Hide Yourself Away
ALSO BY MARY JANE CLARK
Do You Want to Know a Secret?
Do You Promise Not to Tell?
Let Me Whisper in Your Ear
Close to You
Nobody Knows
Nowhere to Run
MARY JANE CLARK
ST. MARTIN’S PRESS
This is a work of fiction. All the characters and events portrayed in this book are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.
HIDE YOURSELF AWAY. Copyright © 2004 by Mary Jane Clark. All rights reserved. Printed in the United States of America. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles or reviews. For information, address St. Martin’s Press, 175 Fifth Avenue, New York, N.Y. 10010.
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Clark, Mary Jane Behrends.
Hide yourself away / Mary Jane Clark.
p. cm.
ISBN 0-312-32313-1
EAN 978-0312-32313-4
1. Women television journalists-Fiction. 2. Internship programs-Fiction.
3. Newport (R.I.)-Fiction. I. Title.
PS3553.L2873H53 2004
813′.54-dc22
2004046894
First Edition: July 2004
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And again, for Elizabeth and David.
And for all those who struggle with Fragile X syndrome,
the most common inherited form of mental impairment.
Please, God. Let us find a treatment or cure.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
The Ocean State.
I have been in love with Rhode Island since attending URI in the seventies. It’s a state like no other, small in size, but large in atmosphere, history, and heart. As I returned again and again over the years, taking my children to Newport in the summertime, my Rhode Island connection only intensified. The sky was bluer there, the water sparkled more, the clean, crisp air wrapped itself around us, soothing us, renewing us.
So it only stood to reason that I would want to write a story that takes place in the setting that has blessed me with so many lifelong friends and happy memories.
Hide Yourself Away
is my valentine to Rhode Island.
Designing the valentine took help, of course. Now, here are Cupid’s arrows to those people who helped along the way.
Jen Enderlin, editor extraordinaire, was key from beginning to end of this endeavor. It was Jen who suggested at the outset that the KEY News interns should be in competition, and it was Jen who broke the news that my original ending needed more
work and gave me the time to get it done. To Jen and the enthusiastic team at St. Martin’s Press … Sally Richardson, Matthew Shear, Ed Gabrielli, John Murphy, John Karle, Kim Cardascia, and Anne Twomey, my sincere thanks. And to copy editor Susan M. S. Brown, my gratitude for fine-tuning the prose and picking up those mistakes.
Susan Henderson, Preservation Society of Newport County docent, gave a fascinating tour of The Elms, offering insights on what life was like for the servants who staffed the fabulous mansion. Pointing out dumbwaiters and silver trunks large enough to stash a human body, Susan’s backstairs tour provided some of the original grist for this mind’s twisted mill.
Michelle Pin Seymour generously shared her idea and experience of having a tattoo engraved on her foot. Michelle’s motive became the same as the character’s in the book, as a loving tribute.
Anglophile Linda Lee Karas gave me pointers on what my character from Great Britain might think and how she would express herself. Leeb, you’re “brilliant.” Other CBS News allies helped as well. Michael Bass, B.J. D’Elia, Deborah Rubin, and Rob Schafer each came through with the fine points I needed.
Moral support and kindness poured in from many quarters. Liz Flock provided sympathetic companionship and a fabulous retreat in Maine, a perfect place to get focused and start writing. As the deadline loomed, Elizabeth Kaledin soothed and bolstered this worried author over many afternoon phone calls.
Louise Albert, Joy Blake, and Cathy Haffler took over that task at night.
The Web site continues, with Colleen Kenny at the helm. Thank you, Col, for your creativity and devotion to
www.maryjaneclark.com
.
Laura Dail, the world’s most committed agent, offered her own, quite valuable, editorial observations in addition to her almost daily attention to my writing career. I know I am so very lucky to have Laura as my champion.
Every writer should be blessed with an independent editor like Father Paul Holmes but, unfortunately, there is only one of him. He is my treasured writing coach, offering his wisdom and keen insights, propping me up every step of the journey. There is no doubt in my mind that heaven sent Father Holmes my way.
My parents, Doris and Fred Behrends, and sister, Margaret Ann, continue to root for me and love my children, always looking out for their welfare. Knowing that they back me up enables me to get the writing done.
And now, it’s finished. Till the next time, I don’t have to hide myself away anymore.
PROLOGUE
He wanted to have the light on, but she was just as glad that wasn’t a possibility. Any illumination coming from the playhouse windows would beckon one of the staff to come and investigate.
He also wanted to have some music and had brought along his cassette player, but she insisted on silence. They couldn’t risk the noise traveling out into the soft, night air. The only undulating rhythm coming from within the cottage this night would be the slow, steady rocking of their bodies.
