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“Let them talk,” Ash said dismissively. “What does it matter what they say?”

She let out a faint huff. “They'll imagine that we fancy one another.”

He felt a smile curl his lip, and he let his hand slip down her waist, to rest against the base of her spine.
“Then they'll imagine the truth, won't they? I fail to see the problem.”

She looked up at him. “But they'll use it against my brothers. If popular sentiment has us caught up in romantic trysts, minds will immediately jump to matrimony. Those who wish to see my father's bloodline continue in the dukedom might accept a continuation through the female line. This could materially harm my brothers' chances.”

Margaret solemnly looked up at him as she spoke. Ash weighed his next words carefully. He didn't want to offend her, and yet he could hardly countenance lying. “I still fail to see the problem. You may recall that I oppose your brothers' suit in Parliament. I am
trying
to materially harm their prospects.”

She merely looked puzzled.

“Truly, Ash,” she said, “I— You can't mean what you just said. I know you wouldn't use my affection for you as a tool to achieve your own ends.”

She sounded so certain. But he'd had two months—two
damned
empty months—to think of this. To contemplate what he was missing. To imagine what he would say when he saw her again.

“I know you,” she was saying. “You would never use me this way. You wouldn't.”

“You've forgotten. If I'm Duke of Parford, I'll be able to do
anything
for my brothers. If I pursue you openly, it raises the chances I'll become duke. I want you. I want the dukedom. It turns out, my interests coincide and I can have both.” He looked her in the eyes. “I intend to do so.”

She didn't look away. Instead, her eyes sparked and her lips compressed. “How efficient of you.” Her hand
pressed into his shoulder, cutting more deeply than it ought in a polite waltz.

He merely smiled at the epithet. In the months since he'd last seen her, he'd thought far worse things. He hadn't enjoyed the separation. Particularly as it was altogether unnecessary. He had only managed patience because his instinct had whispered that she would still be his.

He could wait. He could wait a little while longer for her.

“You told me once I was cheerfully ruthless.” He looked down into her eyes. “After two months without you, I'm not feeling quite so bloody cheerful, myself. If it takes ruthlessness, I'll be ruthless. But yes, Margaret, I will have you.”

She swallowed and looked away. “You told me once I had only to ask. Ash, I've made my choice. I'm asking you now: if you care for me at all, don't make overtures to me. This is tearing me to pieces. Leave me be, because I request it of you.”

He was calm. He was patient. So why did his left hand, holding her, cramp with the effort of not squeezing her to him? He let out a sigh. “Your request is denied,” he replied.

Her breath hissed in.

“I'll apologize a thousand times, but leave you be? No. If I thought you truly indifferent, I would surely step away. But you are not indifferent. You are not even unwilling. You are just—temporarily—unavailable. And I'll be damned if I give you up.”

“Don't.” She looked away. “Don't do this to me. Not when I can't stamp away without occasioning even more talk. What you're doing—it's not sporting. I have never used anything you told me as fodder for my
brothers' suit in Parliament. Not even when I thought that all you wanted was to seduce me into your bed.” She looked up at him. “I could have used you, Ash. I could have. So don't you do this to me.”

Ash bit his lip. It turned out he was just not a well of patience. He'd won her affections. After two months spent without her—after two months when she'd walked away from him—he was actually a little angry.

“Tell me,” he said as he spun her about, “tell me I am not the best thing that has ever happened to you. Tell me you don't wish to have me in your life. Tell me I don't belong.”

She didn't look at him. But she was silent. He felt an almost grim satisfaction, even though winning an argument under those circumstances was all victory, no triumph.

Still, as the musicians brought the piece to a close, he leaned in and whispered into her ear. “That is what I thought, Margaret. Don't
you
do this to yourself.”

 

T
HE SILENCE IN THE CARRIAGE
after the ball was almost unbearable. Margaret sat, the dark enfolding her, silently glad that she could not see her brothers' faces.

“The good news,” Richard said, “is that we have been positively inundated with invitations.”

