Up to Me (Shore Secrets) (4 page)

“I was just in the right place at the wrong time.” Gray thrust out his left hand, since both their rights were pretty battered from the fight. “Gray Locke.”

“Ward Cantrell.” They fumbled into an awkward shake, then immediately went back to clean up.

It was kind of surreal, trading off turns at the sink to rinse blood out of the towels in a room covered with floral wallpaper. Not to mention the cut glass bowl of potpourri on the toilet. To break up the weird vibe, Gray asked the question that had been circling his brain nonstop. “What’d you ever do to those guys?”

A snort came from Ward, muffled by vigorous toweling to get the blood out of his mustache. “Led them—along with the rest of the team—to four straight seasons as divisional high school football champions.”

Definitely a local. Gray looked at him again, frowning. The guy was pure muscle, head to toe. Burly enough to make the statement confusing. “Led them? You look more like someone who’d hold the line than a quarterback.”

“Not back then. I had the height, but not much else. Now, I spend my days hefting fifty-pound sacks of rye and barley. It bulks you up fast.”

“You’re a farmer?” Gray guessed.

Ward had leaned forward to check out the damage in the mirror, but at Gray’s question, he white-knuckled the edge of the sink. Clearly a story there. “Fuck, no. Not anymore, I mean. I own a distillery.”

So cool. Who didn’t dream about blending their own whiskey or vodka? Gray walked out to the closet to grab a clean shirt. “That’s awesome. Seriously. I’d love to come watch you work your magic one afternoon.” Gray would make the time. Work could wait. Although practically speaking, it might end up yielding some interesting research for the project.

“As long as you’re willing to pitch in, no problem. And you’ve proved that tonight already.”

Back to the fight. This night was turning out to be way more interesting than the Knicks game. He tossed his rugby shirt onto the antiquely fragile-looking desk chair and pulled on a black-faded-to-gray long-sleeved tee from a long-ago Nickelback concert. Tastes changed. Gray seriously regretted the concert. But he loved the shirt, and the memory of the girl he’d kissed that night. Aileen? Alicia? Shit. He sometimes remembered the kissing more than the name. Just like every other man on the planet.

“Don’t take this the wrong way, but I’d say you left high school in your wake almost ten years ago.”

“Yeah. But not them. For Bruce, Mike and Chuck, high school was the best part of their lives. They still go to the SLHS games every Friday night. You ask them their favorite team, and they won’t mention one in the NFL or MBA. Small-town pride burns damn deep. And they think I screwed over the town.” Ward wrung out the now-pinkish towel and draped it across the faucets. “They’ve never moved on. Which means that as long as I live on Seneca Lake, I don’t get to, either.”

Gray paused, one hand in his not-yet-unpacked suitcase. “Want to borrow a shirt?”

“Nah.” Instead, he just buttoned the flannel over the worst of the stains on the tee below.

“Want me to point you to the quickest way out of town?”

Disappearing as fast as it came, a grin slid over Ward’s face. “Nah.”

A sharp knock on the door spun them both around. Shit. It had to be the police. Ten minutes ago, he’d been prepared to march off to jail on a wave of victorious righteousness. Now, Gray just wanted to drown his aches in beer and get a fresh plate of nachos. Oh, and
not
have to call the company’s attorney and ask to be bailed out. Or explain to his boss how, after being in town for all of six hours, he’d blown his cover in a high-class bar, low-class brawl.

Ward jammed his hands in his pockets. “Might as well get it over with.”

“Yeah.” Now he wanted the soundtrack from
Stars Wars
to play—the creepy marching music of the Stormtroopers seemed about right. Resigned to his fate, Gray threw open the door, and felt his pulse skitter back into a normal rhythm.

A pimply kid in a splotched dishwasher’s apron stood on the other side. His hands were hidden beneath a folded tablecloth. Ward hurried forward. “We didn’t call for room service, Brandon. What are you doing here?”

“Dani sent me on a mission.” Self-importance practically pulsed from his clogged pores. “She entrusted me with—”

A brusque wave of Ward’s hand cut him off. “Shut it, kid. Leave off the role-playing lingo and just tell us why you’re here.”

The eagerness in his face melted into standard teenager sullenness. “You can come down in five minutes. Dani already put in an order for wings, nachos and loaded potato skins. They’ll be ready when you are.” He started to leave, then turned back. “Here. She didn’t want you to worry about it.” Gray’s iPad appeared from beneath the tablecloth.

