Dust of My Wings (16 page)

He rubbed small circles on her wrist and switched lanes. “Supernaturals live forever unless we’re killed. Sickness doesn’t occur in angels. Some other supernaturals have diseases, but it’s rare. I’m not sure about brownies, but it’s something we’ll have to check.”

She sat in silence a bit longer, and Shade got worried.

“That’s so long,” she whispered.

He pulled into the restaurant parking lot, found a spot, and turned off the motor. He turned to her, reached out and took her hands in his. “It’s different than what you’ve known, but we can get through this.”

She shook her head and looked out the windshield. “Why did I want to do this tonight, Shade? Pretend to be normal and go out on a normal date. I’m not normal.”

He took her chin in his hands and turned her to face him. “What is normal? You’re normal for what you are.”

She gave a watery laugh. “I don’t think so, Shade.”

“Well, your situation is rather unique, but you’re still you. That’s all that matters, and we’ll make it work.”

“Thank you, Shade.”

“For what?”

“For being you, and for helping me.”

He kissed her brow and slid a hand along her back. “Let’s go in and eat, okay? We can be our type of normal. Even supernaturals get hungry.”

She smiled, and they got out of the car. Inside, the restaurant was nice, with an authentic atmosphere that didn’t take itself too seriously. Amara had told him it had the best Italian in the city. Once they were seated, a server took their drink order, and Lily relaxed.

“You really do look beautiful tonight.”

She blushed, and he wanted to throw her over the table and take her right there. Probably not the best thing to do in public.

“Thank you. You don’t look so bad yourself.”

He grinned, and the server came back to take their order. As they relaxed and ate the breadsticks on the table, they talked of movies, books, and other random things they shared in common. He’d say something funny, and she’d throw back her head and laugh. He’d watch the long column of her throat and have to shift in his seat. Seriously, how old was he?

As they walked out the door, Lily commented, “I love that we’re talking about inane things.”

“I don’t think they’re inane; I like hearing about you.”

She blushed and shook her head. “Well, it’s not like we can talk about other things, you know?”

Shade smiled. “We can, just not here.” He nodded to a bear shifter who passed them on the street, and her eyes widened.

“How…”

He placed a finger on her lips then kissed her softly. “In the car.”

Once inside she turned toward him. “How did I know he was…you know…different? I mean, that he was different. I don’t know what he was exactly.”

“He was a bear shifter.” He smiled at her wide eyes. “It’s a feeling you have, right?” She nodded. “It’s sort of like an energy that surrounds all of us. Eventually, you’ll be able to taste the different energies and differentiate the different species.”

“That’s kind of cool.”

He smiled but shifted in his seat. “Lily, I don’t want others to know you weren’t always a brownie, at least not yet. Your energy doesn’t feel any different than a normal brownie, but I don’t want others to know how this came about.”

Fear wafted from her, and he rubbed his thumb on her lower lip. “Until we know what we’ll say, I just want to be safe, okay?”

“I understand. Can we go back to my place now?”

He smiled and took her hand. “That sounds perfect.”

****

Lily poured two cups of coffee for them and added cream and sugar to hers. She walked back to the living room where Shade sat on her couch, a grin on his face. She stood there for a moment and just looked at him. Was it wrong that he looked so comfortable in her home?

“Lily?”

She blinked and shook her head. “Sorry, I have your coffee.”

He patted the seat next to him, and she smiled. He took his coffee cup from her hands and she settled in next to him. They sat in silence for a moment and sipped the strong brew. It felt comfortable…nice, to have him here. She could imagine them doing this after a long day’s work.

Shade didn’t live here. She didn’t even know where he lived…or what business had brought him here. Was it normal business or the angelic kind? They didn’t know enough about each other, and yet she felt comfortable with him. But did she feel comfortable asking about his personal life? That thought made her feel like it was going too fast.

“What’s going on in that head of yours?” Shade asked.

She shook her head. He
really
didn’t want to know what she was thinking. “Nothing, really.”

He took a sip of his coffee and waited.

