Broken (2 page)

Flipping through the channels at home I found myself daydreaming about the oh so very delicious Cameron.. Damn what’s wrong with me I don’t daydream?! Why is his adorable sexy little face creeping into my thoughts?  After I finish off the Ben and Jerry’s  I fumble around my huge lonely home looking for where I dropped my purse on the way in last night… I’m really going to learn to not get so freaking drunk when I go out!  I’d ask my maid where it is but she’s like my purse NO WHERE TO BE FOUND maybe its time I hire someone else Valeria has been with me for years, way before the accident but she tends to make herself more at home these days.. She is the only thing I have left that I consider family anymore; she’s just on my bad side today for no apparent reason.

Weekends are so boring for me I get wasted at clubs drag innocent boys home have fun and them ship them off, and then spend the rest of the time flipping channels on my TV or sleeping my hangover away! Yep that’s me boring
lil miss bazillionaire the life style I live now, which I thank my past for, doesn’t allow for a home life or friends really, Maggie has only been to my house maybe 3 times, twice was so I could sign a contract because I was to messed up to actually go to work. How had my life gotten to this? I had a huge home (left by my parents if you recall) overlooking the ocean in a gated beautiful community on the fabulous Miami inlet. I owned I dunno maybe 6,7,15 cars all out in the garage a few toys, boats, motorcycles, hang gliders, helicopter, jets oh and the yacht which is more than a BOAT! 90% of the town belongs to me, a flat screen in every room, including my closet. Clothes and shoes, bags and sun glasses to match yet I’m so void… I’d never tell anyone but shits getting old and fast to be honest. And again it’s Cameron’s face I see. Fuck it imma call myself with the house phone! I hear my cell buzz to life with “I wanna be a billionaire” and I let out the ironic giggle and go searching! Takes all of two seconds to find it, OH SNAP my purse was in the fridge haha musta been a hella night for me…

After 2 rings Cameron picks up with a quick
“ Hello?” I’m already panting  “Cameron Babe hey its Lexi, I’m just sitting around and thought maybe I’d call and see if you were free for a bit, I wanna take my boat out and get some sun” I figure its perfect for a talk. He can’t run way out in the ocean! After a brief wait he tells me he can go out as soon as he drops off Alex at Maggie’s apparently today is the big move day. She should have told me I would have sent people over to pack n move her gesh she’s so stiff sometimes. Oh well not my problem. However which water toy to use is. Do I take the amazing sleek black n hot pink speed boat for 3 or do I pull out the whole 9 and bring out my fabulous white and cerulean blue catamaran ooo decision decisions…

He isn’t coming to my house, no one does till after a lot of alcohol,
 so I make a quick pick and go for the speed boat that way its just me and him  no need for “help”.  I send a quick text to Cameron with location to be ready in 30 minutes. I phone the boat house and tell Gus to have my boat ready in ten. I fly up the wide spiral stairs that lead to my master suite which is the size of a normal person’s entire house.(Have you figured out just how rich I am yet?) I run to the closet giddy for some unknown reason and start rubbing my fingers across the newly installed top of the line closet caddy screen. I find the screen which holds my swimwear and skim through the photos of what’s all inside. I love this new invention I hit a few buttons and when my closet opens in front of me I have all the choices I wanted to see on the screen. I pick a very tiny tangerine orange triangle top and bottoms to match grab for the shimmery gold wrap and do a back hand spring out of the closet. Yes a back hand spring I don’t keep this body sitting around eating pb&j and sucking down chocolate milk all-day.  Not to mention the night life I have would crash around me if I wasn’t physically fit. I drop out of last night’s wrinkled mess and throw on the bikini, running my hands down my legs I’m still sleek from the wax. I rub myself down in lotion grab my gold pumps and sunglasses which seem close to the super trooper shades he was sporting not to long ago. Oh not to mention they match my wrap. I grab a tiny shimmery clutch and out the door I go. Oh shit a ponytail holder, FUCK, back in I go and over to the white armoire to grab a matching orange Hawaiian flower to pin into the messy low side ponytail. NOW MOVE IT!

