Come Back to Me (3 page)

‘So, Doctor Fielding, you're telling us you are certain that on two occasions, at five o'clock on the afternoon of the 29th January, and at one o'clock on the 31st January, Doctor Hazeltoft was with you in the Water's Edge restaurant?'

‘Yes, that's right.'

Mark sighed as he listened to the barrister questioning this idiotic witness and resisted the urge to check his watch. It wasn't long until lunch and he hoped that this blithering liar would be dealt with before then. He had no problem with the Old Boys' Network, but when they covered up major fraud it was going a bit far. Mark watched the barrister work the room like he was in the Crown Court of the Old Bailey. Every time Mark took a trip to court he wondered if he really should have gone to the bar instead of opting for private practice.

The witness, dressed in a dapper suit and yellow silk tie, a matching pocket handkerchief peeking from his breast pocket, stared back at the barrister.

‘Are you completely sure about that, Doctor Fielding?'

‘I am,' the old gentleman nodded, but his hand strayed up towards his breast pocket as though about to take the handkerchief out of there and mop his brow.

In the silence that ensued, Mark looked at his notes on the table, knowing exactly what was coming next. He never lost the satisfaction of watching a barrister seizing just the right moment to execute a perfect ballestra, usually leaving their naïve opponent fatally exposed.

‘Well, although your own practice records show no mention of any surgeries, Doctor Fielding, when we finally located the operating theatre records at the hospital they have you performing an emergency heart surgery from eleven o'clock on the 31st January. Here you are –' the barrister strode across the room and placed a document before the witness – ‘So I put it to you now, is it likely that you have your dates muddled?'

The witness hesitated, then glanced at his friend, who stared intently back at him.

Mark quelled the smile that threatened to rise as he watched this apparent capitulation. Just as the witness seemed to be drawing breath to speak, the barrister nodded smartly at the judge and said, ‘No further questions, Your Honour.' His eyes moved with Mark's to the defence, who looked ready to object on the grounds their client had had no chance to answer. Mark watched as David Lockhart, opposing counsel, studied the downturned head of the witness,
and then the bewigged man bent his own head back to his notes. He had obviously decided to cut his losses for now.

Mark waited, praying the judge was about to call lunch, and flicked a covert glance at the seats behind him while fiddling with the papers in his briefcase. He saw no faces he recognised, but the habit of looking had become a nervous tic that he couldn't control. Early on in his career, he had cast his eyes behind him and happened to notice a figure sitting there quietly. While his heart had begun to race, his father showed no outward sign of acknowledgement, but the message was as clear as if Henry Jameson had stood up and yelled it at him. Even though Mark was now qualified in the law, and a lifetime of diligent work had realised Henry's ultimate dream of a son following him into the profession, it seemed that the highly respected retired solicitor had no intention of loosening the reins on his protégé. Mark's career was to be closely monitored.

Mark knew, just as Henry would know, that this one appearance had the desired effect. Mark never got lazy, never slackened, as there could always be someone watching, the one person whose praise and respect it was almost impossible to earn.

So it disturbed him that he felt so uninterested today. Maybe he did need his father watching over him like a hawk, because although Henry Jameson liked to drop in to his old firm regularly to keep up with the latest cases, he had been noticeably absent for the past week or so, coinciding nicely with Mark's apathy.

The judge had indeed called the lunch recess. Mark gave a sigh of relief, closed his briefcase and made his way from
the room and along the hallway, nodding as Sheree, the legal assistant, reminded him of the order of the afternoon. He strode out of the front doors into a blustering breeze, heading back to the office a couple of streets away where he could look over his notes undisturbed. But it was no good, because now he could vividly picture Julia sitting opposite him, on the night she'd walked into his life out of the blue.

 

It had been late on Monday evening. Most people had gone home – he'd seen Chloe race out just after ‘official hours' ended – her cheeks glowing, her face full of anticipation at seeing her boring hippy of a husband. The secretaries had begun chattering inanely about whatever pathetic reality TV programme they would be gawping at over their TV dinners, while they logged off their computers and collected their belongings. David and Neil had done their nightly prowl of the corridors on their way out an hour or so later – both of them raising a hand in greeting beyond the glass partition that separated the solicitors' offices from the corridors and central open-plan area, but not interrupting Mark, whose desk was littered with papers and case files.