She let out a breath. “I’m just a little scared, I guess.” Well, that wasn’t totally a lie. She was scared about what was coming with her own body, her future…and yes, the man sitting next to her. He just didn’t need to know that last part.

At least not yet. If ever.

Shade put down his coffee, took the cup from her hand, and pulled her onto his lap. He rubbed small circles onto her back and rested his forehead on hers.

“I know you’re scared. If you weren’t, I’d be worried.”

“I just need to make a list or four, and I’ll be fine.”

He chuckled against her cheek and she warmed. He leaned closer and kissed her softly, the faint taste of coffee on his tongue.

“God, Lily, I love that about you.”

Her heart raced, but she tamped down the excitement. It wasn’t as if he said
I love you
. No, that’s not what he meant, but it was close enough that tendrils of something she didn’t want to think about settled in and wrapped around her heart.

“I do like to keep organized,” she whispered against his lips.

“Mmm…” He licked her lips, and she opened for him.

His tongue leisurely explored her mouth as her hands explored him, the panes of his chest, his arms, his neck. She wiggled on his lap, his erection against her bottom.

“You keep wiggling like that, baby, and it’ll be over before it starts.”

She sighed into his mouth and wiggled again.

He growled and lifted her into his arms as he stood. “Okay, sprite, you’ve asked for it.”

“Sprite?”

“I thought it fit.” He smiled and bit her jaw before licking the sting.

She wrapped her legs around his waist and blinked at him. “I like it.”

“Good.” He crushed his mouth to hers while he walked toward her bedroom.

She pulled back. “Don’t drop me.”

“Never.” He plopped her down on the bed so she bounced.

“Hey!”

“I couldn’t resist.” He grinned and lowered his body over hers.

Before he could kiss her, she wiggled from beneath him, determined.

“Hey, what are you doing?” He furrowed his brows, and she kissed the line in between.

“I want to try something. Just lie back and enjoy.” She lowered herself to her knees, and he grinned like a cat with cream. He folded his hands behind his head and lay back.

“By all means, proceed.”

Her hands shaking slightly, she undid his jeans and opened them wide, her breath shuddering.

“Commando?”

He chuckled roughly. “Sometimes.”

“I’m one lucky woman.”

“No, I’m one lucky man.”

She lowered his pants, and he lifted his ass so she could take them completely off over his boots, but the boots blocked her intent. She laughed at the look of a half-naked man in his boots, and he lifted a brow.

“Sorry, I need to take off your boots. I’m not good at this.” She blushed. God, how inexperienced could she seem.

He sat up and kissed her, his just-Shade taste settling on her tongue. “I’ll take care of it, baby.” He quickly divested himself of his boots and shirt, leaving him naked and, by the looks of it,
very
ready for her.

She knelt between his legs and gripped his length. His body bucked, and he hissed.

“Jesus, Lily. I love your small hands on me.”

“They look small compared to what I’m holding,” she teased as she stroked him.

“Flattery will get you everywhere, darling.”

She ran her hand up him again then leaned down to lick the head of his cock. He groaned and she smiled. She loved the power she held over this man, the one with the strength of angels who had the ability to make her knees weak. She was the one making him groan and hiss. She opened her mouth wide and wrapped her lips around his cock..

“Lily.”

His heady taste danced on her tongue as she relaxed her throat and took him deeper. His hips thrust slightly, and she held them down while raising her head.

“I’m in charge,” she said.

His pupils dilated, the fractured blue of his iris practically non-existent. “Anything.”

She gave a coy smile and swallowed him again, her mouth stretching to take his fullness. Her body tightened at the thought of him inside her, filling her. It wasn’t the time for that; no, she wanted this to be about him.

She sucked and licked, fondling his balls. His groans grew needy, but he didn’t thrust. Good man.

“Lily, you need to stop. I’m going to come.”

She just took him deeper, hollowing her cheeks.

“Lily.”

With that, he came, his hot seed shooting down her throat. She took every last drop of him before releasing him with a pop.

“That was fun,” she teased.

Shade growled and pounced. Before she knew it, she was flat on her back, naked, her legs spread.

“I want you.”

