Alexia Eden (FairyTales Don't Exist) (14 page)

I feel the tears that I’ve been hiding start to fall down my cheek as I whisper afraid he might hurt me more. “It’s not safe out there? Where is it safe? Here? With you?” he looks down at my red arms and a bruise that’s he’s caused is already forming on my left arm, his eyes turn back to brown and his face softens as guilt takes over his features.

“Fuck…” he raises his hand and I cringe, I turn my head and put my one hand up
 to cover my face to stop the blow that I’m waiting to hit my face but it doesn’t come.

“Oh God Lexi, fuck…I messed up! I’m so sorry, please… I didn’t mean to hurt you.” he steps away from me and all his weight that was holding me up is gone and I fall to the floor and cry out in pain.

“Babe I’m so sorry, please forgive me, please Lex…” He rushes to me and picks my half naked quivering body and places me on the bed. He climbs in the bed next to me and holds me against his warm naked chest carefully so he doesn’t hurt me; he then pulls me to his lap so I'm straddling him.

I’m still crying like a baby and I cover my face with my hands so he can’t see, I try push him away from me but this only makes him hold me tighter against him, whispering how sorry he is in my ear and brushing my back gently. I know I should hate him and end whatever we have before we start something serious but I feel guilty about how much I enjoyed the twin’s touch that in a sick way I see this as the punishment I deserve.

I cry into his shoulder and finally give into his warm loving touch and wrap my arms around his neck, I put my head in the crook of his neck trying to control my cries and smell him, his scent makes me feel at ease, not completely though.

He lifts my head to look at him and he moves the wet hair from my face slightly cupping my jaw in his big hands. I can see how sad and sorry he is as he kisses the tears that have fallen on my puffy rosy cheeks. His hair is also wet and messy, his blond hair has a few long pieces that have fallen so his eyes are partially covered, I lift my trembling hand and gently move his hair so I can see those beautiful eyes I love so much, looking into them immediately calms me. He takes my hand and kisses it.

“Lexi I will NEVER hurt you again… I promise you that… I’m so sorry. You don’t have to tell me where you went, you’re back safe now and that’s all that matters. All I ask from you is that you let me know you’re safe. I thought I was going to die when you didn’t come back, I was so worried babe. Please don’t ever do that to me again…” he says softly as he looks me in my eyes and wipes away the remaining tears.

I don’t know what to say so I just nod, although I’m calm I’m still afraid he might hurt me again and I just don’t know what to say to him at this moment. I need some time to think about everything that has happened. I hate that I cried in front of him, I don’t want him to think I’m weak and that I will just accept this behavior from him, we both made a mistake and we handled it the wrong way but I won’t let him think that it’s okay to push me around. It’s not
.

“Lexi? Are you okay? I’m so sorry, I never meant to hurt you but I was so mad and I can smell someone else’s sce…deodorant on you and I just thought you were seeing another guy and I just flipped. I’m sorry Lex it won’t happen again.” Drake says as he kisses me corner of my lips

“Drake...it can’t happen again. It can’t. I don’t like that side of you and I know you never meant to hurt me but you did and that scares me. You scared me. It can’t happen again Drake.”

After witnessing the episode Drake threw I decide that its safer for me to lie, I was going to tell him the somewhat truth like I did my mom but Drake as well as the others are hiding things from me, I know it and I think it’s just safer for mom and I if I lie about the situation.

So with all the conviction in me, I lie to the best of my ability.

“Drake…I visited my friend Alex, she used to live near me until she moved, I lost touch with her then ran into her at the supermarket. She stays in Colters
Grove, the next town over. Anyway, we just went out to eat and she introduced me to some of her family that was visiting her, it’s probably her cousins that you smell. Drake they know I’m dating you and I only want you.”

I look him in the eyes, I can see he is convinced when he smiles and shows me his white teeth, I know I’ve pleased him. “Thank you babe, I only want you and you already have me, I’m so sorry… I never want to hurt you again. You don’t have to be afraid of me. That will never happen again.” He says as he raises his lips towards mine.