Mark loved working in the office when everyone else had gone. He felt more at home in the empty surroundings – evidence of people was to him a more comforting thing than negotiating their presence. He sometimes had a disconcerting feeling that people in the office were laughing at him. The secretaries were the worst. They worked for him, yet only the temps seemed intimidated by him. Even if he raised his voice with displeasure when an important document was
handed to him with incorrect details, or a crucial legal date was missed, they just stood in his doorway looking mildly irritated or faintly bored, waited patiently until his diatribe was over and then sorted out the muddle, usually relatively efficiently. It was infuriating.

So there was solace in bending over case files with only the hum of the heating unit invading his hearing, his desk light illuminating the papers in an otherwise shadowy room. That night he had been searching for a precedent for a case that was worrying him, when he'd glanced up and seen a gloomy face peering at his through the glass divide. His heart had ricocheted wildly in his chest. For one insane moment he thought it was a ghost, and his stomach contracted as the figure immediately disappeared. Then the door handle turned and the door creaked slowly open.

The head that appeared first was substantially beautiful, and while he quickly dismissed all notions of visiting spirits, there was still something ethereal about her face. She was almost as pale as alabaster, but with perfectly proportioned, delicate features, large, mournful dark eyes, and beautiful silky brown hair. She wore jeans on her thin frame, along with a crumpled lightweight jacket and a pink scarf, and a satchel across one shoulder.

Mark was momentarily lost for words.

‘Are you a lawyer?' she asked, in a hesitant, husky hot-chocolate voice.

‘Yes,' he spluttered. ‘Can I help you? It's after hours …'

‘I know, I know,' she said. ‘I took a chance. I saw the light, and I'm a bit desperate. I need some papers signed. Your receptionist is still here and she said you might help.'

‘Oh, did she,' Mark replied, inwardly cursing the new receptionist and making a mental note to have a word. His voice was tainted with disappointment at the mundanity of her request. ‘Well, it's not something I'd …'

‘Please?' she interrupted softly. ‘I just need a witness for my tenancy agreement. I really need it tonight or I won't get the place.'

Exasperated now, Mark raised his hand impatiently and gestured for her to hand him the papers. He took a quick glance at the tenancy agreement – a pretty standard affair from what he could see – flicked to the back, picked up his fountain pen and impatiently scrawled his signature. ‘You know, anyone can sign this,' he told her rudely. ‘It doesn't have to be a lawyer.'

‘Oh,' she said softly, her voice so bereft that it made him look up at her. God, she really was beautiful. He had an urge to wrap his arms around her protectively, which surprised him – it wasn't the first urge he usually had in the company of attractive females.

‘Sit down,' he commanded, and pointed to the chair opposite him.

She looked worried, but reluctantly perched on the edge of the chair he had motioned to. ‘May I?' She gestured at the papers still sitting in front of him. ‘How … how much do I owe you?'

Mark studied her as she watched him. His signature was worth an insane amount of money really. What had it taken him – a few seconds?

‘Nothing,' he said, watching her face relax a moment before it instantly switched to high alert as he said
impulsively, ‘Just come on a date with me.'

He had shocked her. She paused for a moment. ‘I don't date,' she replied flatly. ‘I'm sorry.'

‘Not that kind of date,' he said quickly, not sure himself where he was heading but mortified at being rejected so out of hand. ‘I just need a companion for a dinner – there'll be others there. It's just making up the numbers.' He smiled in a way he hoped was reassuring to her. ‘You'd be doing me a real favour … in just the same way as this …' He gestured at the papers between them.

She still looked guarded. ‘When?'

Mark's mind was racing as to how he could organise this quickly. ‘Hang on.' He got up and hurried through the door of his office into Chloe's adjacent room, almost running, worried that she'd make a dash for it while he was gone. He grabbed Chloe's diary and brought it back with him.

