pleasure of physically driving you insane and out of your beautiful mind is all mine.”

I touched his face, running my finger the length of his jaw. “You cannot be real, Ronan Connolly,” I hummed. “Doesn’t this seem like a dream? I feel like every morning reality will sweep in, and
this
,” I motioned my hand between our naked bodies, “Will all have been a glorious fantasy conjured by my lustful creative brain.”

“
My beauty, until I met you my life seemed to be scripted, planned out in an orderly controlled fashion.” He pulled me into his chest, wrapping the soft blanket around us. “Ronan, do this, do that for the good of your career. Now, every day is new and exciting. I never know what’s going to happen when I’m with you, Holliday.”

Hearing the romantic words pour from Ronan’s lips made me realize how so much of his life had been a programmed maneuver. From his marriage to Emma Bailey-Wilson to his relationship with Heather Young, even Leah had been career strategy in Emma’s eyes.
“Ronan, I love you, and the reason I know this is because I’m scared, scared of losing you and terrified this is all happening so fast. It worries me.”

“
I understand. My life is a bit chaotic. As you said, I live in Hollyweird,” he chuckled.

“
Not anymore.” I corrected him. “You live here now.” I tipped my head up and reached my hand around the base of his neck, pulling his face to mine. “Ronan,
this
is your home now.”

He brushed his lips to mine, kissing me softly. “Holliday, what will it take to get you to move in here with me and make this
our
home?”

“
Ronan, seriously do not pressure me. I need some time to think about your offer. I just told you I was scared.”

“
I know you’re scared, but I will protect you. You’ll never have to worry about a thing if you let me take care of you.”

Ronan was starting to piss me off. I understood he had this need to take care of me and protect me, but I’d told him I did not want to be his cause. I stood up and started to put my clothes on. He was making me feel like I
needed
to be taken care of, like I was incapable of surviving without him.

“
Holliday, what are you doing?”

“
I’m getting dressed because I need to get out of here,” I snapped.

“
Are you running away from me?”

“
No, but if you don’t stop forcing this moving in together issue on me, I’m going to lose my mind,” I replied. “Besides, Ronan, you need to talk to your daughters, don’t you think?”

“
About what?” he huffed, pulling his jeans over his hips.

I shot him an annoyed look. “About moving your lover into your home, a woman you’re considering cohabitating with who is
not
their mother.”

“
Firstly, Holliday,” he said gruffly. “You are more than just my lover. Let’s get that straight
right
now.” He shut off the fireplace and grabbed his jacket. I was fully dressed and ready to leave. “I want us to be in each other’s lives. I want you and
only
you. How many times to I need to explain this to you?”

“
Ronan, take me home please.” I felt my eyes welling up.

He looked at me confused. “Home with me to The York?”

“
I… I think I need some time for myself.” I lowered my head and felt my pulse start to race. “I have a lot to consider.”

“
Holliday, you cannot be serious.” His eyes darkened as he pleaded with me. “Why are you saying this?”

“
I need to be away from you and this dream world. I need to be sure this is real and that I’ve not built up some unattainable fantasy where you’re concerned in my head.”

We started to walk downstairs. Ronan stopped and turned back. “You say you love me, so why do you want to leave me?”

Hot tears streamed down my cheeks. “Ronan, I’m not leaving you. I need some space. Please understand I need to get my head on straight before I get in deeper with you.”

“
Holliday, please…
please
don’t do this… my heart can’t take it.” He touched my cheek, brushing the tears away with this thumb as I kissed his palm.

“
Please Ronan, just let me do this,” I said softly.

“
If time is what you need, I will give it to you. It won’t change my mind. I won’t stop loving you, Holliday Prescott. You are mine. I am yours.”

Not falling asleep next to Ronan was unbearable. I sobbed and cried all night. I barely slept. I was completely and utterly miserable. All I could hear was the sound of Ronan’s sad voice telling me he loved me over and over in my head. Being in my room at Charlotte’s was so foreign to me. I got up in the middle of the night and sat at my desk, poring over my mail and day planner. I had been so wrapped up in my dream world with Ronan that I’d even forgotten to pay some of my bills. On top of that, I’d never called Dr. Goodwin to set up an appointment. Somewhere around three in the morning I managed to fall asleep, but I woke up in a panic to check my phone and see if Ronan had called me. There was nothing.

I sat at my sister’s conference table in her office and listened to her scold me over lunch the next day. “Holliday, I can’t believe you just walked out of Ronan’s life after he offered you his love and a place to call home,” my sister snapped.

“
Sis, I know you don’t understand, but I need some reassurance that a life with Ronan is a real possibility,” I said as I took another bite of my salad. “Can a person really love someone so deeply after only a week?
Hello? Cliché much for insta-love?”

“
Sounds to me like you’re running scared, and you’re looking for an excuse,” Charlotte huffed while crossing her arms.

My sister’s words were not lost on me. There may have been a hint of truth to what Charlotte was suggesting. On the other hand, I could just be an indecisive woman who happened to have trust issues when it came to men.

“
Charlotte, what would you have me do? I think my head should be on straight before I go moving in with a guy I’ve known for less than two weeks.” I let out a deep sigh. “Even though it feels like I’ve known him for years.”

“
Okay, you might have a point, but what you just said, that right there should tell you something, Holliday.” My sister stood up and threw her empty salad container in the trash. She walked to her mirror and tucked her straight blonde hair behind her ears.

“
Charlotte, how did you know that Lucan was absolutely without question the man for you?” She slowly turned around, leaning against the front of her desk, drumming her red nails against the curve.

“
I just felt it, sis.” Her blue eyes widened and a sweet smile crossed her glossy full lips. “Lucan offered me unconditional love. I loved him more than I’d ever loved anyone.” She stood up and smoothed her white shift dress, adjusting the black belt around her waist. “When we were apart it was brutal. Sometimes I felt like I couldn’t breathe on my own unless he was next to me.”