Heart's Debt (Lost Lords Book 5) (17 page)

“He hates you too much. It would be a wasted effort.”

“Mr. Roxbury…Kit…” She rested a palm on his chest. “Tell me what to do.”

“Ally yourself with me, and you’ll be fine.”

“Would you…consider marrying me?”

It was on the tip of his tongue to say he would, but he understood how much it would upset Damian. “No. I’ve extended the sole offer I ever will.”

He drew her to him and kissed her again. This time, he didn’t hold back, didn’t limit himself to a quick peck on the lips. He captured hers in a torrid embrace. His cock was hard as stone, and he pressed himself into her, letting her feel how a man grew aroused, how his body indicated pleasure and passionate hunger.

She surprised him by joining in as if they’d been lovers forever, and very soon he was out onto a ledge where he shouldn’t go. He was desperate to toss her onto the lumpy, tattered bed, to take the only thing she had of any value.

But he wouldn’t force the issue.
She
had to come to him.
She
had to initiate the encounter. It had to be her choice, her instigation. Otherwise she’d always blame him, would claim he’d coerced her.

When he couldn’t restrain himself another second, he pulled away, and she actually reached out as if she yearned to keep him near.

“Why did you stop?” she asked.

“I detest this decrepit house and all it represents. I won’t stand around kissing you as if I’m glad you’re living here.”

“It’s Mr. Drummond’s fault that I am.”

“No, it’s your brother’s fault. Damian simply pounced at the right moment and seized what your brother didn’t cherish.”

He walked to the door, and she looked incredibly dismayed.

“You’re leaving?”

“Yes. This room is filthy, and I can’t abide it.”

“You think I can?”

“I’m not sure. I’ve given you the perfect opportunity to escape, but you don’t seem in any hurry to flee.”

“Why won’t you listen to me? You’re demanding a price that’s more than I can pay!”

He ignored the comment. “I have chores to complete this afternoon, but I don’t have any plans after supper. I’m free all night.”

“Meaning what?”

“I’ve moved into your old bedchamber.”

“I’d tell you I’m offended by the news, but I suppose it would be pointless to mention it.”

“Yes, it would be. I trust you remember where it’s located?”

“Yes, I remember.”

“Sneak over any time after nine.”

“To do what?”

His lazy gaze roamed down her shapely torso. “Spend a few hours with me, and your problems will be solved.”

“My mother would kill me.”

“You mother doesn’t have to ever know.”

He strolled out, whistling as he ambled back to the manor.

Would she show up? He figured it was fifty-fifty either way, but if he hadn’t lured her over on this occasion, he’d have plenty of other chances in the future. The next two days would pass rapidly. Once she was packing her bag, once guards were herding her out to the road, she’d likely have a very different opinion.

I
’ll take that bag
of coins, boy.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about, sir.”

Damian was sitting on the deck eating a bowl of thin gruel. It contained a lump of unidentifiable meat that might have come from any animal, and he hoped it wasn’t a rat. Since it was early in the voyage, there was no reason to suspect it might be. The cook had to still have salted beef in the galley. Didn’t he? He shuddered and forced down the tough bite.

The ship’s doctor had just made a ridiculous speech, informing them—since they would only be fed twice a day—they needed to eat what they were served even if they didn’t like it. He’d declared it their duty as loyal citizens of the Crown to stay healthy on the journey so they’d be able to work hard once they arrived in Botany Bay.

His comments had evoked gales of laughter from the miserable group who couldn’t care less about king or country, and there was no chance of anyone failing to clean his plate. Most of them had spent a large portion of their lives nearly starving and any food was considered good enough.

He glanced up at the man who’d accosted him, and he tried to appear polite and respectful, but very firm too. The man was tall and plump and showed no signs of the malnutrition that affected so many others. He was a bully who took what he wanted from people who were weaker.

“Give it to me,” the man snarled.

“I don’t have any coins, sir. I’m an orphan, and I’m certain I’m the poorest person on this vessel.”

“I know Michael Scott, and I saw him meeting with you before we sailed.”

