Deeper (6 page)

Kris

I
rested my head against the headboard and mentally wanted to kick myself. This
night hadn’t gone at all how I’d planned. After what happened in Jessie’s room
last week I’d been constantly thinking about her to the point of distraction.
Just the mere mention of her name had me feeling aroused and I’d found myself
shifting around to hide my almost instantaneous erection. I was freaked out by
all these new feelings that I didn’t know how I was going to handle being
around her without making an ass of myself, so I’d purposely stayed away from
her while I tried to work it all out.

I
know she had to have been hurt when I didn’t call this morning. I felt like an
asshole but I didn’t know what to say.
Happy birthday
didn’t seem good
enough and I sure as shit couldn’t say what I really wanted to…
Happy
birthday, Jess. I think I might be falling for you and you’re finally eighteen
and legal and the only thing I can think about is kissing your lips and holding
you close and stripping your sexy little body and…

My
wandering thoughts were interrupted when she stepped out of the bathroom. If I
had been unsure of my feelings before I was damn sure of them now…she completely
stole my breath.

She
stood at the bathroom door wearing my tee shirt and waited for just a moment
before shutting off the light. I felt all the blood rushing to my dick and I
sat up out of instinct. The light was shining just right on her and it made her
look like she was glowing. Her soft brown hair looked almost golden and her
skin looked so creamy and beautiful. She was a goddess.

When
her eyes found mine, heat seared through my chest and spread all through me and
suddenly my entire body was awake. How in the hell had I been around her almost
every day for thirteen years and not noticed how fucking breathtaking she was?

She
flicked off the light and padded across the carpet slowly. She seemed nervous
as she slid under the blankets and took her place beside me. As I turned off
the lamp that was on the table at my bedside, I lie down and turned on my side
to face her.

“So,
did you really have fun tonight?” I asked, trying my hardest not to touch her.
She was so close and she smelled like heaven…

She
smiled sweetly at me.

“I
had the most amazing night. I still can’t believe I got to see Demon’s Wings so
close. It almost doesn’t feel real.”

“They
rocked that fucking stage for sure,” I said.

“Yeah,
especially Jesse Thornton. He’s so amazing on those drums.”

“Hey
now, I thought I was your favorite drummer,” I laughed, taking her pillow and
lightly hitting her with it.

She
took her pillow back and stuck her tongue out at me as she tucked it under her
head.

With
her voice barely above a whisper, she sighed and said, “Kris, you know you will
always be my favorite.”

I
know I told Jessie that the kiss was no big deal and to forget it but I
couldn’t. I had to talk to her about it and now was the perfect time. We were
here, alone, in a hotel room with nothing but the night ahead of us. Even if
she rejected me, I had to know how she felt.

“Jessie,
I know I said to forget the kiss but I’ve put myself out there and we are going
to be sleeping next to each other all night with hardly any clothes on. I need
to know where I stand with you.”

Her
cheeks were turning a beautiful shade of pink and I could see her pulse
fluttering in her neck. She started to breathe heavy and she licked her lips
lightly.

“Kris,
I…I have to tell you something. It’s big and I’m having a hard time getting it
out.”

I
reached up and tucked a stray lock of hair behind her ear.

“Whatever
it is, tell me. I can handle it.”

I
won’t lie; I was nervous as fuck about what she was going to say. I’d kissed
her and confessed how I felt and this was when she was going to tell me that
she either only saw me as a friend or she’d already met someone else.

She
took a deep breath and said so quietly, “When you kissed me…I, uh…”

“Yeah?”
I asked, my heart pounding rapidly.

I
could see her blushing even in the dark.

“I
liked it.”

Relief
washed through me like a tidal wave. I couldn’t stop the smile on my face and
my fingers instinctively traced the curve of her cheek.

“You
did?”

She
looked down and started twisting the top of the blanket.

“Of
course I did. In fact I…I’ve wanted…ugh, man, why is this so hard for me to
say?”

I
lifted her chin gently with my index finger, forcing her eyes to meet mine.

“Jess,
this is me. You can tell me anything. Don’t be afraid.”

Jess
blew a nervous breath through her lips.

“I’ve
wanted you to kiss me for a long time. Like, a
really
long time.”

I
blinked in surprise and smiled wider.

“You
have?”

She
nodded and said, “I’ve been in love with you ever since I first saw you.”

Her
confession knocked the wind out of me.
Holy fuck
…she’s been in love with
me since she was five years old?

“W-whoa.
Jess, why didn’t you say anything?”

“Because
I was afraid to,” she answered timidly. “You never seemed like you were into me
anyway because you had all of your girlfriends following you around. You just
said it yourself. You were only starting to look at me differently lately. If I
had admitted I loved you before that you would have been freaked out and you
know it. You would have been all uncomfortable being around me and then you
would have started to distance yourself and I would have been alone. Keeping
quiet kept you in my life.”

I
scooted closer to her and was feeling myself getting aroused from the heat of
her body being so close.

“Nothing
would have kept me out of your life, Jess. Hell, the guys have been teasing me
for years that you had a crush on me but I never listened to them because you
had a pretty good way of hiding it.”

“Well,
I’m not anymore. Before I came out here I told myself that I wasn’t going to hide
my feelings for you any longer and whatever happens from here on out I am ready
for it.” She reached out and touched my bare chest with her shaking hand and
whispered, “I love you Kris.”

