Alexia Eden (FairyTales Don't Exist) (32 page)

This is out of the ordinary for Talon to be so forth coming about how he feels but he’s obviously showing me that he’s trying and I appreciate it. I know how difficult it is to express your feelings to someone especially after you’ve kept them hidden for so long.

I grin at him and slowly kiss his cheek, “I love you to Talon, thank you for telling me.”

He smirks, “I know its bad timing with your hole love triangle situation you got going on with those two
boys
but after you told me how you mentioned you loved Jax and he didn’t respond I wanted you to know that I love you… that we love you. It may not be how you love us or how you love them but we do love you. I guess what I’m trying to say is that you are loved, people do silly shit when they want to feel cared for and I just wanted you to know you don’t have to seek out anything. Many people love you Angel, you just have to open your eyes and see that there are people here that appreciate you and want you.”

I don’t think Talon has ever spoken so much to me in one go. I know he means well and I can tell he’s talking from experience but I get after everything I’ve been through it just feels like a lot to take in.

“Why are you telling me this?” I whisper.

“You seem confused about your feelings for those boys as well as Tyler and I. I know you don’t mean to and I don’t mean to be harsh but you send out mixed signals to us guys babe and I know you don’t mean to, you obviously don’t even realize you do. You have a boyfriend Angel yet somehow you’ve found yourself in love with someone else, Jax is Drakes best friend right?” I nod.

“I think if you were really in love with Drake to begin with, you never would have fallen for Jax and if you really are in love with Jax like you say you are, then why are you still with Drake? I think the reason you throw out the words “I love you” so often is because you don’t feel loved and you need the “I love you’s” from other people to satisfy that craving or need. You’ve clearly never been in love before you met these boys and all of a sudden your infatuation with them has left you thinking it could be love. I know what it feels to truly be in love and I’ll tell you, when you are truly in love, no one else will matter.” He ends his last words off on a whisper as he looks into my eyes and runs his thumbs against my cheek bone.

For a guy with not so many words, he gave me a heck of a lot to think about. I don’t know if what he’s saying is true but I know Talon isn’t the type to bullshit you either. I know I should reply but I don’t have the right words to respond.

I feel movement behind me and I turn my head to see Tyler rolling onto his back. The room is quiet and I’m not sure how he could have slept through Talon and my whispering. I watch Tyler as he wipes his eyes with his hands then suddenly stops then I see and hear him sniff the air, he obviously smells me.

I can’t contain my laugh and I giggle out loud
 while Talon chuckles behind me. Tyler whips his head around and looks at me in shock.

“Took you long enough bro, I’ve had her cuddled up to me for the last hour.”
  Talon says as he possessively puts his hand around my waist and pulls me closer to him.

I hear Tyler growl before he reaches out and steals me away from Talon, pulling me into his chest and putting his face in the crook of my neck breathing me in and rubbing his cheek against mine.

It’s such a loving gesture and it felt like I could
almost
feel the pieces of my wrecked heart gluing itself together….piece by piece. Maybe it was a good thing I’m staying here with the boys…maybe they’ll be good for my broken heart and conflicted brain.

I wrap my arms around him and put my head on his chest. “Missed you so much.” he says as he holds me tight.

“Missed you too Ty.”

“I’m sorry about everything with...you know…wish I could help you or make you feel better.” He says sadly.

“Wait-how?” I stutter as I look back and forth between the twins.

“Talon told me everything...” Tyler says but I’m still confused.

“Mind link Lexi…” Talon explains.

“Oh Yeah…. Well I’m better now; you guys can take my mind off of all of that. Just don’t tell Johnny and Alex anything yet. I want to speak to them and find out the truth.” I say as I stretch out and fall back against the bed.

“Okay Angel…” they both say in agreement. 

“What’s the time? I’m starved.” I say as I get out of bed and head for the curtains.

“It’s ten thirty, let’s get our girl fed.” Tyler says as he picks me up, throws me over his shoulder and walks out the room with Talon chuckling behind him. We make our way to the kitchen and Tyler sits me down on a chair.

I wonder where everyone is.

I hear heavy footsteps coming down the stairs and Johnny appears, his face brightens up when he sees me and he quickly pulls me into a hug but I tense up.

These people that say they are my family have been lying to me... and since Georgina isn’t my mother and James isn’t my father, then Johnny and Alex aren’t my aunt and uncle.
Who are they?

“I thought I smelt your scent in the house this morning.” Johnny says.

He notices my hesitance and pulls away to look me over, he looks hurt because I don’t return his hug.

“What’s wrong baby girl?” he says in a gentle voice.

I ignore his question. “Where’s Alex?” I ask avoiding his gaze.

“I’m here Angel, What’s wrong?” Alex says as she walks down the stairs with a worried expression on her face.

“I…I need to ask you guys something.” I say nervously.

“Let’s go talk in my office. “Johnny says as he gestures for us to follow him back up the stairs and to the passage towards the other end of the house.

We enter his office and sit on the suede chairs that are seated in the corner near large windows that overlook the lake. I shift in my seat as Johnny asks me, "What’s wrong Angel? Talk to us.”

“While Georgina was high she blurted out that I wasn’t her daughter...” I hear Alex gasp and see Johnny’s eyes widen. “and that James wasn’t my father. She said that James told her that he was told to take me from this pack and look after me but she was never told who my parents were. Why did you lie to me about him being my father and her my mother? Do you know who my parents are?” I say quietly in almost a whisper as I try to keep myself from crying as I think of the man I loved so dearly who I thought was my father but apparently is not who I thought he was.

I look up to see tears running down Alex’s face while Johnny has an angry look on his.

“She was high?” he asks in an angry tone.