Margaret bit her lip.

Edmund responded. “The bad news is, it is because everyone wishes to see you and Turner again. Margaret, what could you have been thinking? Talking with him. Introducing him to your friends. Dancing with him.”

“What was I supposed to do? It would have been dreadfully impolite to refuse. It would have created a scene.”

“And it wasn't a spectacle when he practically kissed
you in front of everyone?” Edmund snapped. “At a minimum, you ought not to have appeared so eager to comply. Everyone is talking—absolutely
everyone.
Have you any idea what could happen if the gossips start marrying you to Ash Turner in their minds?”

“It was a waltz, not a wedding!”

Edmund sighed. “It's never just a waltz, Margaret. Matters are already touch and go, even without this latest complication. For one, we had thought Forsyth would support our suit.”

The current Lord Forsyth was their mother's brother. He'd always seemed an indulgent, loving uncle. Indeed, he had doted on his sister, and by extension, his sister's offspring. He was the last person Margaret could imagine supporting Ash Turner.

“But no,” Edmund continued. “He's furious at Father for what he did, and he's all too aware that with the marriage between Mother and Father dissolved as if it had never happened, the sixty thousand pounds that had been set aside for Mama's lawful female offspring reverts to him. He has convinced a group of five others to vote down the bill.
Your
sixty thousand pounds means that we need every last one of the undecided votes. We can't have you squandering a single one out of misguided romanticism.”

“Edmund,” Richard said gently, “she can't be held to account for the money, at least.”

Margaret shook her head, but in the dark, nobody could see her denial. She shut her eyes, but it didn't help. Darkness was darkness, and there was no guidance either way. “I don't want to choose between you and Ash.”

Edmund made an exasperated noise. “Don't be a naive little goose, Margaret. This is not about what you
want. Everyone
is choosing between us. That's what this act in Parliament is about—it's about the lords choosing either Turner or Richard. And this, now, is about choosing your future. Do you want to be a bastard all your life? Do you want to be ostracized from society for the remainder of your years? Choose out of selfishness, for God's sake. You know that until you've been legitimized, unthinking people will forever be giving you the cut.”

Lady Cosgrove sprang to mind. “Small hardship,” Margaret said with asperity. “If unthinking people won't talk with me, then I shall make friends with people who think. Which, oddly enough, seems like a good idea to begin with.”

“La-di-da,” Edmund said, his tone reminding her of their father. “Would you listen to that show of logic? If you won't think of yourself, then think of us.”

Richard sat next to her. At those words, he reached over and gave her hand a squeeze. “He doesn't mean it,” he whispered. “He is only so rude because he is so very, very worried.”

If it had just been Edmund, she might have been tempted to give in to Ash. Even though he was her brother. Even though she loved him. Even though she knew she would regret such a hasty dismissal later.

But Richard… He didn't always think about what he did, but when he actually took notice, he stood by her. He had never deserted her. And if she ruined this for him, he would be a bastard. He would have a little money—a few thousand pounds, enough to scrape by, but by no means what he deserved. And while Ash had once offered her father more, she was not sure the offer was still open—or that Richard would accept it if it were made.

But both Ash and Edmund had urged her to think of herself. When she thought of
herself,
it wasn't legitimacy or money that came to mind. It wasn't even Ash himself. It was, instead, the gift that Ash had given her back at Parford Manor: the solid, sure certainty that she was someone worth having. That she was better than her father.

If she did to her brothers what their father had done to them, she could not be so certain any longer. Family didn't betray family.

She swallowed and shut her eyes. Edmund was right. It was foolish to imagine that she could avoid a choice. “What must I do?” she asked weakly. But she already knew the answer.

“People are talking already. You need to give them something substantially less romantic to discuss. We've been invited to the Rutledges' rout,” Edmund said. “Turner will be there. And the instant he sets eyes on you, you are to give him the cut direct.”

M
ARGARET ENTERED THE
Rutledges' town house filled with dread. She'd had days to consider what she needed to do. She just didn't want to do it.

