Bella Baby (19 page)

“Bitch, you have an overactive imagination. Chaz couldn’t fuck that much with Viagra and a new dick. That limp motherfucker couldn’t get it up for me and I am a bad bitch, you just a stupid bitch.”

“Did you hear yourself? He couldn’t get it up for you. With all the money you are going to make at the Royal Flush you should invest in that surgery,” Bella said and put her hand up to her mouth and pointed downward. “I heard they could fix that these days.”

The dancers stood with shocked expressions on their faces as they listened to the exchange of words. Some of them had heard the stories about Chaz’s sexual prowess but couldn’t confirm it, until now. They all knew Chaz chased Trinity. When Chaz stopped showering her with attention, the other dancers began to talk. To save face, Trinity made it seem like sex with Chaz was overhyped attention from the inexperienced women that he messed around with.  She made it clear that he could not handle experienced women.

Trinity threw her bag to the floor and charged at Bella, who stood her ground. Kickboxing was about to come in handy if Trinity reached Bella. The dancers and Chaz stepped in front of Bella stopping Trinity’s progress.

“Fuck you white bitch. Your man’s dick does not work and you are a dumb hoe. He can only get off if you suck that pathetic motherfucker. That’s why he tried to fuck me in his Hummer last month. I turned that limp dick down,” Trinity screamed as they held her back.

“Hoe, it didn’t work for you. I do not have that problem. Maybe if you stay up on your Kegel exercises you can get that tightness back,” Bella screamed back. “Get it through your head hoe, neither Chaz or his dick wants you.”

A round of laughing ensued from the dancers when Bella brought up the Kegel exercises. Chaz laughed picking up Bella with one arm and Big Willie was there to pick up Trinity. They both walked to the door with women yelling a volley of insults at each other.  The assistant manager and bouncer arrived to the cacophony of loud insults. They helped get the irate Trinity to her car. Chaz put Bella in the Hummer and buckled the seat belt to keep her in the truck. Bella was fuming as she sat in the seat, more at herself for stooping to Trinity’s level.

“You are wrong for this Chaz and you know it,” Trinity shouted. “How can you choose her over me?”

“Wrong for what Trinity? Chaz shrugged his shoulders as he walked to the driver’s side of the Hummer.

“You never gave me a chance to be your woman. You never gave us a chance. Now you are marrying that light bright bitch.”

“Trinity, you know we were not compatible all I have is this whack dick. Besides, I love her more than you will ever understand. Now go work at the Royal Flush,” Chaz shouted back.

“Don’t dance there Trinity, they are losing their liquor license,” the assistant manager suggested.

“Oh shut the fuck up,” Trinity said opening her car door.

Chapter 14

Bella jumped down from the truck and walked to the front door opening it quick. At the back of the house she let the dogs inside. They were jumping up and down trying to give her love.

“Hey babies. I missed you too,” she cooed. Bella took them in the kitchen and retrieved their gourmet dog biscuits. She gave them biscuits kissing the tops of their head.

“You are so spoiling them,” Chaz said rubbing their backs. “They are killers.”

Bella ignored him and walked out of the kitchen to the bedroom. She put their overnight bag down and grabbed fresh pajamas. Inside the bathroom she took an uninterrupted shower. The engagement ring glistened under the warm water and Bella contemplated being married to Chaz. There would always be a never-ending stream of women throwing themselves at Chaz. His reputation would always precede him and he would leave a wake of broken hearts. He was handsome and well off with plenty of charisma. Bella realized that the same thing they saw in Chaz was what she originally saw in him. She was fortunate enough to have gotten to know the real man. It was a version of Chaz that they would never know. They also would never know what it was like to have him love them. Trinity wanted Chaz to love her, not just lust after her, but he was incapable of having that feeling until he met Bella. She knew this every day and would know it for the rest of her life.

Bella left the bathroom dressed in the simple pajama pants and tank top. In the kitchen she made a quick pot of spaghetti and garlic bread. While cooking she heard the shower and Chaz appeared a little while later wrapped in a towel. Bella thought he was so damn sexy in a towel but Trinity’s pain laced voice interrupted her naughty thoughts.

“Thanks for making dinner,” Chaz said with a rye smile. Bella sat at the counter and finished eating dinner mumbling a quick, “You are welcome.”

Bruiser was at her side putting on his best friendly face wanting whatever she was eating. Bella informed him he was not getting any and he continued to stare. Chaz sat next to Bella in the towel eating the spaghetti. Bella never wanted to be in Trinity’s spot. Trinity loved a man that was physically and emotionally incapable of loving her back. The plate made a noise when she placed it in the dishwasher, jolting her from her thoughts. Bella poured two glasses of juice and downed her glass quickly. Chaz took a huge swig from his glass before returning to his spaghetti.

