Authors: Margaret Mayhew
Over dinner she studied him covertly. She thought he looked even more exhausted than when she had last seen him. There were dark rings under his eyes and the scar on his forehead showed very red against his pallor. He kept propping his chin on his hand and once or twice she thought he was going to fall asleep, sitting at the table.
âRum sort of war, this,' he said, waving his fork vaguely. âThere you are chasing some Jerry across the fields, hopping over hedges, both of you screeching along like bats out of hell, and you can see people picnicking
as though nothing was happening at all . . . White cloths laid out, pouring the tea, passing round the cucumber sandwiches . . . Life going on as per usual with us thrashing about in the skies overhead. I went over a cricket match the other day and they didn't even look up.'
âIt must seem strange.'
âWell, it does. It does indeed. And it's just as odd upstairs, sometimes. Do you know we often get BBC broadcasts on our radios, right in the middle of everything. There we are listening to our revered and gallant leader rallying us to the flag, exhorting us to go in and give our all, and suddenly some woman's telling us to take 4 ounces of fat and half a pound of flour and blend well together.'
Felicity laughed. âI don't believe it.'
âI swear it's true. Last time it was a recipe for rock cakes. Whitters was kindly drawing my attention to some Hun on my tail and this woman starts saying “Bake the cakes for ten minutes at Gas Mark Seven until well risen and golden brown”.'
She still wasn't entirely sure whether to believe him, but he seemed quite serious now, turning his wine glass stem round and round between his fingers thoughtfully. Staring at it.
âThe weirdest thing of all is to go into the pub of an evening, as we are wont to do. The locals are all there, sitting over their pints, and in we come pretending we've had our feet on the ground all day and that everything's tickety-boo. Nobody mentions what's been going on. Or who's missing. It's pints all round and talk about the weather. Been a lovely summer, hasn't it, and all that . . . To be honest, half the time we pray for a good old peasouper so that we can get a bit of rest.' He lifted his head and smiled at her wearily. âI didn't tell you I came down in the drink the other day, did I?'
She caught her breath. âNo . . . actually, you didn't.'
âWell, you know me. Always a spot of drama. Some Jerry made a confounded nuisance of himself â they've got no consideration at all. Scored a bullseye in the engine.
Flames all over the shop, and getting warmer, so I had to hop out and take a little swim in the Channel.' Speedy wagged a forefinger at her. âDon't ever let anyone tell you that the water's warm in summer because they'd be lying.'
She tried to smile. âWas it long before you were picked up?'
âNot sure. My watch had stopped and I sort of lost track of time. I paddled about a bit and sang a song or two to keep my spirits up. Not ones you'd know, Titania. At least, you might know the tunes, but not the words . . . I kept wishing I had a dinghy like the bomber boys. For some reason they seem to think us fighter chaps are unsinkable. Then I was trying to think of a good quotation for the occasion and I remembered that bit from
The Ancient Mariner
.'
âWater, water everywhere?'
âNo. Better than that.
Alone, alone, all, all alone. Alone on a wide, wide sea.
Rather apt, don't you think? Old Snodgrass would have given me ten out of ten.'
âTop of the class?'
âDefinitely. Anyway, I said that to myself a few hundred times and just as I was beginning to think that everyone had forgotten all about me, this splendid launch turns up. Very decent chaps on board, too. One of them had had the foresight to bring along a bottle of brandy . . .'
Afterwards, as they had done before, they walked along the quayside towards the boatsheds. It was almost dark with just a faint, dull red glow left in the west, like the dying embers of a fire. She remembered how far away the war had seemed last time. Now the Germans were only on the other side of the water. Speedy put his arm round her shoulders.
âWhen I was waiting to be picked up â or not, as the case might be â I thought about you a lot, Titania. That kept me going.'
âThat's a very nice compliment, Speedy,' she said carefully.
He stopped walking and turned towards her. He put his hands on her shoulders. âYou know I'm awfully in love with you, don't you?'
âOh, dear.'
