Blood Dragons (Rebel Vampires Book 1) (17 page)

I took a quick shufti, checking there weren’t any bloody marks on your cousin’s neck. No puncture wounds, so she wasn’t dead. Yet. The dandy must be still at the playing stage. His hand crawled down from your cousin’s waist, lifting up her mini-skirt, before circling towards her muff.

I started towards them but then I stopped myself. Confused by the conflict, which I’d never had to war with before in this Blood Life, I backed away towards the main road again.

Who the hell was I to interrupt someone else’s dinner?

Me turning round, right? I wish I could mould myself into more of a hero for you, like I know you reckon I was. But if this is my last chance, then I need you to see me - the worst of me - as well.

It was easy to let you believe this played out like I had a sodding Soul of gold. But at that moment, it hung in tarnished tatters: I was no bleeding knight. I never was.

I backed off, as your cousin began to weep.

Look, there’s a code of sorts: never interrupt someone else’s kill and never steal it, like in a lion pack. If you do, you’d better be prepared for an almighty barney. Or to cop it.

I turned away.

Then I thought of you and how you’d feel when you discovered one of your family had died. The grief. The funeral. Your loneliness. The same pain, which I now felt and the same as I’d experienced in my First Life.

Unexpectedly, for a fleeting moment, it was
joy
tingling through me. I thought
good
,
I bloody well hope you feel it
.

Just as fast, it was replaced by…well, it wasn’t guilt, rather a chilling devastation that you could ever experience the same anguish as I had. Then a desperation to protect you. To make sure you never did.

I’d never suffered such a bewildering see-saw of emotions.

That’s when I couldn’t go through with it. For the first time ever, I couldn’t leave another Blood Lifer to their kill.

I squared my shoulders, before I legged it down the dark alley. The wanker ignored me, when I stopped behind him. ‘I want a quiet word.’

The dandy glared round at me in astonishment. He examined my leathers, as if I was a stinking specimen of beetle. He knew what I was though because a Blood Lifer always knows another Blood Lifer. It’s in the scent: death can’t mask itself.

When she saw me, your cousin must’ve recognised me because her teary peepers widened and she started to struggle.

The dandy leaned on her more heavily. ‘You’re young,’ even his voice lisped, ‘so I will forgive you this slip of etiquette. Pray leave now, there’s a good fellow.’

I shook my nut.

The Blood Lifer sighed, adjusting his cravat. ‘What? Busy here.’

‘She’s not yours, mate.’ I glanced at your cousin, who was shaking like a rabbit in an eagle’s claws. ‘I can’t let you, all right? Clear off.’

The dandy chuckled. ‘Now I really have heard everything. She’s your pet?’

I shrugged.

His peepers hardened. ‘So sorry. But I’m famished.’

The dandy twisted back to your cousin, with one hand at her throat now; his fingers bit hard enough to bruise. He leant closer. His fangs would be shooting from his teeth at any moment…

I hurled myself at the dandy, knocking him off your cousin and flinging him rolling, with a
clang
, over a metal dustbin.

As he scrambled up, he snarled with rage and frustration at the loss of blood. The hunger would drive his fight: his fists, boots and bite. His fangs sank so deeply into my arm that they went clean through my leathers and skin to the blood.

I hollered, kicking him off.

Then the poofy git had me around the waist.

I glimpsed your cousin’s terrified mug, from where she was huddled behind a dustbin. ‘It’s all right, luv, just hold on a tick…’

I was hauled back by the dandy, as I desperately tried to wrestle his arms from around my chest. He was squeezing the life from me -
bloody hell
- he was stronger than he looked.

But he had no street smarts.

I nutted him, hearing the satisfying
crunch
as his nose broke. I watched as the scarlet flowed. He roared, and then we were rumbling in earnest with elbows and knees, punching at joints and throats and every other point of weakness. He clouted me a good shiner; I could feel it purpling up, as he laid into every inch of me.

But this? Everyone’s got to have a talent. Ruby had taught me well how to embrace pain, as just part of the cut and thrust. Now I could turn that to my advantage.

I grinned, as I grabbed the dandy, chucking him against the bricks and pummelling –
bam
,
bam, bam
– until my knuckles bled. Then the dandy let out a deep snarl. He belted me back –
snap
- breaking my ribs.

Suddenly the ludicrousness of two Blood Lifers, elected into this…whatever it was…but centuries old and so very beyond First Life, standing in the street and giving each other a hiding in front of some little groupie, gripped me, and I doubled up with painful laughter.

The dandy stared at me like I was off my bleeding trolley. He panted, wiping the blood from his nose.

After a moment, I got a grip of myself. I shook my nut. ‘Oh just sod off, will you?’

The dandy hesitated, before he straightened his now crimson spattered cravat and limped away down the alley. Then he turned back, pointing at me with a shaking finger. I was right - thwarted bloody Laurence Olivier. ‘You, sir, are no Blood Lifer.’

I flipped the two-fingered salute at him. He drew himself up to his full height in disdain, before sweeping off into the night and his own fantasy of what Blood Life meant.

I really should’ve told him about the bollocks myths
.

‘Thanks.’

Surprised, I glanced down at your cousin. I’d forgotten about her.

She crawled up still shivering, whilst tugging down her mini-skirt, as if this could wipe clean what I’d seen.

Yeah, like I could wipe clean what I’d done? I was breaking every rule here: leaving witnesses alive, rescuing chicks and interrupting kills.

But then, when did I give a damn about rules? I cut them up into pretty pieces and let them blow away on the wind.

What had your cousin really seen, when it came down to it? Some smarmy bastard, no different to a human rapist. Just like our barney could’ve been two maniacs having a right old go, like First Lifers after chucking out time.