She lay on her back on the wrought-iron daybed, thinking of the youngsters who had napped on the mattress. She strained at every cricket’s chirp and skunk’s mournful whine from the field outside. She wondered if there were animals in the condemned tunnel that ran beneath the playhouse. She hoped not, since that was their predetermined escape route should they ever need it.
She was having a difficult time letting herself go. He was having no such problem. He was well into things. It was just as he was becoming frenzied that she heard the voice outside the cottage.
“Good Lord, it’s Charlotte,” she hissed as she pushed him away.
They scrambled to collect their clothes. He grabbed his cassette player as she slid aside the wooden panel in the floor. Into the darkness they lowered themselves, sliding the trapdoor shut just as the playhouse door above them opened.
The cold, hard dirt floor of the tunnel pressed against their bare feet.
“What are you waiting for?” he whispered. “Let’s go.”
“I’m getting dressed right here,” she said. God only knew what was in this tunnel, and she would feel a hell of a lot better if she were clothed as they made their way to the water at the other end.
They sorted their clothes by feel and dressed in the blackness as muffled voices came from above.
“Who’s that with her?” he asked.
“I can’t tell.”
Slowly they began to walk, arms outstretched to the tunnel walls, feeling their way out to safety. She stifled a scream as she felt something brush her leg. A raccoon? A rat? God was punishing her for her sinfulness.
Eventually, the waters of Narragansett Bay glistened from the opening at the end of the tunnel. They stepped up their pace, the moon providing scant but precious light. As they reached their goal, he stopped.
“Crap.”
“What’s wrong?”
“My wallet. It must have slipped out of my pants pocket.”
“Oh, sweet Jesus.”
He grabbed her hand. “Don’t worry, let’s keep going. Maybe they won’t see it.”
“I’m going back for it.” She was adamant.
“Tomorrow. You can get it tomorrow,” he urged.
She wished she could follow him out, but she knew she wouldn’t sleep all night knowing that his wallet might give them away.
“You go ahead. Go home,” she said.
“I’ll go back with you,” he offered.
“No. You have to get off the property. They can’t know you were here. You have to go. Now.”
“All right, but I’ll see you tomorrow.”
She swallowed as she watched him dart along the shoreline and disappear into the darkness. Taking a deep, resolute breath, she turned and stepped back inside, feeling gingerly against the side of the tunnel. Her fingers brushed against the hard-packed dirt and old brick, cold and clammy to the touch. She imagined what it must have been like for the slaves, running for their lives through this tunnel, inhaling deep breaths of the damp, musty smell that filled her nostrils now. Had they had lanterns to light their way? Or had they tapped blindly along in the blackness, not sure what was in front of them but willing to risk it, knowing only what horrors they had left behind?
When she estimated she must surely be close to the ladder that led up to the playhouse, her hand receded into a large indentation
in the wall. Pieces of earth broke away as she pushed against it. Her pulse quickened. Was the old tunnel safe? Could it collapse and trap her inside? Would anyone ever find her?
She prayed. If she got out of this one, she vowed she would never, ever go to the playhouse again. No matter how much he wanted her to, this was the last time. She promised.
She pushed on, sniffling quietly in the darkness.
Until she tripped over something and fell to her knees. Her breath came in short, terrified pants, her heart pumped against her chest wall as her hand groped over the form. It was covered with a smooth fabric of some sort, and it was large and intractable.
A human body, still warm, but lifeless.
She had had this feeling before, but only occasionally, in dreams. The urge, the ache, the need to scream, but somehow being frozen, unable to utter a sound. She pushed back from the body and cowered against the tunnel wall, trembling in the darkness.
Later, she would realize that she had been there for only moments, but then it seemed an eternity, the terrified thoughts spinning through her mind. She should go get help. She should summon people from the big house. But she couldn’t. She wasn’t supposed to have been here at all, and she was mortified at the thought of having to explain her forbidden tryst.
And, even worse, what if they blamed her? What if they thought she had committed murder? She was rocking on her
haunches, trying to soothe herself, when she heard the grating sound. The door was sliding open overhead.
She clamped her eyes tight, sure that this was the end. The murderer was coming to get her, too.
Instead, something fluttered from above, hitting her head, grazing her face. A piece of paper? A card?
She listened, shaking but undetected, as the door slid closed again.
Fourteen Years Later
The mining lamps that dotted the tunnel were powered by a generator, but that was one of the few nods to technology. The work was being done painstakingly, by hand. Just as the tunnel had been dug more than a century and a half before, human beings, not machines, scraped the clay and mortared the old red bricks now. Special care was being taken, inch by inch, foot by foot, to make sure that the walls were sturdy and firm. When the job was completed, thousands of tourists and historians and students would have the opportunity for the first time to walk the path American slaves had trod on their desperate flight to freedom. This tunnel had to be safe.
“We’ve got a soft spot here,” called an expert mason, his words echoing against the walls of the underground passage.