Heart's Debt (Lost Lords Book 5) (22 page)

D
amian was sitting at
the desk in the estate agent’s office. He glanced over to see Kit enter.

“I have to talk to you,” Kit said.

Damian tried not to tarry in the room. The spot left him sad and furious, and he loathed the memories that were dredged up, loathed having his old rage bubble to the surface, so it was the very worst time for Kit to talk about any subject.

“I’m not in the best mood,” he replied. “Can’t it wait?”

“No, it can’t.”

Damian sighed and waved Kit to the chair across. They stared, but Kit was unable to begin, and Damian finally snapped, “Well? Get on with it.”

“I’ve always been grateful to you.”

“Oh, sweet Jesu, I’m too irritated for more of that nonsense today.”

“I
am
grateful.”

“Yes, yes, fine. You’re grateful.”

“I’ve always stood your friend, and now I need you to stand as mine.”

“For pity’s sake, Kit. What is it? Just spit it out.”

“I will, but you have to promise you won’t be angry.”

“I haven’t heard what it is so I can’t promise that.” He made a rolling motion with his finger, urging Kit to hurry. “Tell me what it is before I fall asleep listening to your excuses.”

“I’ve asked Sophia Marshall to marry me,” Kit blurted out with no warning.

“You…what?”

“I proposed to Sophia, and she’s agreed to be my wife.”

Damian was stunned by the announcement. “Why would you?”

“I like her.”

“So? You’ve tumbled women from London to Australia. There’s nothing special about her. In fact, she’s annoying and quite spoiled. Tumble her too and get her out of your system.”

“It won’t work.”

“Why won’t it?”

“Because I don’t think I’ll ever grow bored with her.”

“You’re smitten?” Damian sneered. “Is that what you’re claiming?”

“More than smitten.”

Damian glared, his mind awhirl with what his reaction should be. The rational response was to offer his congratulations, to wish him happy, but he’d never been very rational.

Kit knew him better than anyone in the world except Anne Blair. Kit had been there as Damian persevered through years of adversity. His driving motivation had been to stay alive, and that motivation had been fueled by his hatred of the Marshall family. Kit was aware of how badly a betrothal would wound Damian, yet he’d proceeded in spite of the rift it would cause.

Damian could never overlook such a hideous insult, and that’s how he viewed it. Kit had forged ahead, not caring in the slightest that Damian would feel betrayed and grievously affronted.

“Am I supposed to declare that it doesn’t matter?” Damian inquired.

“No, I understood it would upset you.”

“Upset me!” Damian hissed and rose to his feet. “Brother, you have no idea.”

“I’m asking you to consider it from my perspective. I’m asking you to take some time, to let the news settle in.”

“I don’t need
time
.”

“Damian, what have I always wanted? Since I was a boy, what is it?”

“You wanted to marry and have a home of your own.”

“Yes, and now I can.”

“But with
her!
With the one woman in the kingdom who would offend me beyond measure?”

“How can it signify if I wed her? You’re leaving soon anyway, and I’ll remain at Kirkwood to run the place for you. If she’s my bride, you’ll never be here to witness it.”

“You assume that makes it all right? I won’t be here so you can hurt me in the worst way possible? Why don’t you pull out a pistol and shoot me? A fatal blow to the heart couldn’t distress me more than you already have.”

“Don’t be melodramatic,” Kit scoffed.

“You think this is melodrama? You think I’m overreacting?”

“Yes, I think you are.”

Damian pounded his fist on the desk and yelled, “Don’t you know anything about me?”

“I know plenty.”

“Then how could you not comprehend how this would kill me? Again Kit, take out your pistol and shoot me dead.”

“Would you lower your voice? I won’t participate in a shouting match.”

“Why is that? You constantly tell me you’re
so
fucking grateful. Some gratitude this is, you disloyal cur.”

“I’ve never been disloyal to you. Not once.”

“So it’s fine to start now?”