“Thank God.” He hadn’t given it a second thought when he raced off to help Ward. But now he realized what a clusterfuck it would’ve been if it got into the wrong hands. All the confidential project information was on there. Ward shut the door as Gray sat on the couch and brought the tablet out of hibernation. He needed to be sure nobody had been on, had seen anything—the pages of stats and crunched numbers on Mayhew Manor, the bullet points on the surrounding town of Geneva. Or worse, the designer’s sketches of what might be built in its place if he pulled the kill switch on it. Sure, the password protect would’ve kicked on the minute it hibernated, but he still had to double-check. Couldn’t be too careful in his line of work.

With all the grace of a deployed missile, Ward dropped into a corner of the brocade sofa. The springs rolled in a wave formation beneath Gray in protest. Wood creaked. The old furniture looked right in the castle, but it had been built back when an average man clocked in at six inches less than his own lanky six feet.

“Well?” Ward prompted. “Did Brandon Skype with China? Download porn? Or is it all fine?”

Luckily, the only thing he’d left open was his personal email. And just then it pinged. A new message popped into view from the Elmhurst Federal Correctional Facility. Great. Just what he didn’t need anyone to see. Because who wanted to admit he got monthly emails from a prison? Gray powered down. “It looks to be untouched.”

“So nobody stole your iPad, we kicked some ass, and now Dani the Tight-Fisted is buying us dinner? I’d call this a good night.” Ward leaned over, slapped him hard on the back.

“Can I ask you something?”

“As long as you don’t ask to borrow money. Although if you’re staying in all this lavishness,” he waved his arm to encompass the two-room suite, from the elaborate plaster moldings to the velvet curtains, gilt-framed artwork and antique furniture, “I’d say the chances are better that I should be asking you for a loan.”

“I’ve stayed in my share of zero-star, one-ply-toilet-paper dumps. This is better,” Gray acknowledged.

“What’s your question?”

“You said those guys have had it out for you since high school, right?”

“Yeah. There was some shit that went down once I left for college. No skin off my nose to admit I screwed up, screwed some people over—at least in their minds.” Sighing, Ward scrubbed his hands through his hair. “I left for a while, but when I came back and tried to apologize, they wouldn’t hear it. Still had a bug up their collective butts. They seem to like hating me.”

That hit home for Gray. Or rather, was the exact reason why he
never
went home any more. Because he’d grown up in a town even smaller than this one. A fucking armpit of a town. A place where memories might fade, but grudges never did. “Why come back? I’m guessing you knew you weren’t going to get a hero’s welcome?”

Ward’s mouth twisted down. “Oh, yeah. No surprise there. But my dad died. Left me his farm. My ‘inheritance’.” He made air quotes with his fingers. “Millstone dragging me down was more like it.”

He had it easy. A farm, you could sell. Gray’s own personal hometown millstone couldn’t be gotten rid of, no matter how hard he tried. “Then why stay? In a town where people won’t forgive and forget?”

“Now I’ve got the distillery. Or at least, I’m making a go at it. Every town has an idiot or two—or three,” he corrected himself with a rueful grin, “to go around. There’s a lot of good people here, too. People who were willing to give me a second chance. Good friends.”

“Ah. That explains it. The magic ingredient that’s missing from my hometown.” Because all his so-called friends had dropped him years before Gray managed to finally hightail it out of there. They certainly hadn’t been willing to give him a second chance. If he went back tomorrow, after almost fifteen years, Gray knew he’d still find every door barred to him. Every face and window shuttered.

Ward pushed off the couch, gingerly tested his jaw. “‘Home is the place where, when you have to go there, they have to take you in.’”

Surprise almost tripped him halfway to the door. Not what Gray expected from the small-town, flannel-wearing man with muscles that looked like he could bench press a dump truck. “Did you seriously start the night with a bar fight, and now you’re ending it by quoting Robert Frost?”

“I’m a man of many sides.” Ward stroked his neat beard, a cartoonish impression of an ancient philosopher contemplating the human condition. Then he burst out laughing. “My friend Casey thinks I don’t read enough. She gave me a quote-a-day calendar for Christmas. That’s today’s. No clue if I’ll remember it by next week. Impressed you recognized it, though.”

“In college, I used to memorize lines of poetry to impress women.”

“Did it work?”

“Often enough that I still remember most of them.”

