Blue Love (47 page)

Tessa laughed,
“I don’t know maybe I will like it.”

“
It’s not like your dreams Tessa, I think you need to stop having them, maybe it will curb your appetite,” Luke said and raised his eyebrow.

She gasped,
“I was awake last night.”

“
You were,” Luke tried not to smile.

Her face turned red
“Why didn’t you say something?”

“
Like what Tessa?” Luke asked annoyed.

She looked down she didn
’t want to upset him, she didn’t want him to leave again, “I don’t know, you’re awake might have worked,” she said quietly.

“
You wouldn’t have slept,” Luke said scowling and looking down. “Then you would have drank and then possibly spit in my face again,” he looked at her and glared.

“
Sorry,” she said.

“
I bet,” Luke said.

She walked over to hug him and he stiffened.

“Oh,” she was surprised. “Sorry,” she said and stomped out of the room.

He relaxed and grinned.

She still loves me, screw you anal Ben, he thought
!

~

They rode to school together quietly, she glanced out of the corner of her eye and saw him look away.

“
So you don’t like a..” Tessa started to ask.

“
Tessa please don’t,” he said cutting her off.

She grinned and looked out the window
, he glanced at her and saw her smile and shook his head,
Tessa the Tease he thought
.

She plugged her
iPod in and said “Wanna here a new song?”

“
Sure Tessa,” he said in the monotone voice he had been using with her lately.

“
It’s by Buck Cherry,” Tessa said grinning.

Luke
’s eyes widened, “It’s not a new song Tessa,” he said through clenched teeth.

“
It’s all new to me Lucas,” Tessa laughed as she blasted Crazy Bitch.

As they pulled in the school driveway Luke tapped the controls on the steering wheel and turned down the music.

She jumped out and looked in at him, “You coming?” she asked.

“
Not yet,” he said looking at her with his eyes heavy and hot.

Tessa leaned in and looked down,
“Need some help,” she whispered.

Luke threw his head back against the head rest,
“Go away now,” he hissed.

Sadi was walking by and heard him; she smirked and walked in behind Tessa.

“How’s your face farm girl,” she yelled behind her.

Luke heard her and was immediately pissed and jumped out and walked towards them.

“Mine will heal, yours however will look like that forever,” Tessa saw Luke coming, “Hey Luke I think Ben was on to something, but maybe after you shove it in her ass you could gag her with it so she learns to shut the fuck up.”

Sadi started running towards her. Luke grabbed her arm,
“I told you to leave her the fuck alone and I wasn’t joking, she and I will be friends, you and I will be nothing Sadi do you get it? Baby or not you and I will be nothing,” Luke released her arm and she stood there.

He caught up to Tessa,
“You okay?”

She smiled and looked down
“You look better, well not better just more relaxed that was fast Luke. Dead Puppies?” she asked.

“
No her fucking voice,” Luke said and they both laughed.

She stared at him and smiled.
“What?” he asked grinning.

“
For a few minutes you looked happy again,” she felt her eyes get warm. “I miss that” she said and walked away.

Me too he thought
.

~

Ben was in the parking lot when she walked out, he was changing his shirt and he saw her. “Picking me up shirtless Ben, isn’t it a bit cold out for that,” Tessa said and he walked towards her, he bent down and kissed her check.

“
Didn’t think you’d like Bambi blood all over me,” Ben said laughing as he slid his sweatshirt over his head. She laughed. “Your friend Sadi is watching,” he whispered in her ear. He picked her up and threw her on his back and ran to the truck.

“
That show would have been more effective if you had left that damn sweatshirt off,” Tessa said smiling.

“
Tess have you checked out my ass? Effect enough,” Ben smiled. She looked confused and he laughed, “When you feel like it check it out I have been told it’s kind of nice,” Ben said smiling.

“
By lots of people?” Tessa asked curiously.

“
A couple, but mainly my mom,” Ben said and they both laughed.

“
You are a lot of fun to be around Ben,” she said, “Is there a serious side?” she asked.

“
Are you ready for there to be?” Ben asked. She looked confused. “Okay yes I can be serious but I love to have fun, I really like to make you laugh Ross,” he smiled. “Okay relationship talk, I already told you about the three long relationships I have been in. They were all based on friendship first and trust. I have slept with three girls, well not really slept, actually” he said laughing, “I have only actually slept with you,” he grinned. “I am very busy and active, my attention is easily distracted so I am very busy in bed as well,” she gasped “trying to be honest.”

“
So if you’re easily distracted how does that work then?” she asked.

