An Honest Ghost (20 page)

Huh?: Giles and Miller, eds. The Arts of Contemplative Care

77

“A poet, I: Virginia Woolf Orlando 80

It is two: J. M. Coetzee Waiting for the Barbarians 145

I have nothing: J. M. Coetzee Waiting for the Barbarians 48

What if you: Patrick White Vivisector 377

We belong to: Giles and Miller, eds. The Arts of

Contemplative Care 138

I suffered from: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 26

He tells of: Justin O’Brien Camus 95

“I did not: Colm Toibin The Master 41

Now at this: J. M. Coetzee Waiting for the Barbarians 150

That was the: Joseph Conrad Tales of Unrest 105

So I drank: Alfred Chester The Exquisite Corpse 54

The secret duel: Jorge Luis Borges Collected Fictions 292

Oh, how undignified: Karl Ove Knausgaard My Struggle:

Book Two 44

“I have been: J. M. Coetzee Waiting for the Barbarians 144

The deepest history: Ray Carney The Films of John Cassavetes

140

The past is: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a Young

Man 222

For an evening: J. M. Coetzee Waiting for the Barbarians 47

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“It’s because”—Joe: Ken Kesey Sometimes a Great Notion

462

He was leaning: Sylvia Townsend Warner Summer Will

Show 113

As it happened: Tony Judt Memory Chalet 88

“God seeks people: Fyodor Dostoevsky The Idiot 81

Perhaps this willingness: Sarah Bakewell How to Live 56

“I notice that: Willa Cather Death Comes for the

Archbishop 31

It felt like: Edmund White My Lives 244

Youth is a: Thomas Bernhard Gargoyles 71

He has a: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 42

I turned away: Alfred Chester Jamie Is My Heart’s Desire

30

I wobble a bit: Justin Taylor Everything Here is the Best

Thing Ever 124

He was right: Anthony Holden Tchaikovsky 201

It is not: Fran Lebowitz Reader 11

Everyday life, with: Karl Ove Knausgaard My Struggle:

Book Two 69

“To the Renaissance!: Nathanael West Miss Lonelyhearts 6

That sort of: Andre Tellier Twilight Men 24

“Just because it’s: Ralph Sassone The Intimates 140

How many people: W. H. Auden Forewords and

Afterwords 458

“Pah!” cried Joe: Charles Dickens Barnaby Rudge 26

There are perhaps: Marcel Proust On Reading 99

“And she ain’t: Charles Dickens Great Expectations 55

Quoting gets on: Thomas Bernhard Gargoyles 78

Childhood seldom interests: Alan Bennett Writing Home

xiii

Had he been: Christopher Priest The Glamour 44

He began to: Colm Toibin The Master 59

He felt ordinary: Sarah Bakewell How to Live 58

“Father,” returned Joe: Charles Dickens Barnaby Rudge 25

But I reflected: James Wood The Book Against God 251

It is bewitching: George W. S. Trow In the Context of No

Context 45

Aloud, I said: Thomas Bernhard Gargoyles 72

What I needed: Victoria Redel Loverboy 9

How I long: Susan Sontag Reborn 5

“How did that: David Leavitt The Indian Clerk 115

His mother is: MiKiš TheodoraKiš Journal of Resistance 40

I couldn’t have: Jenny McPhee A Man of No Moon 269

“Poor dear, you: Graham Greene The Heart of the Matter

49

She stared at: Paula Fox Poor George 107

“Don’t Kišs me: Sylvia Townsend Warner The Corner That

Held Them 29

His voice had: Victoria Redel Loverboy 15

A sadist: George W. S. Trow In the Context of No Context

55

We were terrified: Tony Judt Memory Chalet 10

And suddenly he: Heinrich Boll The Silent Angel 140

He was obviously: Fyodor Dostoevsky The Idiot 78

“I don’t like: J. D. Salinger Nine Stories 50

Joe felt there: Ron Padgett Joe 263

Our night had: Victoria Redel Loverboy 17

That time is: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a Young

Man 181

“Oh, what the: J. D. Salinger Franny and Zooey 197

Is this a: Plato Gorgias 34

She powdered her: Jean Rhys After Leaving Mr. Mackenzie

40

“I have seen: Colm Toibin The Master 40

There she stood: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 337

On the other: David Thomson Have You Seen…? 65

“Darling, I’m leaving: John Cheever Stories 497

I feel kind: Jenny McPhee A Man of No Moon 171

He held out: Rudyard Kipling Kim 267

For hours they: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 23

Up and down: Sherwood Anderson Winesburg, Ohio 130

The Joe she: Jack London The Game 9

She refuses to: Janet Malcolm Two Lives 135

Whatever else is: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a

Young Man 189

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The remainder of: Gilbert Adair Love and Death on Long

