When the Sky Fell Apart

WHEN THE SKY FELL APART

Caroline Lea was born and raised in Jersey. She studied English Literature and Creative Writing at Warwick University and has had poetry published in
Phoenix New Writing
and
An Aston Anthology
, which she also co-edited.
When the Sky Fell Apart
is her first novel.

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First published in 2016 by The Text Publishing Company

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Cover image based on the painting ‘The Inlet' by Alice Kent Stoddard, David David

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National Library of Australia Cataloguing-in-Publication entry:

Creator:
Lea, Caroline, author.

Title:
When the sky fell apart / by Caroline Lea.

ISBN:
9781925240719 (paperback)

ISBN:
9781922253392 (ebook)

Subjects:
War stories.

Dewey Number: 813.6

For my wonderful sons Arthur and Rupert.

CONTENTS

PART 1

PART 2

PART 3

PART 4

AUTHOR'S NOTE

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

WHEN he was on fire, the man smelt bitter. Like the stink when Claudine had once tried to burn Maman's old wool blankets because they had itched.

Even after they had tipped buckets of sea water over him, he still smelt. But sweeter. It reminded her of Maman's Sunday lunch: roast pork with blackened skin and the cooked fat seeping out through the cracks.

Claudine's mouth watered. She clutched Francis's sweaty little hand and tried not to cry. She didn't go too close. Minutes earlier, he had been a talking, laughing man. Now he was a monster, without any skin. And full of noise. Bellowing, writhing, screaming.

She closed her eyes and tried to pretend it was something from a story: once upon a time, a girl and her baby brother huddled on the beach, watching the death throes of a dangerous giant—or, better yet, a dragon. She breathed in the smoke, imagined the man's roars to be the dragon's last breaths, flames sirening from his broken mouth. She saw herself beside him: small, grubby, dark-haired.

But when the man howled again, the story dissolved.

Heart thudding, Claudine stayed back near the sea. Francis's face had crumpled and he had started sniffling. Quietly, but any minute it would turn into a bawl. The grown-ups were fussing and shouting at each other; their raw voices and wild eyes filled Claudine with fear.

She dragged her gaze to the stones that had been smoothed by the mouth of the sea, looking for something familiar to clutch on to. Somewhere, there must be a treasure she could use to distract her brother. Perhaps an unbroken crab shell on the tide line—she could skitter it over his skin, pretending it was alive.
It's coming to nip your nose!
His lip would stop quivering; they would laugh and things would start to make sense again.

But whole crab shells were rare—the sea devoured and crunched them to pieces. Usually, by the time she had finished milking Rowan and Elderflower and given Francis his oatmeal and put the bread in the larder to prove, all the treasures along the beach had been taken by other children.

Today was no different, despite the burning man, the panicking people and the smoking bomb holes. All the shells and pretty stones had been scooped up hours earlier, when the sea was still somewhere to swim and the sand was still somewhere to dig.

Claudine had once found a piece of pink granite in the shape of a love heart. She had cradled it against her chest and then stuffed it into her apron pocket, but Papa had scolded her. He didn't want stones left lying around in the house. Francis might try to swallow them, or throw them at a window.

‘You should know such things, clever clogs that you are.'

Even though he had smiled, his voice had been hard. It had made her recall when she'd given Maman and Papa the letter from school: moved ahead two classes. ‘Clever girl,' they said. But their narrowed eyes said something different.
Too clever by half.

A few days later, she had found the love heart stone on the kitchen table, with some writing on it, very tiny and in Papa's hand—the big loops on the letter
Y
.

‘What is this, Maman?'

Her mother hadn't turned from scrubbing the nappies over the sink.

‘Your papa gave it to me. You may take it, if you wish.'

Claudine carried it in her pocket for the rest of the day. It banged a bruising tattoo on her hip, pulling purple flowers from beneath her skin, but she didn't give a fig because Maman and Papa both loved her: why else would she have been allowed such a wonderful treasure?

It was only later in her room, with Francis grumbling next to her and sucking on his little fist in his sleep, that she wondered why Maman would have given away the stone when Papa had written the message on it for her:
To Sarah
—
my only heart.

The burnt man was now groaning, as cows do when they are calving and the little one is stuck in the birth canal. The grown-ups were puce-faced from bawling at each other. A woman was crying,
‘Non! Non! Non!'
It was Madame Hacquoil, her face screwed up and red; when she screamed, blue veins bulged like ropes in her neck. She tried to stroke the burnt man's face, but the others seized her arms and dragged her back.

