Because the Night (2 page)

“We used the coke to get things started,” the soft voice said. “Our client was old and afraid of displaying his body, but the coke got his juices running. I—”

A woman's voice interrupted:
“I
got the old geezer's juices going. He wasn't even down to his skivvies when I grabbed his crotch. He wanted the
woman
to take the lead; I sensed that as soon as we walked in the door and I saw all that science fiction art on the walls—amazons with chains and whips, all that shit. He—”

The soft male voice rose to a wail. “I was savoring the lead-in! Doctor said to take it slow, the guy wasn't pre-screened. We got him from the sex ads, and Doctor said that—”

“Bullshit!” the woman barked. “You wanted to get coked yourself, and you wanted the old guy to like you because you were the one with the dope, and if we played it your way the whole assignment would have been a cocaine tea party.”

The man put down his pen as the executive type started to blubber. After a short interval of silence, the Doctor whispered, “Hush, Billy. Hush. Go out and sit in the hallway. I want to talk to Jane alone.”

There were the sounds of footsteps over a hardwood floor and of a door slammed in rage. The man smiled in anticipation of some vintage Havilland. When the Doctor's voice came over the speaker, he took up his pen with a glee akin to love.

“You're letting your anger run you, Jane.”

“I know, Doctor,” the woman said.

“Your power lies in exercising it judiciously.”

“I know.”

“Was the assignment fulfilling?”

“Yes. I chose the sex and made them like it.”

“But it felt hollow afterwards?”

“Yes and no. It was satisfying, but Billy and the old man were so
weak
!”

“Hush, Janey. You deserve to traffic with stronger egos. I'll keep my eye on the high-line personals. We'll find you some feisty intellectuals to butt heads with.”

“And a partner with balls?”

“Nooo, you'll go solo next time.”

The man heard Jane weep in gratitude. Shaking his head in loathing, he listened to the Doctor deliver his coup de grâce: “He paid you the full five thousand?”

“Yes, Doctor.”

“Did you do something nice for yourself with your gratuity?”

“I bought myself a sweater.”

“You could have done better than that.”

“I—I wanted you to have the money, Doctor. I took the sweater just as a symbol of the assignment.”

“Thank you, Jane. Everything else all right? Reciting your fear mantras? Following the program?”

“Yes, Doctor.”

“Good. Then leave the money with me. I'll call you at the pay phone later this week.”

“Yes, Doctor.”

The sounds of departure forced the man to catch up with his note-taking. As if on cue, the Doctor clapped his hands and said, “Jesus, what an ugly creature. Speaker three, Goff. Efficacy training.”

Goff plugged a jack into speaker number three and hit the
record
switch. When the tape spool began to spin, he tiptoed upstairs to watch. This would be his first visual auditing since blasting his “beyond” to hell, and he had to see how far the Night Tripper was taking his recruits. Only one of them was capable of approaching his own degree of extremity, and all his instincts told him that Havilland was just about to push him to it.

Goff was wrong. Peering through a crack in the door, he saw the Professor and the Bookworm kneeling on gym mats facing the mirror that covered the entire west wall. Their hands were clasped as if in prayer and Havilland was standing over them, murmuring works of encouragment. With Billy Boy and the Bull Dagger already counseled, it meant that the Doctor was saving the foxy redhead and the real psycho for last.

Goff pressed himself into the wall and stared into the bedroom just as the two men on the mats pulled off their undershirts and began shouting their fear mantras. “
Patria infinitum patria infinitum patria infinitum patria infinitum patria infinitum.
” With each repetition of the phrase they smashed their hands into their chests, each time harder, shouting louder and louder as the blows hit home. Throughout, they retained eye to eye contact with their own mirror images, never flinching, even as blood-dotted welts rose on their torsos.

Goff checked the second hand of his watch. One minute. Two. Three. Just when he thought the chanters would have to collapse, he heard the word “
Stop
!”