“
There are hundreds of ways to please someone Tess,” Ben said grinning, “busy is a good thing, I like to try and learn new things,” he paused and watched her eye’s, she was trying not to grin. “However as much as I love to be distracted I prefer the person I am with to be completely focused on me, I have issues when it comes to that, when I love or make love it’s two people, there is no other way for me.”

He pulled into the driveway and jumped out and opened her door. She was trying not to smile, and avoiding eye contact.
“Can’t look at me hu?” he asked, “good that’s step one,” he said. “See you tonight Tess, oh when I walk away you could check out my ass,” he kissed her on the head and walked away.

She laughed as she walked in the house. She did her homework and made dinner. She grabbed her running shoes
, as she was heading out the door Luke pulled in.

“
Going for a run?” Luke asked.

“
Yep,” she said, “dinners in the oven,” she told him as she stretched out.

“
I talked to Sadi today,” he said looking down.

“
How did that go?” she asked. As she jumped up and down a few times.

“
You are very distracting,” Luke said as he watched her bounce around.

“
Sorry, walk with me, let’s talk,” Tessa said.

“
But you wanted to run,” Luke said.

“
I would rather talk to my friend,” Tessa said and smiled at him, “and Jade has been very busy lately.”

“
So I have heard, over and over again,” Luke said laughing.

She smiled when she saw him laugh,
“Your smile… God Luke I love your smile.”

“
Sorry,” Luke said more seriously.

She smacked his back,
“Don’t be sorry it makes me happy,” she said and jumped up and down again.

“
You are very silly today,” Luke said. She grinned.
What have I done to you, Luke thought looking at her.

They walked for a bit without talking.

“So let’s hear it, what happened with Sadi?” she asked forcing a smile in her voice.

Luke looked at her with concern,
“You sure?” he asked, she smiled and shook her head yes. “Well I think it bothered her a lot when I yelled at her this morning, because she actually apologized,” Luke said and she smiled. “I told her I thought we should go to counseling; ya know to learn how to deal with each other for the baby,” he stopped and looked at her, “Should I stop?” he asked.

“
No go on,” Tessa said.

“
She agreed, so I am going to find someone and go once a week until we can act civil to each other,” he stopped and looked at her eyes, they were blank.

She swallowed,
“Well I think that’s a good idea Luke.”

“
She also agreed to allow me to go the doctor appointment in three weeks if things went well,” Luke said and looked at her, “Do you want to sit and talk Tessa?”

“
Nope we can walk,” she said.
She wanted to run and scream. He was going to be with her once a week talking to her about feelings. He was going to her doctor appointment with her and he was having a precious little baby with her
. All the things she knew he should do. She encouraged it, he was going to be with Sadi and Tessa was going to either fall apart or be here picking up sand sized pieces of her heart trying to put it back together.
Breathe Tessa
she told herself.
He was doing the right thing, let him, be his friend, just breathe,
she tripped and fell. Her tears fell immediately. Luke squatted down beside her.

“
You okay Tessa,” Luke asked.

“
No it hurts,” she said and curled into a ball, she put her face into her legs and tried to breathe as tears poured into her lap.

“
Let me help you up,” Luke said.

“
I can do it just give me a minute,” Tessa winced.

Luke watched her trying to be strong, and he wanted to just run away like she had asked him to the night before. But he had to be a man; she would hate him either way.
He reached out and rubbed her back, and she stopped breathing.

“
Sorry Tessa does that hurt?” he asked.

“
Yep,” she said.
Everything hurts. “
So what else happened with her?” Tessa asked.

“
She told me I needed to move out of here,” he answered quietly.

She started to shake,
“and what did you say?”

“
I told her I would work on it, but it may be two more months,” Luke said softly.

She was taking deep breaths,
“So are you working on it?”

“
I think I should,” Luke said softly.

“
Oh,” she said and sounded defeated. Her breaths were more rapid and she held her breath and the tears fell harder.

“
I know you don’t want help up but we should really get you back to clean up that leg.”

Tessa hadn
’t even realized she was bleeding. The pain in her leg was nothing compared to the one deep in her chest. She sat up and lifted her shirt to wipe her eyes and looked down at her leg. She exhaled and shook her head. He put his hand out and she took it. He lifted her up.

“
Thank you,” she said softly.

“
Can you walk,” he asked.

“
I am going to have to figure it out,” she said and breathed deeply.

“
I can’t let you limp all the way to the house Tessa,” he said.

“
Well that one you’re going to have to figure out,” Tessa forced a small smile.

“
Friends Tessa?” Luke asked searching intently into her eyes.

“
Always,” Tessa swallowed hard and looked away.

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