First Crush (Dark Falkon #1) (18 page)

She rolled over and noticed the signed photo of her and Lukas resting on the other dresser. She picked it up and smiled.

“So, ah! I really miss you.” Jesse said.

Sienna was silent for a moment, she couldn't stop staring at the photo she was still holding in her hand. 

“Sienna? Hello?”

“Huh? Oh, sorry!” She replied, snapping out of her trance.

“Are you okay?” 

“Yeah, still just a bit tired that's all,” she said.

“I know what would make you feel better,” Jesse said. 

“What's that?”

“Me! Lying naked next to you.”

“Yeah! That would be great,” Sienna replied half-heartedly. 

“Seriously, is there anything wrong? You seem a little flat, babe.”

“No! Really I'm fine. Like I said, we got back from the concert pretty late last night and I'm just really tired. Ivy and I have a busy day shopping today, so I want to get some rest before we hit the shops.”

“Ok! Well, I'll let you get some rest. Call me later?”

“Sure!” Sienna said.

“Ok, have a great day shopping.”

“I will.”

“Bye.”

“Bye.”

She threw the phone down beside her and grabbed her Dark Falkon CD out of her suitcase. Putting the CD into the provided player and pressing play, she dropped onto the bed and stared up at the blank, cream colored ceiling. Now suddenly, she was the one who felt all alone. She was suddenly coming to the realization that maybe Jesse wasn’t the one she was meant to be with maybe it was her first crush, her
real
love, Lukas.

####FRIENDSHIP####

“So tell me, what happened last night?” Dick asked.

“Oh, the concert was great. The band are actually really good and Lukas really is an amazing guy.”

“But...” Dick added.

“It's Sienna!”

“What about her?”

“Well, when we were sitting there in the meet and great, he acknowledged me with a smile. He even kissed the back of my hand. Then he assumed Sienna and I were lesbians.”

“What?” Dick said, almost spitting out his coffee.

“It was actually quite funny. He asked if either of us had boyfriends or girlfriends, and I guess because we were at a concert, together, he just assumed we were lesbians. I told him that I was in a relationship, then when he looked at Sienna, she hesitated for a minute and then she said she was single even though she's with Jesse. And then pretty much from that moment he and Sienna had their eyes all over each other. It was like I wasn't even in the room.”

“I still don't understand what the problem is.”

“She lied to Lukas about having a boyfriend.”

“Babe, seriously? It's a crush. Weren't you telling me, not that long ago, that Lukas Dark was always Sienna's first dream crush?”

“Yes, but she's with Jesse, even if they’re just sleeping together.”

“He's a rock star. I bet he has heaps of girls flirting with him, but they are just silly, crazy crushes. Nothing can happen between Sienna and Lukas.”

“Why can't it, though? He's single, and while he thinks she is, there's nothing stopping them being together.”

“Ivy think about it. Lukas is a rock star. He's busy writing songs, recording albums, photo shoots, tours, interviews, concerts. Are you getting the point here? He's too busy for a relationship, it would never work.”

“But the rest of the band have girlfriends and children, how come it can work for them and not Sienna.”

He had to admit, she did have a valid point there. 

“Ok, so what? Why does this bother you so much?”

“When I was sitting there listening to them talking, all I could think about was Jake.”

“Jake? Sienna's roommate?”

“Yes! After Sienna told Lukas she was single, I made an excuse to leave the room so I could message you. I was feeling so alone and kind of angry with her and I had to get out of there.”

“Why were you angry? What does Jake have to do with this?”

Ivy took a sip of her coffee and took a bite out of her ham and cheese bagel. 

“There's something that I haven't told you about Jake. You see, a couple of months ago, before you and I even met I sort of had this thing for Jake.”

“You mean, a crush?” Dick laughed.

“Yes a crush, and please don't laugh.”

“Sorry!”

“My feelings for Jake were genuine. Seriously, I was in love with the guy.”

“So what happened?”

