Young Skins (3 page)

It was knocking on midnight when Nubbin Tansey, town tough and marginal felon, manifested on the premises. Matteen was up against Killian Weir as Tansey beelined our way, flanked by a couple of big units; ask the gods for henchmen and this is what they would send, twin slabbed stacks of the densest meat, their breezeblock brows unworried by any worm of cerebration. Tansey himself was short, at twenty already balding. He had gaping, thyroidal eyes, the broad skull and delicately tissued temples of a monk or convalescent. He had a tight T-shirt on, exposing veined biceps as tough and gnarled as raw root vegetables. He was chewing his own jaw and vibrating faintly in place, a bundle of seeping excess energies. He was likely on several substances.

‘Judgeboy, the Judgeboy,’ he said, slapping Matteen across his bent back as Matteen stooped for a shot. Unperturbed, Matteen maintained his low forward-bent stance, discharged his cue in a steady stroke. The central clot of stripes and solids unbunched, a swarm of balls scuffling thickly back from the cushions. The stripes—Matteen was always stripes—were hypnotic in their tumbling banded flicker. A stripe rolled into the top-left pocket, gone in a clean gulp, and the topside spheres slowed and stilled into a new arrangement on the green.

‘Sweet,’ Nubbin said, ‘sweet, Judgeboy.’

‘You’ll be wanting a game, Tansey?’

‘Maybe now,’ Tansey said. ‘Though I’ve a notion you’ll beast me.’

Matteen raised his Coke, took a sip. The crowd was beginning to thin. The meeker lads were leaving while they could still leave unobtrusively.

‘Can I apologise in advance?’ Matteen said.

The girls had not yet turned around but he knew they were listening.

‘Don’t condescend,’ Tansey said, and smacked his lips. He studied the table’s stationary scatter of balls. He picked up the white, rotated it in his hand. Matteen cleared his throat. Tansey put the ball back in place. He pulled the cue from the grasp of the boy Killian. One of Tansey’s goons loaded the coin slots. The potted balls churned down out of the table’s gut. The goon put the triangle on the baize, clonkingly set the balls in place.

I heard the bark of chairlegs. Sarah and Jenny had twisted in the pool table’s direction, interested now.

‘C’mon so to fuck,’ Tansey said.

‘Be nice, Tansey,’ Jenny said.

‘I know you?’ Tansey to Jenny.

Jenny shook her head. There was an amused uncowardly venom in her eyes, watching Tansey as Tansey’s eyes crawled down her, then up Sarah.

‘The Dignan girl. I know you, but. I know your brothers. You’re attached to this set?’ he said, nodding at Matteen and me.

‘Tonight I am,’ Sarah said.

‘I know your brothers, Dignan. Christ, you’re some diamond pulled from a coal bucket, you know that?’

‘She knows that,’ Matteen said, ‘everyone knows that.’

‘You’re with him?’ Tansey asked, eye rolling in Matteen’s direction.

Sarah looked at Matteen. There is nothing worse than being pitied.

‘Well, he’s looped on you,’ Tansey smiled, nodding again at Matteen, ‘plain to see.’

‘We playing or what?’ Matteen said.

‘Alright, alright. Go,’ Tansey said, almost apologetically.

Matteen broke, potted a stripe from the break and then two more. His fourth shot he hit so viciously the stripe convulsed back up out of the pocket, spun confusedly on its own axis, and died into place a foot from the hole.

‘You hit that one too well,’ Tansey said.

‘You want to come off into the night with us once I thrash your buck?’ he said to Sarah.

‘It doesn’t work like that,’ Sarah said.

Tansey turned, the cue’s end rested on the toe of his boot, the cue tip stabbed up under his chin. He considered Sarah. There were beads of sweat all over him. Tansey was looking right into Sarah’s face. Not many do, or can.

‘Don’t ask, don’t get,’ he smiled.

Then he turned and bent low to the table, planted the fingers of his leading hand on the baize and placed the stick wobblingly on a knuckle-ridge. Tansey seemed to be sincerely puzzling the shot, but when he fired forward the cue he drove the tip down and sliced a long rip through the cloth.

‘Whoops,’ he said, and stooped to shoot again. Again he gouged the baize.

‘Ah would you just fuck off and leave us alone, Tansey,’ Matteen said, paling in the face.

‘There’s no winning with some folk,’ Tansey said.

He handed the cue back to the Killian boy.

‘C’mon,’ he said to Sarah, striding over to her and grabbing her hand. Tansey dragged her to her feet, but Sarah had a good foot on him. She loomed, she threw her head forward, down onto Tansey’s chest. Tansey yelped like a pup. He stepped back from the tall girl. There was a dark blotch running from the chest of his T-shirt.