“If you know Mr. Scott as you claim you do, then I can’t imagine why you’re speaking to me in that tone.”

“He may have been a friend of yours when you crawled around in the gutter in London, but he’s a long distance away. His fancy name can’t protect you.”

“No, I dare say I can protect myself.”

“Yes, you’re a regular ferocious lion, aren’t you?”

“I’m minding my own business, and I wish you’d leave me to my dinner.”

“You’re one of Scott’s harem, aren’t you? I bet you’ve committed hundreds of crimes at his behest.”

“You’re wrong.”

“Michael Scott looks after his own, and he’s no pauper. Give me that bag!”

The man flung Damian’s bowl to the side, sending his meager meal across the deck so he’d be hungry all day. Then he reached into Damian’s shirt and extracted the bag Damian had denied having. He shook the pouch, chortling with glee as the coins clinked together.

“I thought you said you had nothing!”

“I must have forgotten it was there.”

“From now on, you’ll give me whatever I ask. If I have to search for it, you’ll be sorry.”

“Yes, sir.”

The man clouted him on the head, merely to let others see how horrid he could be. Damian suffered the blow with good grace, but as the fiend turned away, he muttered, “You’ll regret that.”

Kit was next to him, having silently observed the encounter, and he asked, “What did you say?”

“I said he’ll regret it. In the future, everyone who mistreats me has to pay.”

The hulking oaf walked down the deck and began pestering a boy who was smaller and younger than Damian. The guards didn’t intervene. They rarely involved themselves in the prisoners’ quarrels. They seemed to enjoy the bickering; it broke up the monotony.

“How will you make him pay?” Kit inquired. “He’s bigger and older and crueler than you.”

“He might be bigger and older, but he’s not crueler.”

“He’ll be inflicting himself on us the remainder of the trip.”

“No, he won’t.”

“Why not?”

“He won’t bother us much longer.”

“Why won’t he? Will a wave sweep him into the ocean? Will lightning strike him dead? What?”

“You never know.” Damian was already calculating the sort of
accident
that could befall the man.

“I hate that he took your money.”

“Don’t worry. I’ll get it back.”

Kit peered nervously around the deck. “Don’t say that so loud.”

“Why?”

“Because if he’s harmed, they’ll blame you.”

“They can blame me. It really doesn’t matter anymore.”

“If you died, what would become of me?”

“I expect you’d survive.”

“I’m not too sure.” Kit scowled. “Promise you won’t do anything stupid.”

“Me? Be stupid? No. From this point on, whatever I do, it will always be something that’s very, very smart.”

“What if it’s smart, but you’re caught anyway?”

“Then I’ll pay the price.”

“I don’t want you paying any prices. It’s not worth it. Especially not over an ogre like
him
.”

Their tormenter had grabbed a boy by the ankle and was threatening to hurl him overboard. The boy was screaming in terror, and it was a bit too much for the guards. They ordered him to put the boy down, and the idiot was dropped on his head, the impact knocking him unconscious.

People went back to their scanty victuals, pretending no assault had occurred.

“I don’t understand adults,” Kit murmured. “Why must they be so mean?”

“No one is brave enough to make them stop.” Damian stared at the man, then nodded. “I’ll make him stop. It might take a while, but I will.”

The rest of the day passed uneventfully. There were chores to be done, prayers to be said, school lessons to be learned, but the subjects were so far beneath him that he couldn’t force himself to concentrate.

Supper was served, and the fare was gruel again. He wolfed his down, desperate to be certain every drop landed in his belly before anyone could throw it on the deck.

Ultimately he crawled below to sleep in the narrow bunk he’d been assigned to share with Kit. In such close quarters, they might have tossed and turned and kept each other awake, but at bedtime they were so exhausted that they slumbered soundly.

The next morning as the bell rang to summon them onto the deck for prayers and breakfast, they dressed and clambered up the ladder. As they assembled, they could see that trouble was brewing on the other side of the ship.

The captain and First Officer were there. Several guards were there too. They were huddled together, frowning and gesturing into the hold.