“Yeah, she’s been taking drugs since da…” I shake my head, “…since James died. She used to only take prescription drugs for depression but started on heavier substances like coke.” I say sadly thinking about her.

“Why didn’t you tell us?” he shouts and I wince, Alex touches his arm and I see him calm down almost immediately.

“I’m sorry.” He apologizes and shakes his head looking at the ground as he tries to calm himself.

“Just tell me why you two lied? Who are you?” I say as I wipe a stray tear.

Alex decides to speak, she wipes away her tears and takes a deep breath before she starts. “We wanted to tell you, we didn’t want you to find out that way. James is my brother, that was the truth and he did take you away from here to look after you but they weren’t your parents and THAT woman is NOT your mother!” she says with hatred directed toward Georgina.

“We didn’t know he would find a mate, he was supposed to protect you… not leave you with
her
. When he was alive we would phone every single day to find out how you were doing and after he died, we lost contact with you, we sent the twins up there to look for you but Georgina couldn’t be found. Then I found you at the store and I knew it was you.”

Tears flow freely down her face and I don’t know why but it causes an ache in my heart as I watch her. Johnny rubs her back as Alex continues. “Angel….Johnny and I are your parents.” she says as she looks me in the eye with intense love.

I'm in shock and disbelief. I look back and forth between the two of them. I’m out of words. I have so much to say but I can’t find my voice.

“I…I…d…don’t understand? W…why didn’t you want me?” I say as the tears fall and I try to catch my breath.

“We did baby girl…we wanted to keep you, we really did but it wasn’t safe to keep you here with us. You were the first half breed born and it was safer for you if people didn’t know that you were born, that’s why we sent James to take you to a territory that wasn’t run by wolves.”

“I still don’t understand, you are both wolves so how am I a half breed?” I ask wiping the tears away

“James and I were human honey; we were at the park with our parents late one afternoon when a rogue wolf attacked us. Johnny's fathers pack saved us but the wolf killed our parents and bit James. We didn’t know if James would survive, Johnny's father was alpha at the time and he brought us back to the pack house so he could make sure James survived his first shift. James was only sixteen and I was fifteen when the attack happened so we were still young and we didn’t have any family to take us in. The first time I met Johnny I knew something was special between us, Johnny knew I was his mate and it was very unusual because wolves usually find their mates when the female turns at eighteen but with Alphas it all depends on how strong the females are. Johnny and I’s bond was
extremely
strong and we completed the mating bond the day after we saw each other. I didn’t fully turn into a wolf until I was eighteen but I fell pregnant with you straight away, we weren’t sure if you would survive the full term of pregnancy but I never once had complications, you were a very strong and healthy baby. I remained hidden for the last few months when my belly started to show and only Johnny’s parents, James and the two of us knew about you. When you were born, you were so tiny and fragile I never wanted to let you go.” Alex cry’s as she shows me with her hands how small I was. “…we needed to make sure you were safe and that no one could hurt you. We named you Angel and that’s the name on your birth certificate but when
Georgina
met James, he told her this story about me running away so that she wouldn’t ask questions about you and our family and she came up with the idea that they should call you Alexia after me.” She rolls he eyes.

“James fell for her charm and started calling you that. He turned when he was sixteen and he was a very strong wolf, the wolf that bit him was definitely an Alpha before turning rogue, so we knew he was strong enough to protect you.” She can’t continue because she is crying so hard at this point.

I feel the tears falling down my face as I hear her tell me all of this but I don’t know what to think, I’m unprepared and in total shock by this curveball they threw me.

“You were only a day old when he took you from us…it was the worst day of my life. I only just met you but I already loved you so much…that’s how I knew I had to let you go. I needed you to be safe. I’m not your uncle baby girl, James was your uncle…I’m your father.” Johnny says as he
 sits next to me and holds my hand, his eyes are watery. You don’t expect to see such a manly giant so emotional and gentle.

I look at him and flashback to all the little things they did and said that confused me like how he would wince every time I mentioned my “dad”.

“If it’s so dangerous for me to be here, then why do you want me to live with you now?” I ask them.

“We shouldn’t have let you go Angel, when I saw you for the first time after seventeen years, I saw how grown up and how much we’ve missed out on. We didn’t get to see the first time you crawled or walked, we didn't get to hear the first time you would call us mommy or daddy. We don’t want to miss out on anymore baby girl. You’ve grown up so much without us and you’re OUR daughter, you belong with us and now that I’m Alpha and our pack is stronger than it was then… we will be able to make sure you are safe. We have to train you and prepare you for when you take over the Alpha position.” Johnny says and my eyes widen.

“What? No…I can’t be the alpha? What if I stay human? I’m too weak to run a pack…I don’t know anything about all of this. I can’t run a pack… Oh my gosh...I can’t…” I ramble frantically.

Johnny chuckles next to me and Alex laughs too. “Why are you guys laughing this is not funny! I can’t do this!” I say anxiously.

“Angel you will be fine, I will know when you are ready and you will be ready eventually. Whether you are human or wolf, either way this pack will welcome you and you will be Alpha or Luna when you take a mate. You are so much stronger than you think.” Johnny says as he pulls me into his chest and hugs me tight.

"Besides you have Talon and Tyler to help you …you know how in love those boys are with you.” Alex teases and I giggle as I pull from Johnny’s embrace.

“Ale….I mean...um…wait… what am I supposed to call you guys now? Do I call you mom and dad or do you want me to rather continue to call you by your names? I’m confused; I was really unprepared for this. I…I don’t even know what to say?” I say as I look down at my hands avoiding their eyes.

“We would love if you called us mom and dad…” Johnny says quickly giving me his Colgate smile.

“We would REALLY love that!” Alex says happily.