‘Jesus, she bit him,’ the Killian boy sniggered.

Tansey considered his wound, chin buried in his neck to see. He looked up at Sarah. He did not look upset, exactly.

Matteen glowered.

Tansey cupped the bit part of his chest.

‘My titty,’ he said.

Jenny got up, and now she grabbed Sarah’s wrist.

‘Let’s go,’ Jenny said, dragging Sarah out into the bar.

‘Wait,’ Matteen said, but the girls did not.

‘Go on,’ he said to me, ‘get them back.’

‘Me?’

‘Catch up after them and attach yourself to the sole of one of them bitches’ boots, like a good lad,’ he said.

Matteen was clammy and pallid again. He reversed onto a bench, and leant his weight upon his cue.

‘This thing ain’t stopping,’ Tansey said. The blotch was running, widening.

‘Stitches,’ said one of the big units with him, ‘stitches and a tetanus shot.’

A rupture of laughter as I headed through to the bar, but the girls had already bolted from the premises.

I passed through the front door, into the street. It was warm out; warm and getting warmer, it seemed. We were enduring a marathon hot snap, a thirteen-day stretch of rainlessness unheard of in our otherwise perennially sodden clime. Water shortages bedevilled the farmsteads surrounding our town. Pasture had paled and browned and in the open country you could stand by the side of an empty road and hear the massed dry ticking of the bramble ditches that fringed the fields. Cows grouped in the shadow patch thrown by a lone dollop of cumulus and followed that patch as the cloud drifted across the sky. Dogs nuzzled the undersides of stones, seeking the moisture clinging there. In town, pensioners staggered in a sunstroked trance from street to street and tried to recall their destination.

Now even the nights were bringing little respite.

I thought I saw them drop beyond the hump of Main Street’s hill. I followed. I heard laughter, the clop of unsteady feet, I saw flickers of hair and shuttering legs. I followed them down Dandon Street, close but with a steady gap. They were talking, though I could not make out the words. They were letting me follow. They turned and vanished down Ridgepool Lane. Moss speckled the phosphorescent plaster of the lane’s walls. I felt its damp fur against my hand. When I emerged from the lane I looked left and right but could not see the girls. I went stock still, held my breath and in the weave of the breeze I picked up again their skeletal laughter. I foraged forward, and knew where they were going.

They were standing on the edge of the carpark of Bleak Woods, waiting. They were facing me but there was no light, the carpark was empty, and all I could make out were the disembodied ovals of what were their faces. The ovals floated in the dark and looked inchoate or on the verge of dissolution. Then they were turned from me and gone into the woods.

I had a horn by now, I’ll admit. The horn had oriented itself upwards and was snagged in the waistband of my jocks, which acted as a kind of garrote sawing on the upper portion of the horn as I made my way into the trees. Obscenities, graphic recommendations, crowded my throat, but I did not let them out.

‘Harmless,’ I blurted, ‘I’m harmless!’

And I was. Efficient deference was my singular mode of expression. I had never sought a status beyond that of sidekick or flunky, and in this way had achieved subtle indispensability. I was an adhesive creep to a degree, but Matteen needed me, as did the girls. I believed that. Who else would Matteen charge with pursuing these two into the night? Who else would these same girls permit to follow them into the woods?

There was no path. I moved from tree to tree and touched each trunk as I passed it. I had never been asked into these woods before. The trees felt like things that were alive and I had to remind myself that they were. Leaves depended from the fingerlings of branch ends and brushed my face like dry, frail-veined moths. I stumbled onward over stones, over monstrous hanks of rooted scrub. The smell of the woods in summer was heavy around me, and it stank of fucking.

They blindsided me, crashed into me from behind. I was on my face on the ground, in the dirt, and there was a measured vicious hailing of my ribs from either side. I got on my back and something shattered across my forehead, a wetness sliding all over my face, the precise fire of vodka seeping into however many cuts now decorated my skin. Then there was a weight on my chest and something squeezing straight down on my throat. I was looking up but I could see nothing through the burning wetness in my eyes. Consecutive wrenches at my thighs brought my pants down and the horn was out, sacked like a frowsy vagrant into the open.

I heard above me two-headed laughter and a voice, or voices:

Oh, Teddy,

Teddy,

Teddy, we are

We are going to

suck

suck

the eyeballs! The eyeballs!

right out of

suck them!

right out of your face.

And then more laughter, and I could not tell who had spoken and who was laughing, and if it wasn’t for the boot flat against my Adam’s apple I would have begged go ahead girls, I would have begged do your worst.