The preacher continued preaching, expecting the boys to chime in at the appropriate spots. Usually they raced through the words because the faster they were spoken, the sooner they could eat.

“What happened?” was the whisper that drifted down the row.

“Someone died,” was the reply that wafted by.

“Who was it?”

“The bully who picked on everybody.”

“He was stabbed in the heart, quick and quiet, as if a ghost snuck in and sucked the life out of him…”

Kit glared at Damian, a brow raised in question, but Damian stared straight ahead. He studied the rolling waves, curious as to how he’d remain sane during the arduous journey, curious as to how many months would pass before they arrived.

D
amian was in the
sitting room of the master suite. He’d found a fancy chair in the library and had had it dragged in and positioned in the center of the floor. It was large and ornate, like a piece of furniture a king would use. He lounged against the cushions and glanced at the clock on the mantle over the fireplace.

It was one o’clock, the hour he’d told Miles to arrive and beg for mercy. Of course, as he’d predicted, Miles was too much of a coward to put in an appearance. According to the men who worked in the stable, Miles had stolen a horse and ridden away immediately after his failed card game.

No one had seen him since, and Damian had considered chasing him down and retrieving the horse, but he wouldn’t fight over trifles. He was simply glad Miles had left with so little trouble.

Kit was standing at his side along with a few guards. They’d been joined by the upper-level servants. They all loathed Miles and would relish the chance to view the spectacle. Word would spread through the neighborhood that he could have protected his female kin, but he hadn’t. Miles had always been adept at gliding away from unpleasant situations, but this time there would be no hiding his true tendencies.

The clock chimed, and Damian grinned, delighted to have been proved right.

“Are we finished?” Kit asked. “You know he’s not coming.”

“I know,” Damian said. “I merely wanted everyone else to know too.” He gestured to the servants. “There’s no need to tarry. You can head downstairs and resume your chores.”

But before they could move, motion erupted out in the hall, and to his stunned surprise Miss Fogarty entered.

Clearly she’d fussed over the image she wished to project. Her hair was styled in a fancy way, with curls and braids and flowers woven into the strands. She’d donned a glorious blue gown with a scooped neckline and puffed sleeves. It had a full skirt with petticoats that swished when she walked. The bodice was cut very low, and she was wearing a corset that was laced very tight so she was displaying a fascinating amount of cleavage.

Every man present focused in on her like hounds at the hunt who’d scented the fox.

“Miss Fogarty?” he huffed. “What are you doing here?”

Without replying, she approached and fell to her knees, her palms on the floor so she looked like a sinner prostrate at an altar.

“My dearest Mr. Drummond,” she said, “I most humbly apologize to you for all the hurts that were inflicted on you by my family.”

He scowled. “Miss Fogarty…”

“I realize you were hoping my cousin, Miles, would come, but I have come in his stead. Have mercy on me, my aunt, and my cousin, Sophia. We are terribly sorry for every wrong you suffered, and we most respectfully beseech you to forgive us.”

“Miss Fogarty…Georgina…”

“We implore you to let us remain at Kirkwood. We regret the actions of our male relatives. They were cruel to you when you were just a boy, and you didn’t deserve what happened. But Kirkwood has always been our home, and we entreat you to allow us to stay.”

Damian was too astonished to respond. People were furtively peeking at him, uneasy at witnessing her emotional appeal. It had been genuine and heartrending.

“Get up, Miss Fogarty,” he murmured.

“I’m begging you, Mr. Drummond, and if need be, I will beg you until I draw my last breath.”

Damian glared down at her, feeling torn and irked. She shouldn’t be begging and prostrate. It was supposed to have been Miles, with Damian understanding that Miles wouldn’t oblige him. The whole purpose of the idiotic episode had been to embarrass Miles, to demonstrate for the staff that he was a selfish dolt, but she’d wrecked his scheme.

Her poignant remarks would be repeated over and over. She’d be painted as a martyr, and he’d be painted the villain.

He waved to Kit, and Kit started herding everyone out the door. Shortly the room was empty, and an awkward silence descended.

