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Authors: Jay McLean

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“A: I didn’t go to any dances and proms and B: I don’t think there’ll be any dancing tonight.”

He scoffs. “Just because there’s no dance floor or music, doesn’t mean we can’t dance, Becca.”

My eyes snap to his, my heart skipping a beat. He’s definitely my grandmother’s son.

“Did I say something?” he asks.

I shake my head. “You just reminded me of Grams, that’s all.”

Before he gets a chance to respond, there’s a knock on the door that causes my panic to spike.

“That must be Prince Charming,” Dad says, cracking his knuckles. “Time for a beat down.”

I narrow my eyes at him and sign, “Stop. He’s still so afraid of you.”

“Me? Why?” he asks, looking down at me with his nose in the air. “I’m harmless.”

I roll my eyes and pat down my dress. “How do I look?” I sign.

He turns serious. “You look beautiful, Becca. He’s lucky to have you.”

*     *     *

Josh stares at
me.

I stare at him.

He blows out a breath.

I inhale one.

“You…” he says, and stares some more.

“What?” I mouth.

“…do insane things to my heart, Becca Owens.”

“You’re not so bad yourself,” I sign.

He runs his hand through his hair, still in the middle of the awkward grow out stage from when he shaved it. “I tried. Not that it matters. No one will be looking at me when you’re on my arm.” He reaches into his pocket. “I got you something.”

“Why? You didn’t have to!”

“It’s nothing really. Actually, it’s stupid cheesy” he says, revealing a dark green velvet bag. He empties the content into his palm and then hands it to me. It’s a ring, similar to the one he gave me on my eighteenth birthday, only this one reads:
I shoot like an award winner.

I kiss him a little too passionately considering my dad’s now standing behind me, but I don’t care. I love my stupid cheesy ring and I love him. It’s been four whole months, and I miss him.

With a chuckle, Josh breaks the kiss and nods over my shoulder at Dad. “You guys ready to go?” he asks, pointing to the limo waiting at the curb.

Dad rubs his hands together. “I’ve never been in a limo,” he says, marching down the steps. “Is there champagne?”

*     *     *

The event is
held at a fancy hotel in the fancy part of downtown and the room is filled with fancy people who speak fancy words while consuming a fancy dinner. I’d ask Josh if he could purchase Sandra a ticket to the event, along with dad’s, knowing they weren’t able to afford them, because like I said, the event is fancy. I needed Sandra here so she could relay my speech. Sure, I could’ve written it in a way that Dad or Josh could translate for me, but I knew how much it meant to them to see me up on that stage and to celebrate my achievement together.

There’s a slideshow of the award winners’ work displayed on a huge projector screen up on the stage. There are only five awards, and that means only five images, and Josh and Dad make a show of applauding every single time Grams shows up on the screen.

Every.

Single.

Time.

It becomes a game to them, something the people sharing our table seem to find amusing. “That’s my girlfriend’s,” Josh says to anyone who will listen. “That’s my daughter’s,” Dad says, doing the same. And so the game continues and the night goes on and I watch in awe at the two men in my life who seem to have found a common ground. There’s no longer detest in my father’s eyes when he looks at Josh, and no longer fear in Josh’s when he looks at my dad. Now, there’s just an underlying respect and the knowledge that at the end of the day, they both want the same thing. They want to take care of me. They want to save me. And after everything that’s happened, I realize that it’s not so bad to let them do those things. As Dad once told me: It may be hard to ask for help, but that doesn’t mean I can’t accept it when it’s offered. Then he made a speech about bruised apples that made absolutely no sense.

Soon enough, the meals are over and silence descends as the president of Fine House takes the stage. I’d been given a program of the night, so I know that my award will be given last. I don’t know what I’d prefer. I sit through the speeches, one after the other, my knee bouncing and my palms sweating.

“You got this, babe,” Josh says, his hand on my knee under the table.

“I’m nervous,” I sign. “How do you do this all the time? Comps and media and photo-shoots.”

He chuckles. “You don’t want to know what I do.”

“I do!” I sign, nodding frantically. “Tell me.”

He leans in close, his lips skimming my ear. “I picture you naked.”

I rear back. “That helps?”

“No,” he says seriously. “I just like doing it.
A lot
.”

“Becca Owens!” the speaker on stage announces.

My eyes go huge.

Josh stands, his applause as loud as my dad’s. “Get it, baby,” Josh says.

Swear, I’ve never been so self-aware of the way I walk until this very moment. Every step is like walking in quick sand, and if Sandra wasn’t next to me, encouraging me to move forward, then I’d have run back into Josh’s arms. He wouldn’t let me, though. He’d probably throw me over his shoulder and make me stand on that stage while Dad cheered him on.

Good Lord, it’s hot.

Why is it so hot?

Why are the lights so bright?

How did I get on stage?

“You ready?” Sandra asks.

