God's Little Freak (21 page)
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Authors: Franz-Joseph Kehrhahn
“For now, in your case, yes.
Go to the club you normally go to and enjoy it!” God says.
Kevin i
s so surprised at God’s reasoning, but it isn’t the first time that God appears to have His priorities wrong.
The following day, he contacts all his friends he knows
from the club and no one is going to the club on Friday. Kevin finds it unbelievable that not one of his rather big circle of friends is going. He asks his mother who says, “You’re not getting my car. If it were up to me, you wouldn’t even be going to the club. You’re far too young to hang out in places like that.”
Kevin does
what any other teenager would do: he goes to ask his father. “Could you speak to Mom so that I can borrow her car? I want to go to the club this weekend and none of my friends are going. I feel I have to go. She doesn’t want to lend it to me, because she still doesn’t like me being gay. I’m sure that is the case,” Kevin says.
“Maybe she doe
s, maybe she doesn’t, who knows? She doesn’t like you going to a club at your age. That’s the issue. She thinks I’m irresponsible for allowing you to go. We’ve had our arguments, I can tell you that,” his father says.
“Yeah, OK, but how do I get there?” Kevin asks impatiently.
“You can take my car,” Kevin’s father replies.
“Yours?
That huge thing? I don’t want to show up in that!” Kevin says.
“You’ll have to. I’m not going to argue with your mother again about you. Forget it. Take it or leave it. I don’t have another car,” his father says.
“Sure, I’ll take it. I love driving it, but parking is an issue,” Kevin says.
“You must turn a bit wider, that’s all. Just don’t scratch it
,” his father says.
And so Kevin
is set for Friday. Although he has been there quite a few times, this is the first time he’ll be going because God says so. And it’s the first time he’ll be going alone.
On Friday, he
goes to the gym as usual. During winter it is not so busy and he manages to put in quite a workout. The entire day feels like an eternity.
Because of that, he
goes to the club earlier than usual and finds it quite different before it gets so busy. He gets a Hunter’s and sits at the bar, because there aren’t that many people dancing. He thinks about his life and about the courses to consider. He feels peaceful and happy with himself.
There are some regulars he knows and he speaks
to them about this and that. An hour later, the club begins to fill up. As strange as it may seem, he is not in the mood to dance as he usually does. In the corner there are a few tables and he goes to sit there to check everyone out. When he gets there, though, a few other guys sit down before him, so he changes his mind.
As he turns around, his eye catches someone towards his left across the room. He has another look and their eyes meet. Immediately,
from across the room, there is a spark between them. He begins to breathe more deeply, swallows excessively; his stomach muscles pull together as his whole body begins to shake. His genitals feel more alert, his knees feel weak and he can’t move. All the feelings completely overwhelm him. Kevin finds this guy to be strikingly beautiful.
He i
s looking at someone with blond hair, big eyes, clear skin and red lips and well built. “Definitely a show-off wearing a white vest in winter,” Kevin thinks. The guy looks at Kevin and smiles. Kevin smiles back, biting his lower lip and then looking upwards.
“Do you like him?
” God asks.
“Gee, as if I don’t have enough to deal with…
Give me a break!” he tells God. He exhales deeply and continues, “Do I like him? He’s adorable, wow! A gym bunny is not really my type, but I can get used to that!” Kevin replies.
“Go and say ‘H
i!’” God spurs him on.
“Are you crazy
?! He’s too hot! I’ll probably just stutter and say something stupid,” Kevin replies.
“Confidence still not as it was when you were in St Lucia that holiday, is it?
Confidence is innocence matured. Go on now - life is for living! Make a move, Kevin!” God continues.
“I don’t know what to say,” Kevin replies.
“I can assure you, if you walk up to him and say: ‘I like peanut butter,’ he will be dazzled by you. You’ll think of something. Go! ” God says.
As if there is some invisible power pushing him forward, Kevin begins to move towards this guy. He is totally overwhelmed, feels a bit dizzy and
his body feels out of control. Yet he moves forward, staring at this hot blond guy every now and then. “What will I say?” he wonders. “I can’t think straight!”
Just befo
re he gets to the guy, God says, “Look at the guy next to you with one green and blue shoe.”
Kevin starts
to laugh at the fact that the Creator of Heaven and Earth has the time and the humour to comment about someone’s shoes in a club.
The guy then asks him,
“What’s so funny?”
“Look,” Kevin says
, “at the guy wearing one blue and one green shoe.”
The guy laughs and says,
“I just noticed it myself. Isn’t that totally random? Especially in a gay bar!”
Kevin feel
s immediately as if he already knows this guy and says, “Yeah, indeed! I’m Kevin. And you?” he asks as he holds out his hand.
“I’m David
,” he says as they shake hands…
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