Fighting Temptation (Men Of Honor) (30 page)

Ho-ly fuck
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I’m assuming my facial expression is funny, because she laughs her fucking ass off.

I grip her hair a little tighter, “Is that what you want Julia, my dick in your mouth?”

Her laughing dies abruptly, “God yes.”

Her breathless response makes me whimper, yup, fucking whimper like a pussy. I move back to the door in a hurry and finally get the damn thing unlocked. Once in, I kick the door shut and haul her sexy ass upstairs to her room.

I slide her down my body till her feet reach the floor and take a step back. “Take off your dress.”

She raises an eyebrow at my command but does as I ask. Before she unzips the dress though she bends down to take her shoes off.

“Leave the shoes on.”

She snaps her head up and smirks, “Mmm bossy, bossy, you’re lucky I like you like that.”

She wants to see bossy, I’ll fucking show her bossy.

Standing back up she unzips her dress letting it fall off her, pooling at her feet. My cock jerks at the sight of her body, minimally covered by black satin and silver fuck-me heels. A low growl erupts from my throat, “Damn woman, you’re fucking sexy.” I reach out to pull her to me but she moves out of my reach.

“Uh uh,” she smirks, shaking her finger at me, “Not one step closer till you take some clothes off too.”

I don’t smile back because right now there’s nothing funny about how hard she’s making my dick. I reach up behind my shoulders and pull my shirt off. I start stalking towards her but her sharp gasp stops me in my tracks. The smile on her face vanishes.

“Oh my god Jaxson.”

I’m thinking her shock is of the scars I have on my chest, it’s not as bad as my back but it’s still not a pretty sight, except she grabs the beat up pendant that’s hanging around my neck.

Shit, forgot about that. I clear my throat, “I had to get a new chain for it, it got a little beat up.”

Her expression turns sad, “I guess it didn’t do much good huh?”

I shrug, “I don’t know about that. I’m still here aren’t I?”

I’m not sure why I just said that. The truth is I don’t believe in that shit, but the thought of Julia losing her faith bothers me.

She smiles sadly at me, “Ya you are, and thank God for that because I would die without you Jaxson.”

Her choked words send a sharp pain through my chest making it hard to breathe. No one has ever cared for me the way Julia has, and as good as it feels, it also scares the living shit out of me.

My abdominal muscles twitch when she lays her warm hand on my stomach. “Let me touch you, I want to know your body,” her gaze is pleading.

Control is something I never give up, but for Julia, for a few minutes, I will give it up for her. My pulse kicks up when her smooth hand trails across my chest as
she walks around to my back. I feel her trace the angel with her fingers, then she begins kissing all my scars, as if trying to erase them from my body. She wraps her arms around me from behind. Her breasts press against my back, making me wish they weren’t concealed by the black satin. Suddenly my back becomes wet and I know it’s from her tears, which makes me feel as if someone just punched me in the fucking throat. Even though it’s hard for me to do I let her hold me because I know she needs this, and well… maybe I do too.

Eventually she makes her way back to my front, tracing the scars on my chest, pressing her warm lips against each one. Her body shakes as she tries to hold in her anguish and it fucking tears me up.

I thread my fingers through her hair and bring her pained gaze to mine, “Please don’t cry for me Jules.”

“I wish I could take them away.”

“You do,” my voice is gruff, even to my own ears. I bring my mouth to hers and taste her salty tears as they fall to our lips. The kiss starts out tender and slow, but as always it soon turns hot and desperate. I grab her ass and pull her flush against me. Her hand trails down my stomach, and soon she has both my belt and pants undone. My head drops to the wall and I let out a tortured groan when she reaches in and grabs my painfully hard cock.

She strokes me firmly from base to tip, her soft thumb running over the smooth tip, “I want to taste you Jaxson.”

I suck in a sharp breath. I really fucking want her to taste me.

She smiles seductively as she drops to her knees in front of me and it’s the sweetest goddamn sight I’ve ever seen.

Pulling my pants down she leans in, pressing a soft kiss to my shaft, causing my dick to jerk against her lips. She smiles, “I like knowing I affect you like this.”

Her warm breath hits my dick making me want to weep, “Baby, my dick is in this state whenever you’re in the same room as me.”

Her eyes heat, “Well then, you should have let me take care of you long before now.” With that smart-ass remark she licks my shaft from base to tip then closes her warm wet mouth around my dick, knocking the breath from my lungs.