I slumped against the damp wall.

The rain was heavier now. Warm drops dripped down my neck and washed away the congealing blood. Once the heat was off the battle, the pain was kicking in; it jolted electricity up nerves, straight to my brain. Buggering hell, this was the part I always forget, or else nothing can brand it deep enough to curb the impulses, which come first.

I fought it down, running a bloodied hand through my sweep of hair. ‘I reckon that bloke was off his nut or something. You all right?’

Your cousin nodded tentatively. ‘Are you?’

First time I’d been asked that, maybe since my papa was alive. I shook the thought away. This wasn’t the time. I must’ve looked a right mess then. ‘Yeah, tickety-boo.’

‘Load of cobblers. You’re coming with me.’ Before I knew what was happening, your cousin had slipped her arm around my shoulders and was leading me out of the alleyway.

That’s when I realised I needed to lean on her for support. It was bleeding humiliating: I’d never needed that from a First Lifer before. Yet your cousin didn’t comment or laugh, like I’d expected. Instead, she kept on holding me, whilst I hobbled next to her.

‘You’re Kathy’s cousin?’

‘I have got a name, you know, not like I’m her dog.’

Despite myself, I smiled. ‘Sorry. So?’

‘It’s Susan. And I know who you are.’ She didn’t say it like that was a good thing. I hadn’t reckoned she would.

I’d dead buggered up this courting thing; there were too many steps I no longer knew. All right, I’d never known them to begin with.

As we walked, I noticed Susan was taking me into Soho. There was your scent again. Growing stronger.

Your apartment
.

Susan had brought me to the one place, where I knew I wouldn’t be welcome.

For a moment, I drew back, resisting. Look, what man wants the woman they - dream about, toss off over and obsess on - to see them all duffed up, like a nancy boy, as well as the freak you’d already made it clear as day you reckoned I was?

Yet the pull and the fast beat of my heart, told me I didn’t care if you saw me carved to shreds at your feet because you’d still see me and I’d still see you. Watching you only from the shadows?

I was so done with that
.

When we reached your scarlet front door, I managed to ask Susan, whilst trying to sound nonchalant, ‘You live with Kathy?’

Susan nodded, looking like she wanted to ask something herself. But she didn’t. When she struggled to both support me and turn her key in the lock, she knocked.

Those moments before you swung the door open nearly did me in. Then you were there, my Moon Girl: no makeup now, simply that dead beautiful face, just like I’d always desired to see it. You shone.

I straightened, trying not to let the hurt show.

When you saw me, however, your expression hardened. You slammed your arm across the doorway, blocking it. ‘Well he’s not sodding well coming in. I don’t care what’s happened to him. Hasn’t he got a home to go to?’

Yeah
,
you were sugar and spice
.

Susan frowned. ‘Don’t be such a nitwit. He saved me. He’s a hero.’

I registered the surprise and doubt in your peepers. I kept my own gaze fixed on the floor because I didn’t want you to read anything different in mine. You lowered your arm, however, before you nodded.

When Susan helped me into the hall, you shifted your weight to round my waist and then I saw your peepers soften, as I flinched. Your touch was intimate and unexpected; it made every clout a thousand times worth it.

As Susan clicked the door closed behind me, I knew at last I’d found my way in.

9

You remember that Victorian blanket box, which you came back with from a junk shop in Ilkley in 1969 and then stripped of its varnish, before painting it kaleidoscopic? Well I dragged it out of the back of the garage last night and had a sort out.

I wanted to make a rummage box for you out of your ivory scarf, photos, your LP, chainmail bag and Jimi Hendrix poster. I figure it’ll help you remember longer: who you are and who I am. Our life.

That way, I’ll hold onto this – different life – by my fingertips a bit longer too.

I’m slipping here without you, I can admit that now and I know where the darkness leads; I lived it long enough, didn’t I? I don’t want to go back there. Even though it’d be just like going home.

Funny thing, memory.

First Lifers lose it, like a fading photograph.

Yet every moment of my Blood Life has remained as crystal clear as the second I lived it. That’s not cool: it’s a curse to have all those memories bobbing around in my brain, like a sodding computer, waiting to be processed.

They’re only what
I
remember. They’re not the truth. Just one man’s witness.

Lately, I’ve felt like there are too many moments pressing in my skull. I wonder if this is what happens to Blood Lifers when they live long enough. They’re not touched but rather they remember too much: every face, scent and taste. All at once. I wish I could black them out, the bad ones at least. But be careful what you wish for, right? Yeah, every time I look at you, I…

Be careful what you wish for.

SEPTEMBER 1968 LONDON

The acid face of Hendrix stared down from the walls of your flat, like a prophetic god, in the yellow light thrown by your mushroom lights, as we sprawled on beanbags and “Are You Experienced” span on your record player. The sonic, breath-taking guitar battled in psychedelic rock’n’roll with drums, howling into birth a new world of freedom and danger.

We were drowning in it.

Our hands were clasped. Our feet were tapping. Our mugs were plastered in daft grins.

And
this
? Yeah, this was happiness.

You know as I see it, you weren’t my Moon Girl anymore, in fact, you hadn’t been for weeks. You were dressed dead casual in jeans and hippy drawstring top, with an ivory scarf knotted snug at your neck: your
sexy little thing
, I called it. You didn’t know it then, of course, but it drove me wild, the way it drew the eye to the jugular, yet coyly hid it at the same time. I’d kiss up and down your neck, light and hot, sliding my fingers under that sexy little thing. And the sensation when it tightened…

I’ve got a stiffy just writing it - look at the effect you have on me, Christ in heaven, even now.