As She's Told (39 page)

He had never seen her cut loose in public. She laughed and capered with energy and a will, brought her knees up, did her steps with pretty precision, and let her skirt ride halfway up her thighs. The audience clapped and whooped, and she put her hands on her hips and jigged harder. Anders matched her. The two of them kept at it as the fiddles speeded up, challenging each other back and forth till the tune ended. Then she tumbled toward him, laughing and gasping, and he caught her in his arms, falling back on the grass. Her legs straddled one of his, and as they pressed together she shuddered and went rigid, making a high little animal cry that was lost in the general melee. Anders sat up with her on his knee, and hastily checked his pocket to be on the safe side, but no, this wasn't an inadvertent shock. It was an inadvertent orgasm. A few minutes later they sat on a park bench overlooking the lake. She hadn't said a word so far, but she looked rather haunted. He put his arm around her. "Master, I'm – I'm sorry."

"Not your fault." He laughed. "Mine, in fact. A nice little ironic twist on my lust for power."

"Did anyone – did people see?"

"I don't think anyone noticed. You'd put so much style into that jig that it looked like you were collapsing in a happy state of exhaustion." He hugged her to him. "You were magnificent, by the way. Once I persuaded you to get going."

"Thank you, master. I learned from a master." She giggled a little hysterically. Snickering, he gave her a squeeze. "Stop that."

"You were amazing yourself. So – so – oh, god, you're – " She burrowed into his shoulder. He held her, smiling ruefully. "I'm what?" She shook her head, her face hidden. He stroked her hair. "Despite appearances to the contrary, I am fallible. Look at what just happened." She shuddered.

"Will I have to be – punished?"

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"No, no. I pushed you a little too far that time. Anyway, it's the equipment's job to control you; I stopped expecting you to control yourself some time ago. We've obviously found the limits of the shield."

"But without the – without all the – "

"Perhaps. But then, I like to use the extras. It was all moving around as you danced, wasn't it?"

"Sure. That was what…."

"And then that final pressure took you over the edge?"

"Uh-huh."

"Hmm. Shouldn't have happened." He was thoughtful. "Oh well. How are you feeling now?"

"Better."

"I'll bet."

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>Yes, I am arrived, though with no thanks to U.S. Customs which was
deeply mistrustful of my student visa and suspected me of conspiracies to
steal the job of an honest American.

>You have a lean and hungry look, Cassius. Just be glad they didn't
take you for a terrorist.

>The apartment is not bad, on third floor of a walk-up building near
campus, and if the furniture was not so execrable I would be quite pleased. I
must find something to spread over this couch of much too cheerful orange
before I vomit.

>May I suggest you seek permission before you paint everything black
and bruised purple?

>supervisor is still a thorny fellow, but this is just his way with
everyone, I am told. His accent is easier to understand when we are face to
face. So all is well so far. I am sorry I could not visit you and see your
ménage on my way, but this must wait for spring; then I hope that Ria and I
can come together.

>I'm looking into a couple of possibilities for next summer. I'll keep
you posted. Svend may be interested also, but that depends on what he's up
to by then.

>fixed the webcam setup. Ria is already planning scenes with me, but
the time difference is awkward for all concerned. It is good to see her even if
I cannot touch her, in spite of this delayed and jerky style. But even with us
directing each other's hands it is not very satisfying.

>There must be a major scene in Chicago; have you checked yet? I
think you were wise to leave the leather with Ria; just imagine what
Customs would have made of it.

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was trying to concentrate on getting through my cataloguing project before the summer ended, because in September everything was supposed to get a lot busier. By then I'd thought I was pretty good at dealing with internal distractions, having had plenty of practice. But I was having trouble moving past the weekend. The orgasm alone seemed to have so much weight that its gravity was sending my mind's orbit out of kilter.

That evening Anders decided that the septum piercing was more than ready to use. I knelt as high as I could at his feet, arms strapped tightly behind me, my attention shifting anxiously back and forth between his face and the hand that held my new nose ring in a tight grip. "Tell me," he said conversationally, "have you been, shall we say, experimenting with your chastity shield? Maybe in the bathroom at work?"

"Ah – experimenting?" I muttered. He gave the ring the tiniest twist, and I squeaked.

"Yes, girl, experimenting. Trying to use it to get off."

"I – no, not exactly – ow –"

"What, then? Exactly?"

"Just – sometimes – pressing it against me – "

"And?" He tweaked me again.

"Ah! I – twisted it sometimes, pulled a little – tried to rub it against me

– just for a few seconds – "

"And? What happened?"

"Nothing, master. Ow! Really, I was just kind of – desperate and it just made me – hornier – ."

"Did you try it today?"

"Please!" I whimpered, stretching higher.

"Did you?"

"Oh, please! Yes, I tried it today!"

"Any luck?"

"No."

"Do you think you might ever have any luck?"

"N-no – may- Aah!" My head was tipped back as high as it could go, and my thighs were trembling. "I don't know, master, maybe if I had more time!"

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you for the other times," he said, in his sudden, scary, pissed-accent voice.

"Frustrated wrestling with your restraints is one thing. An amusement. For me. But today you knew you might get somewhere."

I got a very thorough spanking that reignited the recent cane strokes and left me bawling. Then I had to stand in the corner with my nose ring clipped high to the wall for what felt like hours.

The ring got used a lot in the next little while. He'd actually had one made with a fixed bead that could be snapped shut, but could only be opened with a tiny screwdriver, like the locking mechanism on the nipple rings.