“Fuck me!” I drop my head to the wall and close my eyes while she sucks me off with her hot mouth. She takes me as far down as she can, the tip of my cock hitting the back of her throat, then sucks her way back up swirling her tongue around the tip. She grips the bottom of my shaft and strokes me where her mouth can’t reach.

Grinding my teeth I try not to think about how she got to be good at this; the thought makes me see red. Opening my eyes I look down to see her watching me. I have pictured Julia’s lips around my cock countless times but none of them came close to the sweet picture that’s before me now. Threading my fingers through her hair I wrap it around my fist and start controlling her rhythm. “You’re really fucking good at this Julia. You have no idea what it does to me to see you on your knees, sucking my dick.”

She moans at my words and the vibration against my dick almost makes me come.

“Shit! Stop!” I tug her hair, pulling her mouth from my cock. Then I haul her up against me.

“What is it, what’s…”

I attack her mouth and spin her around pinning her against the wall. She moans wrapping her arms around my neck. I flick open the clasp of her bra and let it fall from her body. We both groan when her bare tits press against my chest. I tear my mouth from hers and lean down, sucking a soft pink nipple into my mouth. I graze the tight tip with my teeth and tug, “Oh god, that feels so good.”

I feel her wet panties against my stomach as she moves frantically against me, trying to find release. She whimpers when I move away from the contact, “Please Jaxson!”

I walk us over to the bed continuing to kiss her slender neck, her sighs of pleasure shoot straight to my dick. Fuck, I can’t wait to pound into her. I stop for a moment and take in her beauty as I lay her at the end of the bed. Her brown hair fans out around her, her high firm breasts are flushed and red from my mouth. “Jesus, you’re fucking beautiful.” I know I say it a lot but it’s the goddamn truth. Dropping down in front of her my face comes directly in line with her sweet pussy. I kiss her soft toned stomach just above her panty line. Her fingers thread through my hair and I smile when she tries pushing my head down.

I look up at her, “What do you want Jules?”

She moans in frustration, “You know what I want.”

“Maybe, but I want to hear you say it.”

She looks at me shyly, “I want you to kiss me.”

“Where?”

She slides a shaking hand tentatively to the black satin, “Here.”

I lean in pressing a kiss to the wet satin, her scent penetrating my senses. Fuck! I forgot how good she smells.

She shakes her head and whimpers, “I need more.”

“Then tell me exactly what you want Julia. I want to hear you say it… all of it.”

Her face turns a brighter shade of pink, “I want you to lick my… pussy.”

I growl and grab the side of her panties, ripping the thin silk from her body. Her gasp of surprise turns into a pleasure filled moan when I bury my tongue in her hot, wet, flesh. Her sweet taste exploding on my tongue.

“Oh god yes!”

I fucking love how loud she is!

I groan in approval when she lets her knees fall open, giving me complete access. Her back arches and her fingers pull my hair as I fuck her with my mouth. I can tell she’s close already and thank god for that, because the taste of her and the sound of her cries are about to make me explode. I flick her clit and suck the swollen bud between my lips, causing her to shatter. She screams my name and trembles as she comes against my tongue. She’s still gasping for breath when I pull my mouth away. Slowly I kiss my way up her perfect body, trying to regain some control before I humiliate myself. She makes it extremely fucking difficult by moving restlessly under me. “Easy baby, we have all night.”

She grabs my face, “No! Listen Jaxson, I don’t want you to go slow, I want you to fuck me right now, hard and fast.”

Well fuck me!

My control snaps. I raise up on my arms and grab under her knee. Positioning myself at her entrance I look at her with my jaw clenched, “Do I need to wear a condom Julia?” I’ve always worn one, but knowing Julia can’t get pregnant I want nothing in between us as I take her.

“No, I want nothing…” she loses her breath as I slam myself right into fucking heaven. “Ahh!”

Shit!
I still, worried I hurt her, “Are you ok baby?” The words are difficult to form with my ragged breathing.

“God yes! Don’t stop!”

She doesn’t have to fucking tell me twice.

I start pounding into her relentlessly, my dick surrounded in the hottest perfection I’ve ever felt. She whimpers and wraps her other leg around my hip and I groan when her heel digs into my lower back. I clench my jaw, trying to restrain myself from coming.

