It’s been 4 days since we left to come look
into this shit. We run into a few issues and handle them quickly
but there is no sign of Spike. That doesn’t surprise me though.
“You ok man? You have been off all week.” Garrick says as we walk
into a little diner to grab something to eat. “I don’t know man.
I'm just off for some reason.” I say and walk to a table. “He’s
caught up on your little sister is what his problem is.” Jimmy says
and I flash him a nasty look that shuts him up pretty quick. I sit
down next to Sly and look over the menu. He’s right though. I can’t
get that girl out of my head. She has me all fucked up. “Man if it
was any other bitch I’d say get some of that ass and move on but I
can’t say that about my sister.” Garrick says shaking his head. “It
ain’t like that man.” I say and look back at the menu. The waitress
comes and takes our orders. As soon as she walks off Garrick looks
over at me. “What is it then?” He asks. “Don’t know. Man you know
I'm fucked up enough as it is. I don’t need to drag no one else
down with me.” I say looking back at Garrick. He nods his head.
“You aren’t that fucked up man.” Sly says as the waitress comes
back with our drinks. “Look I can’t tell you what to do bro but dad
won’t like it if you mess with Casey.” Garrick says taking a drink.
“I'm not messing with her so I guess Prez can calm his ass down.” I
say and look out the window. Sly starts to say something else and I
hold my hand up. I have had enough of this talk. “Look Draven
you’re a good guy. Yea you got a past but fuck man we all do. I
can’t sit here and tell you shit about women but I can tell you
Casey has her own past. Might be as fucked up as yours. I don’t
know what the hell happened to her in New York but I'm guessing it
was pretty fucked up.” Garrick says. I look over at him and
nod.
Casey
“Do you know when the guys are coming back?”
I ask Josey as we clean up the kitchen. “I think later tonight.
Jimmy said they didn’t find a whole lot and took care of what
needed to be. Said they didn’t see any sign of Spike.” She says
looking over at me. “You got a thing with Draven?” She asks
smiling. I shake my head. “No. Just wondering when the guys were
coming back is all.” I say to her and go back to the dishes. Josey
puts her hand on my back and I flinch. She must notice because she
moves her hand quickly. “Casey you know you can talk to me right? I
mean I can see the way you look at Draven. He is a good guy once
you get to know him” She says to me. I turn to face her. “It’s just
I don’t know what to do. I do like him Josey but he is kind of, I
don’t know out there. One second I think he may like me and the
next it’s like he is pissed off at the world.” I say to her and she
nods. “Let’s take a walk.” She says and starts towards the door. We
walk outside. “You have to understand Casey that a lot of these new
guys are running from something. Whether it’s good or bad. There is
something in their past and Draven is no different. You know he is
pretty close to Tracker and Tracker likes to talk to Jimmy.” She
says as we walk around the huge backyard of the club. “Yea I know.”
I say softly. “He was engaged and she was pregnant. I don’t know
details but I know she had an abortion and that set Draven off. She
was into a lot of drugs but I don’t know what all happened but she
died.” She says stopping to look at me. “Oh my god! That’s crazy.”
I say looking at her. He was going to be married and have a baby. I
can’t get that to stick in my head. “Yea like I said I don’t know
details but that’s what I heard.” She says as we walk some
more.
After we head back in and finish in the
kitchen we go out to the main room. “Hello ladies.” Tracker says
sitting at the bar. “Hey Tracker. What are you doing?” I ask him.
“Well I'm drinking and may possibly be drunk.” He slurs and I
laugh. “Where’s my girlfriend?” He asks me and I look at him
confused. “Who is your girlfriend?” I ask him. “Bell. Bell is. I
mean I can do a 2 for 1 special if you want to be too.” He says
laughing. “No I'm good. But Bell is on her way so she’s all yours.”
I say patting his back. “You girls doing ok?” My dad’s voice comes
from behind us. “Hey dad. What are you doing?” I ask and he comes
over to hug me. “Nothing. I want to talk to you though.” He says
and I nod. “Walk with me?” He says and starts to walk off and I
follow. He heads out the end door so I follow behind him. He paces
around a little. “You ok?” I ask him and he stops. He pulls his
hand through his long greying hair and sighs. “Casey I know I'm not
your real dad but you know you are my daughter in every way that
counts.” He says and I nod. “I can see things you know. I see the
way you look at him. It’s the way I used to look at your mom when
she first started coming around.” He says and I start to speak.
“Dad I.” He puts his hand up to cut me off. “I think he’s a good
guy. I know he can be trusted but I just don’t know where his head
is at Casey. You know a lot of what goes on around here and that we
all have a crazy past but if this is something you’re going after I
just need you to be safe about it. All men have a breaking point.
Most you can tell when they will snap but there are a few like
Draven that you will never see it coming before it’s too late.” He
says looking at me. “I know dad and I have a past too but Thank
you.” I say and he looks confused. “For what?” he asks. “Letting me
make my own choices.” I say and he hugs me.
