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Authors: Ann Macela

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Francie reached for the coffee pot and poured them each a cup. “What happened on Saturday?”
“I thought about him all day, every moment in between serving customers, and came to the conclusion you have been right all along. Kevin is not the man for me. Going back over all our ‘conversations,’ it became clear we never talked about anything but our jobs—especially
his
problems—or his pontificating about something, be it the economy, sports, or the latest scandal. When we watched TV, it always had to be what he wanted. We never went anywhere except to bars or clubs or ball games with his clients. He may be a good dancer, but that’s not enough to sustain a relationship.”
She grimaced and shook her head. “And I gave in to him all the time, never stood up for what I wanted to do. I have turned into a wimp. I can’t believe it. This is so unlike me. For example, do you know he works for NatChem?”
“Really?” Francie managed to put a look of surprise on her face. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because Kevin asked me not to, said it would make things awkward between you and him. I thought the idea was ridiculous, but went along with it. I’m sorry.”
“Oh, don’t be,” Francie admonished with a shake of her head and a waggle of her spoon. “Knowing his employer wouldn’t have made any difference at all in my opinion of him. Whatever he did or whomever he worked for, he still wasn’t good enough for you. And certainly not smart enough. What did you decide after all this thinking?”
“He came over again Saturday night. This time he was supposed to take me to dinner—a casual dinner, he said. It probably would have been to a cheap Mexican or Chinese place, after all his grumbling about money. I didn’t give him a chance. Just told him flat out I didn’t think our relationship was going anywhere and we’d both be better off if we didn’t see each other anymore.”
“How did he take it?”
“He was angry, of course. Ranted and raved a bit. Claimed he was just about to ‘make it big’ and I’d be sorry.”
“He didn’t get violent, did he?”
“No, but he turned awfully red in the face at one point. I wasn’t afraid, though. Then he said something nasty—accused me of being frigid, would you believe?— and left.” Tamara started laughing. “Can you imagine? Me, frigid? How unimaginative and banal can you get? Not to mention wrrrroooonnnng.” She smirked and took another bite of her ice cream.
“You certainly don’t seem to be upset about him, like you have been with guys at times in the past,” Francie observed, not wanting to hear about how good or bad anybody was at lovemaking.
Tamara looked startled for a moment, then shrugged. “You’re right. Which just goes to show you I was right to kick him loose. It hurt more to break up with Rich and then Dave, but they are truly nice people. We just didn’t suit each other somehow, once the excitement was gone. And we both knew it, each time. Kevin? No way could we even remain friends. I really picked a loser with him. But, that’s all behind me now. I feel like I shook a big load off my back.”
“I don’t know how you do it, dating all the men you do. I’ve thought you were actually in love with at least two of them—the kind of love that leads to marriage, I mean. Then you broke up with them and didn’t seem any the worse for wear.”
“Because I haven’t been in love, not the gut-wrenching, can’t-live-without-him, totally bewitched, completely committed type. I know that kind of love exists, and I’m looking for it. I’m going to find my soul mate one of these days, I just know it.”
Soul mate. Even Tamara was looking for a soul mate. Francie winced inwardly. Soul mates were the last things she needed to think about. Or talk about. So she said simply, “Good for you, Tamara,” as she opened the cookies. She took one out, used it to dip out a scoop of Cherry Garcia, and took a bite. The crunch of the cookie combined with the smoothness of the ice cream to enhance all the flavors. “Oh, this is so good.”
Tamara unscrewed her Oreo, licked off the creamy filling, and took a bite of the chocolate wafer. They sat for a moment, cookie-crunching the only sound.
After finishing her ice cream, Tamara set the container aside. She rested her elbows on the table and leaned forward, worry on her face. “All right,” she said, “now what’s all this about your breaking up with Clay? I thought everything was going smoothly with you two.”