“Look, Seneca Lake is my home. For better or worse. Most of the time I can avoid Chuck and his clown posse.” He opened the door to the suite and led Gray down the hall to the main staircase. “With back-to-back games, I thought they’d be too drunk tonight to cause any trouble.”

“You knew they’d be here, and came anyway? Knowing it could get ugly? Why?”

“The cable’s out at my place.” Ward flashed a smile that would’ve been cocky, if it hadn’t reopened the cut on his lip. Blood beaded on his mustache. “And I don’t scare easy.”

Chapter Three

Ella had given up on sleep about two hours ago. Since then, she’d also given up on reading, television, pacing the round confines of her tower room, and decided that men were far more trouble than they were worth. Somewhere inside her, a switch had flicked this afternoon. A switch that let hormones sizzle and needs fizz all through her system. Now she couldn’t sleep. Couldn’t distract herself. Couldn’t do anything but think about Graydon Locke. The way his muscles rippled beneath all that tan skin.

Wine would help. Here in the Finger Lakes, it was widely believed that wine helped everything. Of course, she’d also thought that about reading, television and pacing. More to the point, then, was that wine couldn’t hurt. Ella hurried down the stairs, pausing a moment at the bottom to look through the peephole. Seeing the coast was clear, she pulled open the door.

A man’s body tumbled backwards onto her bare feet. One hand shot up into the air, clutching a wineglass. His other forearm thwacked loudly against the wooden step. Ella squealed, and instantly hated herself for it.

“God almighty, haven’t I gotten enough bruises tonight?”

Slumped with his head against her shins, Ella couldn’t see the man’s face. But she recognized the voice. Mostly because she’d been replaying it in her head all night. “Graydon?”

He twisted, let his head flop to the floor to look up at her. “Just Ella?”

Smart-ass. “That’s right.”

“This night’s taking a turn for the better. Usually my insomnia doesn’t come with a beautiful prize.”

Her heart, which had slowed its shocked overtime thumping, sped back up at his compliment. Since she hadn’t really been to sleep yet, her hair probably still looked decent, and she sported her new summer pj’s, pink-and-white-striped cotton pants with a matching tank. No makeup, but the muted backlight filtering down the stairs made that less of an issue. Ella sank to the step, hugging her knees.

“I’m not accustomed to entertaining uninvited visitors at two in the morning.”

“Well, I’m not accustomed to falling through walls.”

Oh. “The door to my room is hidden within the paneling. You’re not supposed to know it’s there.”

“Mission accomplished, trust me.” Gray rolled upright and propped himself against the side wall. “But if you’ve got a hidden door, shouldn’t you, oh, I don’t know, maybe knock to warn people you’re coming out?”

“I’ve got a little peephole. But I couldn’t see you. Were you sitting on the floor?” He nodded. “Maybe you shouldn’t have been using my door as a backrest.”

Gray held out his hand. “We’re both equally not to blame.”

“Deal.” They shook. And then he continued to hold her hand. Not that Ella minded. It was oddly intimate, huddled on the stairs, with a wall of darkness beyond the door. Here she’d been obsessing all night about seeing Gray again. Now they were touching, her hand enfolded in his, her toes brushing his warm thigh. For just a second, Ella wondered if she had managed to fall asleep. Had slipped into a lovely dream. Of course, a dream wouldn’t include the pain in her tailbone from sitting on the step.

He still said nothing. But now his thumb brushed slowly and rhythmically across the top of her hand. It sent tiny shivers, scurrying faster than nanites, through her bloodstream. Then she realized nanites were not a good conversation starter. Not unless he’d just watched the season seven DVD box set of
Stargate SG-1
like she had.

“What are you doing up at this ridiculous hour?” she asked.

“Couldn’t sleep.”

“Why not?”

“Lots of reasons.” Gray pointed to the butterfly bandage at the end of his eyebrow. “Had kind of an exciting night. Got in a fight. This cut’s the only visible proof right now. I expect by morning I’ll have enough purple splotches on me to stand in as a Jackson Pollock painting.”

“A fight? An actual fight with hitting?” Interesting. Surprising. It took bad-boy sandpaper to his so-far-smooth image.

“Mostly. A little kicking and hairpulling, too. Bunch of pansies.” He took a swig of wine. “Ward’s term for them, not mine. Apparently he knows them well enough to judge.”

“Ward?” Too coincidental, in a town this small, not to be her friend. “Ward Cantrell?”

“The very same. Three guys tried to take him, over nothing. I stepped in to even the odds.”

