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Cracks in the Sidewalk

A Novel

Bette Lee Crosby

 

Cracks in the Sidewalk

Fourth Edition

Copyright 2009 by Bette Lee Crosby

All rights reserved.

Cover Design:

Michael G. Visconte

Creative Director

FCEdge

ISBN# 978-0-9891289-3-3

Bent Pine Publishing

Stuart, Florida

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Although this book is based on a true story and many of the events in this story actually happened, it is still a work of fiction. While, as in all fiction, the literary perceptions and insights are based on life experiences and conclusions drawn from research, all names, characters, places and specific instances are products of the author’s imagination and used fictitiously. No actual reference to any real person, living or dead, is intended or inferred.

 

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Table of Contents

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Table of Contents

 

Acknowledgements

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-One

Chapter Twenty-Two

Chapter Twenty-Three

Chapter Twenty-Four

Chapter Twenty-Five

Chapter Twenty-Six

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Chapter Thirty

Chapter Thirty-One

Chapter Thirty-Two

Chapter Thirty-Three

Chapter Thirty-Four

Chapter Thirty-Five

Chapter Thirty-Six

Chapter Thirty-Seven

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Chapter Forty

Chapter Forty-One

Chapter Forty-Two

Chapter Forty-Three

Chapter Forty-Four

Chapter Forty-Five

Chapter Forty-Six

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Acknowledgements

A novel does not come together without the help of many people—readers, editors, designers and the technical geniuses who translate an author’s words into readable electronic formats. I am fortunate to be working with some of those that I consider the best in the business, and I am eternally grateful to the following people:

Michael G. Visconte…Creative Director of  FC Edge in Stuart, Florida… a design genius who finds the heart and soul of every story and transforms it into a breathtakingly beautiful cover. Thank you Michael.

Ekta Garg…Editor extraordinaire and a woman who catches all my mistakes without ever losing sight of my voice. No easy task, but she does it with grace and charm. I count Ekta among my many blessings.

Danielle Benson…The absolutely best formatter in the universe. Thank you for having the ability to find even the oddities that seem to sneak in and out like thieves in the night.

Naomi Blackburn… Thank you for being an early reader and helping me to see beyond myself. Your suggestions are both wise and wonderful.

Geri Conway…I am blessed to have you as my sister and thankful for all the other roles you play—those of a listener, sounding board, advisor, early reader, and constant supporter.

Lastly, I am thankful beyond words for my husband, who puts up with my crazy hours, irrational thinking, and late or non-existent dinners. I could not be who I am without you, Dick, and I pray that neither of us ever lose sight of this awesome blessing God has given us.

 

Cracks in the Sidewalk


To send a letter is a good way

to go somewhere

without moving anything

but your heart”

Phyllis Theroux

 

Claire McDermott

I
’m an old woman now, but this dream I have has been with me all my life. Some people claim it’s just wishful thinking. Whether or not that’s true I can’t say, but I do know these images have warmed the inside of my heart for more years than I can remember. When I close my eyes and drift into the dream, it’s always the same. I see myself as part of the family that never was—imaginary sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, cousins. We’re crowded elbow to elbow around a dining room table, everybody talking at once and no one minding.

I created this family the year I turned nine. It was the same year I came to know the loneliness of being an only child. Luckily dreams have no limitations, so I was free to build my own world. For a lonely little girl that world meant a big family.

Sadly, that wasn’t my life. I was an only child. My family was just Mama and Daddy, two loners who got married and had a single baby. I begged Mama for a baby sister or brother, but she’d squish her nose up like she smelled something bad and answer, “Claire, I don’t know where you get these crazy notions. Certainly not from your father or me, we’re practical people.”

They were practical. Parents who believed children should be seen and not heard. As they discussed the news of the day, I sat at the dinner table, silent. That’s when I began creating my imaginary family. In no time at all I could close my eyes and see every one of their faces. I knew all their secrets and what each of them would do in any given situation. First came my sister, Nora. After Nora came an overly protective brother, Paul. A lengthy succession of cousins, aunts, and uncles followed.