Francie finished the Oreo she was eating and took a sip of coffee. When Tamara had that look in her eye, she wasn’t going to let anyone off the hook until she knew the whole story. Well, she wasn’t going to get it this time. “Let’s just say we had a difference of opinion and leave it, can we? I really don’t want to talk about it.”
“Oh, Francie, I’m so sorry. I hoped you were finally coming out of the fort you built around yourself and beginning to live a little. Clay seemed so perfect. Good-looking, intelligent. You had the same interests, computers, even basketball. You were enjoying your dates, weren’t you?”
“Yes,” Francie said with a sigh.
“What’d he do, come on too fast?”
“No, yes, oh, I don’t know. I kept thinking about Walt and . . .”
“Walt!” Tamara rolled her eyes. “Clay is not anything like Walt, I can tell you that for sure. There was something phony about Walt’s oversized ego from the beginning. And the way he was so condescending. I couldn’t understand the attraction. Just like you told me about Kevin, I told you about Walt, remember?”
“Uh-huh.” Francie put her elbow on the table and her chin in her hand. “I guess we ought to start listening to each other, shouldn’t we?”
“Right. From now on, we won’t go out with any man till the other checks him out.” Tamara cocked her head and gave Francie a penetrating stare. “You got scared, didn’t you? Scared of Clay’s appeal, his attractiveness, that you wouldn’t measure up, didn’t you?”
“What are you talking about?”
“You haven’t been around a man coming on to you in a long time. And Walt did a number on your self-esteem. And here comes Clay. If he is half as sexy as he looks, I’ll bet he’s not shy, either. But, because your last encounter with sex was such a disaster, you assumed this one would be, too. What did he do that scared you so? Was it really that bad? Could you have overreacted and made a mistake about him?”
Tamara was coming too close for comfort, Francie realized. The two of them knew each other so well, they could have been twin sisters. But she didn’t want to think about the possibility of having overreacted. A straightforward “let’s go to bed” she could have handled—and probably would have raced him up the stairs after a couple of those mesmerizing kisses. But all this “practitioner” and then “soul-mate” business . . . No, she couldn’t tell Tamara about that. Even if she hadn’t promised Clay to keep it secret, the story was too outlandish to repeat. So she lied.
“No, no, it wasn’t about that at all.” She’d let Tamara define “that” any way she wanted to. “We just got into a crazy argument, and it escalated, and he said some things, and I said some things, and . . . and . . . Oh, damn.” As tears filled her eyes, Francie grabbed a handful of paper napkins and hid her face behind them.
“Oh, Francie.” Tamara came around the table and gave her a big hug. After Francie calmed down, the redhead returned to her chair and asked in a soft voice, “Are you going to see him again? Try to patch it up? Making up can be fun, you know.” A wink accompanied her last sentence.
“I honestly don’t know. But, Tamara,” Francie leaned over the table and pointed a finger at her, “don’t you try to mediate. Don’t call him or tell him anything if he comes by your shop. Just tell him you’re neutral. Don’t let him talk you into bringing me a message. Promise me.”
Tamara frowned, and her lips thinned, but she said, “Okay, okay. I won’t meddle. But I have to tell you—and I feel it in every one of my red hairs—if you don’t try, you’re making a mistake, a big one, and I hope you don’t live to regret it.” She slumped back in the chair, then straightened up and snagged another Oreo out of the bag. “So, do we start on the next pint, or what?”
“Thank you, Tamara, you’re a good friend.”
“So are you.”
They grinned at each other, although Francie could feel her lips wobble.
“However, I don’t think I can eat more ice cream or anything. How about you?” she asked.
“No, me, either,” Tamara replied with a grimace. “We just can’t hold it like we used to.”
“Not if we want to fit in our clothes, we don’t.” Francie rose and started clearing the table.
Tamara helped put cups and spoons in the dishwasher, then turned to her and put a hand on her shoulder. “Francie, are you all right? Seriously?”