THE MOON

Valentine Neary, senior bouncer at the Peacock Bar and Niteclub, had something in his teeth. His tongue probed along his upper row, where something wiry and prickly had snagged itself between bicuspids. With quick, successive jabs of his tongue-tip Val dislodged it. He swabbed the inside of his mouth with his pinkie and held it up to the yellow eave light. Val studied the thing adhering to the glistening pad of his finger. Once he realised what it was, he couldn’t help but grin.

Boris, Val’s right-hand man, reversed out the side door tucked inside the club’s double-doored entrance, bearing two pint glasses of Lucozade bunched with knuckles of ice.

‘Credit that, Boris.’

‘Credit what, boss?’

‘I just pulled a wee length of pussy out of my gob.’

Boris searched Val’s face, not quite catching the sense.

‘Length of pussy . . . what?’

Val looked back down at his cocked pinkie, at the vagrant filament stuck there; it was a cunt hair, electric red, and it belonged to Martina Boran, the youngest and fairest daughter of Davy Boran, the Peacock Bar’s proprietor.

‘Nothing, lad.’ Val smiled again, and with a flick of his fingers commended the hair to the North Mayo night.

‘Ta Boris,’ he said, taking his Lucozade.

‘No problem, boss.’

Val could make out the noise of a vehicle approaching the turnoff. He took a gulp of Lucozade, swished it round his mouth before swallowing, and checked his watch. One thirty-three
am
—the lights were going up in just over an hour but still they came, in a steady stream, discharged by taxis and minivans into the floodlit murk of the club’s gravel parking lot, the boys and girls of Glanbeigh town and environs.

The Peacock got a young crowd. Over the years it had acquired a reputation for its selective—and selectively lenient—door policy; the sign tacked to the wall behind the ticket booth said YOU MUST BE OVER 21 TO ENTER, but it was well known that a certain laxity was permitted. Fanny frequently got in without ID as long as they’d dolled themselves up to the due degree. Lads were also expected to make an effort; proper shoes, a shirt, and to try the door in groups no bigger than three. The main rule was no drunks. Val had been on the door for eight years, and could read the drink in people’s faces unerringly. Him and the rest of his crew—Boris and Mick and Mossy—brooked no bullshit. Anyone with even a notion of acting the prick got the boot.

‘Is busy, busy,’ said Boris, nodding as the taxi pulled into the carpark. From it emerged four girls. Val and Boris took them in, the four bare-legged, in miniskirts and heels and tops devised from impressively inadequate swatches of material. Val squared his shoulders and cleared his throat. Not a one of them was near eighteen. As they approached the girls became quiet under the cool wattage of the bouncers’ gaze.

‘Evening, ladies. How are we all doing?’

‘Alright.’

‘Grand.’

‘Super.’

Only one did not immediately answer Val’s question, and she was the prettiest. She drew her pale face up, tucked a dangling tendril of dark hair behind her ear and narrowed her brown eyes.

‘Well sweetlips?’ Val said, and smiled.

‘Not so bad, Val, no worse than yourself I’d say.’

So she knew him—but then most everyone in town did, at least by rep. Val couldn’t quite stick a name to her, but nursed an inkling she might be a Devaney.

‘Not long left in it tonight now, girls’—Val made a show of checking his wristwatch—‘mightn’t be worth your while, I’d say.’

Might-be Devaney grinned sourly, and sneaked a look off to the side of the building, where there was nothing but a couple of parked staff cars. She looked back at Val, kinked one perfectly etched eyebrow.

‘Ah no, Val,’ she said, ‘we’re still keen anyways.’

Val inclined his head and puffed out his cheeks, as if considering a revelatory piece of evidence, then stepped back and pulled open the door.

‘In you go, girls. Enjoy.’

The others’ faces lit up with relief.

‘Ta Val!’

‘Ta!’

‘Cheers!’

Val only nodded, impassive. Might-be Devaney held his eye for a moment, then brushed silently past. Val took a sup of his Lucozade and plainly assessed the girls’ behinds as they queued at the ticket booth. Hands stamped, they slipped one by one into the club’s hammering, strobe-lit interior.

Back when he’d first encountered Martina Boran, she was just a kid, a mute, studious sixteen-year-old burdened with braces and baby fat. She’d sometimes drop in to the Peacock after school, when her father was tending bar in the lounge and Val was helping the floor staff set up for the evening run. Weekday afternoons in the bar were morgue quiet, the only regular customers a handful of the town’s senior pissheads, intent on drinking through their pension money by a respectable hour. Davy loved to talk his daughters up—the eldest was a teacher in Naas, the middle one a radiographer in Bristol—and was no different with Martina.

