‘What The Hell Was I Thinking?!!’ - Confessions of the World’s Most Controversial Sex Symbol (30 page)

Himsa’s tour ended on December 19th in New York. I flew out to meet him, which also marked the first time all the passion we’d been banking over the past few weeks unleashed itself physically, so needless to say we didn’t leave the hotel for the first couple days of our visit. When we were outside walking around the city together, it felt just like one of those romantic Woody Allen movies shot on location in New York, because we would just talk for hours and hours. While we were in New York, we attended the Roadrunner Records Holiday Party together, and the next day, were still so lovely dovey that neither one of us wanted the trip to end. I wound up inviting him to fly back to L.A. to me to see a Killswitch/ Slayer show at the Universal Amphitheatre I had tickets and backstage passes to, and by this point, we decided mutually we were a couple. I was crazy about him, and even though I didn’t know where it was going, I couldn’t have cared less because I was so happy. We were going to concerts together left and right, from Marilyn Manson to Strapping Young Lad at the Century Media Christmas party, and on the way home from that show, Matt told me he was in love with me. I told him the same, because it felt true, even though my head and heart were lost in a whirlwind as fast as everything had happened between us. He flew home briefly to Seattle for Christmas while I went home to New York to be with my Mom, but we quickly rendezvoused back to L.A. to head into the New Year together.