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I can’t believe I’ve reached this stage of my
Again, but Better
book journey. I’m writing the acknowledgments for my first novel? This is surreal. I have so many people to thank. The first two have to be my parents. Thank you for letting me study abroad. Those four months forever changed me, and the paths I would choose to take.

To my agent, JL, and my editor, Eileen, thank
you for believing in this long, rambly contemporary book and continuously challenging me through the revision process. Thank you to the entire team at New Leaf and Wednesday Books.

Thank you to my best friend, Dr. Katie McCormick-Huhn, for sitting on the phone with me, brainstorming titles and names, and helping me work through any scene at all hours of the night. Thank you for being the first
person to read this story, back when it was in its most primal state. Thank you for always cheering me on. Your enthusiasm and kind words were so integral to this book.

Thank you, Julia Friley. You’ve been reading my crap, and helping me make it better, since 2011. Thank you for constantly pushing me to cut shit out of this book, helping me with emails, and tolerating my insecure calls and texts.
Thank you for picking up the phone and brainstorming major plot drama whenever I found myself in a bind. Thank you for reading Part One three separate times. This book wouldn’t be the same without you.

Thank you, Kat O’Keeffe, for agreeing to be critique partners with me, even though I was such a noob. Your feedback and support are always spot-on.

Thank you, Natasha Polis, for reading Draft
Three and being there to discuss these characters with me whenever I needed to. Also, thanks for that time we sat around during a thunderstorm reading the chapters aloud in the dark.

Thank you to my other best friend, Dr. Jenna Presto, for reading a huge chunk of the first draft and being my official go-to source of knowledge for all things med school.

Thanks to Tiernan Bertrand-Essington and
Christina Marie for providing me with thoughtful, valuable feedback when I needed it most.

Thank you to my cousin Holly Springhorn for being the first person under twenty to read a chunk of the draft. Thank you for sending me so much love.

Jesse George, Kat O’Keeffe, Larry Lane, Sasha Alsberg, Kristina Marjieh, and Allison Gottlieb, thank you for your endless support throughout this process.

To my siblings, Olivia and Paul: If you made it to the end of this book, thank you for reading it—it means a lot. Olivia, I’m honored to have written the second book you’ve ever voluntarily read. I hope you’re not reading this before you actually finish the book.

Thank you, Juan, for the endless encouragement in the final stages of the publishing process.

To my whole Booktube, Bookternet family,
ALL OF YOU: Thank you for being the best, kindest, most welcoming, most understanding, most supportive, gorgeous friends a girl could ask for.

To my subscribers/viewers: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You are a perpetual source of happiness for me. You have enriched my life in every way. I hope you enjoyed my first book. I hope it made you happy in some way or another. I hope you laughed. I
hope it made you want to face your fears. *AGGRESSIVELY HUGS YOU* *APOLOGIZES*

Nana, thank you for blessing me with your passion for reading. Mrs. Gearing, thank you for reading aloud to us in class and enforcing DEAR time in fourth grade. J. K. Rowling and Stephenie Meyer, thank you for the stories that made me fall in love with books.

Dearest reader, thank you for picking this up and supporting
my writing endeavors. I hope
Again, but Better
brought you joy! If you’re not a big reader, I hope this made you want to read more! If it didn’t, please hit me up on YouTube at so I can try to turn you via video.



About the Author

Christine Riccio
’s polandbananasBOOKS YouTube channel has more than 400,000 book-loving subscribers. She makes comedic book reviews, vlogs, sketches, and writing videos chronicling the creation of her own novel. She’s also one of the three YouTubers behind BOOKSPLOSION, YouTube’s longest-running book club. For the past four years Christine has been collaborating with publishing companies and
authors and traveling across the United States to speak on book-related panels to further spread the reading love. You can sign up for email updates


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  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Notice
  3. Dedication
  4. Author’s Note
  5. Part 1: 2011
  6. 1. Take a Chance
  7. 2. Make a Change
  8. 3. Breathe, Just Breathe
  9. 4. I Think I’m Gonna Like It Here
  10. 5. Open Your Eyes and See
  11. 6. Nothing’s Standing in My Way
  12. 7. Never Mind
  13. 8. I Want to Be the Rainstorm, Not the House of Cards
  14. 9. Maybe We Can See the World Together
  15. 10. Rome Ma-Ma
  16. 11. What Comes Next?
  17. 12. Has He Heard?
  18. 13. Here Goes Nothing
  19. 14. Sail?
  20. 15. Fail
  21. 16. A Million Little Shining Stars
  22. 17. Such a Breakable Thread
  23. 18. I Can Learn to Do It
  24. 19. Drifting
  25. 20. Spinning
  26. 21. Ticking Away
  27. 22. I Must Dream of the Things I Am Seeking
  28. 23. Thunderbolt and Lightning
  29. 24. Broken Dreams
  30. 25. One Last Time
  31. 26. Bye Bye Bye
  32. Part 2: 2017
  33. 27. What Page Are You On?
  34. 28. More Than You Bargained For
  35. 1. Helpless
  36. 2. Somebody Catch My Breath
  37. 3. I Thought Time Was an Hourglass Glued to the Table
  38. 4. I’m the First in Line
  39. 5. Reaching in the Dark
  40. 6. What a Lovely Night
  41. 7. There’s a Glow Off the Pavement
  42. 8. Where Do We Go From Here?
  43. 9. Might as Well Embrace It
  44. 10. The Green Light, I Want It
  45. 11. Come Together
  46. 12. The Rush at the Beginning
  47. 13. Close
  48. 14. Don’t Stop Me Now
  49. 15. Don’t, Don’t Know What It Is
  50. 16. I’m a Goner
  51. 17. Shining
  52. 18. Break Your Walls
  53. 19. Heavy as the Setting Sun
  54. 20. Waves Come After Midnight
  55. 21. Ford Every Stream
  56. 22. Going for the Knockout
  57. 23. I Have Confidence in Me
  58. 24. Through Accepting Limits
  59. 25. Twice as Hard, Half as Liked
  60. 26. The Fear of Falling Apart
  61. 27. Marching On
  62. Epilogue
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Copyright


Copyright © 2019 by Christine Riccio. All rights reserved. For information, address St. Martin’s Press, 175 Fifth Avenue, New York, N.Y. 10010.

Cover design by Kerri Resnick

Cover illustration by Jeff Östberg

The Library of Congress has cataloged the print edition as follows:

Names: Riccio, Christine, 1990– author.

Again, but better / Christine Riccio.

Description: New York: Wednesday Books, [2019]

Identifiers: LCCN 2019002944 | ISBN 9781250299253 (hardcover) | ISBN 9781250299277 (ebook)

Classification: LCC PS3618.I279 A74 2019 | DDC 813/.6—dc23

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