There was an ink pot next to his hand, and he grabbed it and flung it across the room. It shattered quite effectively, ink flowing down the wall and staining the floor. He realized he was throwing a tantrum, and he hated that he was. But he was just so troubled by being back at Kirkwood.

How could he not have suspected how difficult it would be? He was so tough and imposing that he always thought he could control the universe, could bend any law of physics so the Earth turned in his direction and no other.

He didn’t want to be angry at Kit, didn’t want to bellow and call him names, but he couldn’t desist. He felt as if he was out of his body, floating above the horrid scene or perhaps watching some other hapless oaf rage at his best friend.

“Dammit, Damian,” Kit scolded. “Look at the mess you made.”

“Bugger the mess.”

“The maids will have to clean up after you. You’re behaving like a spoiled toddler.”

“What if I am? It’s my bloody farm. If I decide to toss an inkpot, I bloody well will.” To underscore his point, he swished his arm over the desktop, sending everything flying.

Through the entire quarrel, Kit had been sitting, but he stood too. He began picking up papers, straightening them, putting them on the desk. The sight of him, so unruffled and composed, infuriated Damian as naught had in ages.

“You’re not my nanny, Kit. Leave it.”

“I’ve always taken care of you, Damian. I won’t stop simply because you’re determined to act like a lunatic.”

“I
am
a lunatic. I’m not acting.” He gestured to the door. “Pack your bags and get off my property.”

“What? No, I won’t.”

“If you are so desperate to marry that girl, be my guest, marry her. But I won’t allow you to stay here and rub it in my face.”

“You need me. Don’t be an idiot.”

“I was doing you a favor by giving you this job, but guess what? Estate agents are a penny a dozen. I’ll hire someone else.”

“That’s not fair.”

“Who said the world was ever fair? You were arrested with me. You were on that prison ship with me. You survived the Boys’ Camp for Incorrigibles at Botany Bay. You lived to tell the tale, and you have the gall—the unmitigated gall!—to whine about the world not being fair? That
I
am not being fair?”

“I did survive with you. I did live to tell the tale. I was there with you every step of the way. We vowed revenge to those who harmed you.”

“Yes, and the number one person who
harmed
me was Miles Marshall, and you plan to wed his sister. There is no greater insult you could have leveled. Now pack your things and go.” Kit hovered, and Damian roared, “Go!”

Yet Kit was unaffected by the command. Coolly he said, “I’ll return in a few days, and I’m sure you’ll have calmed down.”

“I will never calm down. Not about this.”

“I know you well, remember? You won’t remain angry for long.”

“If that’s what you suppose, then you’re a bigger fool than I always deemed you to be.”

Kit shrugged. “I hope to see you soon and that you’ll have changed your mind.”

“I wouldn’t count on it.”

“It would be stupid to wreck our friendship over a woman.”

“
Touché,
Kit. It’s stupid of you to wreck our friendship over a woman. Goodbye.”

Kit spun and left, and Damian eased down in his chair.

Georgina was walking down
the deserted hall, approaching the estate agent’s office, when shouting erupted from inside the room. She stumbled to a halt.

Without a doubt, she shouldn’t eavesdrop, but it was Mr. Drummond and Mr. Roxbury who were arguing. With each passing minute, she was more fascinated by Mr. Drummond and dying to learn a few pertinent details. But he was so taciturn and reticent he wouldn’t provide even the smallest smidgen of information.

She’d never have a better chance to uncover his secrets than when he was quarreling. She crept closer, tiptoeing, but she immediately recognized her folly. Why, oh, why had she listened to them?

Mr. Drummond was irate and yelling at Mr. Roxbury. “You were arrested with me. You were on that prison ship with me. You survived the Boys’ Camp for Incorrigibles at Botany Bay. You lived to tell the tale, and you have the gall—the unmitigated gall!—to whine about the world not being fair…”

Georgina was so shocked she clapped a palm over her mouth so she wouldn’t gasp aloud. They were felons? They’d been transported to the penal colonies in Australia?

