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Authors: Alex Hairston

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They all laughed.
“Leave that man alone.” Just as Joel looked in the couple's direction the old man leaned in and kissed the young girl on her lips. Joel's eyes widened. “Oh damn, I guess you were right, Erin. That is her sugar daddy.”
Erin said, “All right, just face it. There's definitely a shortage of decent black men.”
Joel looked around again and said, “You might be right, but give us a break. Black men have had it hard since we arrived on this continent. We weren't allowed to be men for so long that now a lot of us just don't know how.”
Kenya said, “We know there are still some good black men out here. Regardless of what we say, we still believe in y'all. I love black men, but sometimes it does seem like all of the good men are already taken.”
Joel scooped up the last drops of crab dip with his bread and said, “Maybe you should broaden your search. I bet you're looking for somebody who is rich, intelligent, handsome, has good credit, a car, a house and so on. I'm not saying lower your standards, but at the same time be realistic. Work with a brotha.”
Kenya said, “I already tried that ...
working with a brotha
. Shoot, the average guy is intimidated by me because nine times out of ten I have more education and make more money than he does. I'm used to a certain lifestyle and some guys I've met in the past haven't even been outside of Baltimore. We compete with a lot of different obstacles to get to the good black men, and once we think we've found one ... what does he do?”
Erin added with attitude, “He cheats on you.”
“Say it again because I don't think the man heard you.”
“He cheats on you.”
Kenya said, “Excuse me, I need to run to the ladies' room.” She looked over at Erin and asked, “You coming?”
“Yeah, you know I'm coming.”
Erin asked Joel to watch their purses, gave him a kiss on the lips, and then followed Kenya to the ladies' room. He sat there and watched as Erin and Kenya strutted their fine asses inside, past the bar. Joel knew that the girls were headed off to strategize and gather more ammunition to complete their male-bashing mission. When they came back he planned to be ready for them.
Chapter 20
A
s soon as Erin and Kenya returned from the ladies' room Joel looked at Kenya and said, “A sistah cheated on me, Kenya. Now, whatcha saying?”
Erin didn't say a word; she just sat down next to Joel.
Kenya sat down and said, “I'm saying ... look next to you. You were able to find somebody else, and to top it off ... somebody who you seem to be very compatible with. We don't have it like that. I bet you could walk around and get at least ten phone numbers, in ten minutes or less, from black women who are full of potential. On the other hand, how long do you think it'd take for me to find the phone number of a brotha who would be willing to love me ... respect me ... and be my everything ... forever, or at least until we both got tired of each other?”
Joel laughed and said, “Now that you put it like that, I guess black women do have it pretty bad. What do you suggest?”
Kenya said, “Hold on a second, here comes our food.”
Drew Barrymore's look-alike placed a huge tray on a little folding rack. She sat each of their plates in front of them along with cocktail sauce and mustard for the crab cakes. She asked if there was anything else they needed and they all claimed to be fine.
They began to eat.
A few minutes passed and then Kenya said, “Joel, you asked what did I suggest since there is a shortage of black men. Have you ever heard of polyamory?”
Joel chewed his food slowly and looked at Erin out of the corner of his eye, as if to ask,
where the hell is she going with this?
He looked back at Kenya and said, “Yeah, I know what polyamory is. It's the practice of having more than one lover at the same time, with the full knowledge or agreement of the individuals involved. Basically it's a fancy term for sharing.”
Kenya smiled and said, “Very good, I'm impressed. You seem to know a little something about everything.”
“I try to do my homework, especially when it comes to love, sex and relationships. So, do you think that polyamory would cut down on cheating?”
“Yeah. With a polyamorous relationship everything is consensual. The people involved know who's going to be sleeping with who. It's not like swinging or recreational sex. It's not about being promiscuous or anything. To me it's about establishing a committed relationship with more than one lover, based on love and respect. Ideally, it can be two women and one man or two men and one woman.”
Joel said, “The part about the one guy and two girls sounds fun, but the part about two guys and a girl is a little too freaky and sounds G-A-Y to me.”
Kenya shook her head and said, “Freaky can be fun.”
He asked, “Have you ever been in a threesome?”
“No.”
They all agreed that they had never been involved in a threesome. For the most part Erin stayed quiet and let Kenya do the talking.
Kenya said, “So many people are unhappy or unfulfilled in their relationships that I bet that almost half of the couples you see out here tonight are cheating. Poly relationships are the thing of the future. The way I see it, we share our significant others unknowingly anyway. Why not just share them knowingly? All of us are nothing but recycled sex partners.”
Erin finally decided to say something. “Yuck. Did you have to put it like that?”
Kenya swept her hair behind her ear and said, “I'm just trying to be real.”
Erin said, “But you make that sound kind of gross, saying recycled sex partners.”
“No matter how gross it sounds, it's true. All of us at this table have had sex and been cheated on, am I correct?” Erin and Joel both nodded their heads. “See, I thought so. Joel, do you believe in monogamy?”
Without even thinking he said, “Yeah. I'm not the cheating kind of guy. I've found everything I need in Erin. What's the point in cheating?”
Kenya laughed and said, “Give it some time and I'm sure the urge will hit you. Erin, can you honestly sit here and say that you are ready and willing to commit one hundred percent of yourself to Joel? I'm not even talking about marriage. I mean, as friends and lovers. Are you willing to be exclusive?”
Erin avoided answering Kenya and began to look around. “Where the heck is that waitress? I need another daiquiri.”
Joel looked at Erin and said, “Go ahead and answer the question honestly.”
Kenya said, “No, you don't have to answer. I'm not here to create a problem.”
Erin moved her chair up to the table a little more and said, “I know, but I'll go ahead and answer. I'm very happy with you, Joel, but I can't say what I might do or how I might feel in the future. I don't know how realistic the concept of monogamy really is. We're constantly looking at other people and comparing. Attractions happen naturally. It might be unrealistic to be with one person forever.”
He said, “I don't agree.”
Joel started to think about his parents' relationship and then noticed a spark of light in the dark recesses of his mind. His mind opened and he began to understand a little more about where Kenya and Erin were coming from.
Kenya said, “Monogamy is possessive and insecure. Why should we be limited to one intimate partner? It's possible to love and be in love with more than one individual at a time. Polyamory is about freedom and sharing.”
“You sound like a damn hippie or something,” Joel added with a laugh.
Kenya said, “Shut up, Joel. Erin told me that you said your fantasy was to make love to two women at the same time.”
Joel was shocked. He looked at Erin and asked, “You told her that?”
“Yeah, I didn't mean any harm. It was just girl talk.”
Joel shook his head, sighed heavily and said, “It's okay.” He paused for a second. “I did say that my fantasy was to make love to two women at the same time, but I also said that something like that actually happening is unrealistic. If you wanna know the truth, lately I've been fantasizing about going to Erin's classroom one day and making love to her on top of her desk. My other fantasies are about marrying Erin and having kids.”
Erin said, “Awww, that's so sweet.”
Erin and Joel kissed.
Kenya looked at Joel and said, “No ... no ... no. Okay, hypothetically speaking ... what if I told you that I was interested in having a ménage à trois with you and Erin? What would you say?”
Joel lit up like a Christmas tree. He held back his excitement, scratched his head and said, “I'd probably say that sounded like a lot of fun, but I'd have to turn you down because I would never risk losing Erin. Stuff like that leads to so many problems and confusion. It's hard enough making a monogamous relationship work. Adding another lover triples the problems.”
Erin took Joel's hand into hers. She looked him in the eyes and asked, “Joel, what do you think of Kenya? And I want an honest answer.”
Joel looked puzzled. He didn't recognize this side of Erin. “What exactly are you asking? I need to know if you're my girlfriend. Because before I answer that type of question I wanna know where our relationship stands.”
“We're at a very interesting point in our relationship. I think it's time we expanded the boundaries and tested its strength at the same time. I can be whatever you need me to be. If titles are important to you then I'm your girlfriend.”
Kenya smiled and asked in a sexy little voice, “Can I be your girlfriend, too?”
Joel ignored Kenya's question and said, “At first I thought we all were joking around a little, but it sounds like y'all are seriously interested in a ménage à trois. Am I right?”
Erin locked her arm around Joel's and said, “I'll answer that question honestly if you tell me whether you're attracted to Kenya or not.”
Without hesitation Joel said, “Of course I am. She's beautiful. Looking at her is almost like looking at you.”
Kenya smiled from ear to ear. “Thank you, Joel. I think you're drop-dead gorgeous.” She took a deep breath and said, “You're so sexy to me. Everything about you is sexy ... the way you talk, move, and the way you look. I can see your chiseled body through that shirt. Can I touch you?”
Joel didn't know what to say. He just smiled and mumbled, “Huh?”
Kenya had touched him earlier, but this was different. She slowly ran her hand up and then down the left side of Joel's muscular chest while Erin rubbed his right hand. His dick got rock-hard. People around them noticed the unusual display of affection. Kenya continued to touch Joel's chest with her left hand and placed her right hand under the table on his left thigh. She wanted to stroke his dick, but didn't want to move too fast.
The people who noticed what was going on looked like they wanted to know what Joel, Erin and Kenya had to eat or drink that made them act like that all of a sudden. Joel didn't resist Kenya's advances because it was so stimulating to be seated with his girlfriend while she allowed another woman to seduce him. The fact that they were in public added to his excitement. Erin and Kenya were two very sexually charged women who seemed to be in tune with Joel's erotic side. The sexual tension between them increased.
Erin said, “I'm glad you were honest because I knew you liked Kenya from the moment you saw her.”
Kenya stopped touching Joel's chest but continued to move her hand along his thigh. She said, “I could tell you liked me from the way you kept staring at me and my titties.”
Joel laughed and said, “Hold up. You might have to move your hand off my leg. You're making it kind of hard to maintain my composure in front of all these people.”
In a seductive tone Kenya said, “I wanna make it hard.”
Joel took a deep breath and said, “I'm not even gonna lie. I did take a few quick peeps at your breasts, but that was just a normal reaction. Look at them.”
Erin continued to stroke his hand. “We understand. Nobody's mad at you for being a man. If you didn't look at Kenya's big-ass titties then I would have been worried.”
Joel said, “All right, Erin, we're finished with my part. What about you wanting a threesome?”
“All I know is that I'd love to be around the two people who mean the most to me every day of my life, and it would be fun to share intimate moments together.”
Joel asked, “Are you saying that you want to be intimate with a woman?”
“Yeah, but that doesn't necessarily mean sexually.”
Kenya said, “Intimacy goes beyond sex. It's emotional and spiritual too, you know? Intimacy is just another word for closeness.”
“Don't get offended by me asking this, but are y'all lesbians?”
Erin answered quickly, “No.”
Kenya said, “We're not lesbians. We're just challenging the traditional roles of women in relationships and accepting ourselves for who we are by actively expressing our personal desires. What Erin and I feel for each other goes beyond sex or gender. I'm attracted to Erin the person, and not just Erin the woman. I've been around her so long that it feels like she's part of me.”
Joel kissed Erin and said, “No, she's part of me. When I first saw her I knew she was special. When we touched, I looked down at our hands and it was like seeing an extension of myself.”
Kenya said, “I'm not trying to outdo you, but when I first saw her it was like seeing a reflection of myself.”
Joel laughed and said, “Oh my God, you've got a girl crush.”
Kenya blushed. “So. I mean ... I dunno.” She bit her bottom lip, looked at Erin and asked, “Do I?”
Erin smiled and said, “Yeah. I think you do. We both have an emotional attachment to each other.”
Kenya looked at Erin and said, “I love your personality and your spirit.”
Joel shook his head and said, “I don't know what's up with y'all, but I kind of like it. Have the two of you ever done anything sexual to each other, like kissing or touching? And I have to ask ... any licking, toy play or penetration?”
Erin said, “No.”
Kenya replied, “Uh-uhh. None of the above.”
Erin felt the need to clarify things. “We're both very attracted to men ... incredibly attracted to you.”
Joel said, “For a minute y'all sounded like lipstick lesbian or bisexual.”
The girls felt kind of offended by Joel's remark.
Erin said, “I'm not willing to label myself as anything.”
“Me either ... no labels ... I'm just Kenya. Don't try to categorize me. But honestly, I never knew that I could have feelings like this. Erin is the only woman I've ever felt this close to. Women are naturally more affectionate toward each other than men are toward each other. I have to admit that I do have a special attraction to Erin's sensuality and affection.”

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