“I missed you so much Lex…” he says before our lips meet and the pain that took over my body lessens. Our lips move together as if they’ve missed the others company. I realize that we are still half naked when my chest touches the skin of his warm chest, he’s in just his gym shorts and I’m in underwear. His hands are on my hips gently squeezing them as his tongue asks for entrance at my lips and they part as I invite him in. His tongue is so warm, so soft and his taste is minty, he moans in my mouth as I lower my body into his. His hands are now holding onto my ass as our mouths devour each other. His hand moves over my stomach then rests on waist.

“Lexi babe you taste so sweet, I want you so bad…” he growls in my ear as he shifts us so that he’s on top of me now with my legs wrapped around his waist.

I feel the pain in my back from hitting the door, I can deal with this pain as long as he continues taking my mind off everything he did to hurt me. He puts his one hand on my upper thigh and the other is next to my head holding himself up. Our lips are still together, our tongues colliding, intensifying the pleasure as he moves his body against mine to a rhythm, the thought of us being only separated by a few pieces of fabric makes me moan out loud when he grinds against me one more time.

“Baby if you keep moaning like that I don’t know if I can control myself …” he whispers in my ear in a gruff voice. I let out a husky giggle against his mouth. “Oh god baby that’s sexy… you swear you’ve never done any of this before?” he says against my mouth trailing kisses down my neck.

I don’t know where my boldness comes from but I tell him exactly what I’m thinking, “Nah… I haven’t… but it feels…. so good….” I groan as he brings his mouth back to my lips.

He whispers against my lips looking into my eyes, “Let me take care of you babe. Let me show you how much you mean to me…” he trails off as he starts kissing down my neck and chest, his other hand reaches behind my back and unclasps my bra with ease.
He definitely has experience with these things
.

I let his hands and lips explore my body, he’s gentle, caring and I can feel the love radiating from him, he’s the total opposite of the monster he was moments before when I walked in the house. Even though I never got to do any exploring of my own we’re both left panting facing each other lying on our sides.

Drake excuses himself to go to the bathroom, while he’s away I place my bra back on and turn to facing the window. I'm close to falling asleep when I hear Drake shut the door behind him, I feel him climb in the bed and wrap his arms around me as he gets comfortable. He kisses my neck and puts his arms around me the same way Jax did that night. My head is resting on his arm and his other hand is holding my hip, I hear him whisper in my ear thinking I’m asleep.

“I’m so sorry for hurting you Lex, I love you so much…”

He loves me? Drake loves me…

I love you too Drake, even though you hurt me.

I wake up and instantly feel cold where Drake was lying next to me moments before. I’m alone now and I’m in my pj’s. Drake must’ve put clothes on me. I try move but pain shoots through my shoulders and back, I let out a cry. I try move slowly to the side of the bed, my whole body is stiff and in pain.

He must’ve hit me really hard against the door. I think I need to take a shower to loosen the muscles or something; my mom probably has pain meds somewhere I could take.

I eventually stand and slowly walk to bathroom. I hear people talking in the lounge and I instantly recognize Ronny and Jax laughing and chatting to each other. I walk down the passage with my hand leaning on the wall just to help me walk, my back really hurts.

“Hey! There’s our little spitfire! Drake explained to us where you were, you should’ve just told us when we asked.” Ron shouts from the sofa she’s lounging on.

“Yeah I know... sorry guys.” I’m in too much pain to stand and argue with them. I don’t see Drake, only Ronny and Jax are in the lounge watching old episodes of South Park.

“He had to help out at the house with something but he will pick you up for school tomorrow Lexi. Your mom let us in before she went to work, said you were in your room.” Jax says obviously seeing that I was looking for Drake. I’m kind of relieved he’s not here.

“We checked on you and you were out cold so we just waited for you out here.” Ronny says.

“Thanks guys,” I say as I walk slowly to the kitchen to get some water and find some medicine to take for the pain.

