Worth Lord of Reckoning (33 page)

She kissed his forehead, nuzzling his hair to catch a whiff of his scent. “If anybody can straighten out a monetary situation, it’s you, and that you’re willing to try likely means more to his lordship than that you succeed.”

“Why do you say that?”

“He misses his brother. Money grows behind every hedge compared to brothers.”

She realized too late how much truth, how much homesickness her words held, but Worth kissed her breast, and all thoughts of cottages and brothers flew from her head.

“Jacaranda? You never answered my question: Did you miss me? For I assuredly missed you, dear heart.”

* * *

Worth needed to hear the words, which was silly, insecure and unbecoming, but he wanted at least some words from Jacaranda:
I missed you
. Every night when he climbed into her bed, she put up her token protest.

He accepted that and bantered and teased and cuddled his way past it.

Then he cast around for something of substance they could talk about. He could see her cottage clearly in his mind’s eye, so thoroughly had he made her describe it. He could smell the sea, hear the sea birds, feel the piercing brightness of the summer sun blazing in the Dorset sky.

He’d told her as much as he could recall of Grampion.

Told her as much as he could recall of Moira, and even a few things about his long-dead mother.

Jacaranda listened, she asked a few questions, and she answered most questions he put to her. She sometimes even made small overtures, such as stroking his hair.

But Worth could not divine what was in her mind, and increasingly, he suspected his lady was keeping more of herself from him than she shared with him. The last time he’d had this same uneasy feeling, his intended had ended up married to his brother.

“You were hardly gone,” she said against his forehead. “Two days. How could you miss me in such a short time?”

A besotted man missed his beloved when she ventured into the next room, that’s how.

“I simply did.” He shifted up over her. “I think of you far more than is dignified, and I can only hope you suffer a similar preoccupation regarding me.”

He was naked, she was dressed in only her summer nightgown, so he let her feel the blunt length of his nascent arousal by settling his body loosely on hers.

“You are driving me beyond reason, Jacaranda Wyeth.”

She might have been formulating some prim, off-putting reply, but he wasn’t having any of her starch and vinegar. He pressed his lips to hers, determined that if she’d never missed him thus far, in future she’d have a reason to.

She was at first merely passive, just as she never exactly welcomed him into her bed. He was out of patience with her diffidence—had been out of patience for days. Now he was determined. Very, very determined.

So he grazed his lips over hers lightly, again and again, until she parted her mouth on a sigh, and then he slid his tongue over her bottom lip. She drew back against her pillows.

Jacaranda had tasted him before, but perhaps she grasped that he’d recalled his sense of purpose now, because she went still, waiting, until he dipped inside her mouth again. Then her top lip, then the soft folds between her lips and her teeth.

He drew back a quarter inch, enough to make a point. She lapped at his bottom lip and wrapped a hand around the back of his neck, urging him forward.

“No. You kiss me.” His voice held a slight rasp, for he issued not a command but a plea.

Slowly, she raised her mouth to his, eyes open, watching him until she made contact. Then it was his hand anchored in her hair, her eyes closing on a soft, yearning sound.

He kissed her with his whole body, plundering the damp heat of her mouth while his weight gently pinned her to the mattress. He let her feel his cock, rampant now against the softness of her belly, held her hand in his above her head. He set up a rhythm with his hips, slow and insistent, a deliberate call to her body.

God bless the woman, she answered. Her tongue came questing to explore his mouth, and by the smallest degrees, she arched up into him and followed his rhythm.

“Too much,” she whispered against his mouth.

Relief twined through Worth’s arousal, for Jacaranda Wyeth was at least in the grip of a fierce attraction, and he could build on that.

“We’re barely getting started.”

“No.” She brought her mouth back to his without elaborating. Nonetheless, he’d heard that one damnable syllable and was frustrated enough to take his mouth from hers.

“Not
no
. You may have your
no
if you’re refusing me your body, but we will have our pleasure. Say
yes
to that much at least.”

She didn’t understand. He could see bewilderment in her eyes, so he let go of the hand he’d pinned to her pillow and settled his palm over her breast. Through the soft fabric of her nightgown, the fullness of her practically drove him to begging. Her nipple crested against his palm, and she inhaled sharply as he teased at her with his fingers.

“You will let me pleasure you, Jacaranda,” he said, watching her face. “Or you’ll tell me to leave this instant. Choose.”

The sensible part of him, the part that watched him make a hash of what should have been a protracted seduction, that part understood that forcing any choice on this lady was bound to fail. Stupid—disastrous—any use of coercion. This was a woman who’d turned her back on family for the privilege of ordering about maids and footmen. She would not be forced in any regard.

The
man
in him, though, the man who’d gone without assurances for too long, the man who’d gone without
closeness
for far too long, that fellow kissed the hell out of her, surging into her mouth as he surged over her body.

Two passionate instants later, she hauled back on his hair, stoutly, then smoothed her hand over his head.

“Soon, I must return to that cottage, Worth. I’ve made promises to my family.”

What was she going on about? They’d make a damned wedding journey to her cottage.

“And I must return to Grampion. I understand that, and we can discuss our travels at length, some other time. For now, it’s your nightgown that must go somewhere else.” He grasped the hem and lifted it, but something in her bearing gave him pause.

The infernal woman wanted to talk
right this minute
. He ascertained her intent by the way she shifted back against the gathered fabric of her nightgown, resisting but not exactly protesting.

“We will talk, Jacaranda, I promise you that, but
not now
.”