Ella thought back to the three screens of basketball she’d seen as she passed by the pub earlier. It wasn’t a huge leap to assume that Chuck, Bruce and Mike had come to watch the action. Why Ward would’ve come, knowing they’d be there and certain to hassle him, she couldn’t say. Why Gray would willingly put himself in danger to help a stranger, she also couldn’t say. “Ward’s one of my best friends. Thanks for helping him out.”

“Seems like a good guy. I don’t regret it. But I’ve got bruises on top of bruises, which makes it hard to sleep. Figured I’d take advantage of the open wine bottles I saw in the...” He circled his hand a few times, pointing out the door to the large room beyond, swathed in darkness.

“We call it the upstairs parlor.” A ridiculous name, seeing as how this wasn’t eighteenth-century London. Really, who used the word
parlor
anymore? Maybe she’d bring it up to Eugene tomorrow. Her hotel manager didn’t just welcome Ella’s input, he practically begged for it. Odd, since she had no official role in running the hotel. Still, Eugene insisted that since the hotel bore her name, Ella needed to stay involved. It kind of drove her nuts. But she loved him like a father and wanted to make him happy.

So she’d mention changing
parlor
to a word that didn’t remind people of the bad old days when indoor plumbing equaled chamber pots. The Manor might look like a castle on the outside, but inside it, guests expected modern luxuries. Free Wi-Fi and iPod docking stations in the clock radios, at the very least.

Gray took a long swig. Exhaled happily. “I call it genius. Free wine, day and night? Always out for the taking?”

“Mayhew Manor sells their own line of wine, so it’s good exposure. But the real reason for the wine buffet is that a good hotel always gives more than you expect.” Amazing how those tenets driven home by her parents popped out at the oddest times. Like now, sitting next to a gorgeous man who had already expressed annoyance at her encyclopedic delivery of facts this very afternoon.

Ella did not want to scare him away. She’d hesitated before, and missed her chance with Gray. It had been easy to shrug it off in the moment. Easy to tell Brooke as they closed up the spa together that it obviously wasn’t meant to be. That noticing and wanting a man, those were big enough steps for today. Deep down, though, Ella knew better. Graydon Locke had occupied her thoughts nonstop since walking out of the spa. She wanted to gaze her fill of those strong forearms dusted with dark hair. She wanted to feel again. And she wanted another chance with Gray.

It was a bad idea, of course. Unwise to get mixed up with a guest, period. One who’d check out before her next issue of
Redbook
arrived. About a mile past unwise. But it had been eighteen months of shattering grief, followed by another eighteen months of numbness. Ella deserved fifteen minutes of the spark in her eyes kindling a reciprocal ember in his.

“I definitely didn’t expect it. But I do appreciate it.” Gray took a swig. “Especially after my first fight in probably twenty years.”

“So...you’re celebrating?” she asked with a teasing grin.

“Hardly.” He tried to flex his raw knuckles. It drew a hiss of pain out of him before he’d barely begun. “This isn’t Manhattan. I can’t run out in the middle of the night and get a Percocet for my headache. I remembered the wine, and thought I’d try to self-medicate.” Gray lifted his glass to her. “Would you like a sip? This Malbec I’m drinking is more than decent.”

It was on the tip of her tongue to let him know that it, indeed, was far more than decent. Had, in fact, won medals in competitions from one side of the country to the other. But Ella bit back the fact parade, just reached for the glass, making sure to touch his strong, warm fingers in the process. “I’d love some.”

“Happy to share. Five minutes ago, I was sitting on the floor in the dark. Alone.” He gave a self-mocking laugh. “Thinking about how a thirty-one-year-old man should know better than to get in a fight. Or that maybe I should take up kickboxing.” A soft bump of his knee against hers. His leg stayed there, touching. Pressing. Searing through her thin, cotton pants. “Talking to you is better.”

His long, navy robe fell open. Ella wasn’t sure if she should look away. That lasted for about an eighth of a blink. Of
course
she wanted to look. Slowly, her gaze traveled up his long, tan legs covered in dark hair, up muscled thighs to...boxer briefs. Probably. Only the edge showed beneath the gap in the robe. Still, it was enough to get her thinking. Musing about everything she couldn’t see. Things she wanted to rub up against.

Instead, she blurted out, “You’re wearing a bathrobe.”

“It’s the middle of the night. Is there a dress code I don’t know about?” Gray smoothed the lapels. Too bad he wore a T-shirt beneath it. “A No Shirt, No Shoes, No Wine policy?”