I nod. Then, “Oh my God,” I mouth. I sign to Sandra, “My speech is in my purse at the table.” Before I finish signing the last word, Josh is already jogging toward me, my purse held tightly in his grasp. He jumps on stage, ignoring the steps on either side of it. “Here you go, baby,” he says, handing me the purse and kissing my cheek. Then he faces the audience. “She’s my girlfriend,” he says, his shoulders square. The room fills with light chuckles. “Isn’t she cute when she’s nervous?”

I wait until he’s off the stage before getting the speech from my purse and unfolding the paper. I look over at Josh and my dad, the only two people in the room who are on their feet. Josh taps his nose, and then his chest, his cheesy grin causing me to do the same. I nod at Sandra who translates into the microphone, “That was my boyfriend. Isn’t he cute when he’s saving me?”

The laughter that comes eases some of the tension, and I refocus on my task, on the words scrawled in front of me. I look over at Josh and my dad one more time, both of them smiling, the pride in their eyes giving me the encouragement I need.

“I fell in love with photography when I was fourteen, when a simple image I’d taken had captured my breath and captured my heart. I remember sitting there, looking at the screen, at this one image, and knowing for certain that life had so much more to offer than what we all chose to see through shielded eyes and shielded minds. It became my task—to capture moments that made me question the world, question my life, question everything.

After seventeen years of living a life in fear, in darkness, I thought I’d accept my fate.

By eighteen, I began to question it again.

Because it was at that point that I met my grandmother, the woman in the center of this photograph. My grandmother believed in fate, believed in faith and in God, and even though she believed in His purpose, that didn’t mean she didn’t question it. And that, in turn, made me see things through her lens. Through her eyes. Eyes that have experienced sadness and loss and joy and elation.

My grandmother was a nurse.

A teacher.

A green thumb.

An artist.

A hell raiser.

And a poet.

But above all those things, my grandmother loved.

This was the last photograph I took of her before she passed away. Before she was laid to rest and there was nothing left to question. But she taught me better than that. So on the night she passed, I stared at this image, stared at her tiny hands, stared at her smile, stared at her dark, soul-filled eyes. It wasn’t the first time I’d thought about it—how it should be impossible that so much light, so much hope, could come from such darkness…

…but here I stand, proof that anything is possible.”

40

—Becca—

“B
ecca, I love
you. A lot. And your speech was phenomenal. Truly. And this night is all about you,” Josh says, “
All. About. You.
But seriously, I can’t go on that roof again. I just can’t. And you may love me less, and you might see me as less of a man, but for real, I had nightmares for days after the last time. Those damn birds were everywhere. And in my dreams—Becca!”—he tugs on my hand as I lead him up the staircase and toward the rooftop of Say Something—“In my dreams, they were crows and they were eating my eyeballs while I was still alive!”

My head throws back with laughter. “No birds this time,” I sign.

“Promise me.”

I laugh harder.

“Becca, I’m serious! Promise me!”

“I promise,” I mouth.

*     *     *

I grab the
lantern as well as a blanket I’d prepared earlier and walk to the middle of the rooftop, Josh following closely behind me. After laying the blanket down, I sit on it, pulling Josh’s tuxedo jacket tighter around me. It’s colder now than it was the last time we were here, and though I haven’t been up here since, I thought it’d be the perfect place to talk to him about something that’s been on my mind since Grams passed and I realized that life’s too damn short not to be living it to the fullest.

“That really was a great speech, Becs,” he says. “And in case I haven’t told you, I’m really proud of you.”

“You’ve told me,” I sign. “But I love hearing it.”

“Good. So what’s up?”

“Nothing.” I shrug.

“Liar,” he says, poking my knee. “I can tell you want to talk. I know you.”

“You think you ‘see’ me, huh?” I sign.

“Yeah.” He nods, looking directly in my eyes, wistfulness in his stare as if my eyes hold all his memories of us. Maybe for him, they do. His smile holds all of mine. “I
see
you, Becs.”

I sit up straighter, yanking up my sleeves so he can see my hands clearer. “I do want to talk to you.”

“Okay…”

I sign, “I realized after the internship over the summer that I was going down—”

“Okay, stop,” he cuts in, covering my hands. “I’m sorry, I can’t… maybe go a little slower or…”

I reach for my phone.

“No, we can try signing, it’s just…”

“It’s okay,” I mouth.

“I’m really sorry, babe. It’s just hard for me to try to find the time to practice and learn—”

I wave my hand between us. “Stop it,” I mouth. Then kiss him quickly. “You’ve already learned so much in so little time,” I sign. Then have Cordy say,
“I love and appreciate it, but some things are easier for me to type anyway.”

He nods, but he’s still unsure.

“Seriously, Josh. Even I would’ve struggled with signing.”

He nods again. “Go ahead.”

“So…”

“So…?” he asks.

“Okay. Here goes…”

“Uh oh.”

“It’s not bad.”

“Then why am I nervous?” he says. “You’re making me nervous. Just say it.”

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