“Yes, seriously, I’m all right. Now. Thanks to you and Ben and Jerry, not to mention Mr. Oreo.” She put on a cheerful smile. “I feel fine. I’m energized.”
“Do you feel up to entering my accounting information in my computer as we planned, or shall we just blow it off ?”
Oh, damn. She had forgotten her promise to Tamara. “No,” she said as brightly as she could, “let’s do it. Give me a minute to dress.”
“I’ll get my things and meet you out front.” Tamara started for the door.
“Great.”
As Tamara stepped out of the apartment, Francie said, “I’m really glad you got rid of Kevin.” She just wished she could tell her friend why.
“Me, too. See you in a few minutes,” Tamara replied as she went down the stairs.
Francie shut the door. Leaning against the wall, she contemplated her options. Helping her friend would keep her mind off . . . other things, and she wouldn’t be at home to answer the phone—or, God forbid, the doorbell. Also, the whole crazy situation looked better somehow after talking to Tamara. She could get through this; it would just take time. She pushed herself off the wall and headed to her bedroom, determined not to think about anything.
By early evening, she was exhausted. She and Tamara had entered most of the accounting data by mid-afternoon, and she had left Tamara at the shop checking inventory. At home she’d thrown herself into a frenzy of cleaning, going even so far as to wipe off the shelves in her refrigerator. She stopped short of scrubbing the oven; she wasn’t that miserable, she lied to herself.
She’d managed somehow to ignore the constant pain in her stomach, and the milk, ice cream, and aspirins she’d poured down it seemed to help.
In her office, she’d plugged the phone back in and called her parents in Dallas—this being the night for their usual biweekly rendezvous. Somehow she had managed to sound normal and chat as if nothing at all was wrong, although she was afraid her mother was getting suspicious by the end of the conversation. After the call, she’d stared at the answering machine where a red “7” blinked. Telling herself she wasn’t a coward, she hit the play button.
“Francie.” His voice came through loud and clear, and an agonizing pain stabbed her middle, next to her heart. She hit the delete button. Then she hit it six more times. She unplugged the phone and marched out of the room, intent on finding something else to clean, anything other than him to occupy her mind.
By the time she went to bed, she had arrived at an equilibrium of sorts. First, she refused to think she had overreacted. Second, his claims were too fantastic to believe. Third, Clay was an alluring man. The attraction was merely chemistry. Fourth, all she had to do to get through this—whatever “this” was—was stay away from him.
Soul mates
, what a ridiculous idea.
She wasn’t in love with him.
She wasn’t.
Was she?
CHAPTER-SEVENTEEN
 
“Damn it! This is not the way things were supposed to turn out.” Clay glared at the phone in his home office. It was ten o’clock on Sunday morning, and after his last call, the seventh since yesterday, the third today, he was giving up. She obviously wasn’t going to answer, much less call him back. Even his magical skills couldn’t overcome her decision.
He zapped the phone with a spell and it rang. At least the thing still worked, he thought glumly, reversing the enchantment to turn off the noise.
What was he going to do? His soul mate had rejected him. Told him he was crazy. Then she’d run. Actually, literally, run from him.
And what was all that crap about a guy named Walt? He must be the asshole who hurt her in the first place, who made her hide behind those clothes and glasses. Clay flexed his fingers, formed fists. Man, if he could only get his hands on good ol’ Walt.
Face reality, he told himself. That was what she had said.
But reality
was
magic. He conjured a light ball and bounced it around the room, off the top of the bookshelves, in and out of the trash can. Francie had denied the evidence right in front of her face. He dissolved the blue globe with a snap of his fingers.
What
was
he going to do? He knew what he
wasn’t
. He wasn’t going to beg. He wasn’t going to go over there and beat on her door. He wasn’t going to send her e-mails or show up at her office, either. Those things smacked of stalking, and he didn’t think they’d do any good, anyway.
He’d wait her out. Wait for the soul-mate imperative to kick in.

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