Out the door I go with a little jump in my step. Valeria is hollering at me of course she shows up now
grrrrr. I turn to see her running towards me, bless her she’s bringing me my cell. I would lose that damn thing if it wasn’t for her.

10 minutes later I’m hauling ass in the dock where I told Cameron to meet me. His mouth drops open as I stand up and wave to him as I slide the boat in close so he can get in!
  “This your boat Cruz?” he says all blown away “YUP” I chirp “ this here is Beauty and we are going to ride hard and fast today Cameron are you ready?” his eyes are bugged out of his head and his mouth is hung open with drool I believe haha nice to see because now he is seeing me standing there. “GET IN CAMERON I WANNA RIDE” all the while I am aware I am chewing on my bottom lip, he climbs in and before he can sit down I pull the throttle and the boat hums to life faster than it should but I giggle and he is all smiles. Damn he is too gorgeous; he has everything a dream guy needs including his all too cute country farmer tan!  And his bright yellow swim trunks are a great contrast to my orange, which sparks my first move to relax him. I am going to sit on him to show him this contrast. Ah the dangerous glint in my eyes I know he can see it, hell I feel it again right between my thighs!  

Deep in the ocean surrounded by nothing but beautiful clear water and a jet ski every once in a while, I kill the motor slowly rising to get the cooler and my bag out of the hidden compartment, Spread my towel out bending over slowly to make sure Cameron takes notice. I lean around twisting the way a body shouldn’t be able to, hold up the sunscreen “Rub me down?”
 Oh Cameron your eyes are seriously going to pop out of your head silly boy. I lay out on the towel stomach down, he slowly starts to cover me in sunscreen and I let out a little whimper between the electrical current in his touch and the warm sun I feel fabulous. I untie the back of my top so he gets everywhere, and he stops hands still spread wide across my back. Looking over my shoulder I see he is just staring at my back “you ok Cam? It’s just a back babe finish up!” he starts back and like a flash of lighting I flip over. The look on his face is PRICELESS.A hand full of CHEST and Yup he is SPRUNG! “Chop Chop now I need to get some sun” I say as seductive as I can, and pushing him away. He finishes up and sits back not knowing what to do now. I hear the crooning of Marvin Gaye on the radio softly and ask Cameron to turn it up a little. AS I lay body reaching for the sun on my towel with Marvin screaming lets get it on I can only image the self control Cameron has right now. I lift my head and cock it to the side he is sitting back in the seat shirt off shades on with his arms stretched out over the back of the seat just watching me. Here is my chance. Up I pounce, kicking my legs over the towel and dropping them to the floor, I stand and slowly stride over to him lowering myself to straddle his lap stomach to stomach.  Looking into his eyes I can’t help but think how easily I could get lost in them they are so beautiful the kind of green that you just don’t see. He is so innocent by every standard.. You just don’t see that in guys his age. I adjust myself on him spreading my thighs wide and doing a soft wiggle then I lean back just a little “Cameron do you see how fabulous your yellow shorts look against my tangy orange suit? it’s almost as if we planned it..” I let a giggle escape and with the lean I have going on my bottoms are the issue he wants to discuss right now. He is biting his lip as if to keep from ravaging my body here and now. After a few more playful wiggles I lean up wrap my arms around his neck and drop my eyes I know by his gasp they have gone hazy. “Now Cameron I would be lying if I said I wasn’t interested in you, so I have a proposition, I don’t do this normally but sometimes there is the exception. And you are absolutely the exception in my world right now!” he takes a deep breathe and I continue, poor guy is holding on by a thread I want to demand him drop his pants and take me from behind but the words won’t come out. I go with the only thing my mind seems to be able to concentrate on “I have to attend a function tonight, it’s a charity event that my parents funded and I have to show up in support of them, and being Miss Miami Socialite that I am I have no options. I would really like for you to go with and make it more bearable.” A smile that reached his ears surfaced and his cheeks are crimson haha to cute “Miss Cruz I would very much like to be your date tonight” “OMG (I scream) Not a date Cameron arm candy honey ARM CANDY I don’t date” he actually cringed and it kind of stung my heart I actually hurt his feelings, what is wrong with me. “Awww Cameron I didn’t mean to scream I just have never opened myself up like that, the proposition I have placed with you means no strings attached, but if all goes well tonight then maybe  I could  pencil in a lunch date next week?” with a small wink I get up grab my top place it back around me asking him to tie me in. “We gotta get back so I can get ready” I see him tense up “What is it now Cameron, you gotta go potty?”  with a weak voice he answers me “Miss Cruz I don’t live the life style you live and well I am here only on vacation all I really have are beach clothes and a few jeans” What the hell is up with the formal MISS this and MISS that? She shoots him an award winning I GOT THIS smile & turns the engine over speeding off toward the dock. Jimmy Buffett screeching along.. yea my music mix is weird but it’s me what can I say. “Shoot me an email right now, send your address and clothes size. I will have my friend Bernard drop by in 1 hour to fit you to match my dress”  I snatch a business card  out of my adorable cheetah ( yea we all have a little Snooki in us)  metal card holder in my bag  hand it to him and before he can say anything I pull away. I didn’t look back I knew he was looking they always do. One thing I can’t figure out is why when I snap at him like I would anyone else it actually upsets me to be treating him so poorly.