Our gazes stay locked on each other, never wavering. She reaches up and touches my lips, tenderness and sadness taking over her expression.

I slow my rhythm and lean my forehead against hers, “Talk to me baby, what’s wrong?”

She shakes her head softly, “I just can’t believe this is happening. I’ve waited so long to feel you inside of me again.”

“I’ll never stay away again Julia, I can’t. I need you as much as I need my next fucking breath, so get used to feeling me, because you’re mine.”

I thrust into her possessively with slow hard strokes.

She moans and digs her nails deeper into my shoulders, “Yes yours, always yours.”

Damn fucking straight.

I crush my mouth to hers again, savoring her taste. When I move to her throat she leans into my shoulder and bites… hard. It makes me fucking come unglued. I begin fucking her with a desperation I’ve never felt. The bed pounds against the wall with each hard frantic thrust of my cock.

She gasps as her muscles start contracting, “Oh god, Jaxson, I’m coming.”

“Fuck ya, you are!” Her hot pussy spasming around my bare dick is like nothing I’ve ever experienced. I clench my jaw, waiting for her to finish. When she does, I let go and come harder than I ever have before, completely filling her up. I fall against her and we lay in a sweaty tangled mess while trying to catch our breath.

“Wow, that was… wow,” she says, still gasping for air.

I grunt, “That’s the biggest fucking understatement ever.”

Her laugh causes me to groan when her muscles tighten around my half-hard cock. I never want to fucking move from this spot, I want to say inside her for the rest of my life.

I’m in serious shit.

“Jaxson?”

“Ya?”

“I can’t breathe very well.”

“Shit! Sorry,” I quickly lean up on my arms and pull out of her. The disconnection making me want to cry like a pussy. Like I said… I’m in serious shit.

After we clean up we lay together in comfortable silence. Julia’s sweet soft body is draped over my chest while she traces the tattoo that runs from my arm to my shoulder. My hand does its own tracing along her lower back and beautiful bare ass.

“Jax?”

My hand stills in surprise. It’s the first time she’s called me that since I’ve been back and I didn’t realize how much I missed it till now.

“Ya baby?”

“Can I ask you something?” Her voice is laced with nervousness and I start feeling trepidation about where this conversation is going.

But I relax my body, “Ya Jules, you can ask me anything.”

“What scares you the most about doing this? Like… I mean, with me?”

Huh? “
Sorry babe but I don’t know what you’re asking me?”

She lets out a deep nervous breath, “I mean what scares you the most about us changing our relationship? Is it… is it because of not having the freedom of getting to be with anyone else?”

She barley finishes her sentence before I have her flat on her back under me. The quick action causes her to gasp in surprise.

Anger takes over my expression but I soften quickly when I see the vulnerability in her eyes, “Jesus. You really fucking think that?”

She shrugs easily when I know she’s feeling anything but, “I’m just asking. You can’t really be that surprised I would think it. I mean I’ve only been with one other person and…”

I slam my hand over her mouth to shut her up. “First off Julia, don’t ever mention you and your goddamn ex again. I know I wasn’t around but I don’t want to fucking hear about it… ever! Secondly, I thought you understood you were different to me than everyone else. I mean Christ Julia, I pretty much have you fucking tattooed on my goddamn back…”

She pulls my hand away and has her own pissed off look, “First off Jaxson,” she mimics my own words back to me with sass, “I do know that I mean more to you than your fuck buddies. That’s not what I was asking. I can tell you’re scared to do this with me and lets be real, it’s no secret how much you like women, or your freedom to do what you want with them. Secondly buddy…”
Buddy? Did she just fucking call me buddy?
“you’re right, you weren’t here for 6 years. So don’t you dare tell me that I can’t mention my ex, Justin is his name to be exact, and…”

That’s fucking it.
I crush my mouth to hers, silencing whatever else was about to come out of her sassy mouth. The kiss is angry, desperate and fucking hot. I slide my hand between our bodies and grab my hard cock. Bringing it to her pussy I slide it between her lips, finding her wet and ready. She whimpers when I stroke it against her clit. I tear my mouth from hers and we both gasp for breath, “I told you I don’t want to hear about him! I’m going to fuck him right out of your mind. By the time I’m done with you, you won’t even remember his fucking name.” My dick fully coated with her lube now, I slam myself inside of her and fuck her without abandon. I fuck her harder than I have ever fucked anyone in my entire life.