‘Next Thursday,' he said, watching her.

‘I'll try,' she replied noncommittally, staring at him as though trying to determine something.

‘What's your mobile number?' He moved to his desk and picked up a pen.

‘I don't have one.'

‘Really?' He was intrigued. ‘Wow, I thought everyone had a mobile. How do you cope?'

She shrugged. ‘It's not that hard.' She made to get up. ‘I should go.'

‘What about a home phone?' he asked, watching her lithe movements as she turned away from him.

‘The rental's not connected.' She was nearly at the door now.

‘Meet me at Covent Garden Station – the Long Acre
entrance – at six thirty on Thursday,' he said desperately, aware she hadn't given him any commitment, and wanting to prolong her stay. He picked up the papers in front of him as she held out her hand. ‘Flat 2, Delaware Court,' he announced, then scribbled it down on his legal pad. ‘At least I know where to find you.'

In response she looked so frightened that Mark laughed. ‘Don't worry,' he said, ‘I just meant in case I need to change the arrangements.'

She nodded mutely. For a moment Mark thought she was on the verge of tears.

Alarmed, he added, ‘I'll let my friends know, they'll be pleased you're coming.' He began to regret the offer, and nearly took it back, on the verge of saying, ‘Never mind, forget it,' but some obscure notion of courtesy meant he felt that was simply too rude.

She grabbed the papers, and said ‘Thanks' as their hands briefly touched. Then she turned and almost bolted for the door.

‘Hang on,' he said, half-laughing at the absurdity of it all.

She turned around.

‘I'm Mark,' he told her, lifting his hand in a mock-wave and smiling in what he hoped was a placating and friendly manner. He was intrigued, he realised. Intensely so.

‘Julia,' she replied, not meeting his eyes, but replicating his smile with a smaller, pinched version of her own. Then she turned on her heel, and was gone.

The reverberations from the previous evening almost made Chloe forget the tremendously important task she had planned for that day. However, at lunchtime she went and bought another test.

Might as well be absolutely sure, she thought, returning from the pharmacy with her small paper bag. Yesterday she'd leaned against the wall of the toilet cubicle, stick in hand, hardly able to contain her delight as the blue plus symbol appeared. The instructions told her she'd know after a minute. She'd waited ten, checking her watch, just in case it disappeared again.

She tried to shake the excess water off her umbrella as she took it down, and then walked quickly through the communal corridors of the offices – wondering why she felt so shifty when no one had ever stopped her before and asked to see the contents of the brown paper bag she grasped. She
went straight into the toilets, relieved to see the grey cubicles empty, and took out the test.

Today the blue symbol appeared again, and remained resolutely present.

Yesterday she had felt ready. It was perfect. The perfect time in her career, now she felt well-established in the practice. The perfect time in her marriage, with everything happy and settled, but probably not averse to an exciting shake-up.

However, today the thought of being pregnant scared the hell out of her.

It would be a shake-up all right. Chloe had never had any illusions about the challenges of motherhood, and that was before she had found out that her husband was keeping secrets from her.

Thinking of this while still sitting on the toilet, holding the white stick in her unsteady hand, Chloe wondered if there were other things she should have paid attention to of the tidbits she'd been fed from Alex's mother. Catherine Markham was a thoughtful and reserved lady with solemn, soulful eyes, who didn't automatically volunteer advice and information – which had been a blessed relief for Chloe, given her own mother's habit of dropping wildly indiscreet or inappropriate remarks into general conversation. When Chloe visited Alex's family home she loved spending time with his mother as she cooked a big meal in the kitchen. As they peeled sprouts and grated carrots they would sometimes chat, and at other times remained silent. Although sometimes she thought the peace was hemmed with sadness, still, Chloe had had an insight into a different kind of upbringing – one without the manic edge that her mother seemed to bring to
any situation along with her inability to shut up, even for a few seconds.

