Read Charley Davidson 01Bis For I Have Sinned Online
Authors: Darynda Jones
I felt it the moment it seized him, felt it quake and convulse through his body, and in an instant an explosion burst and shot through me, sending a sharp sting of pleasure ricocheting against my bones, coursing through my veins, searing my flesh with a scalding ecstasy.
And then the world came crashing in as the violence of an orgasm splitting me in two jolted me from a fitful sleep. The dying remnants of a scream echoed in the room, and I knew instantly it was my own reaction to the climax. I forced myself to pause, to catch my breath, to unclench my fists from around the coffee cup that had emptied its contents in my lap. Luckily, there wasn’t much left. I put the cup on a side table then I fell back onto the sofa and threw an arm over my forehead to wait out the familiar storm trembling through my body.
Three times in one week. Within seconds of closing my eyes, he’d be there, waiting, watching, angry and seductive.
I glanced at the clock again. The last time I’d looked, it really did say 3:35. Now it said 3:38. Three minutes. I’d closed my eyes three minutes ago.
With an exhausted sigh, I realized it was my own fault. I’d let myself drift.
Maybe this was Reyes’s way of making me pay for what I’d done. He’d always been able to leave his body, to become incorporeal and wreak all kinds of havoc on humanity. Not that he actually wreaked havoc, but he could’ve had he wanted to. Now, he was stuck in his body. A minor indiscretion if you asked me, and when I bound him, a necessary one.
But now he was back to haunting my dreams. At least when he’d entered my dreams before, I actually got some sleep between rounds of hide and seek and tug of war. Now, I close my eyes for a second and he’s there in the most intense way possible. As long as I’m asleep, we’re going at it like rabbits on a bunny farm.
And the worst part of the whole thing lay in the fact that he really was pissed as hell at me. As a result, he had no desire to be there. He was angry, consumed with rage, and yet oh, so passionate, like he couldn’t help himself. Like he couldn’t control the heat coursing through him, the hunger in his veins. I couldn’t exactly control myself either, so I knew how he felt.
But I’d summoned him? Impossible. How could I have summoned him growing up? Like that time I was four and I was almost kidnapped by a convicted child molester? I didn’t even know what he was. I’d been scared of him.
Just then I heard my front door crash open and decided it was time to clean up anyway. Coffee never felt as good on the outside.
“What? Where are you?” I heard my neighbor who moonlighted as my receptionist and best friend say as she stumbled into my apartment. Cookie’s short black hair stuck out in all kinds of socially unacceptable directions. And she wore wrinkled pajamas, striped in alternating blues and yellows that fit tight around her robust middle half with long red socks that bunched around her ankles. She was such a challenge.
“I’m here,” I said, hoisting myself off the sofa. “Everything’s okay.”
“But you screamed.” Alarmed, she scanned the area.
“We really need to sound proof these walls.” She lived right across the hall and could apparently hear a feather drop in my kitchen.
After taking a moment to catch her breath, she leveled a cold stare on me. “Charley, damn it.”
“You know, I get called that a lot,” I said, padding toward the bathroom, “but Charley Damn It’s not really my name.”
She stepped toward my bookcase and braced herself with one hand while the other tried to still her beating heart. Then she glared. It was funny. Just as she opened her mouth to say something, she noticed the plethora of empty coffee cups scattered about the place. Then she glared again. It was still funny.
“Have you been drinking all night?”
I disappeared into the bathroom, came back with a toothbrush in my mouth, then pointed toward the front door with raised brows. “Break and enter much?”
She stepped around me and closed the door. “We need to talk.”
Uh-oh. Scolding time. She’d been scolding me everyday for a week. At first, I could lie about my lack of sleep and she’d fall for it, but she started suspecting insomnia when I began seeing purple elephants in the air vents at the office. I knew I shouldn’t have asked her about them. I thought maybe she’d redecorated.
I went to my bedroom and changed into a fresh pair of PJs, then asked, “Want coffee?” as I headed that way.
“It’s three thirty in the morning.”
“Okay. Want coffee?”
“No. Sit down.” When I paused mid-stride and raised my brows in questions, she set a stubborn tilt to her jaw. “I told you, we need to talk.”
“Does this have anything to do with that mustache I drew on you while you were sleeping the other night?” I eased back onto the sofa, keeping a wary eye on her, just in case.