And Claudine realised, with a sickening wrench of her insides, that the blackened, moaning beast must be Clement Hacquoil, the butcher. He was kindly and well respected and often gave Claudine crisp slivers of bacon rind to chew on while she waited for Maman to do the shopping.

Now he looked like a charred chunk of meat. Claudine shuddered.

Monsieur Le Gallais was waving a big pointy piece of granite and shouting in Jèrriais, too fast for Claudine to understand. And Clement, the monster-man, moaned even louder and clawed at the air, as if he were trying to grasp the rock. As if he
wanted
to be pounded about his roaring skull with that toothed piece of granite.

His hands were like firewood. And his arms too—black and cooked-looking. Where his skin wasn't black, it was bright red: tongued by the flames. No clothes, no skin. Just the blood and the wetness underneath. The word
oozing
came into Claudine's head. She whispered it under her breath: a word with a taste in it.

There was a series of splashes, which Claudine made-believe was wheeling birds slapping into the sea in search of fish, but which she knew was the sound of pails of sea water being emptied over the man.

A shout made Claudine turn.

‘Stop that! Are you trying to kill him!'

An older woman rushed out of the crowd, waving her arms.

With a complicated twist in her stomach, Claudine recognised Edith Bisson, the woman who used to help Maman to care for her and Francis. She hadn't seen Edith in months—Maman had forbidden it—but she was unchanged: grey-haired but straight-backed, and eyes sharp.

As Claudine watched, Edith took the pail from the man's hands and dumped the water out on to the sand.

‘Oi!' The man glared. ‘Want Clement to cook, do you?'

Edith glared back. ‘Use
clean
water, for goodness sake.'

‘It's fresh from the sea.'

‘Fresh indeed! A fine plan to shower poor Clement in fish shit and heaven knows what else.'

She threw the pail to another man. ‘Stop gaping, Hedley, and fetch some water from a hosepipe.'

Hedley shut his mouth with a click and scurried off to fetch the water.

‘And Anton,' Edith said to the first man, ‘run for Dr Carter, would you?'

Edith continued to direct people while they waited: she sent Madame Hacquoil to fetch some potatoes and some tea.

Claudine heard someone ask Edith what use potatoes would be to poor Clement.

Edith gave a grim smile. ‘No more than his wife's hysterics. It'll calm her to be doing something.'

Claudine would have liked to run and embrace Edith: she remembered the comforting reassurance of those strong arms. But Maman's voice was loud in her memory:
Keep away from that woman!
So Claudine hung back, near the gently plashing waves.

By the time Dr Carter arrived, Clement Hacquoil had stopped bellowing. Every breath was a gasping wheeze, punctuated by a horrid sucking noise: the sound when wet boots are tugged from clags of clinging mud.

Once or twice, Claudine had tried to go closer, but the grown-ups had shooed her away. Even Edith.

Y
ou can't be of any help here, dear. This isn't a sight for children. Go on and play now; be off with you!

Dr Carter was a tall man. Long arms and legs, and a face that made Claudine think of the pictures of hawks and eagles in Papa's bird book. He was the new English doctor—Claudine knew none of the grown-ups really liked him.

Thinks he knows everything,
old Mrs Fauvel had wheezed to Maman.
Told me to cut back on my cigarettes. Well, I ask you, how can they be making my lungs worse, at my age, when I've smoked them all this time with no trouble at all?

But whether they liked him or not, all the grown-ups let him through now.

‘Will he die?' Claudine whispered, but no one was listening. She felt a sudden, fierce longing for Maman—the old Maman, who might have held Claudine close, or picked her up and kissed her, but she hadn't done those things for a long time, not since before Francis was born.

As Claudine crept closer, she saw how Dr Carter said very little but the grown-ups were talking at him, all at once:

‘Well, I ran, of course, as soon as I heard the plane.'

‘Running's not cowardice; it's good common sense when there are barbarians bombing an undefended island.'

‘We should have all evacuated before now and never mind the shame of it…'

Dr Carter didn't say very much, only ‘yes' and ‘really?' and ‘hmmm'. The way Maman did when she was trying to sleep and Claudine wanted to tell her about the sandhoppers she had collected.

Clement howled and writhed as if his skin were still alight. Dr Carter blinked nervously—but surely grown-ups didn't feel nervous?—and put a hand gently on Clement's unburnt shoulder, leaning in close to the charred and bloody stump that must have been an ear.