In the bedroom Bella grabbed her cell phone and read the messages from Kennedy. For a while they texted back and forth, Kennedy indicated that she was angry with Horatio and wasn’t talking to him right now. Bella insisted that she hear the man out considering she loved him. Kennedy was pissed when Bella suggested she should have been more aggressive when the girl was hitting on Horatio. The text messages ceased and she knew that meant a long lunch tomorrow. Bella put her phone on the nightstand and tried to find some sleep. Trinity’s pain laced voice haunted her dreams and it made sleeping difficult.

Not sure how many hours she spent asleep, Bella awoke to find Chaz sleeping next to her. Boxer and Bruiser were at the foot of the bed taking up the remaining space. Bruiser woke when Bella walked into the living room. He went to the back door and that was his signal he needed to go out. Slipping on Chaz’s jacket, Bella let the dog out into the backyard. Boxer eventually made his way outside as well. They both did their business and Bella grabbed the scooper shovel and cleaned up. Inside the house they begged at the counter for the gourmet dog biscuits. She gave them each one and decided on a cup of tea to help her sleep. The warm cup of tea was soothing as she wrestled with her thoughts. She went over the details of the weekend in her mind. The comfy couch provided a nice thinking spot. Boxer and Bruiser took up positions on the floor at her feet.

“You okay Bella?” Chaz asked sleepily.

“Yes, I couldn’t sleep that’s all,” she answered.

“Come lay back down, you have work in the morning.” 

Chaz looked worried that the happiness of the weekend was overshadowed by the drama of the weekend. When she refused to go back to bed, he took a seat on the couch and held her hand.

“I love you,” he said softly.

“I love you too Chaz,” she replied with equal softness. They sat on the couch for a while just enjoying the quiet. Bella occasionally took sips of her tea before standing. Chaz reached for her body and placed his face against her stomach while wrapping his hands around her waist. He wanted to make her happy and he felt like that was the last thing he was doing.

“I am so sorry Bella,” he murmured. “I wanted to show you how much I love you. I failed because I never realized how much I hurt the women I came in contact with.”

Bella ran her hand over his short closely cropped hair. Chaz looked up at her and closed his eyes. Bella ran her fingers over his face before speaking.

“Trinity loves you. I know how she feels except that you love me back. You need to deal with the life you had before me Chaz. You hurt a lot of women, no matter how forthcoming you were with them. I do not want this trail of broken hearts interfering with our relationship.”

“I am so sorry about Trinity. I should have had Big Willie escort her out when she left the office. I never thought Trinity was in love with me, until tonight. I thought she was embarrassed and indifferent to our brief interlude. I just do not think before I act. I am sorry about Mia. I want everyone to feel comfortable around me.”

“Do not apologize Chaz. I need you to understand the effect you have on women. I need you to be mindful of the relationships you have had in the past. I need you to know you can’t do those things to me and expect me to stick around. You have to treat what we have differently.”

“Bella, I am a killer. I am afraid people will see that in me and be afraid of me. I do not want you to be afraid of me,” Chaz said softly. “I do not want to lose you.”

Bella paused at this confession but realized she knew that all along. Even without the details she knew Chaz’s other job involved taking lives. She just hoped it was all bad guys.

“You will not lose me if you respect and love me. I promise Chaz.”

Chaz breathed a sigh of relief and kissed the exposed skin on her stomach. Bella ran her hand over his face and then let her thumb brush against his lips. Chaz kissed her thumb before returning his attention to the exposed skin. He released his hold on Bella and stood before her. He took her face in his hands and kissed her supple lips. Their tongues caressed and Bella held onto his narrow waist.  Pulling the tank top over her head Chaz freed her breasts. Wanting him to feel her naked breasts against his carved chest Bella wrapped him up in her arms. He ran fingers down her back kissing her shoulder as he did. Catching her chin, Chaz nipped and kissed it as she moaned. Going back to his lips she kissed him passionately. He gripped her ass with both hands. A slight push of her bottom towards his body and he lifted Bella. Her long legs wrapped around his waist and he laid her on the couch. Bella groaned as he kissed her neck moving to the valley between her breasts. Chaz spent considerable time on each breasts nipping and kissing them. Bella cried out as he teased her repeatedly.

“Chaz baby,” she groaned. Chaz ran his hand up to her neck and held it there applying a little pressure. Slowly his other hand trailed down to the drawstrings of her pajama bottoms. Chaz slipped his fingers inside her pajamas and Bella’s body shook when he made contact. The wordless groan that escaped her mouth was the sexiest thing Chaz had ever seen.

“I love you Bella,” he whispered. Chaz needed to feel her and removed his hand to take off her pajama bottoms. Bella reached for the band of his boxer briefs and pushed the fabric down. She ran a hand over his erection eliciting a whimper from Chaz. The feel of his hand on her special spot again caused her back to arch. Chaz loved her response to his touch. She gracefully elongated then wrapped a long leg around his waist. Chaz placed his head between her breasts as he slid inside his fiancée.

“Ah shit, Bella,” he whined. The sweet caress of her tight body greeted him.