She struggled to fill in the missing pieces of Mr. Drummond’s life. Walter Drummond had perished in London, and Mr. Drummond had had to fend for himself. Apparently he’d done it through criminal enterprise.

What offenses had they committed? How serious were the charges? Were they robbers or murderers? Were they highwaymen? What misdeeds could they have perpetrated that would have ended in such a horrid fashion?

While Mr. Roxbury was normal and pleasant, Mr. Drummond oozed hazard and peril. She could envision him involved in terrible transgressions for which he’d have to be punished. Her spirits sank.

Though she was embarrassed to admit it, she’d begun to like him very, very much. He wasn’t like any man she’d ever met. He seemed attracted to her too, intrigued by her, and he understood her as others never had. For a woman who’d never had anyone pay attention to her, it was a heady experience.

What was she to think? Why was he in England? Had he served his time? Or was he wanted by the law and on the run? Was he dangerous? She absolutely thought he might be. There was a hint of lethal fury bubbling just below the surface. What if it was unleashed while he was at Kirkwood? Who would be safe?

She had to get out of there, had to sneak off without them knowing she’d been in the hall, but before she could move Mr. Roxbury stormed out and bumped into her.

“Excuse me, Miss Fogarty,” he said. “I didn’t see you there.”

“Don’t worry about it. There’s no harm done.”

“If you were hoping to speak to Damian, I wouldn’t bother. He’s in a mood.”

With that warning delivered, he marched off, and Georgina dithered, not certain if she should slink away or proceed into the room.

Inside there was a loud crash, a glass shattering, then silence. She eased over and peeked in. The place was a mess. Papers had been strewn across the floor, and the ink jar had been thrown against the wall.

Mr. Drummond was seated behind the desk, a decanter of whiskey open next to him. Evidently he’d poured a libation, but instead of downing the contents, he’d hurled the glass at the stove in the corner. He picked up the decanter and drank directly from it.

“What the hell are you looking at?” he asked, glaring at her.

“I’m simply…checking on you.”

“I’m just dandy, Georgina. Now get your shapely ass out of here.”

“You have no reason to talk to me like that.”

“If you don’t like my tone, don’t dawdle and gawk at me like an idiot.”

In other circumstances, she probably would have stomped out, but their gazes locked, and for a quick instant his defenses were down. She saw raw melancholy, incredible loneliness, despair, grief, and rage. But as swiftly as she noted it all, he smoothed his features as if he’d never been upset a single second.

How did he do that? How did he hide his true feelings? It had her wondering if he’d ever acted on the stage. How else could he have acquired such an ability to shield what he didn’t want others to observe?

Though he’d likely pretend he hadn’t been fighting with Mr. Roxbury, she was suffering from the worst urge to comfort him, and she wasn’t about to leave him when he was in such a state. She couldn’t exactly describe their relationship, but she assumed they were friends. It almost seemed as if he belonged to her, as if it was her role and responsibility to make him feel better.

She entered and went over to him, resting a hand on his shoulder.

“What’s wrong?” she asked.

“Nothing.”

“You were quarreling with Mr. Roxbury.”

“Yes, I was.”

“Why?” He didn’t answer, and she said, “Tell me. I’m a good listener. Maybe I can help.”

He stared up at her, his dark eyes riveting. Again, for a moment, his soul was bared, and she was drowning in the swirl of conflicted sentiment he’d allowed her to view. Again it was hastily concealed.

He pulled her onto his lap, and then he was kissing her like a wild beast. The wrath that had built up when he was shouting at Mr. Roxbury was set free, and though it was strange, the intensity was actually very thrilling. She hadn’t known ardor could be so fierce, that there could be such a severe element to it.

She did her best to match his ferocity. He needed something from her, to give her some of the ire that was teeming inside him. Perhaps by participating she could absorb some of his temper and ease his woe, but the encounter rapidly spiraled beyond what she’d expected.