She could feel all of society's eyes on her, could feel the lascivious interest that rose around them. She was swept away by a flood of colored evening gowns and dark suits. All she had to do was turn away from Ash when she saw him and pointedly show her lack of interest.

So simple—and yet so impossible.

She hadn't realized quite how impossible it was until she finally saw him in the crowd. He caught sight of her. And all of her worst fears came true as he looked up at her and gently, oh, so gently, smiled. He
smiled
when he saw her. That should not have felt like such a death knell. But it made what she had to do so much more of a betrayal—a betrayal of not just her own desires, not merely his inclinations, but of something precious between them.

She didn't smile back. She looked away. Those two things sent a rush of murmurs through the watching crowd—as if she had just been merely impolite, instead of utterly false. But not looking at Ash was as impossible as not inhaling. No matter how hard she tried to hold back her next breath, the best she could hope was
to delay it for a while. All the while, her lungs burned. She ached all over. And Ash…

Oh, Ash. Through the corner of her eye, she could see him advancing on her.

Of course. Her brothers' plan was sheer idiocy, and she should have known it. Strict rules of propriety governed the interactions between men and women. There were books devoted to the art of turning away men one didn't wish to address. A complicated dance that everyone adhered to. But Ash had never read those books.

Trying not to love him was improbable. Keeping him from loving her? Now that was downright impossible. Why, oh, why, of all the men in the world, did Ash have to be
this
one? He was trying to destroy her brothers. He'd broken her heart twice over and had mended it again, better than new.

He was only a few yards away from her now. “Lady Margaret?” There was a calm, cool confidence in his voice. He knew she would turn. He knew she would look at him. He had no doubts. He never did.

And he would never stop trying, just because she looked in another direction.

There was only one way Margaret could respond. She turned and ran.

A crescendo of babble rose about her in full-voiced speculation as she darted through the crowd. She ducked through a side door, almost invisible in the ornate carving of the ballroom. She found herself in the servants' quarters. As soon as she went through the door, she knew it wasn't enough. He would follow her. He would find her here. She couldn't face him, couldn't talk to him.

She grabbed a nearby door handle and wrenched
it open. A tiny storeroom stood behind the door, little more than a closet where the household kept decorations and table linens. She stepped inside and pulled the door shut behind her.

Darkness enveloped her. Darkness and blessed silence.

Only then did she put her head in her hands. Rubbing her eyes did nothing to obliterate his image in her mind. She could still feel his smile against her skin, as if it were a tangible thing. That wicked, horrible, inescapable smile. Oh, who was she fooling? That lovely, insane, undeniably attractive smile. Pulling her arms about herself could not erase the feel of his hands, big and strong, on her shoulders.

She felt both utterly humiliated and sick at what she had done to him.

How long was she going to have to stay in this darkened storeroom? Long enough for the gossip to die down. Minutes, certainly. Hours, perhaps. She rubbed her temples. She should have just jumped in a fountain and had done with it.

Half an hour later, the humiliation hadn't subsided. Instead, her legs were cramped; there was not even enough room to sit, not with all her skirts. She had just about convinced herself she could safely show her face, when a polite knock sounded on the door. It was so ridiculously incongruous—that knock, on a storeroom. It could be only one person.

She shut her eyes and waited, but of course Ash didn't go away. Instead, he knocked again.

“Margaret,” he said gently. And then, even more quietly: “Please. I know you'd like me to keep my distance—but I don't believe it's possible.”

She opened the door. He slouched against the
doorjamb. His cravat was crooked. She wanted to bury her head against his chest and hold him close. She wanted to run away again. She'd have done the latter, except he was standing in her way.

“Ash, are you trying to destroy my reputation? If we're seen together alone, it won't be marriage they'll imagine we're after. And the gossip would not help either of us—not you, for using me so, nor my brothers, for their scandal of a sister.”

