As She's Told (35 page)

Inside the trailer the air was warm and a little stuffy. Anders stepped past Maia and arranged the blinds, then looked at her where she stood hesitating by the door. "What are you waiting for?" he said sharply. She stripped and was on all fours without a flicker of wasted motion.

He pulled collar and cuffs from a bag he'd stashed there, squatted down next to her and clicked each one shut. She raised her head, blindly seeking him with her face in the dimness. Anders raised her to her knees and touched the tip of his tongue to her parted lips, tasting her, and inhaling her eager breath. He kissed her. The flesh crossed and striped with straps was warm satin against his hands. He tightened the breast straps until the tits bulged, and then fondled the taut, swollen things.

Then he locked her hands behind her neck and kissed her some more.

Exploring the packaged flesh that was his belonging: all property, all his own. After a while he got up and lifted her onto the small table on her back, folded her legs back and unlocked the chastity shield. She was watching, 218

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breath coming short, painful hope showing in the shape of that open mouth.

He ran his fingers gently down the rings on either side of her vulva. Took out his cock, pulled the rings aside and pushed his way into her slowly, slowly. She knew all too well what was coming; he heard her whimper in familiar frustration.

Anders enjoyed her succulent hole for a while, staying back and watching the needy little clit, isolated and untouched in its fleshy shell. Then he withdrew, still hard, took a thick dildo from his bag of toys, and slid it where his cock had been, again very slowly. The little figure arched and panted, and then saw him reach for the shield again. "No. Please, master…."

The dildo base was narrow to fit between the fixed rings. He slid it into a groove that he was now making use of for the first time. He could have wished for more light, and the dildo teased her even more than he'd intended as he worked to get the two together. At last he succeeded, and pressed the whole up high into her cunt, got the labia rings through the slots and locked her up once more.

"All right, hunhund." Hand in her hair, he pulled her up to sit on the table and then off and down on her knees in front of him. Then there was the hot, wet, eager mouth to invade and use, and when he'd had enough of that, the obedient throat to fill.

She was looking up at Anders, knees wide on the rough carpet, watching as he cleaned himself up. He stepped around her, and was rummaging in a bag when his cellphone rang.

"Hello. Hey. Yup, we made it. All right. Just a couple of things to tidy up and I'll be there. Is John coming? Good. Half an hour, then."

Anders put away his boots, her clothes. Stood over her with a water bottle and gave her a drink. Unlocked her wrists from her collar and clipped on a short chain as a leash, then led her, crawling, first to the bathroom to pee, and then to a tall narrow door with horizontal slats. The wardrobe.

He opened it, took out a couple of old lumpy plastic bags, and nudged her in. "Sit." She sat, knees to chest, looked up at him and opened her mouth. Anders put a hand to it. "Quiet." He slid the hasp of a padlock through the rings at her wrists, her ankles and the end of the collar chain.

Then he bridled her, with a breather gag rather than a bit. Her eyes were wide between the straps as he closed the door.

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It was almost completely dark. The closet was so small that the balls of my feet were against the door. The trailer door closed, and I moaned behind the gag. There was sweat trickling down my side already; it was hot in there.

A thump and a scrape sounded against the side of the trailer, and I shrank down. Who was out there? Only a thin skin of metal between me and the cheerful vanilla world. What if someone decided to visit?

The trailer door opened, and I caught my breath. A hum; something starting up. The door closed again. The hum continued; otherwise, silence. A hint of cooler air filtered through the slats in front of me. He must have hooked up the electricity and turned on the air conditioner. Sweet man.

The whole trailer lurched a bit, and again I cringed. Then I heard the truck start up and move away. He'd unhitched the trailer and left me alone in it. God, this was scary. If I didn't trust him so thoroughly I'd be terrified.

Where was he going? Did he have friends here? Construction business to discuss? Surely anyone needing renovations would use a local contractor.

I tried to shift the gag a little with my tongue. My hands twisted, my feet crossed and uncrossed, trying to find the most comfortable arrangement.