“Even though I know the full story now, I still want to throw you over my leg and give you a good spanking for disobeying me.” Jax says creeping up on me in the kitchen.

“I’m sorry Jax…” I say as I look down at the glass of water on the table praying that he’s teasing me, I think if Jax did hurt me he might just
 break me completely.

I don’t see him come around the counter because I’m so deep in thought.

“It’s okay Lexi, I just missed you that’s all.” He says as he comes up to me and pulls me in for a tight hug, I yelp out in pain. He quickly releases me and holds me gently keeping me from falling to the ground.

“I heard a cry? What happened?” Ronny yells as she comes running into the kitchen looking at me confused.

“I’m not sure, I just hugged her and she screamed, what’s wrong Lexi? Are you hurt?” Jax asks clearly worried about me.

“No…it’s nothing… I’m fine…” I stutter, I don’t want them to know what Drake did, as I try to move away from him and get back on my feet I hit my hip on the counter.

“Ahhh... fuck…” I cry out again leaning over the counter trying to hold myself up.

“No, something’s wrong Lexi! Tell us so we can help you!” Ronny shouts at me, I shiver and grimace at her anger bringing back the memory of how mad Drake was with me.

I start to stand but Ronny comes up to me and rips my shirt open, buttons fly everywhere causing more pain, I shudder and cover my chest even though I have a bra on as she pulls the shirt off my arms.

How the fuck did she do that? The material was thin but not that thin…

“What the fuck Ronny!” I shout at her.

“Oh… my… God …” I look over at Ronny as she whispers, she’s staring at my back, now she has tears in her eyes.

I look over to Jax whose face is red with anger, he’s tensing his jaw trying to control himself.

“Who did this to you baby? That friend of yours? Did they do this? I swear I will kill them for touching your body!” he shouts and I wince again at the power radiating from him. He holds my cold body against his warm chest in a protective stance.

“Please just help me, it hurts so badly.” I cry into Jax’s chest.

“Okay baby I’m gonna pick you up now okay?” I nod into his chest.

“Ronny go run a bath so long while I bring her through.” I hear Ronny’s footsteps down the passage.

“Baby you trust me right? You know I won’t hurt you, let me take care of you, I’m going to help you into the bath okay?
  I won’t look and I’ll just help you where you can’t reach. Is that okay Lex?” he asks me so kindly. I know he would never hurt me and I feel so protected in his arms. I know he’s waiting for me to ask if Ronny can rather do it but I know Jax and I know he wants to do it so he can show me that I can trust him and I do trust him completely. It’s funny how Drakes version of taking care of me differs from Jax's.

They seem to be the total opposite of one another, Drake who seems like the sweet gentle boy wanted to take care of me by being intimate and sexual making me forget about the pain
he
caused then there's Jax who seems to be the bad boy sexual type yet he's so gentle and even though the way he wants to take care of me is indeed intimate, it’s definitely not on the same level that Drake handled me with.

He carries me to the bathroom where Ronny runs a bubble bath, she helps me take off my clothes and into the tub as Jax leaves so I can get undressed. I’m too sore to worry about the fact that Ronny is seeing me naked but she acts like she’s not fazed by my nudity which makes me feel better about the situation. I pull my knees up just in case Jax can see through the bubbles even though the water is deep, I use the sponge to wipe my arms and legs trying not to move too quickly while the warm water soothes my muscles.

Jax walks in the bathroom, I look at Ronny who has tears falling down her face.

“Please don’t cry Ron, I’m okay…” fuck I hate it when people cry. I think the reason I hate it so much is the fact that they’re not afraid to show weakness and emotion where I’m too afraid to look weak.

“No, Lexi it’s not fine! I don’t know how anyone can hurt you, even though we joke about you being feisty you’re still so small, innocent and kind. You would never intentionally hurt anyone! It makes me mad how someone could hurt you like that!” she starts crying again and I lean over and hold her hand even though I’m in pain now, I need to reassure her that I’m fine.