Complete Works of Bram Stoker (290 page)

‘If you please!’  The man returned in a few minutes with the butler, who said:

‘Mr. Hilton said, your Ladyship, that he expected to be back by one o’clock at latest.’

‘Please ask him on his arrival if he will kindly come here at once.  Do not let us be disturbed until then.’  The butler bowed and withdrew.

‘Now,’ said Stephen, ‘as we have to wait till our tyrant comes, won’t you tell me all that went on after The Man had left you?’  Pearl brightened up at once.  Stephen would have given anything to get away even for a while.  Beliefs and hopes and fears were surging up, till she felt choking.  But the habit of her life, especially her life of the last two years, gave her self-control.  And so she waited, trying with all her might to follow the child’s prattle.

After a long wait Pearl exclaimed: ‘Oh!  I do wish that Doctor would come.  I want to see The Man!’  She was so restless, marching about the room, that Stephen said:

‘Would you like to go out on the balcony, darling; of course if Mother will let you?  It is quite safe, I assure you, Mrs. Stonehouse.  It is wide and open and is just above the flower-borders, with a stone tail.  You can see the road from it by which Mr. Hilton comes from Port Lannoch.  He will be riding.’  Pearl yielded at once to the diversion.  It would at any rate be something to do, to watch.  Stephen opened the French window and the child ran out on the balcony.

When Stephen came back to her seat Mrs. Stonehouse said quietly:

‘I am glad she is away for a few minutes.  She has been over wrought, and I am always afraid for her.  She is so sensitive.  And after all she is only a baby!’

‘She is a darling!’ said Stephen impulsively; and she meant it.  Mrs. Stonehouse smiled gratefully as she went on:

‘I suppose you noticed what a hold on her imagination that episode of Mollie Watford at the bank had.  Mr. Stonehouse is, as perhaps you know, a very rich man.  He has made his fortune himself, and most honourably; and we are all very proud of him, and of it.  So Pearl does not think of the money for itself.  But the feeling was everything; she really loves Mr. Robinson; as indeed she ought!  He has done so much for us that it would be a pride and a privilege for us to show our gratitude.  My husband, between ourselves, wanted to make him his partner.  He tells me that, quite independent of our feeling towards him, he is just the man he wanted.  And if indeed it was he who discovered the Alaskan goldfield and organised and ruled Robinson City, it is a proof that Mr. Stonehouse’s judgment was sound.  Now he is injured, and blind; and our little Pearl loves him.  If indeed he be the man we believe he is, then we may be able to do something which all his millions cannot buy.  He will come to us, and be as a son to us, and a brother to Pearl.  We will be his eyes; and nothing but love and patience will guide his footsteps!’  She paused, her mouth quivering; then she went on:

‘If it is not our Mr. Robinson, then it will be our pleasure to do all that is necessary for his comfort.  If he is a poor man he will never want . . . It will be a privilege to save so gallant a man from hardship . . . ‘  Here she came to a stop.

Stephen too was glad of the pause, for the emotion which the words and their remembrances evoked was choking her.  Had not Harold been as her own father’s son.  As her own brother! . . . She turned away, fearing lest her face should betray her.

All at once Mrs. Stonehouse started to her feet, her face suddenly white with fear; for a cry had come to their ears.  A cry which even Stephen knew as Pearl’s.  The mother ran to the window.

The balcony was empty.  She came back into the room, and, ran to the door.

But on the instant a voice that both women knew was heard from without:

‘Help there!  Help, I say!  The child has fainted.  Is there no one there?  And I am blind!’

CHAPTER XXXVI  —  LIGHT

Harold had been in a state of increasing restlessness.  The month of waiting which Dr. Hilton had laid down for him seemed to wear away with extraordinary slowness; this was increased by the lack of companionship, and further by the cutting off of even the little episodes usual to daily life.  His patience, great as it was naturally and trained as it had been by the years of self-repression, was beginning to give way.  Often and often there came over him a wild desire to tear off the irksome bandages and try for himself whether the hopes held out to him were being even partially justified.  He was restrained only by the fear of perpetual blindness, which came over him in a sort of cold wave at each reaction.  Time, too, added to his fear of discovery; but he could not but think that his self-sought isolation must be a challenge to the curiosity of each and all who knew of it.  And with all these disturbing causes came the main one, which never lessened but always grew: that whatever might happen Stephen would be further from him than ever.  Look at the matter how he would; turn it round in whatsoever possible or impossible way, he could see no relief to this gloomy conclusion.