He nodded gravely. “You make an important point,” he said. “I must respect your wishes.” But instead of leaving, he stepped into the close confines of the room with her, pulling the door shut behind him. Her skirts squished against him.

Oh, God. She could feel the heat wafting off him. He couldn't have kept his distance, not in the tiny space allotted for storage. His limbs brushed hers. His hands covered hers in the dark.

“Forgive me for my social ineptitude. What are the rules of etiquette,” he asked conversationally, “for conversations in a closet?”

“One ought never have them.”

He nodded once. “Sensible enough. I agree.”

He stepped closer to her. His eyes, rendered mahogany by the dimness, sought hers.

“You agree? Then why aren't you leaving?”

“Hush,” he said. “You just told me: closets are not for conversing.”

He put his hands on her shoulders. He lifted one hand and brushed a wisp of hair from her face. She could barely see him, but in the close confines of the closet, she could feel her skirts bunch as he leaned into her. She had every chance to move away, every chance
to shove him six inches and have him land atop the pile of rags on the floor.

She didn't do it.

When his lips touched hers, they were soft and sweet. When his arms wrapped around her, she rested against him. She drank him in, like water after a long thirst. He didn't say a word, just kissed her. Tongue touched tongue. Hands entwined with hands. His body was so familiar, and she needed him, desperately. He pulled back from her briefly.

“Ash.” Margaret knew her voice was trembling. “Why are you doing this?”

“Because I adore you. Because you looked so stricken when I saw you and I couldn't bear not to comfort you.” His voice was warm breath against her skin. “Did you know, when you left that room, you took all the light with you?”

“Stop,” she said. “Stop trying to seduce me.”

He smoothed back her hair against her forehead. “If I were trying to seduce you, Margaret, I'd have done it by now.”

“In here? But—there's no room to actually do that.”

His breath hissed out. “I should have done it sooner,” he said. “I should have done it more, and Mrs. Benedict be damned. No room to seduce you?”

His hands came down on her hips, hard, but not painfully. And then he was lifting her up and holding her against the wall. He pulled her bodice down as far as it would go, exposing the tip of one nipple. “No room? Margaret, we don't have to lie down for me to do this.” And then his mouth was on her breast, his tongue swirling around it. She gasped and shivered. But he did not relent. Instead, he brought his hand up
to cup her bottom, pulling her into him, grinding her against the hard ridge of his erection. She wrapped her legs around his, bringing herself that much closer, and his hand crept beneath her skirts, sliding aside her drawers to dip into the warmth between her legs.

“Tell me we need to be lying down for me to do this,” he said, his finger sliding inside her passage. “I can still feel you, can I not?” And then he adjusted her weight against the wall behind her and undid his breeches. She could feel the hard tip of him against her, blunt and powerful.

He sucked on her nipple again, and sensation swirled through her.

“And you already know we need not lie down for this.”

She said nothing, throwing her head back.

“Tell me you don't want this.”

“I want it.” The words jerked from her, unwillingly. But she couldn't lie to him.

He entered her. Slowly. Surely. Her body adjusted to his thickness. Then his hand slipped between her legs, touching, rubbing. And finally, he began to thrust, pushing her against the wall as he did so. Her senses danced. She felt pleasure build and burn, build and burn, until it overtook her, and she was caught up in flames, aware of nothing but his touch, his slow heated slides. Their joining now, when she needed to tear them asunder.

It was both beautiful and ugly, the pleasure that rose up. White-hot radiance filled her, melding them into one indivisible being. Her hands clenched and the entire world washed away.

Just as she was gasping against his chest, he slammed inside her, hard. She clutched him tight.
For one moment, they stood, entwined in motionless wonder.

But as her breath stilled, all her doubts crept back. They weren't one. They were, indisputably, two.

But he didn't seem to notice. “There,” he whispered in her ear in satisfaction. “That is what we had room to do.”

“Ash.” Her voice trembled.

“Don't tell me you can't. Don't tell me you mustn't.”

“But—”

“No, Margaret. If you won't look at me in public, at least hold me in private.”