I could just touch the padlock that linked all four cuffs and the chain leash.

This last was short; if I sat up straight I had to pull my heels right up to my ass. No way to extend my legs, even if the door had been opened. No way to exert any of the strength of my legs on the door. No way to reach the knob, no matter what contortions I might try.

"Just a couple of things to tidy up," he'd said. I thought about luggage left till called for. I thought about a toy that was played with and then put away till next time. Squirming around the pole inside me, soaking wet, my bridled head rolled from side to side.

The experience wasn't unfamiliar. I spent plenty of time under his desk, for instance, out of the way. But only when he was there. And he'd done the same thing with pieces of me, like when he stored me away on one side of the door while he used my breasts on the other. For that matter, what was being locked for hours to banisters and benches but storage? Just with a bit more of a view. And not in this strange new place, with no soundproofing to insulate me. There were voices outside. Children shouting. An engine starting up. Some women walked by, quite close, talking. I couldn't make out what they were saying, but they couldn't have passed more than a few feet from me.

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My eyes were getting used to the dark; I could make out the lines of the louvered door in front of me. A few photons of sunshine filtering through.

My enclosure smelt like old musty clothes, with a slight, worn-out hint of cedar. I thought about the fresh breeze outside, the blues and greens, the sun's sparkle on the lake. Not for me as it turned out; at least for now. I thought about exploring the town, checking out the bookstores. Not for me, either, apparently. I sighed. We were here for my master's pleasure, I reminded myself. Any enjoyment the slave obtained was purely fortuitous.

Well, not entirely. I continued to squirm, and there was no question that the confinement was having its usual impact on me, on top of everything else. I could feel my nipple rings against my arms. One finger made it as far as the chastity shield, but of course could make no impression there.

My finger traced the hard, smooth metal, reading its implacable message. Who was I kidding? The dildo I was forced to sit on was not for my amusement, but for his. My arousal and frustration was his pleasure. And while this made my time in storage more bearable, in the long run it only meant more torment. Would I ever get to come? I was still hopeful, but there was no indication of when. Was there some kind of schedule in his mind, or would I have to earn it somehow? I hoped the requirement didn't have to do with not begging for it, because if so I'd never get there. I had all sorts of inhibitions and reticence around my speech; I'd never been exactly fluent.

How on earth could I be such a motormouth when I was on the edge like that? No, so far it seemed to be simply for his own enjoyment that my master had continued to deny me. After all, when he had expectations he told me, in words of one syllable if necessary. He was getting more pleasure from denial than from allowing me orgasms, so of course he was denying me. His right.

And deep down, beneath the frustration and the crazy urgency, was a weird kind of delight. I was not, really not in charge. Not even subtly, not even as part of some covert negotiation. If he'd been doing things for my sake and not his own, I'd be having orgasms night and day. Not hardly.

I let out a long breath, and leaned back in my enclosure. Thought about my childhood games in the crate with the little lamp chain and the curved block shackles. Tipped my head back, trying not to drool. How long had it been? Ten minutes? Thirty? I presumed I'd be let out for the beginning of the festival at least; otherwise why buy two tickets? For the time being I was 221

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safe where he'd put me.

***

Anders turned back into the campsite from the highway, gravel popping beneath his tires. The meeting had gone not badly. He'd found a CD he'd been looking for. His slave was tucked away securely, just as she ought to be. Horny as hell, just as he liked her. In a world full of tragedy and injustice, was it wrong to be this pleased with life?

Inside the trailer he made some coffee, studied the festival program and made some notes. When he was ready, he went to the wardrobe and opened the door. How the little body glowed in its dark corner, dusty and damp though it was. She was looking up at him with those big eyes, just as she had when the door had been closed. He pushed the sweaty hair off her face.

"Have you been a good girl?" he smiled. She made a sound behind her gag which could have been anything: agreement, amusement, exasperation. She nodded.

"Come on," he said, pulling out his keys. "Let's get you cleaned up."