‘This one,’ he’d say, grabbing the girl by her shapeless shoulders, ‘is off to Trinity, boys. Medicine!’

Martina would only roll her eyes and sigh. She’d take a booth at the rear of the lounge, haul a brick-thick textbook out of her bag and bury her head in it for the next couple of hours, face set in an expression of miserable diligence, while her father happily pulled pints for the geriatrics pickling on their stools.

A couple of years passed. Martina seemed to drop off the radar altogether in her Leaving Cert year, and the next Val heard she was off at college; but in Galway, not Dublin, and doing Arts, not Medicine. She turned up again at the start of this summer, Davy having decided to put her to work in the Peacock on weekends. Now nineteen, Martina had grown up and into herself. First night on the job she showed up sporting a pair of knee-high leather boots and strategically gouged pink tights, hair dyed to a high orange flame, and a murderous glint in her eye that said the dowdy teenage bookworm of yesteryear was dead and gone.

Val found himself inventing excuses to hover in her vicinity. He’d lean against the edge of the bar as Martina stacked glasses into the washer, stall by a booth as she swabbed down tabletops sticky with spilled spirits. They traded banter, drolleries, exchanged knowing looks as the Saturday-night crowd heaved and swelled around them. One night a few weeks back Val offered her a lift home. Sequestered side by side in Val’s Nissan in a shadowed corner of the parking lot, they talked pleasantly and meaninglessly for a few minutes, until Martina cut across whatever anecdote or observation Val was unspooling and asked him to stop acting the bollocks and do what it was he wanted to do. Val’s knuckles tightened round the steering wheel as he mumbled something about not being sure what
that
was. Martina had only tutted, then shoved her hand decisively down the front of Val’s trousers.

Since then, they’d been meeting up in a casual way a couple of times a week, usually on those evenings their work shifts coincided. Because he was almost thirty and she was a decade younger, because she was heading back to college at the end of summer, and because of the complications that would inevitably ensue should her da ever get wind of who, exactly, was ploughing the apple of his eye, Val had proposed that the thing between them be kept to themselves. It would serve no useful purpose to have their business broadcast about town.

It won’t, Martina said.

The nightclub closed, the punters hounded out, Val went looking for Martina. She wasn’t in the lounge, where the other bartenders were inverting stools and hoisting them onto tables. He figured she was up having a crafty smoke. He climbed the stairs to the first floor, moved past the Ladies and Gents and tried the fire exit at the end of the corridor.

Martina and Joan Doody, a stout, pleasant girl Val had rode a couple of times last Christmas, were standing outside, at the end of the small fenced balcony that overlooked the carpark. Their backs were turned to Val. They were sharing a smoke, but the smell—heady and herby—told Val it was no ordinary cigarette.

‘Well,’ said Val.

The girls startled and turned, Martina almost dropping the joint.

‘Jesus, Val,’ Martina said. She jutted her lips, expelled a flume of silver smoke.

‘Hope that’s medicinal,’ Val said, and laughed. He then surprised both girls, surprised himself too, by casually forking his index and ring finger and gesturing for the roach.

‘Cheers,’ he said.

Val pinched the joint awkwardly between his fingers—it was already half gone—and jabbed its end into his pursed lips. He inhaled. The lit end brightened and stung his fingertips and the smoke tore at his throat.

‘Hold it long as you can, Val,’ Joan said, smiling.

Val tried counting to ten in his head, got as far as four then barked out a cough. His eyes sizzled with tears. He put his fist to his mouth, composed himself.

‘Didn’t know you partook, Val,’ Martina said, taking the joint back from him.

‘You’ve corrupted me now, girls.’

Val wondered if Martina knew that he and Joan once had a thing, but figured she didn’t. It wasn’t serious anyway, petered out equably, and Joan had since become reengaged to the lad she was having trouble with at the time. Val had a knack of staying on the right side of the women he slept with, a necessary skill when you operated in as tight a radius as Glanbeigh town. He looked down through the fence’s honeycomb of wire.

‘How’re things faring out down there?’ he said.

‘The hangers-on are hanging in,’ Martina said, and stepped forward, so she was standing shoulder to shoulder beside Val.

From their elevated niche, the three watched as the last of the night’s crowd slowly dispersed. Girls huddled together rubbing their bare, goosefleshed arms. Boys stood alone with their chests out, fists wadded into pockets, glowering at the dark with thwarted, bloodshot eyes. Other boys and girls leant into one another, tangling arms, laughing conspicuously. Numbers were being carefully fingered into mobiles. Girls lingered on the threshold of taxi doors as boys extorted a final kiss and hug, the accompanying grope—open palm grazing the curve of a buttock—so brief as to be plausibly inadvertent. And certain pairings had already slipped away alone together, leaving their friends to make their own way home.

