Complete Works of Wilkie Collins (1811 page)

I shipped, as you may remember (were my first words to Alfred), in a second mate’s berth, on board the Peruvian, nine hundred tons’ burden. We carried an assorted cargo, and we were bound, round the Horn to Truxillo and Guayaquil, on the western coast of South America. From this last port — namely, Guayaquil — we were to go back to Truxillo, and there to take in another cargo for the return voyage. Those were all the instructions communicated to me when I signed articles with the owners, in London city, three years ago.

After we had been, I think, a week at sea, I heard from the first mate — who had himself heard it from the captain — that the supercargo we were taking with us, on the outward voyage, was to be left at Truxillo, and that another supercargo (also connected with our firm, and latterly employed by them as their foreign agent) was to ship with us at that port, for the voyage home. His name on the captain’s instructions was, Mr. Lawrence Clissold. None of us had ever set eyes on him to our knowledge, and none of us knew more about him than what I have told you here.

We had a wonderful voyage out — especially round the Horn. I never before saw such fair weather in that infernal latitude, and I never expect to see the like again. We followed our instructions to the letter; discharging our cargo in fine condition, and returning to Truxillo to load again as directed. At this place, I was so unfortunate as to be seized with the fever of the country, which laid me on my back, while we were in harbour; and which only let me return to my duty after we had been ten days at sea, on the voyage home again. For this reason, the first morning when I was able to get on deck, was also the first time of my setting eyes on our new supercargo, Mr. Lawrence Clissold.

I found him to be a long, lean, wiry man, with some complaint in his eyes which forced him to wear spectacles of blue glass. His age appeared to be fifty-six of thereabouts; but he might well have been more. There was not above a handful of grey hair, altogether, on his bald head — and, as for the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes and the sides of his mouth, if he could have had a pound apiece in his pocket for every one of them, he might have retired from business from that time forth. Judging by certain signs in his face, and by a suspicious morning tremble in his hands, I set him down, in my own mind (right enough, as it afterwards turned out), for a drinker. In one word, I didn’t like the looks of the new supercargo — and, oh the first day when I got on deck, I found that he had reasons of his own for paying me back in my own coin, and not liking
my
looks, either.

“I’ve been asking the captain about you,” were his first words to me in return for my civilly wishing him good morning. “Your name’s Raybrock, I hear. Are you any relation to the late Hugh Raybrock, of Barnstaple, Devonshire?”

“Rather a near relation,” I made answer. “I am the late Hugh Raybrock’s eldest son.”

There was no telling how his eyes looked, because they were hidden by his blue spectacles — but I saw him wince at the mouth, when I gave him that reply.

“Your father ended by failing in business, didn’t he?” was the next question the supercargo put to me.

“Who told you he failed?” I asked, sharply enough.

“Oh! I heard it,” says Mr. Lawrence Clissold, both looking and speaking as if he was glad to have heard it, and he hoped it was true.

“Whoever told you my father failed in business, told you a lie,” I said. “His business fell off towards the last years of his life — I don’t deny it. But every creditor he had was honestly paid at his death, without so much as touching the provision left for his widow and children. Please to mention that, next time you hear it reported that my father failed in business.”

Mr. Clissold grinned to himself — and I lost my temper.

“I’ll tell you what,” I said to him, “I don’t like your laughing to yourself, when I ask you to do justice to my father’s memory — and, what is more, I didn’t like the way you mentioned that report of his failing in business, just now. You looked as if you hoped it was true.”

“Perhaps I did,” says Mr. Clissold, coolly. “Shall I tell you why? When I was a young man, I was unlucky enough to owe your father some money. He was a merciless creditor; and he threatened me with a prison if the debt remained unpaid on the day when it was due. I have never forgotten that circumstance; and I should certainly not have been sorry if your father’s creditors had given him a lesson in forbearance, by treating him as harshly as he once treated me.”

“My father had a right to ask for his own,” I broke out. “If you owed him the money and didn’t pay it — ”

“I never told you I didn’t pay it,” says Mr. Clissold, as coolly as ever.

“Well, if you did pay it,” I put in, “then you didn’t go to prison — and you have no cause of complaint now. My father wronged nobody; and I won’t believe he ever wronged
you.
He was a just man in all his dealings; and whoever tells me to the contrary — !”

“That will do,” says Mr. Clissold, backing away to the cabin stairs. “You seem to have not quite got over your fever yet. I’ll leave you to air yourself in the sea-breezes, Mr. Second Mate; and I’ll receive your excuses when you are cool enough to make them.”

“It is a son’s business to defend his father’s character,” I answered; “and, cool or hot, I’ll leave the ship sooner than ask your pardon for doing my duty!”

“You
will
leave the ship,” says the supercargo, quietly going down into the cabin. “You will leave at the next port, if I have any interest with the captain.”

That was how Mr. Clissold and I scraped acquaintance on the first day when we met together! And as we began, so we went on to the end. But, though he persecuted me in almost every other way, he did not anger me again about father’s affairs: he seemed to have dropped talking of them at once and for ever. On my side I nevertheless bore in mind what he had said to me, and determined, if I got home safe, to go to the lawyer at Barnstaple who keeps father’s old books and letters for us, and see what information they might give on the subject of Mr. Lawrence Clissold. I, myself, had never heard his name mentioned at home — father (as you know, Alfred) being always close about business-matters, and mother never troubling him with idle questions about his affairs. But it was likely enough that he and Mr. Clissold might have been concerned in money-matters, in past years, and that Mr. Clissold might have tried to cheat him, and failed. I rather hoped it might prove to be so — for the truth is, the supercargo provoked me past all endurance; and I hated him as heartily as he hated me.