This he did thoroughly, tying her up in the shower, taking everything off, drying her carefully, putting it all back on again. He hesitated over the dildo, strongly tempted to use it, but in the end removed it from the shield; they were walking, and he had yet to see how far she could walk in it without chafing.

Out the campsite gates and up the road they strolled, with some time to spare. It wasn't more than a kilometre to the Mariposa site. The road was dusty and heavily trafficked, but there was a pretty view over a bridge; they stood there for a little, and he said, "I don't have to tell you not to wander off, do I? Stay with me, unless I give you permission otherwise."

He noted her look of guilt, and the anxious edge to her voice. "Of course, master." She moved in closer.

"Damn it, sometimes I wish I could keep you on a leash in public."

Maia nestled under his arm and touched his back gently; a consoling gesture.

"Even if I couldn't keep you naked. Just to be able to acknowledge the relationship."

"What about unwilling spectators?"

"Oh, be damned to them!" He smiled wryly. "Grow up, people!"

"Even in front of children?"

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He grimaced. "No," he admitted, "even in fantasy I can't imagine that one." He watched an approaching sailboat catch a breeze and heel to starboard. "But really, how different is it from gays and lesbians getting to hold hands in public? Probably no one thought that was okay in front of children either, a few years back.”

“You think we'll go mainstream? I can't picture it."

"Me neither. Nice fantasy, though, isn't it? No wonder so much bdsm porn is set on millionaire's islands. Or other planets. Where it can all be in the open. Socially sanctioned.”

“I guess that's one reason for the clubs and scenes."

"I guess," he said doubtfully. "So much of that is playacting for an audience. Maybe there are couples who use it to get some – what? Some affirmation of their private reality? But how would you know the difference between that and games?"

They watched the sailboat as it passed under the bridge, directly under their feet. An odd satellite view of the deck.

"But a leash, now…," Anders mused. "I could get one of those training shocker collars they have for dogs. The ones that give them a jolt if they go beyond a certain distance. I'd have to put it somewhere…discreet. But you'd be such a good girl I can't imagine it would get much use."

She shuddered. "No, it wouldn't."

"Still…."

She looked up at him in some alarm. He steered her forward. "Let's go."

***

Anders bought us dinner at one of the food stands: chicken curry and nan. I stayed close, not wanting to encourage whatever those thoughts had been on the bridge. He settled us down on the grass by the lake to eat, and I drank in the view and the breeze. The water was a deep and playful blue.

The air smelled wonderful, unburdened by city smog. I'd almost forgotten what clean air smelled like.

We were joined by a middle-aged couple, Claude and Pam, whom I'd met once at the Toronto folk club where Anders played; they helped to run things there. I gathered from the conversation that it was them that Anders had gone to meet, along with some local people, and that they were trying to put something together at the club, some sort of workshop series for amateurs, taught by professional musicians.

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"I still say promotion is the problem," said Pam, her voice an echo of Edinburgh gone mid-Atlantic. Idly I wondered how long it had taken her accent to shift so far to the west. She'd been in Toronto a good twenty years at least, by my guess. "We won't get the people we want unless we can show a promotion budget up front. They could finish up giving their time away for practically nothing."

"There are ways that don't cost much. Or anything. Our website, other websites," said Claude, his Québec accent down to a few Gallic consonants.

He'd probably been in Toronto as long as Pam.

"We may have to pay them a fixed amount, not a percentage," Anders said. "I think there are lots of regulars that would come."

They argued amicably, and I tried to maintain a look of intelligent interest, deeply conscious of the big hand clasping my thigh, and of the fact that I'd spent their meeting time stored away in a closet. What on earth would these people think if they knew? This was a very strange life sometimes. Pam tried to get me to express an opinion on their plans, and gave me a couple of sharp glances when my eyes went to Anders and I deferred to their greater experience. She reminded me of my sixth grade teacher, another Scot, who was always at me to 'Speak up, girl!' I could almost smell the pencil shavings.