Nobody could see them. Nobody even knew she was here, that they were together. This wasn't a betrayal of her brothers—just a physical expression of something she did not dare say aloud.

And perhaps he finally recognized how delicate that balance was, because he held her tightly and did not say a word.

 

A
FTER
A
SH LEFT
M
ARGARET,
it did not take long for Richard Dalrymple to hunt him down. The man caught Ash's eye. His face was unreadable, cold as marble and twice as hard. But he raised his chin and jerked his head towards the veranda. There was something harsh and final in that movement, as if he had said,
Let's skip this Parliamentary rubbish and settle this like men.

A wonderful notion. Ash's fists itched to satisfy him. Dalrymple stepped out into the dark, and without glancing behind him to see if Ash followed, he disappeared. Ash didn't have to think long. It took him a few minutes to extricate himself from polite conversation, another few minutes to amble across the room without drawing untoward attention.

And then he slipped outside.

The veranda was not as dark as it had appeared from the ballroom. The flagstones were surrounded by a stone wall, on which lanterns had been placed. The lamps cast a hazy warmth in the winter chill, obscuring the gardens into black, plant-shaped silhouettes. Dalrymple slouched against the stones to his right, his arms folded. Ash could feel the heat of his glower before he made out the expression on his face. But if Dalrymple imagined he could do anything to intimidate a man six inches taller than he was, he was mad.

But what Dalrymple said, jerking his thumb into the darkness of the garden, was, “Fred is out there.”

“Fred? Who is Fred?”

“Frederick Talhuis, Earl of Indiver.”

The name sounded familiar, but Ash shook his head impatiently.

Dalrymple let out an exasperated sigh. “The one man in all of London who is a greater ass than you. Margaret's former fiancé. My former friend. You heard what she said. You know what he did.”

His temper, not quiescent to start, stirred at that. “And what do you propose we do?”

Dalrymple smiled. “Simple. We smash him to bits.”

“Two on one? One to hold him down, the other to beat his face in, I presume.” Ash shook his head. “I suppose that you're forgoing the Dalrymple five just to give him a sporting chance.”

“The Dalrymple five? I have no idea what you're talking about.”

“That is your typical mode of operation, isn't it? Five on one?”

“Still no notion, Turner. And very well. Have it your
way. I'll take care of the matter myself.” Richard turned to leave.

Ash grabbed his arm. “You don't stand a chance—I would say that you hit like a girl, but I wouldn't insult your sister.”

Dalrymple shook his head. “You don't want to fight him with me. You don't want me to fight him separately. Are all the Turners tangled up in such convoluted logic?”

“You misunderstand. I am going after him myself.” Ash shook his head. “And you can stay here. I don't care to deliver my justice in a pack.” He set off down the path.

Dalrymple scrambled after him. “Wait! You don't even know what he looks like!”

Ash didn't answer. He strode into the garden, until he caught the scent of cheroot smoke. The silhouette he made out against the oleander bush was shorter than Ash—shorter, skinnier and doubtless stupider.

There was an easy way to find out if this was the fellow he sought. “Indiver?” he asked.

“Ah. Turner. I was wondering when you would come, currying my favor. You've convinced a great many lords to take your part. You're almost to the halfway point, aren't you?”

Ash even disliked his voice. It had an oily, mellifluous sound to it.

He liked him even less when the man sighed. “You
are
quite wealthy, are you not?”

Ash stopped in front of the man. The tip of Indiver's cheroot glowed red, and Ash smelled acrid smoke.

“And,” Indiver continued, having no idea of the danger he was in, “you
do
need every vote you can muster. Do you not?”

Ash set his hand on the man's shoulder. “No,” he said, in as friendly a tone as he could manage. “I don't need
every
vote. I can spare this one.” Before Indiver could make sense of that, he drove his fist into the man's stomach. He barely had time to let out a gurgling cry before Ash followed his strike with a blow to the kidneys. Another—and then Indiver collapsed at his feet.