“Your audience is gone, Miss Fogarty. You can stop now.”

“Not until you answer me,” she had the audacity to retort. “Will you have mercy?”

“No,” he scoffed.

“Why not?” She gazed up at him. “Isn’t this what you wanted? For a Marshall to beg?”

“I wanted your Uncle Edward to beg. I wanted your cousin, Miles, to beg. Your words are like dust in the wind. I can’t hear them.”

She stood and came closer, falling to her knees again, and she was near enough to rest her hands on his thighs. He could perceive the heat emanating from her body, could smell a subtle whiff of perfume.

“No matter what I try,” she said, “it won’t help, will it?”

“No.”

“You had decided before I ever arrived.”

“I decided long ago, probably the first time I was starving on a London street, and I stole an apple from a shopkeeper’s basket. I vowed I would return and show
no
mercy.”

“But I’ve done everything you asked. You demanded an affair, and I agreed. You demanded I beg, and I humiliated myself. You can’t sit there like a stone statue, claiming it’s futile. I won’t let you.”

He couldn’t bear how she was looking at him, as if he was a reasonable man, as if they were friends and she could persuade him with some coaxing comments.

She was pressuring him outrageously, and it was working. He was desperately attracted to her and yearned to make her happy. He was confused by the effect she generated, but it was there and real, as tangible as if he could reach out and touch it.

Yet if he succumbed he’d always regret it.

From the moment he’d met her, he’d been pushing her away, telling himself he didn’t like her, but that wasn’t true. He suspected he liked her much more than he should so what was he to do with her?

He was a violent fiend, and people crossed him at their peril, but he was never deliberately cruel. So why torment her? Why be so malicious? He was the one who’d suggested a dalliance, who’d advised her to save herself with lurid activity. Why not forge ahead? Why keep denying himself?

If he fornicated with her, much of his infatuation would wane. He’d quickly discover there was nothing special or unique about her. He’d be over her, and when she next visited him and batted her pretty lashes, he’d be immune to the odd charm she possessed that drove him wild.

He grabbed her and yanked her off the floor, then he was kissing her and kissing her as he rose and marched into the bedchamber. Her legs were wrapped around his waist, and he hadn’t stopped kissing her. Not for a single second. They tumbled onto the bed, and he rolled on top of her and pinned her down.

She was frowning, apparently realizing she might have bitten off more than she could chew.

He nodded. “You win.”

“Win what?”

“You can be my mistress, and I will permit you to remain at Kirkwood.”

“What about my cousin and my aunt?”

“Let’s see how pleased I am with you, then we’ll dicker over terms.”

“My aunt and cousin have to be safe too.”

“I don’t care about your cousin and your aunt.”

“Then I can’t proceed.”

“Miss Fogarty, we are far beyond the spot where you can renege. You have offered yourself a half-dozen times, and I’ve finally accepted. You’re instigated this mess. Not me. I’ve told you and told you not to come here, not to pester me. Don’t lie there and pretend you didn’t grasp the consequences.”

“This isn’t what I planned. Why must you be so—”

“Miss Fogarty! You talk too much.”

“Well, you never listen so I have to repeat myself.”

“I hear you.”

“But you haven’t said you’ll give me what I want.”

“No, but I’m about to give you precisely what you need.”

Mr. Drummond dipped down
and kissed her. She was trapped beneath him, and he was such a large man. She couldn’t shove him off.

She was determined to argue until he relented and agreed that Augusta and Sophia would be safe, but he was so hard-headed. Perhaps the way to sway him was to participate in the salacious acts he requested. He’d insisted—if she pleased him—they could debate terms.

Was he serious? Would he keep his word?

She doubted it. From the outset, she’d recognized she shouldn’t trust him. Naught had happened to change her opinion.

“Would you slow down?” she asked, feeling breathless and overwhelmed.

“No.”

“I’m a novice at this, and I’m very nervous.”

“Yes, Miss Fogarty, and I distinctly recall informing you that I never bother with innocents. The main reason is that they’re eager to discuss every little detail.”