Havilland knelt on the mat, facing the men. Goff watched them move their eyes from the mirror to the eyes of the Doctor, then extend their right arms and squeeze their hands into fists. Havilland reached into the pocket of his lab coat and withdrew a disposable syringe and a handful of cotton balls. First he injected the Bookworm; then he wiped the needle and injected the Professor. Both lonelies swayed on their knees but remained upright.

The Doctor got to his feet, smiled, and said, “Think pure efficacy. Robert, you have been placed in a very wealthy home on assignment. A couple, an older man and woman, are drooling for your favors. The phone rings. They both go to answer it. Where do
you
go?”

Robert stammered, “T-to the b-bathroom? To check for drugs?”

Havilland shook his head. “No. You have drugs on the brain; it's a weak point of yours. Monte, what would
you
do?”

Monte wiped sweat from his chest and twisted to stare at himself in the mirror. “
I
would wonder why the call was so important that they both had to run for the phone, especially when I was there looking so groovy. So what I would do would be to run for an extension and pick it up the very second that the old fucker did, then listen in and see if there was any salient info I could get from the call.”

Havilland smiled and said, “Bravo,” then slapped Monte across the face and whispered, “Bravo, but always look at
me
when you answer. If you look at yourself you get the notion that you thought independently. Do you see the fallacy in that kind of thinking?”

Monte lowered his eyes, then brought them up to meet Havilland's. “Yes, Doctor.”

“Good. Robert, a hypothetical question for you. Think pure efficacy and answer candidly. My supply of legally obtained pharmaceutical drugs runs out, because of new laws passed limiting hypnotics and the like to physicians with hospital affiliations. You crave them and come to realize that they are what you like most about being in my tutelage. What do you do?”

The Bookworm pondered the question, shifting his gaze back and forth from the mirror to the Doctor. Goff grinned when he realized that Havilland had given the lonelies a Pentothal jolt.

Finally, Robert whispered, “It would never happen to you. It just couldn't.”

Havilland put his hands on Robert's shoulders and gave them a gentle squeeze. “The perfect answer. Monte would have intellectualized it, but your response was pure candor and pure heart. And of course you were right. I want you to both chant your mantras now. Hold eye contact with yourself, but think of
me.
”

When Havilland started for the door, Goff padded downstairs and back to the speaker room. He rewound the efficacy training tape and placed the spool in a large manila envelope, then plugged his headphones into the middle speaker just in time to hear male/female sexual grunting move into strangled sighs and girlish giggles. The giggle became a high-pitched smoker's cough, and Goff himself laughed. It
was
the tight little redhead he had picked up at the Lingerie Club, the one who had devastated him with her Kundalini yoga positions. He had been lucky to get out of her Bunker Hill Towers condo alive.

The Doctor was the first to speak. “Bravo. Bravo.” His monotone sent the woman into new gales of laughter. The man she had coupled with was still trying to catch his breath. Goff imagined him lying on the bed on the verge of a coronary.

The Doctor spoke again. “Later, Helen. I want to check the victim's pulse. You may have gone too far this time.”

“Beyond the beyond,” Helen said. “Isn't that our motto, Doctor?”

“Touché,” the Doctor said. “I'll call you Thursday.”

When a full five minutes of silence followed the sound of little Helen skipping gaily out the bedroom door, Goff's gut clenched. He knew that the male lover was the real psycho and that the Night Tripper was taking him a major step closer to his brink. Thus the shattering of glass and the obscenities that came in the wake of the stillness were expected, as were the expressions of concern from the Doctor. “It's all right, Richard, it really is. Sometimes ‘beyond the beyond' means hating. First you have to accept that reality, then you have to work through it. You can't hate yourself for being what you are. You are basically
good
and
powerful,
or you wouldn't be with me now. You just happen to have an exceptionally high violence threshold to overcome in order to achieve your selfhood.”

Thomas Goff shifted into memories of Richard Oldfield's recruitment, beginning with the crippled whore with the three-hundred-dollar-a-day smack habit he had met at Plato's Retreat West. She had told him of the stockbroker/bodybuilder/remittance man who paid five C-notes a pop to work her over because of her resemblance to the governess who had tortured him as a child. The approach at the health club had had the thrust of a nightmare; Oldfield looked enough like Goff to be taken for his fraternal twin, and he was dead-lifting four hundred pounds. But the bodybuilder had capitulated to the Doctor's machinations like a baby going for its mother's tit.