She relented, raising her shoulders enough to let him draw her only garment over her head and toss it away.

The pleasure of her naked flesh against his had him sealing his body to hers, wrapping her close simply to indulge himself in the sensation of her skin next to his, belly to belly, chest to breast. They could visit family six times a year, but this—this embrace, nothing between them but honest desire and mutual besottedness—was
home
.

“God, yes,” he breathed against her throat, though he wanted to give her promises and vows while her whiny family and their musty little cottage could go hang.

Then he rolled so she straddled him, and he fleetingly considered getting up to light branches of candles.

She crossed her arms over her breasts, and his momentum shifted.

He wouldn’t make love to her in the next hour, not as intimately as he wanted to, but they were in new territory, naked, together, and she was trusting him—this far at least.

“You are beautiful,” he said, meaning it as sincerely as he’d ever meant spoken words. “Please allow me to adore you.”

“Adore?” Her single word bore a wealth of uncertainty, and she kept her arms crossed.

“Please.” He levered up and kissed her jaw. “You’ve seen me, watched me lose every shred of dignity and control. Let me see you.”

Slowly, holding his gaze, she drew her arms down to rest at her sides.

Never had desire, trust, and vulnerability been as dearly—and arousingly—clothed in nudity. Worth swallowed around the lump in his throat and prayed for…

All manner of blessings.

Fortitude, to proceed despite risk to something of greater value than a mere few hundred thousand pounds.

Worthiness, because Jacaranda’s trust should be surrendered into only worthy hands.

Gratitude, because she’d chosen to place her trust into
his
hands.

“I would like to touch you, Jacaranda Wyeth. I’d like it exceedingly.”

“I would like that, too.”

He didn’t use his hands, not at first. He curled up and inhaled the fragrance of her between her breasts.

“The scent is sweet, Jacaranda. Like your neck or your hands, but more secret.” He ran his nose all over her chest, grazing her collarbones, the soft undersides of her breasts, and around her nipples.

“I want…” She sighed, tried again. “Will you
touch
me?”

“Soon.”

He rested his hands on her shoulders as he lay back against the bed. Sturdy shoulders, unapologetically solid, and yet still feminine.

She regarded him solemnly, waiting, and all his frustration, all his missing her was worth the anticipation he saw in her expression. Gently, he settled his hands over her breasts.

“You’re silky,” he said. “Warm, smooth, delicate, lovely…” With each word, he drew the backs of his fingers over her breasts, her nipples, around the undersides, up the slopes. “I could come simply by touching your breasts, Jacaranda.”

God help him, he spoke the truth. He could come, compose sonnets, and sing hymns to her breasts, and to the heart that beat swiftly under his palm.

As much to shut himself up as to gratify them both, he closed his mouth over her nipple. She arched toward him, and his cock leapt as desire rippled out from her to him and back again, ricocheting through him, through her, resonating endlessly.

“Worth…” Her fingers winnowed through his hair, and she clung to him.

“Ride me.” He got a hand low on her back and anchored himself while she moved over him.

He would not,
would not
, shift his hips to penetrate her heat. She hadn’t given him that permission, wasn’t expecting that intimacy, and no matter how much pleasure he brought her, he’d never regain her trust if he presumed to cross that line now.

He tipped her so she hung over him, her braid slipping down, tickling his shoulder and arm as he made love to her breasts. The hand he’d used to guide her over him slid around the full curve of her flank, a satiny warm pleasure he’d explore later and thoroughly.

By slow increments, he brought his hand lower, to draw the backs of his fingers over her curls. He sensed surprise and pleasure vibrating through her, and she didn’t draw back.

Thank God Almighty, she didn’t draw back.

He traced her folds with one thumb, pleased to find dampness and heat and more pleased that she went motionless, allowing it.

“Move, love,” he whispered against her breasts, letting his hand go still, waiting for her this time. Then, a tentative motion with her hips, forward against his hand, back, but not far.

“Just like that. Again.”

In the quiet darkness, she found a rhythm—conservative, because she didn’t know her destination yet as well as she soon would, but Worth fell in with it, applying and releasing pressure at the apex of her folds.

“Worth…what…?”

“The matter wants only patience and determination. You excel at both.” He watched her face in the moonlight, and kept up enough pressure that her arousal escalated toward completion. “I’ll get you there. No risk for you, all reward.”

She said nothing, no doubt listening with her body for how to find more and more pleasure.

Worth’s arousal became insistent, but he focused on her, on caressing one breast while he took the other in his mouth, on plying her sex with as much gentle insistence as one half-sane man could muster.

He sensed when passion overtook her restraint. Her back arched, driving her against his hand and his mouth, and she leaned into him hard, her body begging for what words could not convey.

“That’s it,” he whispered. “All reward.”

“
Worth…
”

She hissed his name on a rasp of pleasure, and he drove a finger into her heat, her sex gripping hard around him, and that—that was too much. He held on to her like a bankrupt clutches his last, shiny gold sovereign and let the pleasure reverberate through him even as she was overwhelmed by it as well.

The sounds of their harsh breathing mingled, then eased, and still Worth held on.

Jacaranda stroked his hair, clinging to him, too, as he relaxed back against the bed.

“Come here.” He urged her down onto his chest, needing to hold her, needing to keep her close.

She went easily, despite his spent seed all over his belly, despite the aftershocks he sensed rippling through her.

What words could he give her now? What could he say, in thanks or reassurance? He was at sea still, for this was an aspect of intimate pleasure he’d not experienced before—the desire to linger and comfort and be comforted.