“No. This has to do with drugs.”
My jaw fell open. I almost lost my toothbrush. “You’re on drugs?”
She pressed her mouth together. “No. You are.”
“I’m on drugs?” I asked, stunned. I had no idea.
“Charley,” Cookie said, her voice sympathetic, “how long has it been since you’ve slept?”
With a loud sigh that bordered on a whine, I counted on my fingers. “Around thirteen days, give or take.”
Her eyes widened with shock. After she let that sink in, she asked, “And you’re not on anything?”
I took the toothbrush out of my mouth. “Besides Crest?”
“Then how are you doing it?” She leaned forward, her brows glued together in concern. “How are you not sleeping for days at a time?”
“I don’t know. I just don’t close my eyes.”
“Charley, that’s impossible. And probably dangerous.”
“Not at all,” I assured her. “I’m drinking lots of coffee. And I hardly ever fall asleep while driving.”
“Oh, my gosh.” She let her head drop into her palm.
I popped the toothbrush back into my mouth with a smile. People like Cookie were hard to come by. Stalwart. Loyal. Easy to punk. “Hon, I’m not like you, remember?”
She focused on me again. “You’re still human. Just because you heal really fast and can see the departed and you have this uncanny ability to convince the most mundane of persons to try to kill you—”
“But he’s so mad at me, Cook.” I lowered my head, the sadness of my situation creeping up on me.
She stopped and absorbed my statement before commenting. “Tell me exactly what’s going on.”
“Kay. Need coffee first.”
“It’s three thirty in the morning.”
Ten minutes later we both had a cup of coffee a la fresco, and I was in the middle of describing my dreams—if one could call them that—to a starry-eyed divorcee with lust in her loins. She already knew about my binding Reyes to his physical body, but she didn’t know about the dreams. Not entirely. I’d just told her about my most recent encounter with god Reyes, a being forged in the fires of hell, created from beauty and sin and fused together with the blistering heat of sensuality.
I fanned myself and refocused on her.
“He was actually—”
“Yep,” I said.
“And he put your leg—?”
“Yep. I think for ease of access.”
“Oh, my.” A hand floated up to cover her heart.
“Yep again. But that’s the cool part. The orgasmic part. The part where he touches me and kisses me and strokes me in the most amazing places.”
“He kissed you?”
“Well, no, not this morning,” I said, shaking my head. “But sometimes he does. Strange thing is, he doesn’t want to be there. He doesn’t
want
to be with me. And yet, the minute I close my eyes, there he is. Fierce. Sexy. Pissed as hell.”
“But he actually lifted your leg—”
“Cookie,” I said, grabbing her arm and forcing her back to me, “you have to get past that part.”
“Right.” She blinked and shook her head. “Right, sorry. Well, I can certainly see why you don’t want to experience
that
kind of trauma night after night.”
“But I don’t get any actual rest. I swear I’m more exhausted when I wake up, like, three minutes later. And he’s just so mad at me.”
“Well, you did bind him for all eternity.”
I sighed. “Surely it’s not for all eternity. I mean, I can fix this.” I decided to leave out the part where I’d already tried to unbind him and failed miserably. “I’ll figure out how to unbind him, don’t you think?”
“Me?” she asked, balking at the very idea. “This is your world, hon. I’m just an innocent bystander.” She looked at my Looney Tunes clock.
As usual, my selfless concern for my fellow man amazed me. “You need to get back to bed,” I said, taking her cup and heading for the kitchen. “You can get in a good two hours before you have to get Amber up for school.” Amber was Cookie’s twelve-going-on-thirty-year-old daughter.
“I just drank a cup of coffee.”
“Like that ever stopped you,” I said with a snort.
“True.” She stood and headed for the door. “Oh, I meant to tell you, Garrett called. He might have a case for you. Said he’d get in touch this morning.”
Garrett Swopes was a bond enforcement agent whose dark skin made the silver in his eyes glisten every time he smiled, a feature most women found attractive. I just found him annoying. We’d weathered some rough times, he and I, like when he accidently found out about my otherworldly status and decided to have me committed.
For the most part, he was okay. For the rest, he could bite me. But as a skip tracer, he was phenomenal and came in super duper handy at times.