“Please.”

He wrapped a condom on his still hard length. God, she loved his stamina. He lowered his body then kissed her. Hard.

He pulled back and nibbled her lips. “I can taste myself on you, and for some reason, that makes me hot as hell. You do this to me, my Lily.”

He gripped her hips then, in one fluid motion, turned her over so she was on her knees.

“I want to take you from behind, baby. I want to watch the curve of your back as I fuck you. Would you like that?”

She shivered and nodded, too turned on to speak.

His hands delved between her legs, brushing her clit as he dipped into her. “You’re wet for me.”

“Uh-huh.”

“Hold on.”

She gripped the sheets as he did her hips before he slammed into her. Her body trembled, and she came. Her nipples hardened to stiff, achy peaks, and she screamed his name.

“Fuck. Your pussy clenched around me in one stroke. I love how responsive you are.”

Her body on alert, she pushed herself back to take more of him. He slapped her ass, the sting going straight to her core. He pulled out, then rammed back into her, over and over, fighting to keep his grip as she crested closer to another release.

Just as she was about to come, he pulled out and flipped her so she lay on her back. She whimpered at the loss of him inside her, too out of it for words.

He kissed her lips then slowly entered her again. “I want to see your face when you come, sprite.”

She opened her eyes, her gaze locking with his. He threaded his fingers with hers as he slowly rocked against her. Heat built within her until she came against him, his cock twitching inside her as he did the same.

He lowered his forehead to hers, breathing heavily. “I never want to forget this.”

What an odd thing to say, but she couldn’t say anything back. Emotions choked her as her breathing slowed to normal.

She wasn’t just falling in love with this man. She was full-blown oh-my-God in love with him. She barely knew him. He could leave town at any minute, and she was the stupid idiot who’d fallen in love with him.

Damn.

Chapter 16

Lily pulled into work, a smile on her face. She’d woken up with Shade’s warm body nestled against her back and something hard and ready for her as well. She blushed, remembering exactly how Shade had woken her. She was lucky she’d even made it to work on time.

She’d quickly showered—alone, as the two of them together under the warm spray of water would have resulted in her being late. Shade had kissed her goodbye when he left a few minutes before her, a sad expression on his face. Odd. Maybe he was just as sad to leave her as she was to leave him.

Lily snorted. Sure. Because all males are clingy. As it was, she had to force herself not to act like a clingy girlfriend. That brought her up short. Wait. Was she his girlfriend? Her body tingled at the thought. She wanted that. No, she needed that. She’d always felt so alone, even with her friends. Yes, she’d felt connected to them and they were her family…but it never felt like enough. And, yes, that made her feel selfish as hell. Maybe Shade would help her fill the void. She couldn’t rely on that. She’d done that before and look how that’d worked out. She’d dated Bryce, thought she’d fallen for him, even almost married him. She’d left her old job to work with Glenn so she could be near Bryce. Then he’d left her to be with someone prettier.

It was official, with the amount of angst flowing through her, it was high school all over again.

He’d kissed her and said everything would be all right, and it would. Wouldn’t it?

So, she was a brownie, a supernatural creature, and she had no idea what it was and what rules and powers came with it. Shade had told her some, and she’d looked up the rest on the Internet. Though she didn’t know what she could trust from what she’d read and Shade didn’t know the ins and outs of everything in the brownie culture. She didn’t have time to stop and think about it, because she had to work. She walked up the stairs toward her office and laughed.

She didn’t have to worry about time anymore; that was something she had plenty of now, wasn’t it? She’d live for who knew how long all because of a freak storm. Her knees went weak, and she gripped the railing. Her stomach clenched at the thought. What if her friends never changed? What if she was the only one? How would she cope with knowing her friends would die and she would live? Or maybe they’d be in the same boat as her. It was overwhelming. She couldn’t think about that now. She had to get through her day and take this new life thing one day at a time. She hadn’t been kidding when she told Shade she wanted to make lists. Doing so would calm her and get her mind situated because, right now, between her transformation and Shade, she felt as if someone had put her brain in a blender and turned it on the highest speed.