Funny. Gray tugged smile after smile out of her with the same ease a magician pulled endless scarves from his sleeve. “Most people don’t take up the already limited space in a suitcase with a bathrobe. I’m trying to decide what it says about you.”

“Got any guesses?”

“Germaphobe?”

“Nope.”

She took a long drink. Savored the smooth tang of the tannins, while equally savoring the sight of his utter masculinity sprawled across her stairs. “Door-to-door bathrobe salesman?”

That surprised a short bark of laughter out of him. “Interesting guess.” He let his fingers trail slowly down the back of her hand, lingering before taking back the glass. “Got anything else?”

Why not go for broke. Throwing caution—and possibly her pride—to the wind, Ella looked up at him from beneath lowered lashes. “Underwear model?”

A dark eyebrow shot skyward. “You’re flirting outrageously with me, Ella.”

Quite true. Gray had apparently popped the tiny cork in the dam holding back three years of pent-up, ignored lust. The release threatened to overwhelm her. She held her breath. “Do you mind?”

“Not one bit,” he said in a slow, husky drawl. “More that I’m thinking I need to step up my half of the conversation.”

“In what way?”

“Well, I’ve been very remiss in not mentioning how cute you look with your hair all tousled.” He leaned forward, spearing his fingers through the long strands hanging behind her back. Along the way, he grazed her neck with his thumb. Goose bumps formed a path of stepping stones that, if Gray followed them, would lead straight to the very most erogenous of her zones. “Seeing it like this just makes a man want to play with it. Comb through its softness. Imagine it trailing across my chest—and what we could do to mess it up more.”

Her heart skipped a beat. Then hammered into double time to make up for it. “You catch up quick. I bet you used to rock the heck out of make-up tests in school.”

“I prefer to do things right from the start.” Gray kept one hand lazily brushing through her hair. With the other, he passed her the wine glass again. The hypnotic rhythm of his hand in her hair made her want to arch into his touch, to flutter her eyes shut and revel in the feel of it. But that would be an over-the-top reaction to such a simple touch. It might be a dead giveaway of her depressingly long streak of celibacy. So Ella resisted. “And I should’ve started by telling you how glad I am to have landed in front of you twice today.”

“Smooth talker.” While she drank, Gray tilted his head to study her. Handing the glass back, she asked, “Why the long look?”

“It occurs to me how odd it is to be talking to you in the middle of the night, just steps from my hotel room. What are you doing here, Ella?”

Rats. No point in attempting to hold on to her secrecy now. Not while dressed in pj’s. Even if it did end up killing the mood with the finesse of a battle-axe through an earthworm. “I live here.” She jerked her thumb toward the top of the stairs. “The usually hidden staircase leads up to my room.”

“Nice digs. They come with the gig?”

“Sort of. Not with the job of being a masseuse, though. The job of owning this hotel.”

His hand slipped from her hair, falling limp at his side. The almost-empty glass slipped from his fingers, would’ve spilled to the floor if she hadn’t caught it. “What?” he asked in an incredulous tone.

“My full name is Ella Mayhew.”

He stared at her with a peculiar intensity, almost as though on top of being a surprise, her owning the hotel meant something to him. Which was just silly. Gray’s continued silence struck her as odd, but it didn’t have to be any more nefarious than that. Of course he was weirded out. Normal people didn’t own castles. Heck, castles weren’t normal, not here in America. But Ella couldn’t continue to listen to the abnormally loud quiet, so she plowed ahead.

“I inherited the hotel from my parents when they died three years ago.” Progress. She’d made it through the entire sentence without a single hitch, without a lump of unshed tears clogging her throat. There was a time, not so very long ago, when that wasn’t possible. As a reward—or to wash down the bitterness that still coated her mouth when she spoke of her parents’ death—she gulped the last of the wine. “Or, as my shrink suggested I call it, Disaster Day.” Dr. Takeuchi thought the short name would make it easier for her to deal with talking about it. As opposed to saying every time
the day that ripped her heart out
,
killed her parents and ruined her life.

“God, Ella, I’m so sorry.” Gray scooted closer on the step, his legs caging her in, to loosely drape his arms around his shoulders. Then he touched his forehead to hers. “You’re far too young to have to deal with all that.”

“
They
were far too young,” she corrected him. And felt her shoulders release their tension, for once, to dip infinitesimally lower beneath his warm weight. “Don’t feel pity for me.
I’m
still alive. Grieving, but alive.”