All this while the ship was making such a speedy voyage down the coast, that we began to think we were carrying back with us the fine weather we had brought out. But, on nearing Cape Horn, the signs and tokens appeared which told us that our run of luck was at an end. Down went the barometer, lower and lower; and up got the wind, in the northerly quarter, higher and higher. This happened towards nightfall — and at daybreak next day, we found ourselves forced to lay-to. It blew all that day and all that night; towards noon the next day, it lulled a little, and we made sail again. But at sunset, the heavens grew blacker than ever; and the wind returned upon us with double and treble fury. The Peruvian was a fine stout roomy ship, but the unhandiest vessel at laying-to I ever sailed in. After taking tons of water on board and losing our best boat, we had nothing left for it but to turn tail, and scud for our lives. For the next three days and nights we ran before the wind. The gale moderated more than once in that time; but there was such a sea on, that we durstn’t heave the ship to. From the beginning of the gale none of us officers had a chance of taking any observations. We only knew that the wind was driving us as hard as we could go in a southerly direction, and that we were by this time hundreds of miles out of the ordinary course of ships in doubling the Cape.

On the third night — or rather, I should say, early on the fourth morning — I went below, dead beat, to get a little rest, leaving the vessel in charge of the captain and the first mate. The night was then pitch-black — it was raining, hailing, and sleeting, all at once — and the Peruvian was wallowing in the frightful seas, as if she meant to roll the masts out of her. I tumbled into bed the instant my wet oilskins were off my back, and slept as only a man can who lays himself down dead beat.

I was woke — how long afterwards I don’t know — by being pitched clean out of my berth on to the cabin floor; and, at the same moment, I heard the crash of the ship’s timbers, forward, which told me it was all over with us.

Though bruised and shaken by my fall, I was on deck directly. Before I had taken two steps forward, the Peruvian forged ahead on the send of the sea, swung round a little, and struck heavily at the bows for the second time. The shrouds of the foremast cracked one after another, like pistol-shots; and the mast went overboard. I next felt our people go tearing past me, in the black darkness, to the lee-side of the vessel; and I knew that, in their last extremity, they were taking to the boats. I say I
felt
them go past me, because the roaring of the sea and the howling of the wind deafened me, on deck, as completely as the darkness blinded me. I myself no more believed the boats would live in the sea, than I believed the ship would hold together on the reef — but, as the rest were running the risk, I made up my mind to run it with them.

But before I followed the crew to leeward, I went below again for a minute — not to save money or clothes, for, with death staring me in the face, neither were of any account, now — but to get my little writing-case which mother had given me at parting. A curl of Margaret’s hair was in the pocket inside it, with all the letters she had sent me when I had been away on other voyages. If I saved anything I was resolved to save this — and if I died, I would die with it about me.

My locket was jammed with the wrenching of the ship, and had to be broken open. I was, maybe, longer over this job than I myself supposed. At any rate, when I got on deck again with my case in my breast, it was useless calling, and useless groping about. The largest of the two boats, when I felt for it, was gone; and every soul on board was beyond a doubt gone with her.

Before I had time to think, I was thrown off my feet, by another sea coming on board, and a great heave of the vessel, which drove her farther over the reef, and canted the after-part of her up like the roof of a house. In that position the stern stuck, wedged fast into the rocks beneath, while the fore-part of the ship was all to pieces and down under water. If the after-part kept the place it was now jammed in, till daylight, there might be a chance — but if the sea wrenched it out from between the rocks, there was an end of me. After straining my eyes to discover if there was land beyond the reef, and seeing nothing but the flash of the breakers, like white fire in the darkness, I crawled below again to the shelter of the cabin stairs, and waited for death or daylight.

As the morning hours wore on, the weather moderated again; and the after-part of the vessel, though shaken often, was not shaken out of its place. A little before dawn, the winds and the waves, though fierce enough still, allowed me, at last, to hear something besides themselves. What did I hear, crouched up in my dark corner, was a heavy thumping and grinding, every now and then, against the side of the ship to windward. Day broke soon afterwards; and, when I climbed to the deck, I clawed my way up to windward first, to see what the noise was caused by.

My first look over the bulwark showed me that it was caused by the boat which my unfortunate brother-officers and the crew had launched and gone away in when the ship struck. The boat was bottom upwards, thumping against the ship’s side on the lift of the sea. I wanted no second look at it to tell me that every mother’s son of them was drowned.

The main and mizen masts still stood. I got into the mizen rigging, to look out next to leeward — and there, in the blessed daylight, I saw a low, green, rocky little island, lying away beyond the reef, barely a mile distant from the ship! My life began to look of some small value to me again, when I saw land. I got higher up in the rigging to note how the current set, and where there might be a passage through the reef. The ship had driven over the rocks through the worst of the surf, and the sea between myself and the island, though angry and broken in places, was not too high for a lost man like me to venture on — provided I could launch the last, and smallest, boat still left in the vessel. I noted carefully the likeliest-looking channel for trying the experiment, and then got down on deck again to see what I could do, first of all, with the boat.

At the moment when my feet touched the deck, I heard a dull knocking and banging just under them, in the region of the cabin. When the sound first reached my ears, I got such a shock of surprise that I could neither move nor speak. It had never yet crossed my mind that a single soul was left in the vessel beside myself — but now, there was something in the knocking noise which started the hope in me that I was not alone. I shook myself up, and got down below directly.