More breaking glass. Oldfield weeping. Havilland alternately whistling a tune and murmuring, “There, there.” Goff knew that the reversal was coming.

It arrived in the form of a slap in the face that filled the speaker with static. “You weakling,” Dr. John Havilland hissed. “You picayune poseur. You sycophantic whoremonger. I give you the best fuck in our program, promise to take you where your chickenshit conscience would never permit you to stray, and you respond by smashing windows and bawling.”

“Doctor, please,” Richard Oldfield whimpered.

“Please
what,
Richard?”

“Ple—you know …”

“You have to say it.”

“Ple-please take me as far as I can go.”

The Doctor sighed. “Soon, Richard. I'm going to be collecting a great deal of information, and it should yield the name of a woman suitable for you. Think of that when you go through your fear mantras.”

“Thank you, Doctor John.”

“Don't thank me, Richard. Your green doors are my green doors. Go home now. I'm tired, and I'm going to dismiss the grouping early.”

Goff heard the Doctor escort Oldfield to the door. The tape machine recorded a hissing silence. The Night Tripper's executive officer imagined it as being inhabited by nightmares in repose, manifested in cold manila folders spilling out data that would transform human beings into chess pieces. The Alchemist and his six offerings were just the beginning. A series of Havilland's slogans caused Goff to shudder back the headache that was burning behind a beige curtain in his mind. Last night. Three. What if the data keepers couldn't be bought? The headache throbbed through the curtain, like a hungry worm eating at his brain.

Doors slamming above him; periods of stillness, followed by the staggered departures of the lonelies. Mercedes and Audis pulling out onto P.C.H. and more silence. Suddenly Goff was terrified.

“Bad thoughts, Thomas?”

Goff swung around in his chair, knocking his shorthand pad to the floor. He looked up into the light brown eyes of Dr. John Havilland, locking his own eyes into them exactly as the Doctor had taught him. “Just thoughts, Doctor.”

“Good. The papers are full of you. How does it feel?”

“It feels dark and quiet.”

“Good. Does the ‘psycho killer' speculation disturb you?”

“No, it amuses me because it's so far from the truth.”

“You had to take out three?”

“Yes. I—I remembered your efficacy training. Some-sometime I might have to do it again.”

“A cold gun? Untraceable?”

“Cold city. I stole it.”

“Good. How are the headaches?”

“Not too bad. I chant if they really start to hurt.”

“Good. If your vision starts to blur again, see me immediately, I'll give you an injection. Dreams?”

“Sometimes I dream about the Alchemist. He was good, wasn't he?”

“He was superb, Thomas. But he's gone. I scared him off the face of the earth.”

Havilland handed Goff a slip of paper. “She's a legitimate patient—she phoned the office for an appointment. I checked her out with some girls in the life. She's a thousand dollars a night. Check out her John book—anyone who can afford her can afford us.”

Goff looked at the slip: Linda Wilhite, 9819 Wilshire Blvd, 91W. He smiled. “It's an easy building. I've hit it before.”

Havilland smiled back. “Good, Thomas. Go home now and enjoy your dreams.”

“How do you know I'll enjoy them?”

“I
know
your dreams. I made them.”

Goff watched the Doctor about-face and walk to the latticework patio that overlooked the beach. He let the Doctor's exit line linger in his mind, then turned off the tape console and walked outside to his car. He was about to hit the ignition when he noticed a mound of wadded up plastic on top of the dashboard. He grabbed at it and screamed, because he knew that it was
beige
plastic, and that meant that
he
knew.

Goff ripped the plastic trashbag to shreds, then slammed his fists into the dashboard until the pain numbed the screaming in his mind. Turning on the headlights, he saw something white under his windshield wiper. He got out of the car and examined it. The embossed business card of John R. Havilland, M.D., Practice in Psychiatry, stared at him. He turned the card over. Neatly printed on the back were the words
I know your nightmares.