âThe funny thing is I've been out with lots of girls, but I've never really cared two hoots about them until now. I've never met anyone like you, you see. I told you that before.'
âI'm nothing special at all.'
âI think you are,' he said solemnly. âVery special. The thing is, I know you're not in love with me. Not yet, anyhow. But do you think there's a chance you might be . . . later on?'
âI honestly don't know, Speedy. I like you very much. I'm very fond of you, but â'
âNot quite the same thing, is it?' He sighed deeply. âMaybe if I'm very good and patient, you will be one day.'
âYou'll meet someone else, Speedy.'
âNot like you, Titania. Never like you.'
When he kissed her she hadn't the heart to stop him. He held her close against him for a moment and then sighed once more.
âI suppose it's time to take you back. Then tomorrow it's back unto the flipping breach again. I must say the old ticker sinks a bit at the thought. Ah well. Press on regardless, as they say.'
They walked slowly back along the quayside and he kept his arm firmly round her shoulders all the way.
âCome and have a cup of tea, Winnie?'
âNo, thank you.'
But Taffy blocked her way. People were pushing past them in the NAAFI corridor and someone jostled her so hard she almost fell into his arms. Someone else was grinning at her and making some remark she didn't catch.
âIt's only a cup of tea, Winnie,' Taffy said pleadingly. âWe could just sit and talk a bit, that's all.'
She gave way. Taffy wouldn't budge and it was hard to make a fuss with everybody going past and staring at them and sniggering. After all, she was safe enough here in the NAAFI and there was nothing wrong with having a cup of tea with him.
They queued at the canteen counter for tea and buns which Taffy insisted on paying for. As he set them down on the table she noticed that there were corporal's tapes on his arm now. The table was sticky with spilled beer and speckled with cigarette ash. He made a face as he took a sip of the tea.
âThis stuff's worse than ever. Tastes like sawdust. I bet they do put bromide in it.'
âBromide?'
âYou know, the stuff that makes you drowsy. They're supposed to put it in the tea to keep our passions down.'
She went red.
âI'm only joking. It's just a silly story. You know the rubbish people talk in this place.' He rubbed a hand over his eyes. âNo need for it anyhow. It's been hard enough keeping awake lately. Not much time for sleep.'
She'd watched the fighters taking off time after time since the big raid, craning her neck to follow them as far as she could from the Orderly Room window. She always counted them and crossed her fingers for them. When they came back she counted them again to see how many were missing and watched the ones that had been shot up wobbling and spluttering past, fuselage sometimes in tatters.
Taffy went on. âAll night it is sometimes, with the CO screaming for aircraft and most of them U/S . . . We're beavering away like a lot of lunatics.'
âI've watched them goin' out every day,' she said.
He smiled with a quiet satisfaction. âWe can turn the Hurries round in eight minutes if there's a flap on. Refuel,
rearm, engine check, instruments, radio, the whole lot . . . Not bad.'
She'd seen ground crew swarming over a fighter that had just landed. The pilot hadn't even left the cockpit before it taxied off again.
Taffy was watching her intently. âYou look tired too, Winnie. Have they been working you hard?'
âWe've been busy.'
Endless forms. Endless queries. Endless filing. So many more people now on the station.
âYou're all right, though?' he persisted. âNo ill effects from being in that shelter, I mean?'
She shook her head. She didn't want to talk about it. She had tried hard to forget what had happened and not to think of Enid. Blast did funny things sometimes, everybody had told her. It could get someone and leave the person right next to them quite unhurt. The Hand of God, Vera had called it dramatically, though why should God have chosen just to put His hand on Enid?
Vera was making faces at her now from across the canteen, mouthing widely:
are you all right
? She nodded and gave her a quick little wave to show so.
âBefore the raids started,' Taffy was saying, âsome of the boys hadn't a good word to say for you WAAFS. They think differently now, I can tell you . . . the way you've stuck it all and kept going cool and calm as anything. Mind you, I don't know if they'd go so far as to want any of you in the hangars . . . not yet, anyhow. Maybe one day.' He smiled at her. âSee, I don't forget anything you've ever said to me. Do you still want to be a flight mech?'
âI don't think they'll ever let us,' she said wistfully.
âThey might.' Taffy watched her face. He said softly: âI could teach you a bit about aircraft, if you like â so's you'd stand a better chance, if it ever came to it. What would you like to know?'
âWell . . .'
âJust ask away. I'll do my best.'
Winnie blushed. âI still don't understand how the
'planes fly. I can't see how they get up into the air when they're so heavy.'
âThat's simple really.' He put down his tea and held his hands out, turned away from each other and tilted upwards slightly. âThe wings are set at an angle, like this, see, so that when the airscrew's turning and pulling the aircraft along fast enough, the angle drives the air flowing past the wings
underneath
them and forces them upwards.'
She tried to follow him, but it still made no clear sense.
He sketched a curve with one hand over the back of the other. âAs well as that, the wing is cambered on the upper surface, like this. That makes the air pressure less on top and greater underneath, where it's flatter, so that sort of sucks the wing upwards. See?'
âI think so,' she said doubtfully.
He dropped his hands and rummaged in the breast pocket of his battle dress tunic. âWell, there's a lot more to it than that, of course.' He took out a piece of paper and unfolded it, smoothing it flat. âLook you, I'll give you a demonstration of air flow lifting something. Watch this.'
He let the paper hang loosely from his fingertips, holding it by two corners a little way from him. As he blew gently along the upper surface the paper rose into the air. âSee? Me blowing like that makes an airflow across the top surface of the paper and that causes a decrease in air pressure there. But the air pressure
below
the paper isn't decreased, so the paper rises up, just like you saw. That's the secret of flight.' He smiled at her, holding out the piece of paper. âHere, you try.'
He stared at her soft lips, pursed to blow. The paper fluttered and then lifted for her. She handed it back to him, looking both pleased and shy.
âOf course,' he said casually. âThere's other things you ought to know about. You've got to keep the aircraft stable in flight so it doesn't swing about in the air, or pitch up and down. And you've got to be able to turn it
left and right, and go up and down, and bank . . . But that's all getting a bit more complicated.'
âWould you mind very much explainin' some more to me?'
He grabbed at the chance she had given him, veiling his triumph. Taking a pencil stub from his pocket, he leaned forward across the table and began to draw a picture of an aeroplane on the piece of paper.
âWell now . . . Your tailplane here gives fore and aft stability. It has to support the fuselage in just the right position, so it isn't nose-heavy or tail-heavy. Then you've got your fin at the back, sticking up like this, with the rudder attached. The rudder's connected to a bar in the cockpit that the pilot pushes with his feet. If he pushes the left side forward, the machine turns left. If he pushes the right, it goes right. Easy.' He sketched on quickly, deftly. âAnd here's your elevator on the tailplane, at the side. That's connected to the pilot's control column in the cockpit. When he pulls it towards him this way, the elevator goes up and catches the wind. That forces the tail
down
, which makes the aircraft's nose go
up
, and so she climbs . . .' Taffy demonstrated with the pencil stub. âIf he pushes it forward, the opposite happens and she dives. See?'
Winnie, chin on her hands, concentrating hard, nodded. She had forgotten all about being afraid of Taffy and was quite oblivious to the buzz and clatter of the canteen around her. Vera passed by the table, dragging her feet and coughing helpfully, but Winnie did not even notice her. She was watching the pencil moving across the paper again.
âThese flaps on the trailing edge of the wings are called ailerons,' Taffy told her. âThey're attached to the control column too. Push it sideways â to the left, say â and the port aileron goes up and the starboard one down. The wind catches hold of them and makes the port wing tip go down and the starboard wing tip come up. So, the machine banks, like this.'
Taffy stretched both arms wide and demonstrated for her. Winnie watched attentively. He dragged his eyes away from her and went on drawing.
âYou've got your airscrew on the nose, of course, and when that's turning, the blades chop at the air and pull the machine along. Same as paddling a boat in water, really . . .'