'Micro-micro management,' he called it. One more example of his leaving absolutely nothing to chance, or to any discretion on my part. But at least it meant I didn't have to wear the ring to work.

I did have to lock it through my nose myself, however, when I got home from work. Among all the other accoutrements. I frequently found myself staring into the hall mirror, slipping the retainer out, easing the ring through, clicking it shut, and then locking a chain to it. I stared at myself, noting my shameful bovine resemblance, and tried to imagine what the next item was going to be on my master's agenda.

Nose ring alternated with nipples as the attachment points for tugging me around the house, morning and evening. The electronic leash, scary as it had been, was benign in retrospect. At least with that one I had been up on my feet. With the nose or nipple leashes I was usually crawling, and let me tell you, the motivation to learn to heel was intense. He made me crawl through the house, and one dark night he led me through the yard by the nose ring lead, gagged and bridled and harnessed, the grass springy and damp beneath my naked knees.

On the other hand the sexual torments had abated a little. My master was doing some construction on the house in the evenings, and didn't have as much time to keep me quivering on the edge. Not the fireplace; he was beginning to think that the mantelpiece was nowhere to be found. Eventually he'd have to cave and make one to match, but as he disapproved of such patchwork inauthenticity, he was putting it off as long as possible. What he was doing was converting a storage closet under the main staircase to a small bathroom. A powder room, as the real estate ads would say – just a toilet and a sink. I figured this was for my benefit, when the restraints restricted my range to the ground floor. I wouldn't mind giving up the 247

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humiliating chamber pot, I thought, both using it and emptying and cleaning it.

Did I make any more experiments with the chastity shield? No, I did not. He interrogated me daily, I was incapable of lying to him, and now that it had been expressly forbidden, it wasn't worth the heavy consequences, especially since such attempts got me nowhere without the 'extras.'

Something told me he was going to find a way to use those again. In my experience Anders never gave up on anything he wanted; setbacks only made him more creative. Hot, humid weather continued into early September. The bathroom was finished at last on a sultry, wet Saturday morning. Given its location, it was of necessity a narrow room shaped like a right triangle up on one edge, now tiled and painted, with the sink at the high point and the toilet in the lower space, as far back as it could be without making the user duck. My master cleared away the last of his tools and had me wipe up the drywall dust and scrub drops of grout from the tiles. I had been locked by the nose ring to the wall opposite his desk, out of the way while he worked, and in the course of the morning had had to make use of the chamber pot more than once. Now I emptied it in the new toilet and washed it out in the new sink, I hoped for the last time.

I worked my way through the salad and cheese in my red bowl, crouched and bound as usual. The kitchen windows were open to what little breeze there was. My nose ring, ridiculously, got food on it, and I couldn't get it off, little head flips doing nothing but rattling it against the side of the bowl. When I glanced up guiltily my master was frowning at me; I wasn't supposed to make any noise at meals. I put my face back into my dish.

Anders kept me crawling that afternoon, fetching whips from the hall cabinet with my mouth for him to beat me with, fetching weights for him to hang from my nipple rings, fetching his newspaper and being smacked for bringing the wrong section and for getting it wet. I polished his shoes with my tongue, and I sucked his cock. Then he seemed to be done with my mouth, because he locked it up in a bit and bridle.

When I signalled a need to pee he nodded, clicked a leash to my collar and had me crawl to the new bathroom. I put my hand on the toilet; one foot under me to stand. "No."

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it moved aside, I saw the litter box. My body went hot all over, then cold.

There was a singing in my head. My limbs were trying to back up. I felt the nudge of his foot and I groaned a protest, frozen in place. Hands and knees took one step forward, half another one.

My childhood cat Amaranth had been very dignified using her litter box. Sitting up calm and straight. Sniffing afterwards; no, I didn't think I'd imitate her there. I couldn't sit up as it turned out; the ceiling sloped down too low, meeting the floor not six inches from the back of the box. The only way to get there was to back in. Head down, I squatted with my feet apart.

Camping trips, peeing in the woods behind a tree, I thought encouragingly.

My bladder obligingly emptied itself. I managed only the briefest, most humiliated glance up at my master for instructions.

"Cover it," he said. There was no cover; he meant with kitty litter. I shifted to one side, turned, pushed some dry litter over the wet with my foot.

"You'll do that even if your hands are tied, you hear me?" I was still for a moment, imagining this, and then I nodded. "All right, get out now. Wipe yourself on that towel. There was a damp towel folded in a shallow rectangular pan next to the litter box. I knelt over it and blotted myself, wiping the last drops of pee from my shield. I didn't use my hands. The setup had clearly been arranged so that I wouldn't need them.

"Close the folding door. Come out along that piece of carpet; make sure you don't track any litter. I don't want to find any outside this bathroom, is that clear?" He gave my ear a little yank. Head down, I nodded again.

My master unhooked the leash, looped it through the banister rails and locked it back to my collar again. Then he went out the back, carrying twine and some steps.

I sat leashed to the stairs, arms hugging legs, bridled face resting on my knee. Distracting myself with regrets about the chamber pot, the genteel qualities of which I hadn't appreciated sufficiently when I'd had the chance.

As if what I appreciated had anything to do with what happened to me.

My shallow breathing made a warm mist on my knee.

I'd been warned. An animal on a very short tether. And here I was, using a litter box. With him watching. Of course with him watching. He'd undoubtedly have a webcam in there for my weekday afternoons. Would it be any less humiliating when I was ostensibly alone? No, not in the least.

Just an acknowledgement that I really was what he was making me.