Island 126

I watched David: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 213

Oozing apple pie: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 40

In this large: David Lodge Consciousness and the Novel 92

But could I: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 23

There was a: Ronald Firbank Three More Novels 60

That night I: Lydie Salvayre The Power of Flies 67

38.

Roy was in: Dorothy Gallagher Life Stories 17

He said very: Joseph Conrad Tales of Unrest 123

He was in: Jean Cocteau Holy Terrors 129

He had barricaded: Thomas Bernhard The Loser 17

He told me: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 45

As is known: Fyodor Dostoevsky The Idiot 50

Love is the: Emilio Tegui On Elegance While Sleeping 42

On that note: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 51

“Gimme a cigarette: J. D. Salinger Nine Stories 25

He was ugly: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 989

There is nothing: Patricia Highsmith Tremor of Forgery

248

At least he: Gilbert Highet Poets in a Landscape 30

“I was once: Mary Jo Bang, trans. The Inferno 17

During the period: Georges Bataille The Blue of Noon 27

“I think this: Colm Toibin The Master 249

How could anyone: Donald Keene The Pleasures of

Japanese Literature 20

“Wake up and: Ralph Sassone The Intimates 93

Two or three: Umberto Eco Mysterious Flame 100

“Let me guess: Ralph Sassone The Intimates 87

Sometimes staying in: John Ashbery April Galleons 20

“I don’t believe: Dorothy Gallagher Life Stories 18

I could hear: James Wood The Book Against God 252

She did not: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 41

The alert host: James Joyce Dubliners 86

“Is there anything: Andrew Holleran Dancer from the

Dance 96

“If you would: Graham Greene The Heart of the Matter 228

I’ll be brief: Danilo Kiš A Tomb for Boris 5

It’s creepy, the: Rebecca Godfrey The Torn Skirt 140

“I am a: Geoff Dyer Out of Sheer Rage: Wrestling with D.

H. Lawrence 40

“I’m doing a: Andrew Holleran Dancer from the Dance 144

Art, on this: Richard Wollheim Painting as an Art 246

The artist, like: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a

Young Man 184

Excitement is muddling: Umberto Eco Mysterious Flame

298

“You’ll succeed at: Ralph Sassone The Intimates 93 But isn’t it: John Cheever Stories 497 Seated, she opened: J. D. Salinger Nine Stories 24 Next he showed: Albert Camus The Plague 135 It was difficult: Glen Baxter The Further Blurtings of Glen Baxter (no page numbers)

By now it: Sandor Marai The Rebels 5

“They never have: Andrew Holleran Dancer from the

Dance 135

Frustration had been: Ralph Sassone The Intimates 141

As the evening: Glen Baxter Atlas (no page numbers)

Her mean, hunted: Georges Bataille The Blue of Noon 14

His waking hours: Edmund White Nocturnes for the King

of Naples 130

I don’t know: Anne Carson Nox (no page numbers)

We believe in: Ralph Waldo Emerson Essays 258

An hour goes: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 28

The rest of: Andre Tellier Twilight Men 80

That night, I: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 26

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I am teaching: Ted Hughes Letters 34

So far, so: Albert Camus The Plague 132

More or less: Frank Lentricchia The Italian Actress 39

I spent twenty-four: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life

928

I didn’t understand: Brane Mozetic Banalities 16

Is this the: Emilio Lascano Tegui On Elegance While

Sleeping 46

I was so: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 50

Played the piano: Pyotr Tchaikovsky Diaries 25

“You can either: Adam Phillips On Balance 41

I remembered that: Edmund White Jack Holmes and His

Friend 201

You had your: Sarah Bakewell How to Live 59

I ruminated for: Jean Genet Funeral Rites 17

Obediently the body: Christopher Isherwood A Single

Man 13

I owe my: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 944

That night there: Sylvia Townsend Warner Kingdoms of

Elfin 197

White streets, white: Karl Ove Knausgaard My Struggle:

Book Two 246

As I walked: Jean Genet Funeral Rites 12

Yes, I am: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball Asses 55

‘Tis very strange: William Shakespeare Hamlet (Yale) 26

Homosexuality does not: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball

Asses 55

Nothing is abnormal: George Orwell An Age Like This 12

Yes, but what: Plato Gorgias 13

To whom could: Roland Barthes Mourning Diary 213

It is when: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball Asses 47

Repression is a: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball Asses 23

One ages quickly: James Blake The Joint 89

There is a: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball Asses 55

This morning, more: Roland Barthes Mourning Diary 161

Parenthood, it seems: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall

169

Across the sky: Bruce Duffy The World As I Found It 31

40.

The inquest concluded: W. G. Sebald Rings of Saturn 6

41.

I got there: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 964

They were waiting: Giacomo Leopardi Canti 317

The house was: Sylvia Townsend Warner Kingdoms of

Elfin 197

I urinated, emitted: Diane Williams The Stupefaction 89

David’s face assumed: E. F. Benson David Blaize 8

“Put me to: Honore Honoré de Balzac Lost Illusions 564

Does he think: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 23

It was one: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 174

“But, David, you: Sylvia Townsend Warner Summer Will

Show 89

He got drunk: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 988

He would never: James Joyce Dubliners 119

“I am a: Fyodor Dostoevsky The Idiot 81

You must yield: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life

1079

“Oh, damn!,” said: E. F. Benson David Blaize 5

“—Suck it yourself: James Joyce Finnegans Wake 480

Sometimes when I’m : Justin Taylor Everything Here is the

Best Thing Ever 118

But he must: Helen Keller The World I Live In 19

He himself repeatedly: Gilbert Highet Poets in a

Landscape 181

Our entire reasoning: Blaise Pascal Pensees 124

At all events: W. G. Sebald Vertigo 6

42.

Joe was taking: Jack London The Game 67

“Say that I: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 931

She depresses me: E. M. Forster Passage to India 131

He knew that: Jane Gardam Faith Fox 83

“Certainly not, it: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life

934

What were you: John Banville The Untouchable 196

Are you allowed: Franz Kafka The Castle 22

Why would someone: Adam Phillips Equals 73

“Why not,” he: E. F. Benson Freaks of Mayfair 118

“What are you: Andre Tellier Twilight Men 29

“Goddam if I: J. D. Salinger Nine Stories 22

“It is a: Tim Dean Unlimited Intimacy 177

I should like: Daisetz T. Suzuki Zen and Japanese Culture

237

I can’t find: Albert Camus The First Man 35

Exactly: Plato Collected Dialogues 117

I like it: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 30

And yet the: James Danziger American Photographs (no

page numbers)

One who thinks: Shunryu Suzuki Zen Mind, Beginner’s

Mind 45

I never was: T. J. Parsell Fish 99

“What say you: Jane Austen Northanger Abbey 158

And where have: Ronald Firbank Three More Novels 148

She wore a: James Joyce Dubliners 119

She did not: Daisetz T. Suzuki Zen and Japanese Culture

224

She dealt with: James Joyce Dubliners 119

She reminded me: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a

Domesticated Animal 175

I can see: Anne Carson Nox (no page numbers)

She stands on: George W. S. Trow In the Conext of No

Context 59

History takes a: George W. S. Trow In the Context of No

Context 59

She highly disapproves: Lydie Salvayre The Power of Flies

49

It began to: Patrick Leigh Fermor A Time to Keep Silence

12

Soon I will: Pyotr Tchaikovsky Diaries 27

Writing a book: George Orwell An Age Like This 7

I have not: Roland Barthes Mourning Diary 94

How often we: Roland Barthes S/Z xi

I love the: Anne Carson Nox (no pages numbers)

But if the: Herman Melville The Confidence Man 79

But I will: Herman Melville The Confidence Man 24

I would like: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball Asses 50

(Wilde speaks of: Roland Barthes Reader xxiii

43.

David and I: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 267