In time, Charlie happened along. He wasn’t a member of my imaginary family. He was a flesh-and-blood person who loved me as I did him and agreed a dozen babies was just about the right number.  

We were married in 1955, and one year later I gave birth to Elizabeth. She was barely three weeks old when I began to hemorrhage and woke up in the hospital with Doctor Kerrigan explaining how this was to be the only child I would ever have.

I know every mother claims her child is beautiful, but Elizabeth truly was. Lying there in her crib she looked like one of those paintings of golden-haired cherubs. Pink and dewy as a rosebud with the tiniest, most perfect fingers I’d ever seen. Many nights I slipped out of my bed to stand alongside her crib and watch the delicate whispers of breath rise and fall in her chest.

“It’s not fair,” I told Charlie, “that she should be an only child.” I suggested adoption, but somehow Charlie could never wrap his arms around that suggestion. 

“You never know,” he’d answer. “Maybe Doctor Kerrigan is wrong. Let’s not rush into something. Give it time. Wait and see.”

So we waited, and God knows we tried, but we never did have another baby. In the end, Elizabeth had to travel the same road I’d gone down. Understanding how lonely that can be, I vowed to make it better for her.

No matter how much love a mama tries to give her child, they still need playmates. And my little girl had plenty. When she was so tiny she had to stand on a stool to reach the counter, we made cookies and invited over a bunch of neighborhood kids. After that it was Brownie Troop, then Girl Scout meetings, football parties, sleepovers, and almost anything else I could think of. Looking back I can honestly say Elizabeth’s face never showed the loneliness I’d seen on my own.

She had more friends than a person could count. Elizabeth was full of laughter and kindness with eyes the color of a summer sky and a smile that made other people smile back. She was one of the most popular girls in Westfield High and could have dated any boy in town. But, wouldn’t you know, she picked Jeffrey Caruthers—a lanky string bean with the personality of a footstool. He latched on to her like she was money in the bank and went everywhere she did.

Early in the morning, before we were fully awake, the telephone started ringing. It was usually Jeffrey calling to ask if he could walk her to school or take her to a movie. They’d spend an entire day together, then an hour after he brought her home the telephone would start ringing again. Some evenings we’d be fast asleep, and he’d wake us because he just had to say good night.

Jeffrey went way beyond being a pest, and it’s regrettable that we didn’t do anything to squelch it. But Elizabeth was barely sixteen at the time, so we figured he was little more than a passing fancy.

“Don’t worry,” I told Charlie. “The likelihood is she’ll have dozens of boyfriends before she’s ready to settle down.”

Unfortunately, that didn’t happen.

They continued dating all summer, throughout the fall, and right into winter—Elizabeth not the least bit interested in any other boy and Jeffrey attached to her like a Siamese twin. Four or five nights a week he’d have dinner at our house, and on the occasional night when he did stay home he’d telephone every few hours.

“Doesn’t your family object to your not coming home for dinner?” I finally asked.

“Not at all,” he answered. Then he and Elizabeth exchanged one of those lovesick puppy dog looks they’d begun to share. After a few years, Charlie and I realized that Jeffrey would probably become our son-in-law. 

On Elizabeth’s twentieth birthday they went out to dinner. She came home wearing the happiest smile I’ve ever seen and a two-karat diamond ring. That was that. They were engaged, and there was no looking back. Every time Elizabeth glanced at the ring she’d start talking about what a wonderful husband Jeffrey would be.

“Not just a wonderful husband,” she’d sigh with happiness, “but, like Daddy, he’ll be a wonderful father.”

At the time I agreed, thinking only a man crazy in love would put such a sizeable diamond on his fiancée’s finger. I didn’t realize that’s simply the way Jeffrey is—he’s got an almost obsessive need to impress people with what he has or owns. Unfortunately, that ring earmarked our beautiful daughter as something belonging to him.

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