“Turn that up Tracker.” I yell when the music
comes on. Me and Bell are tore up drunk. “Get off my girl Casey.”
Tracker yells as he turns the music up. It’s Friday night and the
club is packed. Me and Bell have been drinking for a while now. “I
love you Bell.” I say drunk as hell. “Oh my goddd!!! I love you so
much.” She says back hugging me. “Let’s have babies Casey. Lots of
babies.” She says laughing and I laugh with her. “You girls having
fun?” Josey and one of her friends walk over. “Oh yea Josey we are
planning on having babies” Bell yells. “Lots of them.” I say and
laugh. “Is there a man in this equation? “ Josey asks smiling. Me
and Bell look at each other and laugh. Just then Tracker is walking
past. I grab him and pull him over. “TRackerrrrr will you make us
some babies?” I ask him grabbing on his dick. “Baby you keep
grabbing me like that and I’ll give you whatever you want.” He says
looking down at me. “Wait.. I want babies too.” Bell pouts looking
at me. “Can she have babies too?” I look up at him with puppy dog
eyes. “Oh we can handle that.” He says and grabs us both. “Josey
you want babies?” I yell. “Not his.” She says pointing at Tracker.
Me and Bell laugh and dance more. Josey laughs and tells us to be
careful.
A few hours later and we are so drunk we
can’t see straight. Tracker and a few of the new guys have been out
on the dance floor with us. There are tons of skanks around here
tonight. A few come over and try to dance with us. “Hey skank get
the fuck off my baby maker.” I slur and yell at the redhead that
keeps getting all over Tracker and the new guy Brad. She gives me a
nasty look and moves on. Bell laughs. “Hoes can’t touch our baby
makers.” She says laughing. “Hell no.” I say we hug each other.
“You ladies want to hit a joint with us in the room?” Tracker says.
“Fuck yea.” I say as we follow the guys down to Trackers room and
we all sit on the bed passing a joint around. We are so fucked up
right now. Tracker and Bell are damn near fucking on the bed right
next to us and I start to laugh. “You jealous?” Brad says looking
at me. “Nope. I can get some if I want it.” I say and smile at him.
“So? DO you want it?” He says to me and my head is swimming. I'm so
fucked up right now I don’t even know what I'm saying. “Nah. I'm
ok.” I say and he puts his arm around me. He lies back against the
head board pulling me with him so I lay back on his chest and he
hands me the joint. I smoke a little more and then he hands me the
bottle of Jack Daniels. I can’t feel a thing. I think I love this
feeling.
Draven
I'm so glad to be home. I'm dead fucking
tired and ready to try to sleep. I know that’s not going to happen
as soon as we pull up to the gates and see all the bikes and
trucks. The club is fucking packed. We ride up and park the bikes
around back. “So much for sleep tonight huh?” Garrick says laughing
as he gets off his bike. “Don’t look like we will be getting much.”
I say setting my helmet on my bike. We hang outside a few minutes
just unwinding from the ride. I pull out a cigarette and light it.
“Thought you quit?” Garrick says grabbing one from me. I rub my
free hand over my face. “Yea I did too.” I say and he laughs. “We
all quit sometimes.” Garrick says as he lights his up. “I don’t
know man. This shit has my head all messed up. I can’t fucking
sleep man. Shit’s weighing heavy on me these days.” I say and take
another drag. “Fuck it lets go in and get tore up fucking drunk and
forget this shit.” Garrick says and slaps my back. I guess it
couldn’t make it any worse.
I follow Garrick and Jimmy inside and Sly is
right behind me. Josey comes running to Jimmy and he grabs her and
heads to the bar. I follow Garrick over to a table and sit down.
Garrick tells Jenny one of the skanks around here to go get us some
beers and she does. She brings them back and sets them on the table
and sits in Garrick’s lap. He doesn’t say anything. “So Draven I
brought a friend today. Want to meet her?” Jenny says looking at
me. “Sure. Why the fuck not.” I say and she smiles and waves to
someone behind me. I don’t turn around. A small girl with red hair
comes over and sits in my lap. I set my beer down and look up at
her. What the fuck? I know this bitch. I flip her off my lap and
stand up. “What the fuck are you doing here?” I scream at her. Her
face breaks into a smile. “Thought you would be happy to see me.”
She says looking back at me. “What the hell is going on?” Garrick
asks me now standing too. “Oh me and Draven go way back don’t we?”
She says running her hand down my chest. I grab her arm. “Don’t you
fucking touch me. You need to leave and leave now.” I say as calmly
as I can to not make a scene. “What the fuck is this Draven? She
need to roll?” Garrick asks putting his hand on my shoulder. I nod.
