Barbara Cleverly (34 page)

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‘and I suppose you’ll be gone too. Gone from the Land of Regrets. Without regret, I wonder? Leaving some part of your heart behind?’

‘Oh, yes,’ said Joe, ‘certainly that.’

Kitty gave him a steely and searching look. ‘Leaving anything else behind? It’s all right — you don’t have to answer. Everybody thinks I’m the most irresponsible tell-tale in Bengal but such is not the case. Your secret — if secret there be — is safe with me!’

‘Well, Nancy?’ said Joe.

‘Well, Joe?’ said Nancy. ‘Here we are.’

‘I didn’t want to stay and now, when it comes to it, I don’t want to go.’

‘Go you must, Joe. You see it, I’m sure. But, as for me, I’ve lived on a tightrope for days. It’s been difficult sometimes, bloody difficult, but it would become impossible. It could only work if you didn’t give a damn about me and I flatter myself

’

‘You don’t have to flatter yourself,’ said Joe. ‘I care more than I can say.’

‘Go and say a fond goodbye to Andrew, will you? And — fond is right — he thinks the world of you! I like that.’

‘He’s very fine,’ said Joe. ‘He led us all that night.’

‘You’re right. He is fine. I noticed it from the first all those years ago at St Omer.’

And then, after a pause, ‘Did I deceive you, Joe? Were you deceived?’

‘For a moment, perhaps.’

‘And did you mind?’

Joe hesitated, wondering whether to speak the truth. In the end, ‘No,’ he said. ‘I was touched and perhaps even flattered and now — what on earth can I say? Something silly like — I hope it all works out.’

‘Do you want to know what happens?’

‘I’ve thought about that. The answer really is no. I’d be distressed for you if I knew it hadn’t worked and distressed for me if I knew that it had. I’m not made of marble, you know!’

Making sure that he was not followed and hoping that he wasn’t seen, he slipped away, returning to the graveside. He held a spray of small red roses in his hand.

‘The last Kashmiri rose,’ he said as he laid it across the grave mound.

‘I saw you go and thought I’d follow you,’ came a familiar voice from behind him, and Midge came and stood at his side. Her pallor and slight figure were emphasised by the funeral dress she wore, a black silk outfit of Nancy’s, hurriedly adapted to her size, and a long string of borrowed pearls. She looked so insubstantial that Joe automatically put out an arm to steady her.

‘Funny,’ she said. ‘We had the same idea. I wanted to do something. I’ve brought him some flowers too. He always liked these little red ones so I’ll put mine with yours. What were you saying? “The last Kashmiri rose?” Is that what they are? Well, there they are, side by side.’

Joe was overcome with pity and a tear stung his eye. He held out his arms and gathered Midge to him. She rested her head on his shoulder. ‘I’m sad,’ she said. ‘Very sad. It’s funny — I can’t cry.’

‘Brave girl,’ said Joe. ‘Colonel’s daughter.’

Midge began to cry at last. ‘I don’t feel like a Colonel’s daughter,’ she said, through her tears. ‘Now my mother’s dead, my father’s dead and there’s only me left.’

‘Dickie?’ Joe ventured.

‘Oh yes, there’s Dickie,’ she said, drying her tears on Joe’s shoulder. ‘Dickie of course. He’s only gone to Peshawar and now — it seems an awful thing to say, I suppose — but as soon as Nancy can arrange it we can get married.’ She looked thoughtfully down at the grave.

‘I expect he would have approved in the end,’ said Joe comfortably.

‘I wish I could think so,’ said Midge, surprisingly. ‘Joe?’ She hesitated for a moment. ‘What everybody’s saying — that it was all a hideous accident

overturning his bedside lamp and all that

it’s just not true. Is it? You must tell me the truth, Joe.’

With a calm he didn’t feel Joe said, ‘What do you mean, Midge? It was an accident.’

Midge shook her head. ‘I’m not such a fool, Joe, and I know why you and Nancy and — yes, Dickie too, he’s in it with you — have been trying to keep the truth from me. But I’ve worked it out. I woke up at Nancy’s feeling very ill and they tried to tell me it was something I’d eaten. It wasn’t. It was something I’d drunk. Something Daddy gave me in a glass before bedtime. It made me sleep. Now why would he want me to sleep through the night and not wake up? I’ll tell you

’

Joe could only let her talk on while his blood froze.

‘It was because he

oh, it was all my fault

Joe, he was going to commit suicide. He’d planned it. We’d had another terrible row and I’d told him I was going to run away with Dickie — go away with him when he left. I didn’t mean it! But I think he couldn’t bear it. He’d lost my mother and now he was to lose me. I don’t think he had anything left to live for. I killed him, Joe, didn’t I?’

‘Now listen, Midge,’ said Joe softly, stroking her hair, ‘listen to an experienced London bobby, will you — the finest Scotland Yard has to offer. We know about the drugs and yes, Nancy did invent the story of the food poisoning, though now I think perhaps we should have told you the truth there and then. Giles thought you really might try to run away and to stop you jumping out of a window at midnight into Dickie’s arms, he gave you a sleeping draught. Not a very strong one, according to Nancy. We think he tried to stay awake reading his book, on watch, until almost dawn. He must have nodded off at the last and knocked his lamp over. In fact, Nancy thinks he could well have had a heart attack and overturned the lamp when he died. Otherwise, of course, the flames and the heat would have wakened him. Lucky for you, Midge, that Naurung Singh was passing on his way to work and managed to pull you out. He went back for Giles but it was too late.’

Midge looked at him with large eyes, eagerly reading his face. ‘Joe! Is this true? Is this really the truth you’re telling me?’

Joe considered for a moment. ‘Well, I might conceivably lie to you — though I can’t imagine the circumstances. Dickie I know would lie if he thought he was protecting you from something but — Naurung Singh? He will tell you that Giles was in bed with an overturned lamp on the floor when he died. If your father had been intending to commit suicide he’d have simply gone into the garden and shot himself. You know your father! An old warrior like Giles wouldn’t have put his pyjamas on and gone to bed with a good book!’

Midge, smiling and weeping at the same time, stood on tiptoe and kissed him.

‘May I be forgiven!’ said Joe but he didn’t say it out loud.