Now, as she stared at the thin white plastic stick that foretold the biggest life-change she could imagine, she realised that she'd never thought that Catherine Markham might be privy to secrets about Alex that she, his own wife, didn't know. She wondered if she should ring Catherine up and ask her directly what she knew about Julia, but then, if Alex were in the middle of a steamy affair he would hardly confide in his mother.

Chloe had always thought of affairs as the worst kind of betrayal, but now she felt that if she discovered Alex and Julia were just having a fling, she might almost be relieved – at least for a few moments before the anger arrived. Whatever that look had been between them, it had seemed much more potent than acknowledgement of an affair, and that frightened her.

She didn't know what to think about last night. The whole scenario had been so unreal, and so unlike anything she'd ever encountered with Alex, that now she could hardly believe it had occurred. And Julia was Mark's girlfriend. How awkward would that make things in the future, if secrets weren't laid out in the open. She imagined them all at the dinners and law balls and charity events and Christmas parties that would have to be faced together, and once again she saw Alex and Julia's faces freezing as they looked at one another, and her stomach twisted.

She stayed seated on the toilet, staring at the stick. Five minutes passed, then ten, and that positive blue symbol wouldn't go away.

Yep, she was pregnant all right. But the joy of yesterday had entirely disappeared.

 

After Chloe had wrapped up all the evidence and pushed it to the bottom of the toilet bin underneath a variety of detritus, she called the local surgery and made an appointment for Monday morning. She needed to hear she was pregnant from a doctor, not just a little white stick. Then she tried to concentrate on her work for a while, but it was pointless. Eventually, she took a deep breath and went to talk to Mark.

At his open door she saw he was reading while eating a sandwich. Small pieces of lettuce were scattered over his papers, and as she watched he brushed them absently onto the floor.

She knocked. ‘Mark?'

‘I'm busy, Chloe.'

God, you can be a self-important prick at times, Mark, she thought to herself. But she bit her lip and said instead, ‘I just need a second.'

He sighed and looked up. ‘What is it?'

‘About Julia …' She had so many questions she didn't know where to start.

Mark was alert at once when he realised she was ready to talk. ‘What did Alex say to you?'

‘Nothing as yet,' she admitted reluctantly.

‘Nothing? Didn't you ask him?'

‘Not really. He was upset, then my mother called, with her usual impeccable timing …'

‘I couldn't care less how upset he is. What I want to know is What Did He Do to Julia?'

‘Why do you think he did something to her?' Chloe defended, alarmed now. The thought had never crossed her mind. Alex wouldn't, couldn't harm anyone or anything, surely. ‘What if she did something to him?'

‘I somehow doubt it.'

‘This is ridiculous.' Chloe's patience was suddenly worn paper-thin. ‘Why don't you just ask her? I certainly don't intend to interrogate Alex for you. I trust him, Mark – not that I expect you to know about that, of course.' She couldn't help the bitterness creeping in and she was infuriated with herself.

‘I can't ask her, Chloe!' Mark's voice was oddly pitched. ‘I've only got a bloody address, and after last night I hardly feel welcome to pop round. So I expect I'll never see her again, thanks to your fucking husband. Now, can I eat my lunch in peace?'

Silently, Chloe headed for the door. She passed Jana on the way back to her office, which was next door to Mark's, divided only by a small stationery cupboard. The partition walls were useless – you could hear any noise above normal speaking tone, and she knew that the gaggle of secretaries that formed the centre pool in the nucleus of surrounding offices had probably heard that last line, as she was un ceremoniously thrown out. Her cheeks burned, and she avoided looking at them. When she'd closed her own office door, she sat down and took deep breaths.

Despite the confrontation, Mark's last words had comforted her. What a fool she was. Why hadn't she realised that
Julia and Mark weren't necessarily in the kind of relationship he'd made it out to be? If he only had an address and had never been there, things with Julia obviously hadn't progressed very far. Just because he'd prattled on about her in the few days before their dinner date didn't mean anything.

Julia had certainly raced off like a frightened rabbit last night. Maybe she'd taken off completely. If she would just vanish, then maybe they could pretend that last night had never happened.

Perhaps this should have been a comfort to her, but it wasn't.