“Ok You heard him. Leave.” Garrick says to Sara the redhead. Sara
smiles at me. “I’ll be back around.” She says and walks towards the
door. “What the fuck was that shit?” Garrick asks putting his hand
on my shoulder. I slap it off and shake my head. “That is the
fucking past coming back to haunt me man” I say as I walk over to
Josey and Jimmy. “Hey you seen Casey?” I ask her and she smiles.
“Yea she went to the back with Brad and Tracker about an hour ago.”
She says and turns back to Jimmy.
I stalk down the hallway and open Brad’s door
since it’s the first one I come too and it’s empty. I keep going
down the hallway until I get to Trackers door and I can her female
laughs. I kick the door open. Tracker and Bell look over at me and
start laughing. Casey is passed out on Brad’s chest and he is
kissing her neck and starting to unbutton her shirt. Like fuck he
is. I storm across the room and pull him out from under her. I grab
him by the neck and slam him into the wall next to the bed. Tracker
is up and behind me now. “What the fuck are you doing Draven?”
Tracker is yelling as I slam my fist into Brads face. “You were
just going to fuck her while she was passed the fuck out?” I scream
and hit him again. “Bro calm the fuck down.” Tracker is yelling to
me and I punch Brad in the stomach and he hits the floor. I round
on Tracker. “Put your fucking hands on me again and I will fuck you
up too!” I grind out through clenched teeth. “Man you need to calm
the fuck down.” He says again. I look over and Brad is starting to
get up. I look at the bed and Casey is awake now staring at me.
She’s scared. I can see it in her face. I scared her. I look back
at Brad. “If you ever put a fucking hand on her again I will
fucking kill you.” I say as calmly as I can. I walk over to the
bed. Casey is staring straight up at me. “Get up.” I snap at her
and she does. She stands on wobbly legs in front of me. I put my
arm her to help steady her and lead her out of the room and down
the hall.
“What the fuck were you doing?” I scream at
her after I slam my bedroom door. “What the fuck do you care?” She
screams back at me. I stalk over to the bed where she is sitting
and I grab her and make her stand. “Do you know what that
motherfucker was about to do to you?” I ask her in a calmer voice.
“Yea he was going to fuck me and I was going to fuck him.” She says
looking me directly in my eyes. “Oh you want to be fucked? Is that
what you want?” I say grabbing her and pulling her close to me. She
doesn’t say a word. I grab the front of her little button up shirt
and rip it open. I pull it quickly off her arms. She is standing
there in shock. I grab that little piece of lace she calls a bra
and rip it right off her and throw the pieces behind me. I stick my
hand in the front of her jeans and grab her. “That what the fuck
you want? You want to be fucked?” I ask her again and look at her
face and she is crying. I move my hand and step back. What the fuck
am I doing? I can’t do this shit. I have the most perfect girl
standing in my room half naked and in tears. I really am some kind
of fucked up. I walk away from her and over to the wall by the door
and put my hands on the wall. “Fuck!” I yell and punch the wall.
Why am I so fucked up?
Casey
I'm standing in Draven’s room half naked and
I'm crying. How stupid could I be? I'm in here and I want him and
the best I can do is cry. Draven is standing facing the wall
holding himself up with his hands on the wall. He just punched a
hole in it. “I'm sorry.” I say quietly and Draven turns around and
looks at me. He looks so sad, so lost right now. He shakes his head
like he is trying not to say something. He walks into the bathroom
and I hear the shower turn on. He walks back out and stops a few
feet in front of me. “Come here.” He says softly. I'm still really
fucked up so I walk all wobbly over to him. He bends down and
unbuttons my jeans and slides them down taking my panties with
them. I hold onto his shoulders and step out of them. He turns me
around and walks me towards the bathroom. I stand there in the
middle of the bathroom confused. He pulls his shirt off and then
his pants. The bathroom is steaming up. He pulls the curtain to the
shower back. “Get in.” He says and takes my hand to help me in. I
do what he says and climb into the warm shower as he climbs in
behind me. I can feel his body against my back. It’s like a brick
wall and I want to reach back and touch it but I don’t. I feel his
hands on my back and I jerk. “I won’t hurt you.” He says softly. He
puts his hands back on my back and traces the scars. “One night he
was high on something. I don’t know what. He came home and he
wanted me. I let him do what he wanted. He was so easy with me. He
turned me over on my stomach and rubbed my back and the next thing
I know he was hitting me with something and I was screaming and he
hit me harder. He didn’t stop and when he finally did I could feel
the blood running down my back. I started to get up and he pushed
me back down. I didn’t dare try to get up again. He got off the bed
and came back and put bandages on the spots he just hit. He lay
next to me crying and saying he was sorry. That was the first time
but there was more.” I say. Draven turns me around to face him.
“He’s not a man. A man would never hurt something as precious as a
woman. I'm no man either Casey. I’ve hurt people.” He says softly.
“You won’t hurt me Draven” I say as goes down on his knees. He uses
his tongue like an expert. Hitting all the right spots. I fall
apart in seconds.