‘Gobshites,’ Martina said.

‘He might have to go.’

‘He being the drummer,’ said Joan.

‘Aye. Might be time for me to deal in his chips.’

‘The lad on the course. Aiden.’

‘Yep,’ said Martina.

Val smiled.

Martina and Joan were lying side by side on a tartan blanket spread out on the grass in front of Val’s Nissan. Val was leaning against the car’s bumper, his tailbone knuckling the lip of the bonnet. His arms were folded across his chest, hands tucked pensively into his pits. They were on the bank of the Mule River, the car parked maybe ten feet from the water’s edge, at the end of a sanded driveway leading down from the main road. The Peacock was a quarter mile back up along the road. It was gone five in the morning. Just before lockup Martina sent Val a text. FANCY A DRINK DOWN BY THE MULE AFTER. USUAL SPOT 15 MINS ;) Val left first, in his car, Martina following on foot, a bottle of rum filched from the supply room stuffed under her jacket, and Joan in tow.

The darkness was beginning to lift, but the girls, as Val looked down at them, remained blurry and indistinct in the gloom.

‘And what’s the fool done to warrant being got shot of?’ Val said.

Silence. Martina made a noise, a sharp, catlike cringe. Joan responded with a nasal snicker. Val shifted his weight from one foot to the other, feeling rebuked for daring to intrude into the girls’ flow.

‘He’s not a fool,’ Martina said eventually. ‘Well, not exactly. He’s
nice
, Val,
nice
. But we’ve been going out five, six months now. And he’s been on my tits all summer bugging me to head down to him or for him to come up here and hang, and . . . I just couldn’t be arsed, either way.’

‘So he’s a nice buck, but not nice enough, or maybe too nice,’ Joan opined sagely.

‘It’s like
just chill
, man, I’ll see you when I see you, y’know,’ said Martina.

‘Oh, I hate when it’s like that.’

‘I don’t even like his band. He’s in a band and I don’t even like them.’

‘Well, relationships are . . . dicey propositions at the best of times,’ said Joan and laughed. She must have surely figured out what the story was between himself and Martina by now, Val thought.

‘He’s so excitable. Laps at my neck, like a dog.
Pants
,’ Martina said, sticking out her tongue and going
hah hah hah
. Joan started shrieking.

Val came up off the Nissan’s bonnet and walked down to the edge of the water. He was keyed up, as he always was after a Saturday-night shift. Light from the main road threw a little illumination across the river’s breadth, catching the innumerable dimples of the black waves as they pushed by.

‘It’s nice isn’t it.’ Martina was up and behind Val now. She pressed the mouth of the bottle of rum into his back, ran it over the notches of his spine.

‘What?’ said Val.

‘The water. Looks nice. Moving along there, like a . . . well-trained creature.’

‘You pissed?’ said Val.

‘Thought a man like you wouldn’t need to ask that question,’ she said.

‘I can’t see your face,’ said Val.

‘Kissy, kissy,’ Joan groaned, supine on the tartan.

‘Down here reminds me of Groningen,’ Martina said.

‘Groningan?’ Val said.

‘It’s in Holland. I was there for a bit last summer with the crew from college, when we were doing Europe. We stayed in these wood cabins in a big park outside of the town, more like a forest really, with a pond and a bunch of swans living on it. At night we used to take mushrooms and go sit by the water and watch the swans glide around, and wait for old Father Time to swing by.’

‘Father Time?’ Val said.

‘Father Time,’ Martina said, and Val could hear the smile in her voice. ‘He was this tramp, I guess, lived on the grounds apparently, though no one was sure where. He looked about two hundred years old and had this mountainous shaggy white beard that trailed down to his crotch. He used to tool around the woods at all hours on the oldest, creakiest bicycle you’ve ever seen. We’d be sitting there, out of our gourds, chilling with the swans at two in the morning, and then you’d hear the squeaking of the wheels and the clanking of the chain, and we’d start nudging each other and saying
here comes old Father Time
, laughing our asses off, and then he’d go whizzing by, and we’d shout and wave at him but he’d never stop or say anything, just give us the same wide-eyed spooky stare he’d always give us. He had a dog, a dinky little Jack Russell that’d come trotting along after him. The dog had a leash clipped to the collar around its neck, and it used to chase after the bike carrying the end of the leash bundled up between its jaws.’