“It might calm me.”

“Be silent, Miss Fogarty. Let me fornicate in peace.”

“Fornicate? What does that mean?”

“I’m not about to tell you. You’ll understand the concept once we’re through.”

He renewed his ardent kissing, and she enthusiastically joined in, but she was extremely anxious about her decision. She hadn’t imagined she’d convince him to proceed. During their prior encounters, he’d been so reluctant.

Her wish had been granted, but what had persuaded him? Was it the blue dress? The flowers in her hair? The shocking amount of cleavage Augusta had urged her to display? Whatever it had been, she’d pushed him past his breaking point. He was about to do unspeakable things to her. Wasn’t it too late to complain?

Without warning, he bared her breasts, and he paused to glance down. He smirked, looking cocky and vain as if he’d always known he could get her into his bed.

“Very nice, Miss Fogarty.”

“Thank you,” she replied, not certain what other remark would be appropriate.

“You’re very shapely.”

“I’m glad you think so.”

“I like a curvaceous woman.”

“Well…good.”

“And since I’m about to make you mine, I will call you Georgina from now on.”

“All…right,” she stammered.

She didn’t want to be on familiar terms with him, but considering he was staring at her naked bosom, it was probably silly to protest.

“You may call me Damian, but only when we’re alone. When we’re out in public, or in front of the servants, I’ll need you to stick with Mr. Drummond.”

“Will I receive the same courtesy? Will I be Miss Fogarty when others are present?”

“No. From here on out, you’ll be Georgina to me. I won’t care who’s listening.”

He bent down and sucked a nipple into his mouth. Once previous, he’d done it to her so she knew it could transpire, but still it was very wicked and she wasn’t prepared.

For a long while, he licked and nuzzled until she felt that strange pressure building inside her where she worried she might explode. Gradually he was drawing up the hem of her gown. She might have attempted to stop him, but he’d never heed her.

His torso was wedged between her thighs, and he was being very rough, almost as if he was furious with her. She couldn’t figure out why he would be. He hadn’t wanted a mistress, but he was an adult. He could have refused, but he hadn’t. Why be so grouchy about it?

She thought they were about to engage in marital conduct, the kind of secret behavior only husbands and wives were supposed to perform. The act was unusual and mysterious, and while she hadn’t spent much time wondering what it would be like, she had always assumed it would be a tad romantic.

“Mr. Drummond?” she said. “Damian?”

Her use of his Christian name halted him. “What, Georgina?”

“You’re angry.”

“No, I’m not.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, I’m sure.”

“You don’t appear to be enjoying yourself.”

“I don’t…what?”

“I want you to like it, and you don’t seem happy.”

He studied her forever, then chuckled. “I’m happy, Georgina. I’m delighted you’re here with me.”

“Are you?”

“Yes. I’ve been thinking about you all day.”

The comment stunned her. “What a perfectly lovely thing to say.”

“At the moment, I’m irked that you barged in, but I’ll get over it.”

“Do you promise?” She smiled and shook her head. “I forgot. You never promise.”

“You’re learning fast. Now cease your chatter and let me return to business.”

“I’ve never done this before. Can’t you at least try to make it pleasant?”

He snorted with amusement. “I didn’t realize you were finding it
un
pleasant. I’ll work harder to be certain you like it.”

He began kissing her again, his hands busy with her breasts. His loins were pressed to hers, and he was flexing into her, the rhythm satisfying and electric. Her body was weeping with ecstasy. She was perched on the edge of a thrilling precipice.

Suddenly he touched her between her legs, flicking his thumb across a sensitive spot she’d never noted prior. She exploded—as she’d been worrying she might. A wave of stupendous bliss washed over her, and she soared to the heavens, flying up and up until she reached a sort of peak. Then she tumbled down.

When she landed at the bottom, aghast and sated and dazzled beyond measure, he was grinning, preening.

“I take it that’s never happened to you in the past,” he said.

“What was it?” she demanded.

“It was passion and a very fine example of it too.”

“Am I…I…with child now?”