Her
confession hit me straight in the chest. She loved me…I couldn’t stop myself
from moving my hand from her cheek to her waist and pulling her close to me. I
shut my eyes for a moment as I felt her delicate fingertips on my bare skin. It
was like I’d been electrocuted. Never in my life had a simple touch felt so
incredible.

“So,
does this mean I can kiss you again? For real this time?”

She
shivered and bit her lip before she nodded.

Tracing
the tattoo of the phoenix I had on my chest, she replied, “Kiss me, Kris.”

No
more words were spoken as I lowered my mouth to hers for the second time. Her
lips parted in invitation and I wasted no time and slid my tongue past them and
touched her tongue with mine. She softly moaned and hearing her little whimper
of pleasure made my swelling erection go rock hard. I didn’t know how far she
wanted to take this but Jessie always had been a girl that was sure of what she
wanted. Nothing would happen unless she wanted it to.

She
laid back and I moved so I was on top of her and she hooked a long, bare leg
around my waist, pulling me into her. Her body felt so good against mine and
when I settled between her legs my dick was pushing right against her heat. My
cock quivered in anticipation as my hand roamed up the shirt she was wearing
and I explored the curve of her back.

When
my fingers stopped at the clasp of her bra, I toyed with it for a moment before
she pulled away from my lips. She quickly sat up and I watched open mouthed as
she pulled my shirt over her head and threw it to the floor.

Jess
was sitting next to me in the bed wearing nothing but a pink cotton bra and
white cotton panties with little hearts on them. Her body was so tight and tiny
and perfect. She had a slight curve to her hips and her breasts weren’t the
biggest I’d ever seen but they were perfect sized, enough to fill my hands. I
ached to touch and tease them so without thinking I started to move my hands
toward them. I could practically see her nipples tighten in anticipation but I
hesitated before I touched them. I had to know she wanted me to touch her.

Jessie
nodded her head and whispered, “Please.”

That
was all the invitation I needed and I gently ran my thumb across one of her
pebbled nipples. Her breath caught and she whimpered as I took one of her firm
breasts into my hand and massaged it. She felt so good and now my mouth started
to water. I was dying to taste her delicious skin.

I
continued exploring her and slid my fingers under the strap of her bra. She
started to breathe heavier but nodded her head, silently telling me to slide it
down her shoulders. I leaned up and gently moved the strap down, leaning in to
kiss her bare skin.

I
trailed my tongue along her shoulder up to her graceful neck and savored the
flavor of her sweet, delicate skin. She smelled like summer and rain and tasted
like the most delicious dessert I’d ever had and I’d barely even tapped how
rich her flavor was. As I tasted her supple skin, I roamed my hands around her
back and they instinctively found the clasp on her bra.

She
wriggled in my arms and whimpered, “Kris…please.”

“You
sure?” I murmured against her sensitive flesh.

“Y-yes,”
she panted, and I pinched the clasp in my fingers. Her bra opened with a snap
and she wiggled out of it.

I
stopped kissing her neck long enough to stare at her naked chest. When my eyes
landed on her perfect, firm breasts I almost came in my boxers. They were
beautiful.
I was practically salivating at the sight of them, the curve under them, her
gorgeous rosy pink nipples…the more I saw of Jessie the better the view got.

“Oh
fuck,” I growled. “I…have to taste them.”

She
just nodded at me and I leaned down to lick one of her nipples before I sucked
it into my mouth. She cried out in pleasure and I moaned loudly. Jessie arched
her back and tossed her long hair over her shoulders. I moved my mouth from one
breast to the other, making sure to trace my tongue over each part of her
sensitive buds.

She
combed her fingers through my hair as I kissed my way back up to her mouth. My
lips found hers again and this time she was the one to thrust her tongue into
my mouth.

We
tasted each other for a few intense moments before she broke away and panted,
“Kris, I…I want you. I want this. I’m ready.”

I
wanted so badly to be her first lover but something made me hesitate. We’d already
taken a huge step over the line from friendship to something more and at this
point there was no going back. She said she was ready…but was I?

If
we slept together tonight that was it. She wasn’t going to be some random
hookup or an ex-girlfriend I could successfully avoid. This was Jessie,
my
Jessie
. I couldn’t take this step with her and just treat her like the
others. She was special.

As
I sat next to her in the bed, looking at her in all her innocence and
vulnerability, I realized in that moment that I wanted to do whatever it took
to make her happy in every way. If I was who she wanted tonight, then I was
going to choke down my fears of ruining what we had and give her what she
needed.

I
cupped her cheek and asked, “Are you sure?”

Jessie
nodded and batted her big blue eyes at me. Taking my other hand in hers, she
brought it to her lips and lightly traced my fingers with her tongue.

“I’m
very sure. I want you to be my first, my
only
,” she breathed.

Warmth
spread through me as her words sunk in. It really hit me how important this
moment was for both of us. We weren’t just two friends that were about to sleep
together. Jessie was giving me an amazing gift that she could only give once
and no matter what I
would
make this special for her.

I
didn’t say anything else and leaned in to kiss her again. This time, she laid
back and pulled me down with her. I instinctively moved on top of her and she
parted her legs for me. I fit perfectly right between them and as we kissed my
eyes were crossing beneath my eyelids from the feel of my cock pressing against
her heat.

My
hands started to wander down her body and when they stopped at the waist of her
panties, I slipped my fingers inside them at her hips. I was about to ask if
she wanted me to take them off but before I could she started to tug them down.
I leaned up on my knees and grabbed them and she lifted her hips so I could
slowly take them off. I tossed them to the floor and looked back at her and
when my eyes landed on her my breath caught again.