An hour later I step out of the shower and run my hand across my digital closet panel. I’ve already decided on the yellow dress, picking it because the color would
remind him of his trunks from earlier and then of me color matching my swim wear while sitting on top of him w/ my perfect perky real “C” cups staring at him.  Now to get all DONE up for the crowd, my life is such a drag I’d rather go in yoga pants and a cut up sweat shirt. Ha the field day they would with me on yahoo if I did. “Valeria I am ready to do my hair.. Please hurry” I can’t help but feel stunning when I see myself in the mirror. The beautiful canary yellow floor length empire waist satin dress is to die for, not sure if I love the plunging front and back held together only by tiny diamond chains or the teardrop diamond waist band more.  Valeria has done the work of a true genius with my hair, long curls heavy with a small swipe to the side. I look… Like a Greek goddess Aphrodite herself is cringing in her skin I just know it. I put on a big talk around people but they just don’t understand what’s in my heart. I’m cold and shut down and in total control on the outside and inside my heart has torn holes all in it the sun has burned out, only cricket’s chirp. I am utterly alone and totally unloved. Most people will never know the pain in a lifetime I have endured in just a few short years. But you will always be judged by your peers it’s just human nature. well back in action I have to get this over with… “Valeria bring me the yellow jimmy choo t strap peek-a-boos please”.

My car pulls up outside the hotel where Cameron and his buddies are staying, I step out to greet him and of course every guy he knows is there to
 prove he was lying about his dinner plans with me. “Hello Cameron, you look amazing tonight.” Him and his entourage all stand eyes bugged out and tongues on the ground. This dress has that effect since the slit in it, is waist high and the v cut in it goes completely to my waist line.  Cameron makes a groaning rumbling noise deep in his throat and lets out “Miss Cruz that is your color, you look like a princess” psht I can’t help but give a dirty little chuckle and my eyes hit each of his friends one at a time and when I reach Cameron all I can say is “Babe in this life I am THE queen!” I grab his hands and reach up to plant a sweet kiss on his lips, as I turn I make sure his hand slide into place cupping my backside. As we turn and walk back to the white stretched limo I hear all the frat boys hoots and hollers and a few high fives. I’ve just turned Cameron into a god in their eyes.