“Well, at first nothing. I didn't tell him how I felt about him. As far as he was concerned we were just friends. But then Sienna could tell that my feelings for him were strong, more than just friends. When I told her that I liked Jake, she of course took it upon herself to get us together. Sienna had hinted to Jake that I liked her, but he never gave any signs of acknowledgement. Then one day, she just came out and told him that I liked him. Anyway, Jake eventually told me that although he was flattered, he didn't feel the same way about me. He was in love with someone else, but he wouldn't tell me who. Then one night when I was over at their place, I caught Jake eyeing Sienna and it all made sense.”

“Wait! Jake has the hots for Sienna?”

“Yep!”

“Wow! How did she take it?” Dick asked.

“That's the thing, she doesn't know.”

Dick looked at her, his face in total shock. “You mean to tell me that Sienna has no idea that Jake likes her?”

Ivy shook her head. “That's the point. Here she was lying to Lukas about not having a man when Jake's sitting at home all alone, madly in love with her and he can't do anything about it.”

“What do you mean he can't do anything about it?”

“Dick, I've had this conversation with Jake. He's scared to tell her how he feels in case it ruins their friendship. He's afraid of losing her.”

She finished eating her bagel, Dick sat there sipping his coffee, understanding what she was telling him.

“So, only you know how he feels about her?”

“Yep! Well, you too, now.”

“So when you told me that Jake was jealous of Lukas Dark, this was the reason why?”

“Yep! And the fact that he's single and he believes that Sienna is single gives them a chance. It's exactly what Jake was fearing.”

“Yeah, I can see how that would be difficult.”

Neither of them said a word for a couple of minutes. Sitting there, sipping his coffee, Dick admired his girlfriend sitting in front of him. The smile on his face widened and his teeth sparkled as he watched her drink her coffee. Ivy remained quiet and Dick could tell that there was something else on her mind.

“There's something else, isn't there?”

“What do you mean?”

“Ivy, I know you by now. There's something else on your mind. Come on, talk to me.”

“I-I can't! It's kind of complicated and personal.” She started to get slightly emotional, she turned away, but Dick was quick on his feet. He walked over to her and kneeled down next to her. 

“What is it?”

“It's nothing.”

“Cleary something's got you upset. What's wrong? You should know that you can tell me anything by now.”

She looked up at him, tears streaming down her face.

“Hey! What's going on?” He asked, wrapping his arms around her and squeezing her tight.

“There is something. Something that I have been meaning to tell you for a while now, but I've just been too scared.”

“You have nothing to be scared of. We're here for each other, always.”

“Thank you.”

She wiped her face and sat up on the chair, Dick pulled up a chair and sat down beside her. 

“You and I have been seeing each other now for a couple of months, right?”

“A couple of wonderful months,” he added, leaning in and kissing her on the lips.

“And over those months I've grown more and more attracted to you.”

“Ditto!”

“Dick, there's no easy way to say this so I'm just going to jump straight to the point. You see, it's been a long time for me.”

“A long time?” Dick asked, confused. 

“Since I've slept with anyone.”

“Um...ok,” unsure of how to respond.

“Dick, as you can see, I'm not your average sized girl.”

“Oh, shush! You're gorgeous, I love you just the way you are.”

“Please, let me try and get this out.”

“Ok.”

“The last time I was with anyone, I was a lot thinner. I didn't have curves, I was a lot more confident and happier with my body. Over the years, I've just neglected my body and well, as you can see, this is the result. Since meeting you, you've made me a better person, you've given me the confidence and happiness that I lost and you've made me feel beautiful.”

“I'm glad.”

“Ever since we made our relationship official I've wanted nothing more than to jump into bed and just totally screw your brains out. But I'm scared that you'll take one look at my body and be like 'eww, she is so not worth this.' You're the best thing that's happened to me in a long time and I'm just scared of losing it all.”

“Are you done?”

“Yes. I won't blame you if you want to leave.” She kept her head down. 