“You feel so good baby,” Bella whimpered. Infinite tenderness was the order of the night as he gradually drew in and out of Bella. The sounds from her mouth gave him the encouragement he needed to make love to his future wife.  Chaz had to fight hard not to come, she felt so fucking good. Her body was so primed for his intrusion that the desire to come was overwhelming. Chaz replaced his arousal with his mouth. He pushed her legs open and explored her with his tongue. Bella put her hand on his head as he moved his tongue over her sensitive nub.

“Ah Chaz. That feels so fucking good,” she purred. Chaz sucked on the small nub and felt her legs shake with her first climax. Bella screamed as the pleasure spread from her center down her legs. Chaz placed his hand on her quivering thigh enjoying the knowledge that he had pleased her. Removing his face, Chaz lifted her legs to rest against his chest as he slithered inside her saturated body. The last remnants of her orgasm gripped the intrusion causing Chaz to momentarily pause. He parted her legs allowing his body to hover over the writhing Bella. She opened her eyes to look at her fiancé and he could see the tears spilling off to the side.

“You never have to worry. I only want this. I only want you. I only need you,” he whispered gazing at her with love. The slow gentle strokes provided Chaz with a prolonged session that Bella enjoyed immensely. Bella opened her legs wider and that was Chaz’s undoing as he sank deeper.

“Bella baby, I’m coming,” he spluttered. Chaz spilled into his fiancée unable to control the sounds coming from his mouth. Bella clenched around his arousal causing Chaz to whimper.  He tried to control his erratic breathing.

“Chaz, please, I need ah,” Bella mumbled incoherently. Chaz held her body as she shuddered forcefully mumbling more incoherent words.

“So beautiful,” he said as he watched her orgasm take shape. Chaz stayed inside Bella kissing her mouth occasionally sucking her bottom lip. He loved the feel of Bella trembling beneath his body from the lovemaking and his love. He had never responded to a woman’s body the way he did when he was with Bella. He wanted to be loved, that had always been his issue, and now he was truly loved.

Bella’s soft voice laced with tears jolted him out of his revelry. “Chaz, please do not hurt me. Please Chaz, I need you so much. I want to give you all of me but I am scared.”

Chaz began a new round of kisses starting at her forehead, cheeks, neck, and finally her mouth. “Give me all of you. Bella, you have all of me, no need to be scared. I won’t hurt you baby, I love you.”

Bella began to cry covering her face with her hands. Chaz slipped his hand around her throat and renewed his thrusts. His voice whispered into her ear, “Love me Bella.”

“I do love you Chaz, only you baby.” She managed to stammer the words as he increased the pressure around her neck. The new sensations combined with his thrusts were taking her to a place of pleasure she had never been before. Chaz picked up his speed considerably and his language faltered into unintelligible jumble. Bella’s hands went to the hand around her neck as a sign of solidarity, not to remove them. The grip on her throat increased enough to make her feel as if she was going to pass out. Instead an amazing euphoric consciousness overcame her body and she vibrated almost literally off the couch.

“Bella, Bella, Bella, ahh,” Chaz screeched loudly. Bella howled as the sensation threatened to stop her heart. She managed to grab Chaz’s face in her hands kissing him uncoordinatedly as she blubbered buckets of tears. All the tears were not her tears as his body brutally discharged. They both stilled the only sounds were of hearts rapidly beating and soft tears falling.

“I am co-captain of a special reconnaissance team that specializes in acquiring enemy intelligence, hostage recovery situations, and counter terrorism measures for a Special Forces unit in the U.S. army. Our missions are global and I speak several languages besides butchering the English language. I have been to every continent on this planet. I can shoot a M24 with my eyes closed and kill my target on the first shot. Every time I fire my rifle I imagine my father’s face as the target. I love the feel of my bolt-action rifle in my hand and I love the hunt. I was recruited when I was twenty as a sharpshooter and quickly became a ‘quiet professional’. I have been on over forty missions since my recruitment. I have never truly been in love and I only know that because of how I feel about you. I want to give up my other job and have a normal life but I do not think I deserve a normal life. I am a killer and I enjoy being a killer for my country. The Army is the only thing in my life that has never let me down, until I met you.”

Bella felt the tears fall on her face with this admission. Her own tears continued because no matter the words, she was just like Trinity and all the other women he had slept with. She would not willingly leave Chaz. He would have to leave her and she would never recover.  Chaz did not give her time to respond as he slipped off the couch. Bella was unable to go after him right away. Her brain was giving her legs a crash course in walking.

Chaz was standing naked in the bathroom splashing water on his face. Bella handed him a towel and he accepted drying his face. Chaz took a washcloth and wet it with warm water. He took the cloth and washed Bella’s tears away. Bella slipped one arm around his back followed by the other before placing her face against his chest. Chaz held her in his arms kissing the top of her hair.

“Let me love you. Let me be your wife. Let me welcome you home every time. Let me carry our children. Let me be the normal life you deserve. Chaz let me hold you.”