Flat-Out Celeste (2 page)

Celeste took a deep breath. She would give this book a try, however. Maybe she would learn something about the real world from this love story.

This confusing, overwhelming, daunting world.

The one that she imagined might one day swallow her whole.

THE SLAP HEARD ‘ROUND THE WORLD

CELESTE PACED THE floor of her bedroom. She noticed that she was fidgeting with her hands. She dropped them to her sides and continued pacing. Sounds from the din
ing room echoed up to the second floor, and she tried to brush aside the guilt she had developed after ignoring the meal that was intended to celebrate her successful philosophy presentation. It had been hard enough to lie to her parents when they’d come home from work (“The class loved every insightful moment! I did not have the time to address all of their comments and questions!”), but regaling them with an overly enthusiastic retelling of her presentation over the course of an entire meal would have been impossible. Feigning exhaustion and a desire to unwind by browsing through college applications bought her an escape to her room.

Her reflection in the floor-length mirror glared back at her. “Shut up. So what if I am a vile, flagrant liar and unworthy of ever being trusted again?”

She took a few steps closer. Celeste knew that, according to societal standards at least, she was attractive, but she didn’t quite understand why those standards existed in the first place. Her appearance had nothing to do with the strange creature that she was. While she had inherited her mother’s height, and her legs were long and lean, it seemed to her that her height just made her gangly and more awkward than she already felt. And these more recent curves on her hips and her chest? She was most uncomfortable. Men looked at her. She did her best to wear loose tops, but there was really no hiding her figure. Celeste liked modestly cut earth tones, clothing made from textured fabrics, body-engulfing wraps, and cozy sweaters. Things that flowed. Things that were, ironically enough, romantic in their aesthetic

She shrieked at the mirror. “Lecherous stares are unwarranted, given my aberrant character.”

Social and romantic endeavors were not her strong suit. An Ivy League college was in her future, and that was the only area of her life in which she would excel. Celeste knew that there was no boy who would want her once he got past the physical. That was the simple truth.

It was devastating. And it was devastating that she even cared, because her value system was not one that contemplated a woman’s happiness being dependent on the presence of a fairytale love life.

She sat down at her desk and took some deep breaths, rearranging the already-organized white storage containers. Her email sounded, and she clicked it open.

Hi, Celeste!

My name is Justin Milano, and I’m a sophomore at Barton College in San Diego. While I’ve settled in to the warm weather here nicely, I’m originally from Needham
,
Massachusetts, so not too far from where you are in Cambridge. After hearing about you, Barton would really love the chance to connect with you. I’m a student liaison for the college. I “woo” applicants and answer any questions they might have. I’m going to be part of a Barton meet-up night for prospective students soon. We hope you can attend! I imagine that you must be busy with lots of college application stuff, but have you checked out the materials that the school sent yet?

I love it here and couldn’t imagine a better liberal arts education.

I hope you can attend the meet-up!

-Thanks, Justin

Barton College? Celeste didn’t know anything about this Barton College. How did they know about her? And when was this meet-up thing? She usually did not participate in “meet-ups.”

Her email sounded again.

Celeste-

Oh God, sorry. The meet-up is next Saturday afternoon at 5 p.m.

-Justin

Before she could even hit the delete button, he wrote again.

Seriously, I’m really sorry. By “next Saturday” I mean the one after the one this weekend. Next week’s Saturday, not the next Saturday that arrives. Hold on; I’ll check the date.

Okay, it’s Saturday the 15
^th
.

-Justin

Celeste stared at the emails. This Justin was not one for details. At least not condensed details. So where exactly was she to go if she, in fact, did want to attend this “meet-up” for this unheard of college?

Celeste, I’m really sorry. I tend to just fire off emails and don’t always pay attention. The meet-up is in Harvard Square at Border Cafe. I haven’t been there in ages, but they used to make this awesome Camptown shrimp dish that was amazing? Do you like shrimp? Half the menu is Cajun; the other half Tex-Mex.

My apologies for all of these emails. And this started off so well!

-Justin

It hadn’t started off
that
well, she thought. She did like shrimp, but that was not enough to entice her to venture out to a social event for a college that was not on her list, nor for her to do so just to please this person who needlessly sent multiple messages. She did note that it was quite bold of Barton to hold this affair in the middle of Harvard territory, and that confidence piqued her interest slightly. Still, this was not for her. There would be conversations to be had, and awkward exchanges, all of which were unnecessary because she was applying to other schools. Applying via written applications and one-on-one interviews with academic and professional people from those schools. People who would be appreciative of her intellect and not judge her on her ability to make small talk while eating crustaceans.

There was a knock at the door, and Matt leaned in, swinging a brown paper bag in her direction. “I heard Mom made stuffed peppers tonight. Last time she made those, I nearly died from flatulence. I assume she stuffed them with her usual repulsive ground chicken, quinoa, Brussels sprouts, and pomegranate seed mix?”

Just the sound of Matt’s voice made Celeste relax. She smiled at him. “Based on the smell, I believe you’re right.”

“So you didn’t eat then? I was right!” Matt flopped onto her bed and lay down, his long body scrunching up the neat white comforter that she had spent ten minutes arranging before she’d gone to school this morning. “I thought I’d take a break from studying and bring you something edible.”

“It smells like a burger from Mr. Bartley’s,” she said as she got up and took a seat next to Matt. “Hand it over, thoughtful brother.”

He tightened a hand around the top of the bag. “You have to guess which kind I brought you first.”

“How am I supposed to know?”

“Close your eyes.”

She did as instructed and felt him move the bag under her nose. Sweet, spicy… a bit garlicky. “Aha! Boursin cheese and bacon! The Mark Zuckerberg burger!”

“And sweet potato fries and a bottle of iced tea, but you win. A burger named after the so-called ‘richest geek in America.’”

“You will be the richest geek in America after you finish your Ph.D. Program,” Celeste said through a mouthful of fries.

“If M.I.T. doesn’t land me in a psych unit first.”

“You only have this year left to endure. And you will hardly find yourself in need of psychiatric care, Matthew. You are doing stupendously.”

“I’m scraping by.” Matt reached into the bag to grab a handful of fries and opened her iced tea.

“You are not ‘scraping by.’ You are teaching classes, excelling in your own, and in all ways performing to standards that exceed even the high ones our mother set for you.” She frowned as he chewed on the fries. “Did you not eat?”

“I did. A Big Papi burger and a Fiscal Cliff. But you can never have enough sweet potato fries.”

“I have a finite amount of my own from which you are stealing. But I shall not complain because this was very kind of you.”

Matt chewed and studied her. “Are you okay?”

“Why do you ask?”

“No contractions. When you’re stressed out, they disappear.”

“I know. But most days, I do not care to use them. If it is an effort, then I do not push.”

“Okay. I get it.” He chewed for a minute. “I heard your presentation went well. Did your friends like it?”

“It went marvelously. My friend Dallas took me aside to offer quite the list of compliments.”

“That’s great, Celeste.” He was downing half of her iced tea.

“And then I bitch-slapped her.”

Matt choked on the drink and desperately tried to clear his airway. “I’m sorry. You did what?”

She cocked her head. “I bitch-slapped her.
”

“That… that can’t be right,” he sputtered. “I mean, I hope it’s not.”

“I slapped my hand against her hand. Up in the air.” She looked at Matt blankly. “Is that not the right term?”

“Thank God, no, it’s not. I think you mean a high-five.”

“If you say so. Well, either way, it happened. You know I have trouble with colloquialisms, so I resent your shocked reaction.”

“I do know that about you, and I apologize.”

“Since we are on the subject, there is something else I would like for you to clarify.”

“Shoot.”

“What is meant by ‘nut bag’? Is that a testicular reference or merely the identification of a satchel of cashews or pecans?”

Matt groaned. “This conversation has gotten really weird. Could we just talk about— Wait a minute. Why are you asking me this? Did someone say that to you?” He looked angry.

Celeste picked at her fry. “No. Certainly not. I heard the term and had a natural curiosity.”

“Okay then…” Her brother crumpled up the paper bag and then smoothed it out in his hands. Then crumpled it again. “It’s the same as ‘nuts.’ You know, crazy.”

“Thank you for the definition.” She took the last bite of her burger and wiped her hands on one of the paper napkins. It shouldn’t matter what her classmates thought of her. Celeste would just be strong about this. She would move on. “I got an email from someone at a college in San Diego.”

“Oh?” Matt continued to avoid looking at her.

“Yes. It’s called Barton College. It’s in San Diego,” she said pointedly.

“I heard you the first time.”

“Julie is in Los Angeles.”

“I know where Julie is.”

She waited, but Matt said nothing else. “Maybe I will go to school there, and then you will be forced to come visit me, and you two will be in the same state.”

Matt sat up and threw the bag across the room and into the trash can. “Celeste… Knock it off, okay?”

The door to her room swinging open and a simultaneous knock interrupted them.

“Celeste? Oh, hey, Matt! What are you doing here?” Their father, Roger, stepped into the room, still in his corduroy pants and cable-knit sweater that he’d worn to work. “I didn’t hear you sneak in, but— Oh, you brought food? What is that I smell? Burgers?” He gently shut the door and tiptoed across the room. “Gimme, gimme!”

Celeste had to laugh. “We have already eaten.”

“Oh, that’s nice, Celeste. You left me alone to eat all of that couscous lasagna that your mother made? I’m all for experimenting, but that thing was a dud.”

“I did not ask Matthew to bring me a burger, but I am sorry that you had an unpleasant meal. We were afraid it was stuffed peppers tonight, but that sounds even worse.”

Matt made gagging noises. “And how exactly does one turn couscous into lasagna?”

“I don’t know… Overcooking couscous and then flattening it into something resembling sheets… Well, never mind. Do you have fries at least?” He looked desperate.

“Matthew ate them all, or I would be happy to share,” Celeste said.

“Fine. I’ll wait until Erin falls asleep, and then I’ll sneak downstairs for something. I just hope that she doesn’t catch me. I don’t want to make her feel bad. I turned her down when she asked me accompany her to hot yoga today, so I need to be on good behavior.” He pushed delicate silver frames up from the bridge of his nose and then handed Celeste a large mailing envelope. “This came for you earlier. More college stuff, I imagine.”

Celeste read the return address. Barton College. “How strange. I received correspondence from one of their students today.”

“Based on the weight of this package, I’d say they’re certainly interested in you.” Her father winked. “As they should be. Don’t forget we’ve got the trip down to Yale this weekend. Your mother is beside herself with excitement, as you can imagine.”

“Probably excited about all the gnarly snacks she’s going to pack,” Matt murmured. “Glad I’m not going.”

“Be nice, or I’m going to make you join us,” Celeste snapped. “Our mother is dipping her culinary hand into new adventures. I applaud her. At least, theoretically.”

“I’d love to join you for a family car trip, really, but I have two study groups and a paper to finalize.” Matt stood. “Speaking of which, I should get going and do a little work tonight.”

“I’ll walk you out,” Roger said.

“Congratulations again on your presentation, Celeste.” Matt put a hand on her shoulder before walking away.

“Thank you, Matthew.”

“You got it, kiddo. Call me if you need anything, okay? For real.”

“I will.”

Alone again, Celeste opened the envelope from Barton College. It wouldn’t hurt to look. The liberal arts school appeared, at least in print form, similar to many others in the brochures she’d collected over the past few months, although it was certainly on the smaller side, with only twenty-five hundred students. Yet she spent a solid thirty minutes studying the course listings, reading about the history of the school, and admiring the full-color photos of the campus and students. Her own picture could be in a brochure, she thought. No one would know the difference. No one would be able to see from a photograph that she was not, in fact, like any of the other students.