For it is in the nature of love that it creates or enlarges its own pain.  If troubles or difficulties there be from natural causes, then it will exaggerate them into nightmare proportions.  But if there be none, it will create them.  Love is in fact the most serious thing that comes to man; where it exists all else seem as phantoms, or at best as actualities of lesser degree.  During the better part of two years his troubles had but slept; and as nothing wakes the pangs of old love better than the sound of a voice, all the old acute pain of love and the agony that followed its denial were back with him.  Surely he could never, never believe that Stephen did not mean what she had said to him that morning in the beech grove.  All his new resolution not to hamper her with the burden of a blind and lonely-hearted man was back to the full.

In such mood had he been that morning.  He was additionally disturbed because the Doctor had gone early to Port Lannoch; and as he was the only person with whom he could talk, he clung to him with something of the helpless feeling of a frightened child to its nurse.

The day being full of sunshine the window was open, and only the dark-green blind which crackled and rustled with every passing breeze made the darkness of the room.  Harold was dressed and lay on a sofa placed back in the room, where the few rays of light thus entering could not reach him.  His eyes and forehead were bandaged as ever.  For some days the Doctor, who had his own reasons and his own purpose, had not taken them off; so the feeling of blind helplessness was doubly upon him.  He knew he was blind; and he knew also that if he were not he could not in his present condition see.

All at once he started up awake.  His hearing had in the weeks of darkness grown abnormally acute, and some trifling sound had recalled him to himself.  It might have been inspiration, but he seemed to be conscious of some presence in the room.

As he rose from the sofa, with the violent motion of a strong man startled into unconscious activity, he sent a shock of fear to the eager child who had strayed into the room through the open window.  Had he presented a normal appearance, she would not have been frightened.  She would have recognised his identity despite the changes, and have sprung to him so impulsively that she would have been in his arms before she had time to think.  But now all she saw was a great beard topped with a mass of linen and lint, which obscured all the rest of the face and seemed in the gloom like a gigantic and ominous turban.

In her fright she screamed out.  He in turn, forgetful for the moment of his intention of silence, called aloud:

‘Who is that?’  Pearl, who had been instinctively backing towards the window by which she had entered, and whose thoughts in her fright had gone back to her mother  —  refuge in time of danger  —  cried out:

‘Mother, Mother!  It is him!  It is The Man!’  She would have run towards him in spite of his forbidding appearance; but the shock had been too much for her.  The little knees trembled and gave way; the brain reeled; and with a moan she sank on the floor in a swoon.

Harold knew the voice the instant she spoke; there was no need for the enlightening words

‘Pearl!  Pearl!’ he cried.  ‘Come to me, darling!’  But as he spoke he heard her moan, and the soft thud of her little body on the thick carpet.  He guessed the truth and groped his way towards where the sound had been, for he feared lest he might trample upon her in too great eagerness.  Kneeling by her he touched her little feet, and then felt his way to her face.  And as he did so, such is the double action of the mind, even in the midst of his care the remembrance swept across his mind of how he had once knelt in just such manner in an old church by another little senseless form.  In his confusion of mind he lost the direction of the door, and coming to the window pushed forward the flapping blind and went out on the balcony.  He knew from the freshness of the air and the distant sounds that he was in the open.  This disturbed him, as he wished to find someone who could attend to the fainting child.  But as he had lost the way back to the room now, he groped along the wall of the Castle with one hand, whilst he held Pearl securely in the other.  As he went he called out for help.

When he came opposite the window of the Mandarin room Mrs. Stonehouse saw him; she ran to him and caught Pearl in her arms.  She was so agitated, so lost in concern for the child that she never even thought to speak to the man whom she had come so far to seek.  She wailed over the child:

‘Pearl!  Pearl!  What is it, darling?  It is Mother!’  She laid the girl on the sofa, and taking the flowers out of a glass began to sprinkle water on the child’s face.  Harold knew her voice and waited in patience.  Presently the child sighed; the mother, relieved, thought of other things at last and looked around her.