“Cameron when we get to this event there are a few rules you must follow. 1. Don’t stop smiling. 2. When they take a photo turn your body towards me and dip your head just a tad and SMILE.3. When someone ask who you are your to let me answer just smile DO NOT speak to any other females unless I say so 4.don’t leave my side without asking
and  do it while smiling 5.don’t drink to much and when the night is over your going to get in my limo and ride home with me like a good little boy. “Gus can you turn it up I love this song” throwing back the last swig of red stuff in my cup and I start to sway my hips and smile while belting out  “I’m bringing sexy back”. Cameron whispers and I barely hear him “Oh girl you are the epitome of sexy” And the growl from his chest sets me on fire. Again I find myself barely holding on; I just want to run my hand between his legs. I smile really big and know tonight is the night! “Ready or not Cameron here we go” stepping out of the limo everything goes into slow motion, we are met by crazy camera flashes and hear “Miss Cruz” everywhere. We stop and take a few easy shots for them and off we go into the amazing Ritz where my function is being held.  The night runs smooth for the most part. About 20 minutes into making rounds I hear all to close to me “ Well Well Miss ALEXA what do we have here rawr” Before I know it I have jerked Cameron almost on my hip with a fierce snarl on my mouth and a bitch you will die stare I turn on my heels” Corrine Janessa Fuckin Morgan you so much as bat your trashy ass nasty eye lashes at him I will peel your fuckin eyes out with a scorching spoon, you gold digging wanna be rich bitch whore now step the fuck back tramp” and I snatched Cameron so hard when I walked off he let a poor puppy whimper. “Who was that” he cries out once we are far away from her. “One day I may explain it but here and now is neither the time nor place, just trust me Cameron you want nothing to do with her or her people.” Poor Cameron he is so in over his head, why did I spaz so fast gesh wow I might need to phone a friend, by friend I mean crazy Dr. Alpine, my controlling issues are pushing the extreme with this kid. “Well Miss Cruz I should let you know had she batted her nasty eye lashes at me I would not have noticed, I cant seem to take my eyes off you tonight, your breath taking”he says while running his finger down my bare arm. I let out a grade school laugh and we slipped off again into blissful dream walking, shaking hands, and taking photos. We made it through a lavish (very hands on under the table) dinner without any issues which I was grateful. Corinne actually stayed away I really didn’t want to get any blood on this dress it’s a brand new design! As we were leaving “La’sette darling are you really going to leave without saying hello? Surely not, your mother taught you better than that.” Uhhh seriously I just want to leave I have things to do here people, I plaster a stupid life is grand smile on my face turn around and squeal “Mrs. Georgina I didn’t see you for goodness sakes you look fantastic, Cameron this is Mrs. Georgina she is umm was my legal guardian and still is a vital piece of my empire” She shook Cameron’s hand and they spoke for a moment and like that she whisked away. Thank you Jesus she was gone and we didn’t even play the 100 question game. “Ok Cameron I have been here long enough, you ready to go? I sure hope so tonight’s  about to kick in. Gus to the home pad please sir, and do take your time” I flip through my I pod skimming the songs find the playlist I want and click it on low… & up the privacy glass goes, we are riding for a  few with some extremely provocative tunes playing. “Cameron I want to talk with you about some things, I am very interested in you well most of you. You’re easy on the eyes, sweet to hear, and you seem to be very obedient. I would like for you to stay the night with me at my home. And I would like you to give me full permission to do as I please with you in my own home.” Cameron has a million things running through his head I can see it all over his face & there’s a hint of fear to. “What kind of things Lexi?” it was the first time he hadn’t called me Miss Cruz my heart skipped a beat, well what’s left of my heart did. “I want to first rip all your clothes off and tie you up blind folded and well then there are numerous things I want to do it may take a few hours.” Without hesitation Cameron yips out “YES I GIVE YOU FULL PERMISSION” boy if he isn’t a natural born sub gesh.  “ Good that’s what I wanted to hear”  my cell is buzzing I look at the screen and of course it’s a text from :