“A case, huh?” That sounded intriguing. And slightly more profitable than sitting around twiddling my thumbs. “Maybe I’ll just run over there and talk to him about it in person.”
She stopped halfway out the door and looked back at me. “It’s a quarter past four.”
A huge smile slid across my face.
Her own expression turned dreamy again. “Can I come?”
“No.” I pushed her out the door. “You have to get some sleep. Somebody has to be sane during regular office hours, and it’s not going to be me, missy.”
A little over 15 minutes later, as I stood knocking on Garrett Swopes’s door in my Juicy Coutuer pajamas and pink bunny slippers, I realized I may have died on the way over. I was so tired I could no longer feel life flowing through me. My fingers were numb. My lips were swollen. And my eyelids had dried to the consistency of sandpaper, their sole purpose to irritate and drive the will to survive right out of me.
Yep, I was most likely dead.
I knocked again as a shiver rippled down my spine, hoping somewhere in the back of my mind that my probable deadness wouldn’t keep me from performing my supernatural duty, which was basically to stand there while dead people who didn’t cross immediately after their deaths crossed through me. But as the only grim reaper this side of forever, I provided an invaluable service for society. For humanity.
For the world!
The door swung open and a grumpy skip tracer named Garrett stood glowering at me with a fury I found difficult to describe, which meant I probably hadn’t died after all. He looked like he had a hangover. When hung over, Garrett could barely see elephants, much less the departed. He managed to growl a question from between his clenched teeth. “What?”
“I need ibuprofen,” I said, my voice distant and unattractive.
“You need therapy.” It was amazing how easily I could understand him considering he had yet to unclench his teeth.
“I need ibuprofen,” I said with a frown, in case he didn’t hear me the first time. “I’m not kidding.”
“I’m not either.”
“But I wasn’t kidding first.”
With a loud sigh, he stood back and motioned me inside the bat cave. I looked down at my bunny slippers, silently begging them to hop forward, when Garrett curled his fingers into my Juicies and eased me inside.
It helped. With the momentum I’d gained, I padded across his carpet straight to his kitchen cabinets, flipping light switches along the way.
“Do you have any idea what time it is?” he asked.
“Not especially. Where are your over-the-counter drugs?” I’d recently developed a headache. Possibly when I hit that telephone pole on the way over.
Garrett’s bachelor pad was much tidier than I’d expected. Lots of tans and blacks. I rummaged through cabinet after cabinet in search of his drug stash. Instead I found glasses. Plates. Bowls. Okay.
He stopped short behind me. “What are you looking for again?”
I paused long enough to glare. “You can’t be this slow.”
He did that thing where he pinched the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger. It gave me a chance to size him up. Mussed dark hair in need of a trim. Thick stubble along his jaw also in need of a trim. Manly chest hair also in need—
“Oh, my god!” I said, throwing my hands over my eyes and hurtling my body against the counter.
“What?”
“You’re naked.”
“I’m not naked.”
“I’m blind.”
“You’re not blind. I’m wearing pants.”
“Oh.” That was embarrassing.
He shifted his stance in impatience. “Would you like me to put on a shirt?”
“Too late. Scarred for life.” I had to tease him a little. He was so grouchy at 4:30 in the morning. I went back to scouring his cabinets.
“Seriously, what are you looking for?”
“Painkillers,” I said, feeling my way past a military issue canteen and a package of Oreos. Oreos just happen to fall under the category of brown edibles. I popped one in my mouth and continued my noble quest.
“You came all the way over here for painkillers?”
I gave him a second once over while crunching. Other than the bullet wounds he now sported on his chest and shoulder from when I almost got him killed a couple weeks ago, he had good skin, healthy eyelashes, six-pack abs. Cookie may have been onto something. “No, I came over here to talk to you,” I said, swallowing hard. “I just happen to need painkillers at this moment in time. They in the bathroom?” I headed that way.
“I ran out,” he said, blocking my path, clearly hiding something.
“But you’re a bond enforcement agent.”
His brows snapped together. “What the hell does that mean?”
“Come on, Swopes,” I said, my voice sharp with accusation, “I know you track down drug dealers when you’re not watching Debbie Does Dallas. You have access to all kinds of drugs. You can’t tell me you don’t pocket a little crack here, a few prescription-strength Motrin there.”