There was yet another trouble.  There on the floor, where she had slipped down, lay Lady de Lannoy in a swoon.  She called out instinctively, forgetting for the moment that the man was blind, but feeling all the old confidence which he had won in her heart:

‘Oh!  Mr. Robinson, help me!  Lady de Lannoy has fainted too, and I do not know what to do!’  As she spoke she looked up at him and remembered his blindness.  But she had no time to alter her words; the instant she had spoken Harold, who had been leaning against the window-sash, and whose mind was calmer since with his acute hearing he too had heard Pearl sigh, seemed to leap into the room.

‘Where is she?  Where is she?  Oh, God, now am I blind indeed!’

It gave her a pang to hear him and to see him turn helplessly with his arms and hands outstretched as though he would feel for her in the air.

Without pause, and under an instinctive and uncontrollable impulse, he tore the bandages from his eyes.  The sun was streaming in.  As he met it his eyes blinked and a cry burst from him; a wild cry whose joy and surprise pierced even through the shut portals of the swooning woman’s brain.  Not for worlds would she ever after have lost the memory of that sound:

‘Light! light!  Oh, God!  Oh, God!  I am not blind!’

But he looked round him still in terrified wonder:

‘Where is she?  Where is she?  I cannot see her!  Stephen!  Stephen! where are you?’  Mrs. Stonehouse, bewildered, pointed where Stephen’s snow-white face and brilliant hair seemed in the streaming sunlight like ivory and gold:

‘There!  There!’  He caught her arm mechanically, and putting his eyes to her wrist, tried to look along her pointed finger.  In an instant he dropped her arm moaning.

‘I cannot see her!  What is it that is over me?  This is worse than to be blind!’  He covered his face with his hands and sobbed.

He felt light strong fingers on his forehead and hands; fingers whose touch he would have known had they been laid on him were he no longer quick.  A voice whose music he had heard in his dreams for two long years said softly:

‘I am here, Harold!  I am here!  Oh! do not sob like that; it breaks my heart to hear you!’  He took his hands from his face and held hers in them, staring intently at her as though his passionate gaze would win through every obstacle.

That moment he never forgot.  Never could forget!  He saw the room all rich in yellow.  He saw Pearl, pale but glad-eyed, lying on a sofa holding the hand of her mother, who stood beside her.  He saw the great high window open, the lines of the covered stone balcony without, the stretch of green sward all vivid in the sunshine, and beyond it the blue quivering sea.  He saw all but that for which his very soul longed; without to see which sight itself was valueless . . . But still he looked, and looked; and Stephen saw in his dark eyes, though he could not see her, that which made her own eyes fill and the warm red glow on her face again . . . Then she raised her eyes again, and the gladness of her beating heart seemed the answer to his own.

For as he looked he saw, as though emerging from a mist whose obscurity melted with each instant, what was to him the one face in all the world.  He did not think then of its beauty  —  that would come later; and besides no beauty of one born of woman could outmatch the memorised beauty which had so long held his heart.  But that he had so schooled himself in long months of gloomy despair, he would have taken her in his arms there and then; and, heedless of the presence of others, have poured out his full heart to her.

Mrs. Stonehouse saw and understood.  So too Pearl, who though a child was a woman-child; softly they rose up to steal away.  But Stephen saw them; her own instincts, too, told her that her hour had not come.  What she hoped for must come alone!  So she called to her guests:

‘Don’t go!  Don’t go, Mrs. Stonehouse.  You know now that Harold and I are old friends, though neither of us knew it  —  till this moment.  We were brought up as . . . almost as brother and sister.  Pearl, isn’t it lovely to see your friend . . . to see The Man again?’

She was so happy that she could only express herself, with dignity, through the happiness of others.

Pearl actually shrieked with joy as she rushed across the room and flung herself into Harold’s arms as he stooped to her.  He raised her; and she kissed him again and again, and put her little hands all over his face and stroked, very, very gently, his eyes, and said: