Foster Siblings 3: Brokedown Hearts (48 page)

“And I did all this without consulting you, not because I don’t respect or care about your opinion…” Ben paused, clearly struggling with what to say, and blinked some wetness away before continuing, “But because my instinct, my personality, my very being, feels that it is my right to make these choices for us. My brain screams at me that you should always know and accept that the decisions I make for us are correct and good, not only for me, but for you too. But at the same time, I know that’s not the way it’s supposed to be between couples. I know most men and women would be pissed off at what I did—and men have ended relationships with me in the past when I’ve made much smaller decisions without discussing them first.”

Sliding down the glass to the floor, Ben held his hair back and studied David with terrible bleakness in his eyes. “I’ve tried to change this part of myself in the past, just like I tried with other parts of me, but I can’t. This is who I am. I made a series of decisions for us today, and I acted. But on the way home, I started worrying about how much right I truly had to do what I did.” Ben’s uncertainty saturated the very air they breathed, and as the man went on, so fragile, David started running to him, answering the cry in Ben’s soul.

“Relocating is such a huge decision,” Ben stated, “and it’s such a big change, and you love your job in Coleman, and you have real friends there, and you’re even getting pieces of your family back with the way Travis has come around—”

With a rush of love bursting inside him, David dropped to his knees in front of Ben and put his hand over the man’s mouth. “My place is at your side,” he told Ben, not an ounce of wavering in his tone. “I believe in and support you, and I already know every decision you make comes with the best intentions for all of us.” His chest squeezing tightly, David brushed his thumbs across Ben’s sharp cheekbones and pressed a gentle kiss to his lips. “I will always choose you, sweet man. Do you get that? I choose you. I want to be with you, first, last, and in between, wherever that may be. I choose you above all other things or people. I don’t know why nobody has picked you first before in your life, but they were blind, and it is my good fortune, one I don’t intend to throw away. I go where you go. If that means you really want to embrace this promotion in Miami, then I will pack us up, and Mika and Elsa and I will follow you.”

Clutching David around the waist, Ben argued, “But you love the shelter. You’ll be crushed to leave it; don’t try to tell me you won’t.” Ben held David between his splayed legs and fused their foreheads together, locking their gazes. “Part of what drives me is my desire to always keep you happy, even above myself. So although I already told Martin and Adrienne yes, I’ve begun to question if it was the move that will make you the happiest you can be.”

“I do love the shelter,” David admitted, easily able to give Ben the truth, “and I’ll keep working there while we still live here. And when the time comes, I’ll miss Erin and Sam and Roy and all the others too.” His wheels already spinning, David began calculating the few extra things he would need to make happen in order to continue working with animals in the future—something he’d had no training for but had come to adore. “I’ll talk with Erin right away, let her know the situation, and over the next year and a half, I’ll spend time getting acquainted even better with the shelters down south. Remember, I’ve already done some research on them for use on the website. And Erin knows a lot of those people, and I think she has enough faith in me now that she would put in a good word for me. With luck, by the time we’re ready to move, I’ll find a position with one of them and have a new job to go to too.”

“Okay.” Even though Ben spoke an agreement, he shook his head against David’s, and too much torment clouded out the amber in his eyes. “But there’s Mika too. I know you said you like him a lot, and obviously I love him, so he’s coming with us. I’m throwing you into a parental role with him, though, possibly a primary one, since I’ll be working a bunch of hours when the agency first opens. That kind of crazy schedule will probably exist for a good year after, before everything finds its groove and settles down. Mika is still working through a lot of shit. He’s struggling and afraid right now, which actually makes it easier to keep him close to home, but once he finds his way again, he’s going to cut loose and be a shit ton to handle. I’m not saying I won’t be there at all”—word after word spilled out of Ben at breakneck speed—“or that I’m not going to keep on top of him, but you’re going to be doing a lot of the day-to-day on your own. That’s a lot to put on your shoulders, just to be with me.”

Fired up, David shook Ben hard. “Hey, ‘just to be with you’ is not throwaway for me. I love you. And I know what that means now, and what it really feels like, way more than I did when first told you I was falling in love with you. When that bastard had me, and I wasn’t sure I would make it out alive, my fears and thoughts and worries were about you more than they were about me. No matter what happened, I just kept asking God that he let you be okay with whatever went down. I didn’t want you to hurt or be in pain for anything, and that is love, and that is even more relevant to me than the insane attraction I have for you.” Wiping streaks of wetness from Ben’s eyes, David held Ben’s head and pressed kisses to each eyelid. “You are my life, Ben. And Mika is now a part of that world too. The fact that you place so much faith in me to care for him, when you’ve seen up close how I struggle with my demons too…” Tears now streaked openly down David’s face, and he could hardly find his voice through the emotion choking his vocal chords. “That you trust in my sanity and my ability to become a strong man again, one of enough quality to play a major role in your brother’s life, means as much to me as your words of love do.”

Without hesitation, Ben said, “I trust you in everything. I put my heart and my life in your hands. You’ve awakened so much to who you are, and with each day that you grow more comfortable in your own skin, I notice your quirks diminishing at an equal rate. You’re going to be just fine, David”—Ben finally cracked the softest, cutest damned smile, and the light flicked back on in his eyes—“and I am so lucky I’m the one who noticed and cherished you first.”

Still teary, his heart overfull with love, David took one of Ben’s hands in his and brought it to his lips to kiss the palm. “In your eyes, I can see the reflection of who I really am, and it makes me feel safe and good and sane.”

“And loved,” Ben reminded him, touching his cheek. “You’re very loved.”

David whispered roughly, “So are you. So are you.”

With a heavy exhale, Ben relaxed back against the window, his hand still twined with David’s. “So we’re moving to Miami?”

“Yes, we are.” Possibilities popping left and right in David’s mind, he leaned in and smacked a loud kiss to Ben’s lips. “And I’m really excited about it too. Hopefully it won’t be too long before Travis can find work in Hialeah—remember, they’re going to move for Brittany—and then we’ll just be a hop, skip, and jump away from them when we move. It’s going to be great for all of us.” He grinned big at Ben. “I can feel it in my bones.”

“Good.” His smile wispy and his gaze momentarily far away, Ben swung his and David’s entwined hands back and forth between them. “I’ll get you a house with a lot of open land, and of course we’ll bring Elsa, and you can bring home as many animals as you want.” In response, David squealed, unable to contain himself, and Ben chuckled and squeezed his hand. “I love looking at you when you’re happy, and when you feel safe to expose how much you care about everything. It’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever witnessed in my life.”

Choked up to his core, David could do no more than whisper, “Thank you.”

Hazel gaze back to twinkling with happy amber and mischievous, hot-and-bothered green, Ben replied, “There are so many ways you can thank me that I’ll enjoy better than words.” He suddenly pushed up from the floor, dragging David to his feet too. “How much longer will Mika be gone?”

With one scorching look from Ben, David warmed all over. “I don’t know.” He sidled up close, rubbed their sweat-and-cum-sticky bodies together, and purred as his cock and ass reawakened. “But he said something about him and Sasha starting a binge-watching session on a show they both want to see, so it could be quite a while.”

Ben eased his hand down David’s hip, over his ass, and down the back of his thigh, surely gathering his own drying seed that coated David’s crease and inner thighs. “I think we need a shower. Do you feel like taking a shower?” Without waiting for David to answer, Ben tugged him into the master bathroom and slammed the door. “You can clean me and scrub me down good, and I promise I will appreciate every form your gratitude takes.” Ben stepped into the huge shower stall and turned on both rain showerheads. “Probably enough to suds you down, clean you too, and then take you against the tile as a thank-you.” Ben looked down at his flaccid cock, grimaced, but just as quickly glanced around the bathroom and grinned wickedly. “I might not be able to get it up again right away, but I can think of a hundred different ways to take you without leaving this room, and it’ll be so good you’ll scream every time you come, without me ever using my cock.”

David leaped into the shower to get to Ben, and he moved so fast he skidded on the stone tiles. Ben reacted with lightning speed and caught him before he took a nosedive into the floor.

Red-faced, David raised his arms above his head like an Olympic gymnast and bowed. “Where’s the soap?” He then rubbed his hands together and waggled his brows. “Let’s get this going and make it good. I need at least another three fuckings from you before the sun goes down.”

With steamy water running in rivulets down his bronze skin, Ben bowed back and barked with laughter, a sound straight from his belly. Visible ease and happiness swirled in a glow around him, as if the natural light emanating from within him revealed his very soul for David to see. Naked under the recessed lights and flow of water, Ben was the most stunningly handsome man in the world, and David told him so.

Ben growled, “I love you, honey,” in response, in that sexy way of his, and then kissed David like a man who intended to sink in and feast for days. He dragged David under the water, backed him against the wall, and David knew that a higher power was real. Somehow God had given him a second chance, and David was the luckiest man in creation. He’d found his other half, the other person who made him whole, and amazingly, that man felt the same way about him.

When least expected, miracles reach down from above and touch lives forever.

David threw his arms around Ben and kissed him back, all while silently vowing to treasure this life and make Ben the happiest, most loved man on earth.

Epilogue

Suit pants and underwear around his ankles, Ben leaned back against the front door of his home and moaned long and low as David took his cock nearly to the back of his throat.
Good Christ
—David pulled up and whirled his tongue around the thick head, and Ben jerked his hips as his nuts swelled painfully with seed—
I am the luckiest man on earth.

A couple of hours ago, Ben had texted David a brief message to get ready to celebrate tonight, along with a few other instructions for how David should prepare. But holy mother, Ben had not asked or expected David to greet him at the door at the end of his workday with a blowjob.

Dressed in jeans and a blue button-down shirt, kneeling on the floor at Ben’s feet, David looked up at Ben, his mouth full with Ben’s dick, and the smile he couldn’t make with his lips twinkled with shades of turquoise in his blue eyes. Holding on to Ben’s thighs, David dragged his lips up and down Ben’s shaft, repeatedly taking more than half of the thick length, and sent the nerve endings within into a tailspin of sensations.

Ben adored it when David sucked his cock, not so much because it felt so damned good—although it did—but because David’s whole face lit up when he did it. The pleasure the man received in turning Ben on this way vibrated not only in his mouth and eyes, but in his entire body. Getting Ben aroused seemed to give David an electrical charge, even down to the tips of his fingers, and ignited Ben’s flesh wherever David chose to touch.

Sucking Ben’s prick past his lips, David ran his hands up under Ben’s shirt, over his stomach, to his nipples, and tugged the tightening tips.
Oh fuck
—awakening all over, Ben moaned and writhed against the wood at his back—
yes, so good
. The twisting pull on Ben’s nipples wound all the way down to his prick, and Ben pumped his hips harder, beginning to fuck David’s face in earnest.

David switched from playing with Ben’s nipples to clawing at his chest and whimpering around Ben’s cock. Without having to see his man’s dick, Ben knew David appreciated the step up in aggression and was hard as a rock himself.

Tunneling his fingers into David’s neatly combed blond locks, Ben canted his hips and drove his length in and out of David’s widely parted lips. In response David dug his fingers even harder into Ben’s flesh. He scraped down Ben’s belly and outer thighs, which made blood rush to thicken Ben’s prick even more.

“Scratch me as much as you need, honey.” While feeding his dick into David’s mouth, Ben lovingly brushed his fingers through the man’s hair. “Give me everything you’ve got.”

That azure twinkle in David’s eyes darkened to a rich midnight, and Ben’s heart kicked into another gear. David had something up his proverbial sleeve; Ben knew it. Before Ben could conjure a speculation, David wound his hands around to Ben’s buttocks, split the cheeks, and plunged his thumb all the way into Ben’s ass, while at the same time going deep down on Ben’s cock. He pushed the head past his throat and swallowed.

Oh fucking shit yes
. So damned good, Ben roared David’s name to the sky. David forced Ben to experience acute pleasure on both ends, and a twining, swirling cacophony of joyous sensations erupted in Ben’s ass and cock. David plied Ben in front and back and threw Ben straight over the cliff into heaven. No time to prepare, in a rough shout, Ben bowed in an arc away from the door and let loose down the man’s throat. Ejaculate poured out of Ben in a series of violent spurts, but David stayed with him the whole way, taking everything, all the while looking up at Ben with adoration lighting his eyes.