“Good! I'm not going anywhere. First of all, I love you but, you're a total idiot.” He wrapped his hands around her neck and pulled her in for a kiss. “How could you ever think that I would dump you because of the way you look? I know what I saw when I asked you out, it was a kind and gorgeous woman who I have grown madly in love with. I'm alive when I'm with you. You're generous, loyal and we get along, we have so much in common. It's been a long time since you've slept with anyone, and that completely makes sense why you would feel the way you do. I knew that there must have been a reason why we hadn't had sex yet, but I didn't want to come across as pushy or intrusive, so I didn't say anything. I also knew how much you and Sienna had been looking forward to this concert, so I didn't want to pressure you and ruin it for you. A relationship isn't just based around sex, Ivy. When two people love each other there's a lot more to it than that. And that's exactly how I feel whenever I'm with you. You rock my world and I'll wait for as long as it takes.”

Ivy couldn't stop the tears from falling down her face. She sobbed and leaned forward, kissing Dick on the lips. He stood her up and swung her around, his arms tightly around her waist. 

“Thank you! Thank you so much for understanding. You have no idea how petrified I was about telling you. It has been on my mind for months and I could never find the right moment to tell you.”

“I already told you, you can tell me anything, anywhere. And just know this, I love you.”

He leaned in and kissed her again.

“I love you too. Maybe we can head back to the hotel, I'm sure Sienna would love to see you and say hi.”

“Sounds great.”

He paid for their breakfast, they held each other’s hands and headed back to the hotel. 

When they arrived, Sienna was sitting on the sofa with a glass of juice watching a movie. 

“Hey!” Ivy called.

“Hey! Hi, Dick. Isn't this a nice surprise?” she said, looking up from the sofa.

“Hi, Sienna. Yeah I had caught up with everything at work and so I decided to fly up here and surprise Ivy,” he walked over to her and they kissed each other on the cheek.

“Well, I'm sure it was a nice surprise. I know she missed you. How was breakfast?”

“Delicious,” Ivy replied.

“Well, I think I might head out and leave you two alone. I'm sure you have some catching up to do, you know being all but forty eight hours since you last saw each other,” she laughed. Her phone beeped and she looked at the text message;
How was the concert? Hope you and Ivy are having a ball. Say hi for me.

“Oh, Jake says hi,” Sienna said.

“Oh?”

“Yeah, he just text asking how the concert was and he told me to say hi.”

“Ah! Well tell him hi back.”

“I will. Anyway, I’ll leave you two alone.”

“It's ok, Sienna, you don't have to leave. This is your vacation too.”

“No it's fine. Besides, I think there were a few stores outside that were calling my credit card.” She quickly changed, grabbed her handbag and headed out the door.

“Have fun,” Ivy called.

“I will. See ya,” she waved and closed the door behind her. 

Dick walked over to the kitchen and poured himself some water while Ivy removed her shoes and jacket, she walked over to the radio in her bedroom and turned it on. Coincidentally, Dark Falkon’s latest hit was playing.

“So, what did you want to do?” Dick asked. 

Ivy walked over to the door and locked it. She then removed the glass from Dick's hand and rubbed her hands down his chest. She raised her head and leaning forward, she kissed him on the lips. 

“Wow! I like how you think,” Dick placed his hands on her ass, gently rubbing her cheeks.

“How about you join me in the bedroom,” Ivy teased, unbuttoning her top.

“Wh-what?”

She kissed him again and this time she grabbed his hand and pulled him towards the bedroom.

“Wait! Are you sure this is what you really want? I don't want you to feel like I'm pressuring you.”

Ivy slowly unbuttoned his shirt and they staggered into the bedroom. She spun him around and lay him down on the bed. Her lips moved from his mouth to his chest. She slowly removed his shirt, throwing it beside the bed. It was the first time she had seen Dick without his top on. His chest was smooth, perfectly shaped and slightly tanned. The words
to conquer, first you must succeed
were tattooed below his belly button and lower abs. Ivy placed her lips over them and kissed them gently. Standing up, she slowly unbuttoned the rest of her top, pulling it down off her shoulders.

She crawled on top of Dick’s knees, slowly unzipping his pants as she kissed his stomach. Dick sat up and looked into her eyes, “Are you sure you're really ready for this?” he asked.

“Shhh!” she placed her finger over his lips before kissing him passionately. She pushed him down and slowly made her way down his chest again until her lips were inches away from his crotch. She moved aside and slid down his pants, his black underwear covering his bulge, she threw his pants on the floor and slowly started caressing his cock through the material.